Misha watched, frozen in a kind of fascinated horror, as she stared back at the monsterized version of her sister. Her stomach turned as she thought how much she looked like Maithali then.
"P-Piya?" She said hesitantly. "It's me. You wouldn't-"
And then she saw it. Piya's eyes, her glowing blue eyes, widened. Her hands fisted into fists and she took a step back from Misha. "Get out," she bit out at Misha.
The tone was harsh, but Misha saw the pain that lanced through her sister's face. Piya was still her sister. She was warning her, trying not to hurt her.
She reached out a hand. "Piya, I-"
A growl emanated from Piya. "I told you to go!"
And then she lunged for Misha.
Misha's eyes snapped closed, but there was no pain, nothing. After several seconds, she opened her eyes.
Piya was being pinned to the side wall by Abhay, whose back was to her. They were struggling silently, but even Misha could tell Abhay was having no difficulty in keeping her restrained.
Piya snarled at him viciously. "Let me go!" He pinned her wrists above her head, and held on. "No." She struggled- yes, for a newborn, Abhay admitted she was quite strong- but she had very little on him. He stripped aside her defenses and entered her mind, fighting to make her register what was going on. Her thoughts were fuzzy with bloodlust, hazing over.
Damn. He should have come before.
She screamed now, trying to fight free, both physically and mentally, but he wouldn't allow it.
He glanced back at Misha, who was as white as a sheet. Her face registered horror.
"Misha," he said calmly. "Go to our bedroom, will you?I'll be with you in a while. Be calm, please."
Surprisingly, Misha did not argue. She simply turned and left.
Piya howled in rage and fury as she saw her prey leaving. Somehow his hold on her relaxed, and since he was the one who had deprived her of her meal, she sank her elongated teeth into his neck.
The first thought that registered was that it was the wrong blood. But even so, she could not stop. Memory after memory hit her.
A girl and a boy. Arguing outside a classroom. Smiling at each other. Dancing in a hall. Fighting viciously, with words meant to inflict pain. Kissing.
Something inside her shifted in recognition. My soulmate.
Abhay.
And then she felt his fangs piercing her neck. Some other memories were hitting her now. They were hers. Two girls. Laughing, talking. Teasing. The memories were forcefully brought to the front of her mind's eye, forcing her to relive them.
One, she knew now, was herself.The other...the other was Misha. Her sister. Her best friend.
The one she'd wanted to kill.
And just like that, the thirst subsided. She went stiff, a different kind of pain lancing her chest.
Abhay lifted his head as Piya lifted hers, going slack.
She was staring at him in wide eyed horror, the realization of what she had almost done- what she'd fought him for, to do- sinking in.
A dry sob. "No."
It was a plea for him. To twist the truth.Make it better.
But he didn't. "Yes," he said clearly. "I'm sorry."
Piya pushed away and turned her back on him. Her hands gripped the railing, stark white against black metal.
"I know how this feels," he said, keeping his voice low. "I went through it, quite a few times with you. The only difference is that you're too young. You're not used to it."
He gripped her shoulders and turned her around to face him. She refused to meet his gaze, so he tilted her chin, forcing her to look him in the eye. "Trust me, Piya," he said softly. "For a second, I actually thought you might master yourself. It was my fault. It was not yours, it was never yours. I'm the one who changed you. I should have-"
He broke off. Piya blinked. "I didn't want to feel like this," she said. His gut ached at her, sounding so lost. "Even during the wedding- not even once-"
"Reina put damping spells on you," he said, hating himself, but he vowed he would not keep this from her. "I didn't know for sure until later. And...there were no bleeding guests. Also, Piya, the thirst is more...violent when you're attached to a human. I...I know I didn't tell you before, but-"
Piya blinked, but the tears did not leave her eyes. It was Abhay who brushed them off with his thumb. "She hates me."
Abhay shook his head. "You can't know that."
"She does. Anyone would. God, I am a monster."
"More shame to me, " Abhay muttered to himself, missing the stricken look Piya flashed him at his words.
"Look," said Abhay,"Wait here. I'll talk to Misha, all right? I'm sure she won't hate you. I know it."
He brushed a kiss over her forehead and left her on the balcony, alone with her thoughts.
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Misha sat on the bed, her head reeling. She knew she was in shock. Part of her was horrified that her sister had attacked her. The other part of her felt terribly sorry for Piya, remembering her obvious struggle.
"Misha." Abhay's voice made her whip her head around to look at him. His face was stony, but his hair was slightly ruffled, giving him- Misha had to admit- a handsome, rakish look. There was a smear of blood on his chin, but Misha didn't want to think about it.
"Don't hate her."
She blinked twice as she realised who he was talking about. "Oh."
"It's not her fault," said Abhay, coming to sit on a chair at a distance from her, so she wouldn't be too uncomfortable. "She's very young in vampire terms. She's not used to dealing with thirst."
