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Amyra

@fernsangiee14

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Posted: 7 years ago

Crushes are temporary, hardly lasting more than a short while.

So then why is it that Annika can't get over Shivaay ,

even after over a decade has passed,

and it appears he's all but forgotten about her?

Edited by fernsangiee14 - 7 years ago

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Amyra

@fernsangiee14

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Posted: 7 years ago

. My Childhood Crush.

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The definition of a Crush never included how long one's crush on another necessarily lasted.

Or, at least, that's what Annika told herself day after day and year after year for over ten years.

So what that the object of her crush was a charming, ridiculously attractive and intelligent womanizer ?

So what that she'd seen him with all manner of women-his bimbos of the week as she'd dubbed them-coming and going since the start of their sophomore year of high school?

She knew him. Only she knew him, she told herself. After all, she'd been there when the rest hadn't been. She'd been there when, at the age of five, he'd built her a sandcastle when they'd gone to the beach and called her his princess. And hadn't it been she, Annika, who'd been his best friend and best confidante when his parents had divorced ?

But, more than anything, she'd held fast to that cherished memory she had of him when he'd asked her to marry him. At the innocent age ofeight and a half, he'd solemnly promised her that he'd marry her on the day they both turned twenty-six. Luckily, they shared a birthday, and, at the age of eight, that twenty-six year mark seemed so far away that she'd agreed enthusiastically and then blushed when he'd leaned over and pecked her cheek to seal the deal.

And so it was that Annika watched the years pass and felt the wrenching pain when he slowly drifted away from the quiet, mousy girl she'd been and into the social circles of their peers who had been so impossibly beautiful and confident in high school and so much more exciting than she. The promise he'd made her was the only thing that sustained her at times for she believed him and believed that he would come back for her.

They had grown up as next door neighbours, which had made their friendship that much easier to solidify. But, as the years passed, it had also made it infinitely easier for her to note the sheer number of girls that had come and gone in all manner of dress and undress. And always, there had been a satisfied look onhis face as he'd watched his harem come and go.

After high school, they'd gone off in different directions-he to UC Berkeley in the north, and she to the East Coast to NYU. Even there, even after months had passed since she'd seen him, even though she was surrounded by and alluring to the sheer variety of attractive men in the city, even then she thought only of him.

But now, with her twenty-fifth birthday behind her, she began to despair that he might not even remember the promise he'd made her in the third grade.

He still lived in their hometown-she would know, she told herself. She'd run into him weeks before at a wedding reception when his Mother Jhanvi had remarried...

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Amyra

@fernsangiee14

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Posted: 7 years ago

. Meeting Him, After So Many Damn Years .

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If it were possible, she knew that he'd grown even more handsome with his dark waves of hair falling over his forehead , those brilliant brown eyes that twinkled when he'd smiled at her and He looking like A Greek God in that 3 piece Grey Suit and Hair Gelled up with Spikes.

" Annika, how have you been ? You look great!"
He looked genuinely happy to see her, and she wanted to melt on the spot. In fact, she may have if it hadn't been for the voluptuous Ragini, her enemy clinging to his arm and looking bored.

Feeling ridiculously plain with her brown hair pulled back with His Favourite Stars Hair Pins and wearing a Dark green Gown that was shades less glamorous than his Ragini's red cut out dress, Annika steeled her spine and managed to smile back at him.
" I'm fine, Shivaay. It's really good to see you. Congratulations on your new stepfather."

The corners of his eyes creased appealingly when his smile grew. "Yeah, I'm really happy for Mom. Tej's a great guy."
He paused for a moment.
"I really feel like we need to get together and catch up sometime soon. Lunch sound good ?"

Her heart leapt.
"Of course. I'd really like that."
She beamed at him as her insides did somersaults.

They'd exchanged numbers, but he'd yet to call her. She wondered if he even remembered that he had her number.

"Oh, come on, Ani."
Her best friend, Gauri sighed exaggeratedly.
" It was something he said to you almost twenty years ago. Are you really going to hang onto something an 8 year old said ?"

Annika shrugged and turned to stare out the window at the miserable January weather. Central California was rather dreary at this time of the year, and it certainly matched her mood. Perfect.
"I know it sounds really crazy, but I can't help it. I really thought giving him my number was a sure thing."

"He's a man, Ani. There's no sure thing with men."
Gauri slid an arm around her shoulders.

"I know that you think the world of him, but look at his history. The guy has had more girlfriends than anyone else I know. Yeah, he's great to look at, he's smart, and he's pretty frickin' sweet, but that doesn't mean he's the guy for you."

"You mean I'm not the girl forhim."

"Did I say that ?"
Gauri asked defensively.

Annika sighed.
"You didn't have to. I can see it for myself. I'm nothing like those women he's always with, and I never will be. Logically, I shouldn't be this hung up on him, and I know that. I'm sure any psychiatrist would tell me that I'm stuck on him because he was a part of my formative years, and I have an unhealthy attachment to him."
She shrugged again.
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" I just don't care about any of that. I know that he's the one for me.
I've always known it, and I can't explain it."
She turned to see her friend's concerned face.
"You should know how I feel."

"I do-but I'm marrying that guy I was sure of,"
Gauri pointed out.
" I hate to be a killjoy, but Shivaay probably doesn't even remember that he has your number."

And that, Anika thought, was something that she wouldn't be able to change, no matter howhard she tried. So she spent the next few months trying to convince herself to get over Shivaay Singh Oberoi .

She'd never admit, not to anyone, that there was still a part of her that waited for him anxiously and hopefully as her twenty-sixth birthday crept closer.

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Amyra

@fernsangiee14

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Posted: 7 years ago

. The Wedding Shopping.

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Two and a half months before her birthday,
Annika found herself in a bridal boutique, surrounded by wedding gowns and she couldn't have been more miserable.
For Gauria's sake, she tried to be as lively and positive as possible.

Obviously, Gauri knew better.
"Oh, Ani."
She sighed as their eyes met in the full-length mirror she stood in front of in a champagne-hued gown.
"I know you're upset, but I'm really glad you came with me anyway."

"You're my best friend, Ri. Of course I'd be here for you."
Annika made herself objectively study the gown Gauri wore and smiled. "This one might be the one."

Knowing that Annika was trying, Gauri felt a well of love and appreciation for her best friend gush through her. She smoothed a handover the skirt and smiled back.
"I think so, too. Om's eyes are going to pop out of his head when he sees me."

"Absolutely. What a lucky, lucky guy."
Needing it and knowing Gauri probably needed it as well, Annika moved to stand next to Gauri and enveloped her in a hug.
"You're going to be the most beautiful bride ever."

Gauri hugged her back before nodding to the clerk who'd been helping them.
"I'm going to let them take their measurements so that they can hem it. In the meantime, why don't you go pick out a dress ?
I know you had your eye on that gorgeous one with the cap-sleeves."

Annika's brows furrowed.
"Ri, why would I pick out a dress?"

"Well, you never know. Maybe Shivaay will come to his senses and realize he's madly in love with you."
At Annika's expression, Gauri shrugged.
"Hey, never say never, right? Go get it, Ani. " She urged, nudging her friend towards the racks.
"It'll be my wedding gift to you."

Now, Annika was sure her jaw was dragging on the floor.
"I can't let you do that!"

Gauri merely smiled. "Of course, you can. I've got a bank account the size of the moon, rememberb?
If I can't help out my best friend, what would be the point? Go get it, sister."

It took her nearly fifteen minutes of internal debating before Annika did just that, though, as each day passed without Shivaay , she was sure she'd never wear the lovely gown.

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