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A car made its way over a mildly steep incline emitting crunching noises as it trudged over an unpaved path. Soft breaths were the only sound apart from the occasional muttering from the driver. The other person on the front seat peered in a futile bid to see the road ahead but the darkness was too engulfing. The vehicle was quickly running out of gas. The frenzied wife blamed her man for their predicament. She claimed she would die in wilderness owing to his callousness. His brother had made arrangements for a secluded honeymoon in the virgin regions of Ladakh. "What a sham!" She exclaimed.
The car came to a screeching halt and swerved a little as it lost traction. He turned to look at her, dismay evident in his deep orbs. "Why do you keep saying that? It hurts..."
"Really?" She raised her brow. "You brought us here, you did this to us Shravan so please don't pretend to salvage this now."
Looking away, he let out a pained breath, "You won't die, I'm your husband, and it's my responsibility to keep you safe." Saying he saw the GPS reroute for the Nth time. Driving down the path he thought back at the precise moment when he destroyed their relationship. Suman had been complaining about how they were married but were not man and wife in the truest sense. One of his acquaintances had flirted with her at a party that night and a scuffle had erupted, the acquaintance had a broken nose and Shravan was left with bruised knuckles. Upon returning home Suman had questioned him about his behaviour. He affirmed they were married and she had laughed it off saying it was only on paper. He had grabbed her by the arm and dragged her to their bed stating he would promptly make her his wife since that was her desire. He had earned a crisp slap in response. She cried at what they had come to. It was that night and this; nothing ever was the same between them.
Qurbat ki chahat mai,
Na jaane kya keh gaye,
Maanga tha faqak unko,
Ruswayi ki saugaat de gaye.
Wishing for propinquity,
What did I do?
Hoping for uniquity,
I lost you.
He saw a stone house in the distance and turned sharply. Suman jolted at the sudden change of direction. She saw a decent sized tastefully made bungalow. They made their way to the habitation, multiple knocks later they realized the home was deserted. He took his stance and decided to break open the door. He knew they needed rest; it was late and the temperature was falling.
The abode looked like it had been empty for at least a few months. It had bare minimum furniture and huge windows. It overlooked a river, the moon reflected from the water into the home giving it an alluring look. Shravan made his way upstairs, finding a blanket he returned to see Suman taking off the dusty sheets covering the sofas. He wrapped the blanket around her. "Its cold." He said.
Suman threw it off, "Don't feign that you care."
Shravan gathered the blanket and put it around her calmly, "The winters here are cruel, please."
She laughed sarcastically, "So are you!"
Mohobbat ki talaash mai,
Gham ki chaadar oodh li,
Ishq ki ghair-haazri mai,
Ashq ki chaadar oodh li.
Looking for love,
Sorrow engulfed us,
In the absence of warmth,
Tears engulfed us.
He sighed making his way towards the door, "I saw a shed outside, I'll go find something to burn."
Fear seeped into her being, "Don't leave me alone .. I'm scared." She confessed.
Khafa hai tumse,
Khata tumhari thi,
Tanha chodd jaaoge tum,
Iss ehsaas ki rehayi thi.
I'm unsettled by you,
You hurt my soul,
But I knew you,
You'd never leave me alone.
He smiled wryly, "It's started to drizzle, stay here." Turning to look at her, "Sumo, close your eyes and think of the most happy moments of your life, I'll be back in no time." She obliged and seeing a faint smile on her face he left.
Suman tried to change the direction of her thoughts but try as she may; the most comforting memories were the ones with the brute who she was now married to.
Shikvey kiye tumse,
Ghutan ki shikan tum the,
Aashnaayi hai tumse,
Aashiqi ki inteha tum the.
I was tormented by you,
Hurt; at it's finest,
But my home is with you,
Love; at it's purest.
She opened her eyes as she felt him. He walked in with a stack of hay and wood, his hair was messed owing to the strong winds. He kneeled near the fireplace and concentrated on lighting the fire. Suman couldn't help but notice his striking features stand out in the soft luminescence of the flame. His expressive eyes, his Grecian nose and those full lips. He was a very handsome man and he was hers.
