I will be using this thread as a personal diary of Meet Ahlawat where he pens down his innermost thoughts.. It would have no relation with the actual timeline or potrayal in the serial..
21st December:
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/159788314
24th December:
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/159828169
21.12.21
I did the varmala rasam with Meet again today.. When I saw the garlands, I dreaded her reaction.. Will she be remember the last time and be angry?? Is she okay to do it again??
She looked carefree and happy actually.. Maybe since no1 was there to judge us!! How would have she felt if the witnesses of our marriage were here with us today? Would she still be okay to do it then??
She picked it first and looked at me.. She was positively glowing.. The change of place had done us both good.. We weren't amongst ppl who knew our history.. For them, we were just a newly married couple having our 1st holiday but for me it was a chance I was giving to myself to feel again for her and for us.. I really didn't know what I felt for her but she had moulded herself so perfectly into my space that it seemed empty without her in it..
I took the garland and waited for her.. I wanted her to be the first and choose me coz I still somewhere felt the last time was forced upon her as well.. Maybe I wasn't unwanted in her life but I also didn't want to be a just a duty to her..
I couldn't sense the hesitation in her this time.. The girl who was shy to feed me cake on her own bday could freely approach me now.. Maybe I was growing on her as well.. I tried to memorise the look on her face this time coz I don't remember the one she had on that fateful day.. I should have been paying more attention..
Anupamaa
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