"I know," said Misha in a small voice. "She tried to warn me. I saw that, but..." She blinked, now to make the burning in her eyes go away. "It's like something's broken, between us...it won't be the same again. Piya won't be the same again, and I- I don't even know whose fault is it."
Abhay got up, took out a box, and offered her a band-aid to put over the cut. "I'm sorry," he said. "I thought Piya might...stop. It was foolish. No one in her position could have. I doubt even Dad could."
She shrugged, helplessly. "How will I even be around her? Everything is just so messed up!"
And Piya chose that moment to walk into the room.
"You know, Misha," she said quietly,"You're quite right. Maybe you should go home with Kabir. I'm sure Abhay or someone could drop you."
Misha stood up. "What's wrong with you?"
"Everything, apparently," Piya replied, her voice losing the coolness she had managed to inject into it. "I think you should leave."
"Damn, Piya, I didn't mean it like that-" Misha started to say.
"I don't care!" snapped Piya. "Just leave! It's my fault, okay? I get it! Just go!"
Abhay shook his head, resisting the temptation to bury it in his hands.
"Yes well, maybe you should show a bit of emotion!" Misha snapped back. "You're not supposed to let me go! You're supposed to tell me we'll work this out!"
"How the hell am I going to do it?" Piya raged. "How do we work this out? The psychotic bitch who wants to kill me is after your life. God, I came within an inch of killing you! You think I would have lived with that? My sister's blood on my hands?"
"I don't care!" Misha yelled right back. "Like you don't care about Abhay! You think I'm not scared? I'm bloody darn terrified! But I need you to not give up on me! Us!"
Then her lip began to tremble. "You're my best friend, Piya," she sniffled. "My best friend. Don't cut me out,please."
Neither of them were very sure who moved first, but then- in a matter of seconds- the two girls went from a raging fight to sobbing in each other's arms. (Abhay would have said it was Piya who'd moved first, though.)
"I'm going to live forever," Piya mumbled. "The more we stay close the more it'll hurt-"
"Oh shut up, vamp sis," muttered Misha. And then she pulled away. "Stop making me cry!"
Piya snickered.
"And it's blood in your mouth, not hands." Misha continued.
"Yeah, I love you too," said Piya, half laughing as she brushed back Misha's hair.
"Well, now that's sorted,ladies," said Abhay, standing up, "Maybe now Misha should go home, after all? We've told your families that you and Kabir went on a hiking trip."
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"And whose foolish plan was this?" said Haseena, pacing the room. She turned to Alina. "Which of my sons had this insane idea to go bait Maithali?"
Alina's lips twitched. "It worked, didn't it? It was Sid's,by the way . I'd suggested he distract her, but..."
Haseena glared daggers at Sid. "Are you more idiotic than I believed? You intentionally went and provoked her? Now you know she'll come after you! You do realise what she's like? She'll kill you. She's going to be out for murder now!"
Sid shrugged. "Then she'll kill me. So what? How does one disgraced vampire's death make a difference? Besides, I'm supposed to be dead by rights. I'd say I outlived myself. Not like anyone cares, right?"
Alina couldn't help turning to him, looking at him. His face was defiant as he glared back at Haseena, but somewhere , she saw the defeat in his eyes. Was he playing them again or was he so jaded that he'd just accept no one cared for his death?
"He won't be killed," she told Haseena. "Not on my watch. I've put wards around his house."
Haseena snorted. "And you are very confident, are you not, that Maithali will not be able to break them? And what about the drain on your own powers? Your house, the Dobriyals, and now Sid's? Are you even preparing for a war?"
Alina squared her chin. "I am, Haseena. And I am not weak."
"But placing the protection around the houses weakens you?" said Sid very softly.
Alina threw him a swift look.
"You are going to stay here, Siddharth," said Haseena imperiously. "You will pack your bags and come here."
"What?" said Alina and Sid together.
"No," said Sid. "Unconditionally, NO. I am not staying in this house."
"And what is wrong with that?" Haseena asked. "There is strength in numbers, surely you know that. And at least, Alina will be spared from one of the houses. I'm sure you know what an important ally she is?"
Alina considered. It did make sense...but...
Sid laughed. "Don't joke, Mom. Your son hates me." "You are my son, too," said Haseena, her features softening. "He will understand."
"And what about my dear Dad?" said Sid. "I think he might burst a vein, and then you will definitely change your mind."
Chand walked in. "The humans have left," he announced to Haseena, ignoring the other two people in the room. "What's going on?"
Haseena made an exasperated gesture. "I told Siddharth to shift here for his safety, but he just won't listen!"
"Is that so?" said Chand, turning. "Ah. I see. I did not expect you to fear your brother, but everyone must have their little...insecurities, I assume. Do not waste your time, Haseena. He is too afraid."
Sid glared at him at silence fell across the room. Alina, too , was watching Chand. His eyes were shrewd...calculating.
"Blast you," said Sid finally. "I'm not afraid." He turned to Alina. "Come with me. I'll need your help in packing."