Shravan stood up to find her ogling at him; her soft eyes a blazing inferno of passion. "Sumo?" He called out.
She walked towards him and started unbuttoning his shirt. The contact of her cold fingers against his bare chest made his breathing hitch. "Tum.. Kya..?" hoarseness evident in his voice.
"You're drenched." She shrugged.
Shravan allowed her to do as she pleased for he would be lying if he said he didn't want this. She pulled out his neatly tucked shirt and slid it off his torso. He looked on intently, noticing her stance had shifted. Biting her lower lip slightly; with nimble fingers she played with the hair peppered on his upper body. He felt the air being knocked out of his lungs. She inspected him as though he was a sculpture, a dream. He reveled under her soft touches. Slowly, holding on to her waist he whispered her name, which sounded more like a prayer, "Sumo?"
Chuan se tumhari,
Chubhan si seene mai uthti hai,
Mohobaat se tumhari,
Rooh meri sulaghti hai.
Your touch,
Evokes sweet torture,
Your love,
Is my soul's scorcher.
She looked into his eyes and asked, "What do you wish for Shravan?"
"You." He answered in a heartbeat.
She went on her toes as he bent to give her access, kissing his forehead gently she hushed in his ear, "What do you wish for?"
Poochti ho tum,
Chahat kya hai humari?
Kaise kahe tumse se?
Saanse tum ho humari.
You beseech me,
What is our love?
How don't you see?
You are my life from Him above.
Any resolve he had, diminished. He strongly pulled her into himself and captured her petals. Drinking from her the love that he always desired, he slowly moved his lips over hers. Breaking away he asked, "Do you really want this my love?" Not wanting to repeat any mistake of the past.
She smiled, pecked his cheek, blushing she replied, "You are all my cherished memories Shravan. You are my life. Whatever happened in the past, is just that, the past. I want to be yours as much as I want you to be mine."
Firaaq mai the umr bhar,
Mazil na mili,
Talaash tamam hui aakhir,
Aaghosh mai teri.
Life long quest,
Never yielding,
The search finally rests,
At the behest of your shielding.
Shravan let out the breath he was holding, "I love you Suman. I promise I will never hurt you again. For when you hurt, my heart bleeds. I can't live without you." His honest confession made her heart well up. He carried her in his arms and laid her on the sofa. He caressed her face with love. The look his eyes held made Suman warm all over. The love that shone would burn her to oblivion.
Jaan nisaar meri,
Teri ek nigaah par,
Umr-e-daraaz meri,
Waar di tere ek lams par.
I renounce my existence,
For your gaze,
I accept senescence,
If only you'd set me ablaze.
He smiled and took her into a voracious kiss; the cold winter night was rapidly turning into one that would scorch their existence. Moving lower towards her neck, he massaged her head with one hand, nuzzling into the valley of her bosom. She pulled at his hair moaning his name as he bit her at a particularly soft spot of her neck. He moved his knuckles over her collarbone eliciting another moan. Suman felt as though she was having an outer body experience. His each ministration made her clay in his hands. He could do as he pleased and all she could do was unabashedly shamelessly shiver with desire.
Khairaat kiya karte the bohot,
Sadqa har waqt denge ab,
Teri ulfat ka makaam aaisa hai,
Khauff-e-tarq mai rahenge ab.
Charity was a way of life,
Benevolence will now be,
Your endearment is so rife,
Termination scares me.
The embers of passion burned stronger each passing moment casting paced shadows on the walls. Their hunger, their love, their lust, their longing was at its pinnacle. This fervent night was to mark the beginning of their journey. A fire had once borne witness to their holy matrimony. A fire now bore witness to their union. Unification so tender, so irrevocably consuming that it filled the crevices of their hearts, mended their broken souls and bonded them in a secure link, which would never come undone.
Teri saason mai jo ghuli meri saasen,
Teri rooh se jo judi meri rooh,
Teri qurbat se jo aarzo meri tamam hui,
Sajdon ka noor mila,
Ibaadat jo meri qubool hui.
