Part - 1
My Someone Special
I looked out of the window...and stared at the empty sky...day wasn't that bad...bt it wasn't awesome also...office to home and home to office...this is wat i m doing from last 7-8 months...great...don't ask isse pehele kya kia...college gai yar...wat a boring life i m living... …Me Riddhima Gupta with a not so happening life..
Today i realized sky looks so empty without moon... ...it made me wonder is my life complete???? Where m i taking my life??? Is this wat i always wanted???? Answer is clear big no..this is not wat i was looking for... this complete life...a normal career, good education, boring family(yeh very true)... was not my motto...yeh somewhere i always wanted a victorious career...but this life is totally imperfect without his presence...he is not here...and when he was somewhere near...i was totally unaware of wat importance he holds in my life...though i never regret that i didn't realized all this at that time...come on we were kids guyz...10th class...at that time i didn't even knew how to speak loudly in front of someone ...than confessing something wasn't on my list...somewhere I still feels if I had guts to say wat my heart feels at that time I would have gone back to him…..but I wasn't very daring at that time… but as soon i left Xavier (School where I met him)i changed myself completely….girl who can shout, laugh freely, bad temper..ignore boys like they don't even exist around me(yes I actually did that…and it felt like….fabulous…)...this phrase was created by me for me not coz I wanted to be like this it's just i always wanted to see, to feel how it feels wen u r very popular in school...itna attitude kyu ajata h..and it did happened ……..boys proposing you ...waiting for your yes...girls looking at you with jealousy...blah blah.(i enjoyed that attention...but aftr sumtime that also looked boring...coz i wasn't looking for that attention...i wasn't made for this attention )...so i stepped back and concentrated on my studies...and gave a big shock to my mates by taking Ist position in boards...(i loved dat really...it's one of best moment of my life...wen all looked at me like i hv climbed a mountain,...)...
Den college...masti, dance, college parties, friends...i still remember everything like it all happened yesterday...but the problem is that everything still revolves around HIM...yes...again HIM...arghhh my friends tried very hard...sachii...they tried to make me forget him..tried to hook me with someone else...searched for some random perfect guy for me 1000 time...as i described about my dream men...they succeeded many time like they got many guy who matched upto my long list of my Mr. perfect...but i m very expert in saying no...finally they all decided to search him for me...aur koi rasta kaha tha bicharo ke pass...i m very stubborn u see...we tried our best...tired for his contact nu. ...address...college...friends..(kamine hi sahi par friends h kamal k i know).. thats love I guess - no matter that person is near you or not...you are the one who make sure that someone special stays alive in ur heart...but to my bad luck or some destiny vestiny...munda mila nhn yar...itni mehnat agar exams mei ki hoti toh pure world mei top kia hota maine...aftr that i got final warning...forget him move on...he must be married yar...4-5 bachho ka baap hoga...flirty hoga blah blah...bt hey do you all think it's so easy to forget someone??? naah specailly when u r not ready to forget that person..Giving him permanent space in your heart...Remembering him every damn single day and night from last 7 years...
Wat makes me angry is that here i m searching him like he is some kind of superstar...and that idiot is living his life perfectly...unaware of wat havoc he is creating in my life from 7 years...milte hi 2-4 lagane h maine uske…………
Yeah it has been 7 years now...since i saw him...i m not sure how he looks now...where he lives and all...but who cares about his looks and living place...what matters the most is HE...???? but the main question is how to search this HE...Delhi is not a small town...and he is not some star...thoda famous nahi ho sakta tha...saari duniya ke mehnat mujhse hi karvani thi...
I don't understand two things...how the hell i fall for him,...and why the hell i m so positive about him...hmmm difficult questions...neither i saw him doing anything perfect...nor he was some school topper...still my hearts says he is the one...
Today i read a ff..yeh fan fiction "Love Just a click away" in office timings...yes kabhi kabhi yeh bhi krana padta hai...it was nice very different...one thing which made this FF special is...this FF gave me idea...hope to find him again...this wil be my last try( don't go with this one i always use to say it kyuki kabhi kabhi tasali dene k liye dialogue hi kafi hota h)...this is what ryt now i m thinking...kitna time lga rhi hu...i have never been very active on FB...toh i dnt know much ki how i can search him there...so good thing is this FF can help me,...hey wat if i search him there...but get a answer...no results...bang...that's wat i don't want to see...
After thinking a lot...i decided wats the harm in trying??? wasn't i m d one who said "yar bhagwan ek bar toh try karo...love na hua toh chalega bt alteast yeh toh final ho jayga na i did tried..."...toh nw final tomorrow first thing in morning wil be this...search him on FB mission...
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Ryt now i m working in office...par dimag FB par hai...hmmm after giving some bakvas bhashan to myslef...i did wat i need to do... to find him...LOGIN ON FB...
heart paced up automatically...kamal h kuch mila nhn but dil bewajah excited ho raha h...now i got the point why SRK said ...Dil toh pagal hai...phew...as soon i started typing Armaa...
search box started showing results making me nervous...as soon i typed his Full name Armaan Mallik...it happened...yes there he goes..he had his own pic as profile pic...nothing big happened just my eyes became wide...i cursed myself for not trying on FB...ab mujhe kya pta tha saari duniya chod k FB par milega...glare...bta nhn sakta tha FB par hu...yeh ladke itne brainless kyu hote hai??? Forget this
Now comes another hurdle in smooth love story...wat should i do now??? send him request???? naah wat if he dont accept it???? wat if he is already committed or worse married??? horrible 4-5 Bachho ka dad????(Family planning nhn ki thi kya 4-5???)
I stared at his pic..it looks so real as if he is watching me...i m trying to know him by his pic...strange...yeh he looks flirty nw...par woh toh pehle bhi lagta tha na...shakal pe nhn jate beta….dil dekho…..den i got a wired idea...i hv one more profile on FB toh y nt send him request through dat one???/ if he reject den it wud means he didn't rejected me...he rejected dat unknown girl...yep...good idea...
2 Days went in blur...if u all are wondering wat happened to Him...did he accept my request and all...i wont to ask...don't u all know??? ...i have never been in things like this...neither has been taken first step... arre i didn't send him any request...i m so nervous i don't knw...this time
it looks like we will meet...this won't be very simple yes and no ...
aftr say yes and no zillion times i hit the button "send friend request" and waited for my destiny to unfold what future holds for me...
A guy who have habits i cant digest...me who have all d qualities he can't handle...will it going to work...
So here is roller coaster ride of my perfect love story with lots of imperfections...if you think this love story is complete...then don't coz future of this love story is still not decided...a beautiful happily ever after hum sath sath hai???? or worse hum apke hai kon???...u never know...
Now i m waiting for response..guyz as its not some drama...i m not expecting very high comments really...so i would love to read ur response...
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Edited by jannat4ever - 13 years ago