Originally posted by: twila
I have absolutely no quibbles ... no disagreement at all with all that you have said above ...
you have very rightly said that he has no locus -standii... he should not be there ... his being there is wrong and making both of them Untruthful and deceptive ... this shall surely lead to trouble ... and i fully agree with you ...
but i guess his being there is a demand of the story and not based on any logic ... so we shall have to lump it even when we do not like it ... and there is nothing that can be done about it ..(a)
I am not angry at Kumud ... it is just that i did not like the tone and tenor of that long convo that they had to explain her Standpoint yesterday ... the dialogues ... the lines ... the way CVs showed her expressing her stand did not gel with me ..(b). the whole sequence was although quite powerful in terms of dramatic impact , but it left me a bit disturbed keeping in view the truth revelations in the Wednesday episode.
After the truth revelation , what i had expected to see was some kind of change in Kumud's behaviour and response towards Saras ... I expected her to be a bit more Understanding ... more considerate ... to be a bit mindful of the extraordinary situation that had forced him to make that Fatal Call...
What i had hoped to see was some kind of a common sharing of their Grief and Sorrows... of the Pain that both of them were feeling and undergoing due to this strange twist of fate ... of being there for him and understanding his pain too ... otherwise what was the whole point of the Truth revelation in any case ...
Instead what we got was that Kumud was in someways negating all that was there between them ... all that they had shared ... as if that entire phase of Ratna Nagri was of no importance ... had no Value for her ... as if their Love was of no importance and had no Value for her...(c) this was the impression that i got from that whole sequence ... and this is what i did no like .
I understand that she has decided to close that chapter of her life ... is going to give her all to the new life and new circumstances ... but why should that mean that she must negate her earlier life and treat her Love for Saras as of no value ... it should not mean the denigration of his Love ...of their Love ... the non acceptance of the Love that they shared ...of all that they shared ...all that had happened between them in Ratna Nagri ...
I do not know whether i have been able to express what i wanted to see ...the reactions that i hoped to see from Kumud after knowing the Truth ...
but what we saw was the same Kumud of the pre revelation episode ... there was no change in her thought process ... no change in her attitude ... she was still making all those snide remarks about he being weak , while she is the strong one ( those lines of how she made the decision of Marraige in full " Hosho-hawaas ...and not due to Zazbaat " unlike him ... and then that " Main Apni Kamzoriyon ki Sazaa Doosron ko Nahin deti " or something on the same lines )... These are not the lines that one says to one's beloved,one's soulmate ...Knowing fully well that he is hurting too... that his whole life has also been completely ruined ,still she keeps on twisting the dagger deeper into his heart ...and while all this lashing out at him was fine till two days back... but now continuing in the same vein despite knowing the truth does not seem to be right considering the depth of their love.
What i had hoped for was a Kumud grieving for him too after knowing the truth... of indicating that she could understand his plight...after all , all her Love can not be put behind closed Shutters so easily ... can not be closeted away so completely ...but she continued to hurl slingshots of taunting remarks at him... Hurting him ...hitting him at his weakest spot .
and as i said above ... the whole tone and tenor was not right for me... that whole justification of Family's Izzat ...sacrifice for the sake of siblings ... the whole thing came off as trying to be all " Mahaan " ... all Sacrificing Mahaan Kumud ... I guess her attitude throughout came as a bit too Self Righteous for my liking...
So it was still the Strong Kumud standing tall and Upright bravely taking all the troubles of her family on her shoulders... while Saras was the weakling who had failed on all fronts and was the loser...
while what i had hoped to see was two Soulmates sharing their Pain and Sorrow...(d) ... though seperated on the outside due to the vicissitudes of Fate or Destiny , but still bound together by the deepest of bonds at the deepest of levels.
Hoping , i have been able to put across the reasons for my disappointment .