Hiding a smile, Alina followed him out of the house. At the foyer, she turned back just in time to see the small smirk on Chand's face.
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Abhay did not go with Kabir and Misha when they left.Piya had decided to curl up in bed with a book, avoiding his gaze. He slid in next to her. "You know it's futile, don't you?" he remarked conversationally after a while. "Both of us know you're not really reading. Not unless you developed the skill of reading upside down in the short while that I was gone, which is very commendable."
Mortified, Piya hastily shifted the book to the proper position. "Leave me alone."
"Sorry, but no," replied Abhay in the same tone. "Stop trying to shut me out.It's not like you're succeeding anyway."
Piya shut the book and made to get out of the bed, but a quick tug of her arm from Abhay meant that she sat back on the wrought iron bed with an ungraceful thump, her feet not even touching the ground.
"Let me go!" She snapped, trying to maintain her calm with Abhay on top of her, inches from her face-not successfully.
"But I want to talk," said Abhay, not moving. "You haven't talked to me since we came back. Are you that angry at me?"
It took her a second to form a coherent reply, what with Abhay's hands inching up her waist and all.
"I'm not angry at you, I'm angry at myself," she snapped. "And stop that." She pushed him off her.
He propped himself up on his elbows and stared at her. "Did you know how we distracted Maithali?"
Piya blinked. He was actually telling her? She'd thought he'd blow her off the second she asked.
"Um, no?"
His eyes sparked with amusement. "Oh, good, or else you'd be bored if you heard it too many times."
He explained their fight, and how they got Misha and Kabir away, as briefly as he could, without omitting too many details.
"Wow, " said Piya, once he'd finished. "That must have been dangerous...and exciting, too. I wish I could have seen-"
She broke off.
"I wished you could have been there, too," said Abhay. "I wanted to keep you with me. "
"I shouldn't have gone anyway," said Piya morosely. "I might have ended up attacking Misha there itself."
"She would have played on your feelings, Piya," said Abhay quietly. "She might have tortured Misha and forced you to watch. She might have attacked us- and we still don't know if she should try attacking her. High Witches and Wizards are deliriously difficult to kill, and- we didn't want to take chances, not at such short notice.She's not even a proper High Witch. It could be a huge risk. Alina wasn't at her full strength either. She kept relying on help, and with humans in the fray..."
He broke off. "I'm sorry, Piya.If I'd just killed her when I'd had the chance, but-"
"I wish I could kill her," said Piya quietly. He went very still, staring down at her. Piya's eyes were burning with a cold rage that was almost scary. "For everything that she's done to you, Sid, my family...I wish I could kill her, and torture her while doing it. I would..." She turned her gaze on Abhay. "I would like to tie her up in silver chains and stake her repeatedly."
Abhay delved into her head without warning, recognizing the darkness that swirled behind her eyes. Bit by bit, he leached it out of her before she realized what was happening, and her gaze turned pleading. She was silently begging him not to judge her.
He simply kissed her head. "I don't want you to become like Natalya, Piya," said Abhay, calmly. "You know you're not like that. You don't enjoy inflicting hurt on other people."
She grimaced, but her eyes showed relief. "I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me."
"It's the Seizar," he explained, getting off the bed and pouring her a glass of blood. "It happens to new borns often, brought on by a combination of thirst and emotional instability."
She made a face as she drank it. "Nice way to say I'm going loony."
"I said emotional, not mental instability, woman," said Abhay, rolling his eyes and pouring her a second glass of blood. "I've had it a few times when I was younger."
Now, Piya's lips twitched. "Just a few?" "Yes," said Abhay firmly.
"A few."
She grinned. "Sure about that? I could always ask your mom, of course, but..."
"Fine," he grimaced. "Seven times, okay? And no more."
She smirked. "See? That wasn't so hard."
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Sid did not speak to Alina till they reached the house, so she took advantage of it to close her eyes and rest. The movements of the car lulled her to sleep, so much so that when Sid's hand on her shoulder woke her up in a hurry, she was surprised to see they had reached. She suppressed the smile on her lips as she turned to him and berated herself for letting her guard down. Idiot!What if he found out-
"Alina, do you really want to stay here?" he asked, his voice unusually gentle. "I could carry you in. You'll be more comfortable inside."
Realising that her musings had given him the wrong idea, she hastened to correct him. "Of course not. I, ah, just got carried away by my thoughts. Of course I'll come with you." She got down, and accompanied him to the door, steadfastly avoiding his gaze.
He unlocked it and went inside. "You can wait here," he told her. "I'll be back in a few minutes. Need something to drink?"
This time she did smile at him. "No, thanks. It's okay. You go pack."
When Sid had gone off to pack, she did a quick scan on his living room. A sofa. Two couches...one centre table. Nothing of interest. A large bookcase stood on one side. She went over to it, her eyes skimming through the collection without much admiration.
