Chapter 48
From: Ashwinhanda@xyz.com
To: shutabulgirl@xyz.com
Sub: Ghar
Chutki,
Sorry for the late reply.
I thought you might be busy with your studies and all, which is why I do not disturb you often. Because if you remember this sad old lonely brother, you would write to him. Don't you?
Remember last Diwali, I have not gone home and I was practically the only person working in my department. Not kidding.
I think Diwali is being made the Indian version of Christmas, with all the ads and media forcing people to celebrate it with family, and gifting each other. Not that I mind. Any festival that promotes family time is my favorite.
I think I don't want to be that depressing soul who stays alone in the office for Diwali this time, so yes I do want to go home. I have applied for leaves already but after your information about the prospective brides' photos, I am tempted to take back my leave.
Okay, this is new. My little sister talking about a woman in my life. I will try to be honest with you, because you are a growing woman and though you will always be my baby sister, I am not going to insult your intelligence by brushing your advice away.
I do not know how much do you know exactly about Dhara. And I have not talked about it for years now, but you know I love you very dearly and since it is you, I think you need to know.
Dhara didn't break my heart intentionally. It was doomed from the beginning. She was engaged to someone else. I was new to the city, the village boy inside me has not died by then. I saw her, fell in love with the idea of her. On seeing she was nice to me despite the difference in our societal status, the lack of my english prowess back then, I liked her.
You can always like a person for various reasons Chutki. Sometimes you love a person because of your internal issues, your insecurities that they address without even trying. Maybe to the world, Dhara was a bad person for leading me on, but I know I had been intentionally blind too. I shouldn't have expected her to break her engagement and come with me.
Only after she was gone, I understood that is all in me, whatever I wanted to do with my life. I was a village boy then, I am a village boy now. Just that I chose to change my appearance, my language. I chose to save to be able to help my parents financially.
Rest assured, do not think I am not over Dhara and that I am still in love with her.
I do not think I ever have perfect timing Chutki. Always falling for girls that are taken.
Anyway, how about you and I go home together this Diwali?
Waiting to hear from you.
Yours,
AB.
Edited by Veil - 7 years ago
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