Be strong now, b'coz things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever. She sat outside the rented place in the garden under the tree contemplating what all disasters her life has done to her.
Ayaan and Nikhat were her friends infact the ones who knew her in and out like a book. She didn't love Asad anymore he had hurt her so much in the past but then why her heart contracted when he smiled through his heart, why does she experience erratic breaths whenever he comes closer to her? .
Too many questions for a tainted mind to answer. But maybe she still felt for him there was a bit hatred mixed with a large amount of fear filled in her heart for him due to his proposal.
Even if she keeps the hatred aside and except his changed self the fear won't leave her in peace. The fear of getting betrayed, the fear of getting used and then thrown away was the main force holding her back from accepting his proposal.
It had been two days and a day left before Najma and Imraan's honeymoon after which they'll all have to leave and probably she wouldn't ever meet him again. Yet even after so much her heart shrinked at the thought of going back and never meeting again.
She got up to leave but her pricked feet gave her a shooting pain and she shrieked in agony. Before any other of her action a hand held her foot upwards Zoya opened her eyes to see his face and stumbled back.
''Leave my foot !...'' she said angrily.
''You're hurt. ..just let me place your bandage back and then you can go...'' Asad pleaded.
''For how long have you been invading my privacy Mr. Asad Ahmed Khan? !'' Zoya asked sarcastically.
''I was. ..just passing by...and I heard so...''
He reasoned.
''Quit lying!..it won't work on me ...''
She said and got up to go inside.
''Then why can't you see through me when I tell you a truth which can never be a lie even when our existence becomes a facade. ''
He asked with intensity.
''Some of the lies are always disguised as truths and when you're taken away from your infatuation you basically die once, twice, thrice the numbers are infinite. ..''
She completed and turning away from him left from the scene limping.
: Night had fallen quite beautifully leaving a spooky landscape every where near. Zoya sat out on the grass in the garden looking at the stars which shone brightly. It was only this night, just this one night and she'll be free from all the pain. Yet she felt so small, her heart contracting in a peculiar manner.
Sitaare tho aasman mein bohtere hain...
Par kya karen hume tho sirf apne chand ka intezaar hai. ..
Sau janam lekar bhi iss chand ko agar na paaun.
Tho ek din maut ki god mein let kar khuda se tumko apni akhiri qhwahish ke taur par maang lungi
She spoke the shayari staring into the space when she saw Ayaan sitting beside her. He didn't say anything and she never intended to start. After the comfortable silence Zoya looked at him for a moment.
''What should I do Ayaan? ...I'm tired of thinking. '' Zoya sighed.
Ayaan took a deep breath closed his eyes for a second and with a firm look started to speak.
''You've been through so much..so much yet you love him its pretty obvious you have lost your heart to him Zoya. I can't guide you anymore because I'm too preoccupied myself with all the confusing events taking place but listen to me. Do what your heart wants you to do, listen to your heart and go in the direction it takes you in. But please do yourself and Asad justice! ''
After saying that he got up and left Zoya in the garden.
It was 1:00 in night and everyone except Nikhat, Ayaan, Asad and Zoya were sleeping peacefully.
''Ayaan do you think Zoya will talk to Asad?''
Said Nikhat.
''I don't think so...she can be firm and stubborn at times and no one can't persuade her...''
Replied Ayaan.
''You don't know anything you dunderhead, she'll talk. I know !''
Zoya sat there with her diary reading out her own poems and reliving all the past through those. The pain never went away it was just hidden somewhere inside her, locked in a casket.
Yet the tears never faded away. She'd been trying to hide everything very efficiently and had been succeeded too, till an extend. After a lot of consideration she has concluded that her love for Asad was ubiquitous along her but the terror wasn't leaving her.
''Zoya. ..''
She heard him call her from behind and the time stood still for several minutes. The sound of the winds and singing of the insects could be heard. But before he could speak further she turned on her heals to go inside.
''Just five minutes! ...please? ...I'm going in the morning back to ...''
She nodded.
''Zoya. ..Zo I just wanted to say sorry for everything. For what happened before, for what happened years ago. I was a stupid kid okay? ...I ...I liked you for sometime as a friend. ..I don't know what occurred to me that time i'm sorry for getting you to love me and then leaving you. I'm sorry every pain I've inflicted on you. ..''
He finished with a sigh of agony and then turned to leave but before he could he heard something.
''I hate you !''
: He turned back in shock and locked his bloodshot eyes with hers which were pretty much the same. He hated seeing her like this, it killed him to do so.
''I hate you...you've ruined my life like a moth does to clothes. Why the hell did you come back I'd learned to live without you but no you had to come again in my life like a cyclone.You've got to Break everything that I construct . Do you even know ki mujhpar kya beeti hai itne saal ?. From past eight years main roz yahi koshish krti hun ki tum mujhe kabhi yaad na aao...par..har baar ...''
She spoke with a fierce willpower and pain that it was enough to be saddened in a minute for Asad.
''I'm in love with you Zoya !...'' He spoke while looking down.
''Huh! ...just like eight years back ?. Abhi pyaar krte ho jb mann bhar jayega tho phirse dost bna kr chhor doge haina !?''
She said
''Mai pyaar krta hun tumse, I love you! ...jaise ki tum krti aarhi ho pichle aath saal se...!''
He spoke while looking into her eyes while she stared at him with angered eyes.
''I Hate you !''
She yelled at him.
''Why did you come backjust why? .why? Why? ...''
She held his collar and and pulled him down along with her crying badly. After a few mins or maybe hours he spoke lightly.
''I love you Zoya. I really do and this time I can cross my heart on what I'm saying because I'm not a 17 year old teenager anymore and I'm in love with you so much !''
''You're speaking the truth ?. Or should I expect another heartbreak ? ''
She said wiping her tears.
''No I love you, you've got to trust. ..did you just say yes ?!''
He asked hopefully.
''No I Hate you very very much !. But I love you. ..more than you can to me and I'm not going to waste another eight years of my life to accept the fact that I'm incomplete without you. ..''
She spoke.
''I love you so so much. I'm sorry for what I've been. ..I promise to be with you till the end of the life. ..''
He said.
''Dude is it done? ...actually our legs are kinda hurting from standing here so long! ''
The duo heard Imraan speak like he's about to faint any moment.
Every one came out from behind the big bush thing in the garden and laughed heartily . While Nikhat who was in tears looking at the two lovers. Ayaan stepped forward and gave Zoya a brotherly hug feeling the comfort in her for the first time in eight years.
And now nothing else mattered to Zoya anymore. She had everyone and everything in place just where they had to be. Friends, love, life were all well wishers for now what really mattered was this old self of her that she found again, which was lost somewhere in the sadness.
Every thing was just the way it had to be.
Every thing was perfect.
And will be For All Eternity !!...
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