She pulled out a book of poetry.Hard backed and leather bound, it had several bookmarks within its pages, which struck her as slightly odd. She opened the first one, "La Belle Dame Sans Merci" by John Keats, and pulled out the bookmark, and then realised it wasn't a bookmark at all, but a rectangular sheet of of paper folded over several times to achieve the effect.
She unfolded it...to find the face of Maithali staring back at her.
Two dimensional and clearly made with pencil, Maithali's mouth was curled in a cruel smirk, her eyes narrowed. She looked beautiful...dangerous. Who'd made it?
She scanned the lines.
"And I awoke and found me here,
On the cold hill's side.
And this is why I sojourn here
Alone and palely loitering,
Though the sedge is withered from the lake,
And no birds sing."
And suddenly, Alina began rifling through the pages, pulling out one bookmark after another.
She opened the next one at "The Arrow and the Song," by H.W Longfellow.
"I shot an arrow into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For, so swiftly it flew, the sight
Could not follow it in its flight.
I breathed a song into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For who has sight so keen and strong,
That it can follow the flight of song?
Long, long afterward, in an oak
I found the arrow, still unbroke;
And the song, from beginning to end,
I found again in the heart of a friend."
A poem about the consequences of not knowing what consequences your actions might have...she had not expected Sid to mark it. But marked it was indeed, with a portrait of a woman with her face veiled, except for the eyes. Piyali, as Sid would have seen her...
But gosh, if he'd made this , and the one before...Sid was a talented artist. He'd never hinted at it...
She rifled through the pages and found "The Eyes of My Regret," by Angelina Grimke.
The picture used as a bookmark was not a single protrait, as the others had been : there were at least a dozen faces, just faces, looking out at her, rendered beautifully in pencil. A few leapt out at her : a young girl with pigtails, glasses and wearing a choker round her check : her expression were fearful and furious, all at the same time.
And then...she was shocked. A handsome man, staring defiantly out at her, his jaw set. Mikhail...he regretted that?
Her brother , Gaurav. Smiling. Abhay, finally, right at the bottom of the page. His portrait seemed the newest, judging by the sharpness of the lines.
She read the poem again, hardly believing it of Sid.
"Two eyes, unfathomable, soul-searing,
Watching, watching, watching me;
The same two eyes that draw me forth, against my will
dusk after dusk;
The same two eyes that keep me sitting late into the
night, chin on knees
Keep me there lonely, rigid, tearless, numbly
miserable -
The eyes of my Regret."
She blinked. Unbelievable.
By this time, she was extremely curious, because only one bookmark remained, that she hadn't seen yet. She opened the book to a poem entitled "My Love Is Like To Ice," by Edmund Spenser. She'd read Spenser, but not this particular poem.
My love is like to ice, and I to fire:
How come it then that this her cold is so great
Is not dissolved through my so hot desire,
But harder grows the more I her entreat?
Or how comes it that my exceeding heat
Is not allayed by her heart-frozen cold,
But that I burn much more in boiling sweat,
And feel my flames augmented manifold?
What more miraculous thing may be told,
That fire, which is congealed with senseless cold,
Should kindle fire by wonderful device?
Such is the power of love in gentle mind,
That it can alter all the course of kind.
She wondered who they were for, but just as she was unfolding the paper that had been used as a bookmark, a hand nimbly snatched both paper and book away from her.
Heart hammering, she looked up guiltily into Sid's face. His expression was stony as he tucked it back into the book and without a word, walked to a bag and packed the book into it.
"I'm sorry," she blurted out. "I didn't mean to- it was purely accidental- I didn't know-"
She broke off as he straightened to look at her. "What would you have done in my place?"
"I-" She bit her tongue. It was not a fair question. "I wouldn't leave personal items about in a place where anyone else might see them."
And now she saw it, the intense irritation in his face. "Of course," he sniped. "The great Alina R.Khurana would always take precautions into letting anyone see anything in her life that was remotely personal."
The accusation stung, in part because it was true, in part because he had no business saying it. "Rich of you," she shot back, "At least I don't keep people hanging over what they mean to me, unlike you! And I do reveal things about myself to people whom I trust," she added as an afterthought. Why she was defending herself she had no idea.
Sid nodded. "Yes. And I am not whom you could trust, am I ?"
"That's not what I-what did you call me?" she asked, suddenly suspicious.
Just like that, Sid's dark mood vanished, and he grinned. "I rile you up, don't I?" he asked. "I don't think many people have the guts to do it."
Alina gave him a rueful half-smile. "A few do. I don't let them rile me."
"But you let me." His expression was serious as he stared at her, and she fought not to lose herself into the unfathomable depths of his black eyes.
She searched for an answer, and found the one in the back of her head. She couldn't tell him that, so she lowered her gaze.
"We should leave," she said coolly.
"We should," Sid agreed. "Want a beer?" The sliver of disgust and horror passed over face she masked it with indifference. "No thanks."
