3. Crimson tides
It was exquisite to watch him smile, laugh and see the easy way his eyes melted into pool of chocolate brown. She allowed him the normalcy, a gift her mind warranted her against, for several moments because her presence would cloud everything beautiful and handsome about him and leave him an open mannequin of scars and bloody tissues. But it was only a passing moment, a glimpse of what could have been which whooshed out of the dining table the moment his eyes landed on her. As anticipated his face hid behind well practiced mask of indifference and nonchalance as she made way towards the dining table. She could feel penetrating gazes of everyone in the family and she studiously avoided it as she placed jar of juice on the table. Her sister steadily refused to meet her eyes and suddenly her appetite was gone. Tears tried to betray her again and no matter how much she tried to be stronger, be…callous about her predicament, her heart broke over and over again like cheap china clay.
She mumbled something about not being hungry and hastened away from the table. There was no reason for her trying to be something she wasn't; she wasn't a real daughter-in-law of the house. She wasn't really a wife. Her relationship with her sister was broken glass. Her parents were flabbergasted at her sudden decision ignoring bored look on Arnav. Anjali was trying to lessen the awkwardness and failing spectacularly.
Arnav Raizada had managed to give her everything and had managed to get her to succumb to her innermost fear by building a cage of unexplained decisions thinly veiled in threats. He had forced her to think about her perpetual loneliness of being an orphan.
She was amidst her old family and newly forged one after her marriage to him. Yet, she had never felt so alone in her life.
"Why didn't you stay for breakfast?" He asked irritably. She looked up from her lap and looked at him.
"I am not hungry." She trained her voice not to lose cool and prayed for him to just go away.
But her Devi Mayya wasn't on her side.
"If you think by pulling silly stunts you are going to put me on a spot then think again," he said picking up his blazer. "I am not going to let you do what you think you can do."
She looked at him, puzzled. He dropped these intriguing lines on her which only confused her further. She had no idea what he believed to be her doing.
The pain and heartache of two days took a back step as her anger took over. Her eyes flashed at his enigmatic insinuation. "Oh, don't worry about pulling stupid stunts. I am not you." She snarled.
He raised an eyebrow and smirked. "You mean smart and conniving?" He asked. He had seen affection, anger, pain, happiness, silliness, childish joy, hurt, pity, care and every possible conceivable emotion on her face directed at him. But he hadn't seen eerie indifference masking her disgust in her eyes before. For some reason, it chilled his spine.
"No. I meant indecisive and pathetic. You are obviously punishing me for something but you are too frightened to utter it out loud." She laughed at her own words. Without responding to her cutting words, he walked away from his room slamming the door shut in his wake.
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