The blending of our breaths,
The merging of our souls,
My yearnings are quenched,
My devotion now exemplified,
My prayers stand beautified.
Aazmaish ke silsle jo khatam hue,
Mohobbat ke silsle jo hue shuru,
Ilahi ab bas ek dua hai tujhse,
Bas ek woh rahe aur bas ek mai rahoon.
Penance stands vanquished,
Hurt is now languished,
Ilahi all I ask,
Is for us to bask.
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Disclaimer : I have taken inspiration for the plot but not copied, cross my heart. Also few things are fictional but i tried to keep this as much as realistic as possible in terms of actual terms and knowledge used. You may start reading.
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She stared at his picture for the longest time , like she did every other night since months.
Sighing, she looks outside as snowflakes fell on the window pavement and drank her cup of frappe. As high the temperature gets in Syria during summers, it snows the same harsh way during winters but it used to feel good back then, cozying up with him gave her warmth, feel of belonging , home and she missed that feeling. She missed him, she missed them.
"Dr. Tiwari, there's this letter for you." Suman turned around and looked at the source of voice, there stood a peacekeeper.
"Oh, thank you. Have a great day and do get your injuries treated." She smiled at him and walked away and then turned again, " also if you want to talk , i am all here."
"I guess you should read that letter first. I'll be going." And he gave a soft sad smile to her and left. Suman opened that letter which read -
JUST TRY & WAIT. WILL YOU ? A YEAR MAYBE. YOU CAN MOVE FURTHER IN YOUR LIFE AFTER THEN.
Love, Sergeant Malhotra
"It's been almost year and you aren't here yet. How do you expect me to move forward like that? You are alive and we all know that, stop playing your games! Come, back home? " Suman spoke as a tear fell down her eyes as she talked to his photograph.
She was a psychiatrist working with United Nations under their Peacekeeping programme. She wasn't courageous to be the part of Army but she was strong enough to be part of the Mission and was proud to be best friend and girlfriend of Sergeant Shravan Malhotra. They met first time when she was in the 4 month doctors training period and he was best friend of another peacekeeper who was also her trainer. They easily clicked, joked around. They were two professionals at work, she was his person to talk with about his issues but his best friend and confidant after working hours. In the field no one was senior or junior and she surely was strong, to him. She was the one who was fearless and even if frighten a little bit, she helped all of them fight their own demons. The conflicts left them exhausted and after them being together, there was no other person but her who he wanted to go and lay his head in her lap.
She returned to Istanbul Base last night and quickly came to hospital, where they were treating one of the soldiers who was injured both physically and emotionally. She tried calling him as he was wary of her leaving and didn't want her to come but he didn't pick. There was a conflict as she heard about in the morning , in few interior parts of Syria which was said to be intense and she only hoped no one dies or even injure themselves.
How she hoped to never leave that day, she would have had knew at least what happened. All she knew was he was stuck or captured somewhere and wasn't dead but him gone away with no whereabouts wasn't much different than him being dead. She held her shawl closer and drew the curtains down except for one window. She brought her laptop and sat on a chair near the window as hearth had burning fuel which provided her the warmth she needed and worked on her case.
She looked up to see a pinpoint source of light and quickly got up keeping her laptop on the chair and called out "Hello, who's there?" and looked as a voice came into the speakers which were there for emergency announcements and soon a message popped on her mobile phone and she got out of the small wooden house.
She ran towards the light source and felt the ground swept off her feet. There he was with hairs a little longer than before, he never had a long hair growth anyways and had a stubble which made him look sexy definitely, she thought and cringed later at her thoughts. He had few cuts on his face and he walked to her stumbling and she saw his uniform torn from from few places and had traces of blood.
She quickly gave him her support and took him inside the hut as two of the officers came along with a doctor and got inside Rick who was lost with Shravan. Suman sighed and thanked god for giving the love of her life back to her.