He'd seen it the night he'd been sloshed, too. "Okay."
He followed her to the car, with his things. Alina stood next to the car, hugging herself. When he finished, he went up to her, to see her looking up at the stars, a strange sadness in her face. Longing. Without thinking, he put an arm around her, and drew her so that her head hit his chest. She stiffened, but he didn't relax his hold.
"Let me go," she said, and if he wasn't mistaken, her voice was breaking. Dear God, she was crying. "You looked like you needed it," he murmured, gingerly stroking her hair. It felt soft and silky under his touch: how had he not noticed it before?
She took a great, shuddering breath, and then he felt wetness through his shirt. His arms tightened convulsively around her, not understanding what he had to do to make it better, while his head went into a tailspin of horror that Alina was crying, Alina, the consummate tough girl.
What was he supposed to say? What was he supposed to do? "Please stop crying," he said at last. "If it's something I said-"
She drew away from him, swiping furiously at her eyes, but Sid hadn't let go of her yet. "No- listen," he said, forcing her to look at him. "If this is about earlier-"
She shook her head, giving a watery smile. "No. No, Sid. It's not about you. Well, some of it is, but not everything-"
He opened his mouth, then closed it again. He didn't really know what to say to that. Alina sniffed loudly, taking deep breaths as she managed to compose herself. "Sometimes..." she said finally, "Sometimes, I wish... I wish I knew what it was to live as I'd like to...to have a normal life. To have a normal family, to have normal goals...sometimes, I wish I was a clueless human. I wish I wasn't so foolish as to-"
"I'm sorry," he said, feeling miserable. "I know it's not much..but I... care for you, Alina. I care for you more than anyone else- even me. I'd do everything I could to make sure you were-"
"Do you?" she asked, looking up at him? "Why? Because I'm a powerful witch? Or because I'm an efficient employee?"
Sid smiled wryly. "You make me want to be better," he said, shrugging. "You make me believe I could be better. And I know that...you've got more secrets than anyone I know, and I know you have problems which you deal with alone- " He broke off. "Sorry. I know you don't like me very much. Nor do you trust me - this is probably all just talk to you-"
But Alina was smiling. "Thank you," she said. "Like you said, it's probably all talk. But it's nice talk, Sid. It's okay. I...care for you, too.A lot."
Sid looked shocked, then laughed. "That was funny."
"I wasn't joking," said Alina primly. "You don't trust me much either, do you?"
The laughter died away. "For real?" He shook his head. "I used to wish, maybe you'd care for me, as a person, some day...I never believed you would -"
Alina felt herself flushing. "Okay," she said, embarassed. "Look, we really should get going-"
"Right-of course," said Sid, ducking his head. He held the door open for her, then got in himself.
The car sped along silently, along the almost deserted mountain road.
"Do you know," said Alina suddenly, her voice soft. "When I was very young, I...there was a wolf in my clan. One day, there was a party in our house...I didn't like it. I stayed away from the guests...I stood alone in my garden."
Sid's hands tightened over the wheel as he saw Alina's face whiten with the memory. He forced himself to stay silent.
"He had been drinking." She could even smell it now, the smell of alcohol in his breath when he'd dragged her to him, forcefully attacking her lips.
She shuddered unconsciously. Next to her, Sid's own face had gone stony, his eyes murderous as he realised...
"There was a struggle." She paused, taking a deep breath. "He didn't- rape me. I...I went a bit insane." She gave a weak laugh. "I attacked him. Clawed, scratched,bit...ran."
He couldn't help it. His hand closed over hers, convulsively. She didn't move.
"My mother was not amused," she continued, in a whisper. "I had already become a teenager...I should have let him..."
Sid slammed the brakes, stopping the car so they were both flung forward. "That b****!"
She turned to him. "The clan voted to punish me. They decided to award me to him as a slave, to punish me as he saw fit. My mother agreed."
Her fingers finally returned his grip. "And then...and then you came. You came, and fought...you killed him. Do you remember? You killed him."
Sid's voice was little more than a whisper. "He was holding the chain...you had a choker around your neck. You were only a child..."
"You saved me then," said Alina softly. "And when you went, the clan was terrified. They'd never seen such a brutal killing before...one of them told my mother that if I had vampire protectors now...none of them would touch me. Gaurav had tried to help then, but after you killed him...he swore that if any of the clan laid a single finger on me, he'd hunt you down and forge a treaty with you to kill every last one of them. And strangely, Gaurav was...well, a lot of the clan respected him."
Sid exhaled, closing his eyes. "My mother was furious, though," she said smiling bitterly. "She found ways and means to torture me with her powers. It was a game for her, to see how long I lasted before I begged. And every time, I thought of you, coming to a stranger's aid...and I kept myself sane."
She looked up at him. "Don't you see, Sid? You don't need me or anyone else to make you a better person. You're enough for yourself."
Sid felt sick. There was no word to describe the cloying horror and anger that was rising in his gut : the impulse to go and destroy every last one of them...the shame, that he had left her in such a state...
