virman FF You are my everything PART 7(pg 15)

Part 1- The realization

"I cannot fall for him, no I cannot love him. Love? So is this what it is? I love my partner? Why? When? How? I cannot do this to him, to myself! I have to stay away from him, yes I will forget him. Manvi who are you kidding, forget him? You think that is possible when he is in every breath you take, each heartbeat of yours! Look around yourself Manvi- everything around you reminds you of him. Hell even the air around you has his name written all over it; Virat." These were the thoughts going in her head when there was a knock on her door.

Virat, Manvi and Jeevika were in Mumbai for Manvi's cancer treatment. Since couple of days both Jeevika and Virat had noticed that Manvi was always lost in her own thoughts these days and today too she was in her room sitting on the window sill looking at the ocean, all quiet. That is when Virat decided that it was too much and he would ask her, his partner, what was troubling her so much. He had a faint idea though, he knew that she must have been thinking about her treatment that would start the day after but why was she so quiet now, all of a sudden? Was she so scared? His sherni, his partner, his bandariya, his his; he could not even say it to himself but he knew it, his love was scared! He needed to do something so she would smile and bring him out of this misery. Yes right, she was quiet, sad and hurt but seeing her like that hurt him more. All of a sudden it was like darkness in his life, like the sun stopped rising for him. He knew that both his bhai and bhabhi maybe even his mom knew that Manvi meant a lot to him but little did anyone know that Manvi didn't mean a lot to him; she meant everything to him. She was the reason for his life, nothing in this world made sense to him without her, she was his.. love. He could not hide this anymore; he had felt his love for her a long time ago but he never told her fearing that she will reject him and that they will not even be friends anymore. When he decided to tell her, he found out that she has cancer and again he kept quiet for her to recover, for her to accept his care as a partner, just a partner. But today he had to do something, he had to cheer her up in order for him to stay sane, for his own good he needed that smile of hers so he headed to her room and knocked. There was no answer so he knocked again, no answer. This panicked him and immediately he opened the door.

There his life, his love, his sole reason for existence, his partner was sitting on the window sill looking at the ocean, lost in her own thoughts. Something in her face told him that she was thinking about him but he quickly disregarded the thought and cleared his throat to get her attention.

Index

Part 1A https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/ek-hazaaron-mein-meri-behna-hain/3120632/virman-ff-you-are-my-everything-part-7-pg-15

Part 1B https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/ek-hazaaron-mein-meri-behna-hain/3120632/virman-ff-you-are-my-everything-part-7-pg-15?pn=2

Part 1B continuation https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/ek-hazaaron-mein-meri-behna-hain/3120632/virman-ff-you-are-my-everything-part-7-pg-15?pn=3

Part 2A https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/ek-hazaaron-mein-meri-behna-hain/3120632/virman-ff-you-are-my-everything-part-7-pg-15?pn=5

Part 2B https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/62081422

Part 3 https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/62144954

Part 4 https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/62283618

Part 5 https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/ek-hazaaron-mein-meri-behna-hain/3120632/virman-ff-you-are-my-everything-part-7-pg-15?pn=11

Part 6 https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/ek-hazaaron-mein-meri-behna-hain/3120632/virman-ff-you-are-my-everything-part-7-pg-15?pn=13

Awww that was so sweet the way you explained what they meant for each other so cute please update soon and do pm me

I am new to this site and I have no idea what is pm and how i would pm anybody. But Im ready with the continuation of part 1 and I will post it in couple of hours.

Cute update. Loved the way you wrote their feelings for each other. Can't wait to read the update. Please do post it soon.

Originally posted by: nisha33

I am new to this site and I have no idea what is pm and how i would pm anybody. But Im ready with the continuation of part 1 and I will post it in couple of hours.

a pm is when you private message someone to let them if you have updated your story or something else its ok if you dont know. How

Tat was such a wonderful begining... U've explained der feelings so intensely... Plz cont soon...

Originally posted by: madpaki

Awww that was so sweet the way you explained what they meant for each other so cute please update soon and do pm me

Originally posted by: virenjeevika

Cute update. Loved the way you wrote their feelings for each other. Can't wait to read the update. Please do post it soon.

Tina

Originally posted by: shona_virman

Tat was such a wonderful begining... U've explained der feelings so intensely... Plz cont soon...

Continuation of Part 1

No virman interaction yet but in the next update there will be. This is my first attempt at story telling so I am sure there are plenty of mistakes. So please ignore the mistakes and enjoy the story. Please please please give me your feedback as they encourage me to write more.

Manvi was still lost in her own thoughts. She knew that she had only two options: stay away from him and make him believe that he means nothing to her or hide her feelings and get back to being his partner. She decided she will do the latter as she knew that the pain of being away from him would be unbearable. She would probably survive cancer but not separation from him. It made her feel selfish but she promised herself that she would never lose control and she would never let him know about her feelings. After spending so much time with Virat she knew one thing- Virat genuinely cared about her. Those two times that he went with her for the chemo sessions, she had seen pain in his eyes. She had noticed how when she was in pain it would hurt Virat more, how her tears affected him more. She had always ignored these things thinking that it was nothing. Though she was not sure how deep his feelings were but today she knew that Virat cared for. While her heart yearned for him to love her back, her mind refused to believe it. Her heart understood that the pain in his eyes was due to love for her and she yelped in joy but her mind blamed her of being selfish and taking his sympathy as love. She was torn between her heart and her head. She knew that both were right in their own places and she did not know what she should believe. She remembered her own words to Virat, the ones she told him during her attempts to reunite him with Maya- "Virat don't think with your head use your heart. What does your heart tell you? Your mind can be wrong but never your heart." No her heart cannot be right; Virat does not love her, he cannot love her. She did not know how to feel at this time, to be happy that he might actually love her or to be sad that she has cancer and if he does love her then he will suffer with her. That is when Manvi decided that she will not let it happen. She will not let Virat suffer for her. She would close her eyes to everything and move on with the belief that he has only sympathy for her. She will be his partner, that is it. Though her heart belongs to him now, she would never claim his, his heart would be for someone else, someone who is healthy and can make him smile. Even the thought of Virat with someone else gave her intense pain.

There Virat was staring at Manvi. He tried to get her attention but she was lost in her own thoughts. He saw different emotions in her: there was pain, there was that affection, the same one that masked his face when she was around, there was joy but only for a few seconds, then there was more pain and finally determination. He could not understand this, for the first time he could not guess what Manvi was thinking. He had seen affection, love in her expressions but he could not tell who they were for. He let his heart believe that they were for him but his mind laughed at his silly thought. Just when he was about to dismiss it he remembered Manvi's words- "Your heart can never be wrong." She loves me? No it cannot be true, why would she love me? But what is troubling her so much? Why why there is so much pain in her eyes? Manvi please please tell your partner whats wrong. Oh how much he wished he could tell her what she meant to him, tell her that without her he is nothing , that his heart belongs to her and only her. He could take pain, suffering anything just to be close to her; does not matter whether it is for a second or a minute. He would happily burn himself if that meant staying close to her because no pain in the world could compare to separation from her.