They were all treated and everyone left with Rick while Shravan stayed with her. He felt like he started living then, not caring about his injuries he hugged her from waist as she was cleaning, picking up used gauge to throw away. He felt home, he felt peace and so did she but she tried to push him away as a tear left her eyes and she hit him on shoulders with her fist as a cry broke from her mouth.
"Koi aise jata hai kya? Chodo, mujhe nahi baat karni. Aaage badh jao,itni aasani se keh diya Shravan?" // "Does anyone say like that ? Leave, i don't want to talk to you. Move forward, you said it so easily, Shravan." Suman whispered and tried to free her from his grip as felt his tears as well.
"I also said to wait for me Sumo." He mumbled.
"Till one year, what if you wouldn't have had return." Suman held his hair and pulled them to which he laughed and shouted.
"I had this promise to myself and you that i will return and that, after one year was a possibility Sumo and now stop pulling my hairs, you'll get my skin of my head." Shravan pulled her down in his lap as she snuggled into his chest and he pulled up the thick blanket over them. Shravan rested his head in the crook of her neck and Suman held him close as she felt him shaking as he cried.
"You know Sumo i was scared if I wouldn't be able to come back or at least see you when I die. All I wanted was to come back here, home; to be here with you and drink frappe from the same cup. I wanted to be in your arms and I knew you wanted the same, knew you were scared shitless too but I knew you were stronger than me, something i'll ever be." Shravan mumbled and Suman caressed his head as tears left her eyes. As a psychiatrist she knew what he was going through and being his partner, she even felt it.
"I was weak too Shravan but i knew you would keep your promise." Suman whispered and both of them got up and went outside as it snowed. She liked it now, how it was. She would never ask him to leave it all, because it made him happy and even if it takes her to bear the pain of losing him almost everyday, she would do that for him to be happy.
It was morning and the temperature even went down more but they didn't care as it was their favourite activity, watching sunrise in winters. She hugged him and held the blanket more tightly that was wrapped around them.
It was a cold moonless night of Delhi when a little girl was found at the doorstep of an orphanage wrapped up in a pink blanket. It was a common happening for Orphanage takes these babies with open arms almost everyday, but it changed everything for a three-year-old boy who came there a week ago after he lost his Parents in an accident. With no extended family, he had nowhere to go but this orphanage.That little princess as he would call her, became his best friend.The boy who became all silent, started living with the arrival of this angel.She became a reason to smile and a will to live for him.He was her protector and she was his light. Suman was his Sumo and he was her Chashmish. With no one as their own, Shravan and Suman found a home in each other. As years passed, their bond became stronger with each passing day. Inseparable they were.
Whenever a child was being adopted, Suman would ask him, " When we will go to our home Shravan?..Where is our home?".
And he would answer with a smile, "I'll make one for you just how you want...One day."
And that was their little world, full of happiness and laughter.But for how long?
Only God knows!
******
And the day came,when life tore them apart for their Love to conquer the distance.A fire accident in Orphanage didnt only burn their shelter but their home too.Screams and cries were heard, Fear gripped every soul that witnessed the angest of the fire.
Children were send to orphanages in different cities, wherever they could find a roof .Little Shravan and Suman were separated without even a goodbye.Both cried and begged but nothing could be done.Where Shravan lost his reason to live, Suman lost her sight as well.
A new Life awaited them, new surroundings and new challenges.But they conquered every obstacle, in a hope to meet the other..one day.
******
The screeching of tyres brought him back from his memory lane as the driver applied brakes.A sigh escaped his mouth and he ran his fingers through his silky hair. When I didnt have anything of my own but I had you and I had everything.Today I have everything , but I dont have you by my side Sumo n it all seems worthless.
Coming out, there he stood infront of a building carrying a board "Sunshine- A Place Called Love" an orphanage. They say visiting an orphanage leaves an empty n hollow feeling within you but it always made him feel closer to 'her'.It gives him peace.
Pushkar, one of the staff members of the place welcomed him and led him straight to the office of the Director of the Orphanage, Mr. Raghuwar Tiwari.The old man has been running this place for over 15 years now.He wanted to have a new building in a better locality.