"I am not good, Alina," he bit out. "If it were Abhay, he would have taken on the entire clan, and your mother, too. And he wouldn't have left you there...He would have done something..."
"But it wasn't," she interrupted. "Abhay wasn't there. You were. You saved me because you knew they were wrong."
He turned away in disgust and started the car again, speeding through the roads. "I should have taken you from there," he gritted out. "I should have found out everything...all I thought was that it was too unfair punishment for such a small girl. I should've killed your mother. I shouldn't have let Piya do it. I should have killed her that day. I would have made her suffer..."
Alina looked taken aback at the vehemence of his tone.
"It's all right," she said, hoping to calm him down. "It's over now. It was years ago."
Sid did not reply. He didn't say a word till they reached the house.
And even then, when he entered, he walked straight up to Chand and Haseena and told them he was going out for an indefinite period of time and . Then, without glancing back at Alina, Sid walked out, leaving her puzzled, even as the servants scurried about taking Sid's things to his room.
"Are you all right, Alina?" said Haseena. "You look a little ill."
She smiled. "No, of course not. I was hoping I could talk to Abhay and Piya? I haven't spoken to Piya yet."
"They're in their room," said Haseena.
As Alina started to climb the stairs, Haseena's voice floated after her. "Don't forget to knock!"
Which left her feeling a weird combination of jealousy, awkwardness and the strong desire to laugh.
She found the door open, with Abhay casually pouring himself a drink, while Piya stared at him from her perch on the bed.
The back of her eyelids burned and something heavy lodged in her throat. She could not describe it in words, the expression on Piya's face. Then Abhay turned and met Piya's gaze, and Alina had the impression of looking directly into the sun. Something had shifted between Abhay and Piya, making them seem strangely unreal, as though they were sharing a moment out of time.
She averted her gaze : it was blinding her. She blinked rapidly, then gave a discreet knock on the door.
The moment was broken : Abhay and Piya both turned to look at her, and Alina felt an odd pang for intruding.
"Hi," said Abhay. "You all right?"
Piya got to her feet. "Hi, Alina," she said in a slightly choked voice, which made it very clear that Piya was rather mad at her. Oh, well.
She cleared her throat. "Hi. Um, I was thinking, I'd like to talk to Piya alone for a few minutes, if that's okay."
"You could talk to me in front of Abhay," Piya snapped. "I've heard that I'm at a susceptible stage to bite people."
Alina had the mad urge to to laugh, but controlled it. "It won't be long," she said patiently. "A few minutes is all I ask."
"Okay, Alina," said Abhay. "I'll leave you two to it." He looked at Piya. "You'll call me if there's anything you need, right?" And Alina knew what it meant- Abhay would be reasonable, but he'd have Piya's back. Always.
Piya nodded. "Of course."
He nodded to the two women and left the room.
Alina came closer. "Do you mind if I sit?"
"Oh, by all means," said Piya sarcastically. "Do make yourself comfortable. You're welcome to lie down if you so wish."
Alina sighed as she sat on the armchair. "I'm sorry."
Piya crossed her arms. "About what?"
Alina raised an eyebrow. "Why don't you start? I'm sure, that way, we won't miss anything."
Piya gritted her teeth. "Well, then. Let's start with how you put enchantments on me on my wedding day. Without my knowledge."
She sat down, crossing one leg over the other, her arms firmly crossed over one another.
Alina shrugged. "It was only a precaution. In case any of the guests were injured."
"Well, too bad it lulled me into a sense of security then," said Piya caustically. "Because I almost attacked my sister today!Couldn't you have put a spell on me today?"
"No," said Alina simply. "One, I wanted you to see and experience for yourself what it felt like. Nothing would ever have happened to Misha- Abhay followed the two of you upstairs as soon as you went. I wanted you to see why we didn't want you to come with us in a situation where Misha would be cut and scraped all over. You do see now, don't you? Not, of course," she added, "That the other reasons weren't enough already."
Piya glared at her, wondering if she could get away with a bite on her. "You're a manipulative, calculating, selfish-"
"Oh, I know, trust me," said Alina, bitterly. "Reason number two : I wasn't strong enough. I expended too much of my energy healing Kabir and Misha, locating Maithali, helping to trap her...no, I wasn't strong enough."
The anger abated somewhat, but Piya's irritation refused to go away. "Is everything you do motivated by your end goal?" She said finally.
When Alina looked surprised, Piya rolled her eyes. "Oh, come on. You do have an agenda. It's more than obvious. No, what you need to answer is, are we all just pawns to you? No more than collateral damage, if any of us get in danger, or die? Did any of us matter to you?"
Alina's eyes sparked fire. "If I'd been so heartless, I wouldn't have gone to get your sister and her boyfriend back. Risking my life along the way, might I add."
"How do I know it wasn't just a means to an end?" asked Piya. "How do I know it wasn't just another way to get back at Maithali?How, Alina?"
