Hello dearies. ..thanks for your wonderful comments. ..so we know that SwaSan share a painful past. ..now we will see what happened. ..first we will have Swara ' s pov and then Sanskaar. ..hope you enjoy.
CHAPTER 6
The aroma of coffee pulled Swara out of her trance. She had almost forgotten about the coffee and had been standing near the stove quite distracted. She turned off the stove and started pouring the coffee into 2 cups - one for her and one for Rishi. She had seen him standing in the balcony. They had things to talk about an this was the perfect time. The elders and the servants were all asleep.
As she was pouring the coffee into the cups Ragini entered the kitchen. She had come to take water.
"You are still awake? It was such a tiring day. What were you doing? Talking to Laksh?" Swara asked.
Ragini nodded blushing. Swara couldn't help pulling her leg.
"You didn't sleep yet either Di and you were the one working the whole day. Oh. You are making coffee for Jeeju. "Ragini replied.
"Yes. I have to go to office tomorrow. So I thought I might as she spend some time with Rishi now. "Swara said.
"Do you love him Di? " Ragini asked.
Swara looked at her shocked. But the next minute Ragini laughed.
"Of course you do. Sorry Di. I blush every time you say Laksh 's name. You were pulling my leg. So I thought maybe I can make you blush by asking that. But no. You got upset. "She said .
"I have known Rishi for years. Why would I blush on hearing his name? And then you know me. " Swara said looking away from her. Then she left the kitchen with the cups.
Ragini had asked the question casually. But the the effect it had on Swara was tremendous. The first thought she had was that perhaps see Sunny after so many years she had betrayed some sign which made Ragini feel she didn't love Rishi. It was the truth. She didn't love Rishi.
Rishi was a very important part of her life. Her best friend but not her love. They knew each other too well. Rishi had been her neighbour when she had been living in Mumbai with her mother after her parents' separation. They had studied in the same class, started learning guitar together and shared many other childhood memories. After she had shifted back to Kolkata their friendship had been restricted to a few messages from time to time. He had become a part of her life again when they had met each other in college during post graduation. Their bond had become stronger. Then destiny had played its game and their were bound to each other forever. He had been her support when she needed it the most and that had brought them closer than ever. He was her anchor.
But he still wasn't her love. Her soul mate. He was an integral part of her life but her life didn't revolve around him . She liked being with him and missed him when he was away but she didn't feel a longing or a desperate need to be with him. He could make her smile but he wasn't the reason behind the smile. What they had would have been enough if she hadn't felt all that for another person. How she wished she had never met Sanskaar!!
She placed the coffee mugs on the table and Rishi turned around at the sound. Sitting on the couch she signalled him to sit down with her .He sat down next to her taking one of the mugs.
"Reminds me of college. We used to have coffee late night during exams and when we practice late into the night. "She said.
He smiled and then said "I am worried about Ragini. "
Swara reassured him "Don't be. Laksh seems a good guy. "
He replied "Didn't Sanskaar seem a good guy? Anyway its not Laksh I was thinking about. What if Sanskaar told his family to break this engagement? And the Maheshwaris ? Are they really what Sanskaar told us they were? "
Swara took a deep breath and replied " What reason would Sanskaar give for breaking off the engagement? That he broke up with the bride's sister 5 years ago. I don't think so. Anyway the Maheshwaris care too much about their reputation to break off the engagement that easily. As for what Sanskaar told us its probably another lie. Everyone except his mother are really amiable. Even if what he said is true I don't think it will apply to Ragini. "
"I hope you are right." Rishi said. Then taking her hand he added "I am sorry you had to see him again. "
"Me too "she said.
"I don't understand. Where is his wife? "Rishi asked.
"I don't think he is married. Uttara and Laksh never mentioned a Bhabhi. I don't know what happened and I don't want to know. It won't make a difference. I am marrying you. I moved on. " Swara said and added " so if you are done thinking about my ex who from your curiosity seems yours lets talk about something else. "
Rishi smacked her mockingly.
" I am serious . I want to talk about our marriage. "She said.
She saw his face lighten up and then become sad.
"It'snot because of him "she said.
"Maybe not. We will talk about it later. I can't take anything more today. Good night Mishti. "Rishi said leaving.
Swara returned to her room. Her decision was not because of Sanskaar but Rishi would take time to accept that. After all he knew how much she loved Sanskaar and it was right to feel insecure. Why did he have to come into her life again? Hadn't he played enough 5 years ago ?
With tears in her eyes she took out the box which contained things related to them. She took out the diary. The last she had written. She turned over the pages stopping at one page
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6th August 2008
Finally I have reached Ahmedabad. Dadi, Dida and Ragu were crying so much when I left. I am missing them already and its been barely 15 hours. Dadaji came with me. He still doesn't understand why a girl should come so far from home to join a course which according to him is of no use to her. He would get me married tomorrow if he got his way. But I am not that girl. I have my dreams. Ma always told me that fulfilling your dreams is being fair to yourself.
But this wasn't exactly my dream. Itwas hers. She knew how much I love music and she always encouraged me but she also wanted me to do MBA. Like her. She wanted me to join IIM. But well that didn't happen. So I am here in the very college where she did her MBA. Thats why I chose this place. I remember her telling me "Your Dida felt that I would forget Shekhar if I stayed away from him. So she sent me to Mausi's at Ahmedabad. As if it was going to help. Its almost impossible to forget your love. "
I needed this. Ever since her death I feel suffocated at home. The sadness is too much for me. Hence I decided to come here and I already feel better.
The best part about today was the surprise I got when I saw my friend after these many years. Rishi Basu. I was going out from the hostel to look around with my roommate Anjali when someone put their hands on my eyes. I instinctively knew it was him. I hadn't expected to meet him here. Music was his passion. But his dad had insisted on his doing the course before pursuing his dreams. It felt so good to see him again. He is grown up. Very handsome. Anjali is teasing me about him. Even she likes him. He said we should go out tomorrow after class.
I like Anjali. She is sweet and loves music. She brought her keyboard along. I am liking this place already. I am waiting for tomorrow. My first at this colege.
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7th August
My day was awesome. I already have a gang. Me Anjali, Rishi, Myra and Ansh. Ansh and Myra are a couple. They are Rishi's friends. Ansh is a drummer and Myra plays the violin and writes stuff. Rishi wants to form a band. I am with him. I am happy after a long time.
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10th November
We just shifted into the house. It was hard to convince Dadi but when I told Dida that the guys are taking the top floor and we the ground floor both of which are almost independent she gave in. Rishi was right. It makes practice much easier
it was his idea. Living in different places makes practice difficult.
People like our band. Everyone says that Rishi and I sound good together. We are just waiting for opportunities to play outside college. I hope we find something soon. Anjali was teasing me all day about living with Rishi. I said she was too. But I feel good when I hear that. I have a crush on him.
What is going to happen? Is he my true love?
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Hope you enjoyed it . Next part will have SwaSan first meeting.