It was a simple question, but it effectively rendered Alina speechless, because she saw the underlying fear and pain under the question. The pain of someone who felt betrayed and the fear of someone wanting to trust again.
Her anger dissolved, and she came up to Piya. "Trust me," she said earnestly. "I took up the mission to make Sid and Maithali suffer. And then, well, Sid defected, and I...emotions were never my plan. I didn't like Abhay very much. Too reckless, too stubborn. I wasn't sure if I liked you or not. You seemed too naive, too pliable, when we met. And I hated Sid. Well, just goes to show, doesn't it?" She laughed softly. "I never planned to make friends. I never planned to fall in love. But that doesn't change the fact that it happened. I care, Piya. More than I should. Emotion- any kind of weakness- is a danger to me and others. Even so-" She shrugged.
"I know how you're feeling," she said, more gently. "You're angry, at yourself, at the situation, all of us. I know. I can tell."
Piya's lip curled. "I felt a lot helpless when I was human. I don't know what else to say."
"I know," said Alina. "That's why, we're going to train you, for potential battles. Against vampires stronger than you, against High Witches. Against werewolves. Starting tomorrow."
"What?" said Piya in shock. "What- why? How?"
Alina smiled. "So that next time, you're with us. Besides, Maithali's not going to sit idle now. She might go after you now. She's certainly going to be very tired of games, if she goes around trying to get your family. She won't be able to breach those shields." She smirked. "So what do you say, Piya?You in or out?"
Piya blinked several times. Then finally, in a voice like sandpaper, she spoke. "Tomorrow?"
"Oh, yeah," said Alina. "Tomorrow, morning. You'd better get some sleep. On that note- good night."
She smiled, and glided out of the room. Piya stared after her. Excitement and trepidation hit her in equal measure.
She was going to be trained. That did call for celebration, except...
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As soon as Alina left, Piya was aware of feeling irritation..anger. Not hers. She closed her eyes, trying to concentrate on finding out where Abhay was and why he was in a snit. At least one good thing had come out of it all : they'd exchanged blood thrice now, which made things easier for her.
She felt his surprise as he registered his presence, and then she realized he was in the library, book in hand. Stewing, from the vibes she was getting. What had happened?
"Don't ask," he replied, sounding highly displeased. "Leave me alone."
Yeah, right. Abhay really should know better than to give her orders.
In seconds, she had reached him, snatching the book out of his hands. "You'll shred it if you hold it much longer," she said, pulling out a chair and sitting opposite him. "So tell me what's wrong. And don't tell me nothing. I felt you."
When Abhay finally raised his eyes to her, he looked resigned, and felt it, too.
"Mom's got Sid to stay here," he said, his voice hollow. "Full time."
It was with difficulty that she stopped the exclamation on her lips. Abhay grimaced,reading her. "I know," he said, leaning back and closing his eyes. "Apparently he's in danger from Maithali. And the inconsiderate, irresponsible idiot hasn't even come in yet. Sent his bags and went out somewhere."
Piya bit her lip. She couldn't deny Haseena's logic, but surely there had to be a way?
"There isn't," he told her. "Maithali's going to attack again, soon. Alina's exhausted and if she's not at her full strength, it could be disastrous for us. And I don't like the idea of asking her to put protection around him."
She grimaced at his words. They were trapped. For a heartbeat, they sat in silence, till Piya asked, "Would it be so bad if he came, Abhay? We could...learn to trust him...maybe?"
The smile Abhay gave her was a little too understanding for her liking. "I can't trust him, Piya," he said softly. "It goes both ways. I know what Mom's trying to do. But...there's too much between us. The years...you can't undo the past. None of us can. We can't change the fact that we hate each other."
He rose, turning his back to her. She went up to him, wrapping her arms around him, resting her cheek on his back, her palm over his still heart. "Do you really believe that you hate him, Abhay?" she said softly. "Or is it that you want to believe it?"
He released a ragged breath, his palm coming to cover hers. "I don't know."
He twisted, turning to face her, holding her face in both of his hands. "Does that make me weak?"
She smiled, a slow, knowing smile. "No, Abhay. I don't think you are weak"
She was the one who initiated the kiss. Their lips met, soft, exploratory. His fingers went to her scalp,burying itself under the mass of curls, even as her own arms wrapped themselves around his neck, as she pressed closer.
After an age, they broke apart. "Dad wouldn't like it if we christened his library," he murmured, resting his forehead against hers. "Some of those books are pretty valuable, you know."
She giggled softly. "I know. Disrespectful, that's what it is."
"Exactly."
He moved away from then, then took her hand, threading her fingers through his. "Come on. We should go to our room."
A few hours later, they lay on their bed, her head on Abhay's chest, the one that was as silent as her own.
"Say it out loud," said Abhay finally. "What you're thinking. Tell me."
She exhaled. "Abhay, I don't understand it,"she said finally. "When you said Maithali's not a true witch...what did you mean?"
Abhay had known she would ask that question, yet he tensed.
"The thing is," he said quietly,"High Wizards and Witches can pass on their powers to not only their natural born children, but to any other creature they choose. People like us, too."
"I know that," said Piya. "What are you telling me?"
"I'm saying," said Abhay softly, "That Maithali was not chosen to be a High Witch."
Silence followed. "But-?"
"She researched them," said Abhay, and his voice was hard. "Found out their weaknesses. And then, she managed to kill one of them- with Sid's passive support. All I know is that he didn't help her kill that wizard."
She gasped. "But you told me they're-"
"Difficult to kill," said Abhay. "So they are. But you see, the wizard was yet young when he...was converted. He did not know...did not realise. He was apparently...naive."
She twisted her head to stare at him in horror. "She killed him for power?"
"For his power," said Abhay, his eyes chips of ice. "She leached it off him. Fed on it. And then killed him while...while his...family sat in a clan meeting.
She swallowed. "So..."
"Oh, that's not all," said Abhay grimly. "Feeding off a High Wizard's power gave her...powers of her own, different from normal High folk. Darker, more twisted. Maithali killed twelve other witches and wizards."
"Not High folk," he said, his mouth twisting. "The less powerful ones. She knew enough not to attempt another murder of a High Witch or Wizard when the entire community was- and is still- baying for her blood. Quite literally."
"The others..." Piya's voice had dropped to a whisper.
"Elementals," said Abhay. "They're magic users, but not that powerful. Regardless, twelve Elementals..."
She wanted to be sick. "So yes. It gives her powers that we still don't know the extent of. And that's why," he said softly," That's why you need to train as hard as you can. Alina, me, Dad- we're all going to help you in some way or the other."
She shook her head, brushing it away from her eyes.
"The High Wizard who died..." she said, then faltered. "His family...?"
"Oh, his family's helping in their own way, all right," said Abhay with a twisted smile. "I believe you've met his sister. Natalya?"
This time she sat up in shock. "Natalya! The Queen?"
"Oh, yes," said Abhay. "Our Queen. Also, a High Witch. You remember?"
Piya couldn't think.
"So," she said finally."Is that why Reina always seemed to...dislike Maithali?Because she killed one of her own?"
Abhay nodded, and she felt him level up the walls over his thoughts again, and this time, she knew he was sparing her things which she could not have been able to handle. "Oh, he was one of her own, all right."
They stayed silent for a long time.
Finally, Abhay said , "It's late. Go to sleep, Piya. You're going to have a long day tomorrow."
She lay back down, but sleep would not come to her, her mind milling with the recent horrors she had found out, as well as more questions that would have been exhausting but were mostly unnerving. "Oh, tiger," she heard him whisper. "I only wished to hide less things from you."
She kept her eyes closed, and after a few minutes, she felt his mind touch hers.
Abhay reached inside, pulling all her happy memories to the front of her mind, till the thought of death and murder left her, and finally, she slept.
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Maithali collapsed on the ground as the spell which she had managed to design to free her finally worked, sapping her of a lot of her strength. The Setlark could be easily removed by any true High Witch, but since she was not, she had had to work it out the hard way. Icy rage burned through her, but even so, she knew better than to let go of it.
They would pay. All of them. Piya, Abhay, that witch they called Alina. And Sid most of all.
She had loved him, she thought, unable to control the helpless pain and fury that surged through her as she recalled his words. And regret. Terrible, cloying regret.
An age ago, he had loved her. She had known it then, and she had disregarded it. How could he have stopped so easily? Why had he started to hate her?
Had it happened when he had become temporarily human? She'd lost her temper with him,several times, she recalled with shame. But he'd always been so contrite, so accepting... Had she turned him away with her cruelty?
A sliver of hope welled up in her. If she could just turn him human again, and treat him with love and kindness, would he love her again?
Would it work? And then, she wondered...would she have to kill him? Would she be able to?
She sat up, the beginnings of a plan in her head. First, she would take out that bitch who had imprisoned her...find out who she was and why she had chosen to stand against Maithali.
Pain lanced through her head, and she closed her eyes. No. First, she would need to rest. And then...and then, she would regroup.
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Kabir accompanied Misha to her room, after a lengthy interrogation which they had only managed to escape by saying they were tired. She had seemed unusually quiet all the while.
"You okay?" he found himself asking. "Mish?" She turned to smile tiredly at him. "Yes, I am. What about you, Kabir? Are you?"
"I..." He couldn't lie to her. She was his best friend, she'd know. Just as he knew she was keeping something from him, right now. "I will be."
She reached over and kissed him, briefly. "Go home," she whispered. "Call me when you're there."
"Good night, Mish," he said quietly. "I will."
They stared at each other for a second more, each wondering if they should say the thing in their minds. Finally, Kabir ducked his head, and left. It wasn't the time or the place, anyway.
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