Shravan ,An Arctitect and the MD of SS Constructions, met Pushkar in a social gathering a year ago.Shravan offered to help when Pushkar discussed the issue.So here he was, to discuss the plan. After initial greetings , Shravan with Pushkar sat on the chairs in front of Mr. Tiwari.
"Shravan can we wait for a while?. Actually I wanted Suman to be present here too.She will be here anytime." Asked Mr. Tiwari.
Suman...He heard the name n his mind went straight to 'her'. Shravan Suman naam ki naa jaane kitni ladkiyan hongi. Har Suman teri Sumo nahi ho sakti.
"Ya sure Sir.No Problem."
Just then a girl in her early twenties entered with a sweet smile playing on her lips.
"Hello Suman, nice to meet you." Shravan extended his hand to shake, but she simply nodded her head and greeted him back with a soft hello. How Rude!
"Please dont take me as rude person.Its not me, its my eyes.As pretty as they may seem, all they have to give is darkness." Suman replied with a smile leaving Shravan stunned.
"Am so sorry."
"Please dont be...N am sorry for making you wait. Shall we discuss."
"No problem and ya sure."
And the four sat there and discussed everything needed.In all this, what Shravan got to know was that Suman was an orphan too but was like a daughter to Mr. Tiwari and she is a sculptor.Impressed he was with her character strength.
After completing the formalities, he requested to stay there for the night as he would love to spend time with children there and Mr. Tiwari agreed happily.
*******
It was dark and the air was thick.What was happening?...He saw here and there but couldn't see anything.And suddenly he felt an unbearable heat.And in a split second, there was an ocean of Fire that surrounded him.Fear gripped his being and he screamed but nobody came.Sumo...Where is she. He tried searching for her and saw her standing in a corner, alone and crying. As try as he may, he couldn't reach her.The fire was approaching her quickly and it engulfed her whole and he found himself just staring at her...helplessly!
"SUMO!!!!!..."
He sprang up on his bed all dripping in sweat.It was a nightmare...again.
His companion of years.But it still has the power to shake his very being.And he being the helpless couldnt do anything than to shudder and cry...for her.
Please be safe Sumo.Wherever you are, please be safe..for me.I will come for you.I will!
Where are you Shravan..Please come back.Please...
Both were calling out to each other, one in a room n other sitting in the garden...Both unaware of other's presence.
*****
*The following morning*
"Hey princess, you know where Suman will be?" Shravan asked a girl as he had to leave and wanted to see her once.Why, he didnt know.
"She will be in her studio.Go straight and take left, second room."
After thanking her, he went inside but found it empty.He was about to turn back when something caught his eyes.A sculpture of a boy.It looked familiar so he went near to have a better look and It looked like...him?!!
And it hit him...hard. Suman, Orphan, n now this.A realization n he found himself unable to breathe.With blurry vision he found himself taking a step back.Taking support of the wall behind, he whispered , "Sumo"
"Who are you?" She came out washroom n heard him.Shock and a relief was what she felt.
Shravan took slow steps towards her n cupped her face.
"Sumo its me, your Chashmish."He whispered.
"Shravan you came." Holding onto his hands, she cried.
And the hell broke.Both cried and smiled at the same time.No words exchanged, their feelings were enough to speak.Feelings that were buried deep for so long.
"I waited for you Shravan.All these years..I cried , shouted, complained to this sculpture cause you were not there with me."
His complaining Princess was back.
"Am sorry...Am so sorry..."
*****
Both were sitting on a bench in the garden wrapped in each other's embrace.
"Sumo, Apne ghar chale?" He said suddenly surprising her.
"Tumhe yaad tha?"
"I promised my princess, didnt I?"He replied with so much love that it brought tears in her eyes.
"Shh...no Sumo.I cant see you crying."And that made her realize something.
"I wont be able to see you Shravan nor your love." She replied sadly.
"I will make you feel..every day, every hour, every moment...You know how?"
"My touch of Love..felt it?" He said kissing her forehead lovingly and she nodded with closed eyes smiling bathing in his love.
Suman touched his face with her fingers as if to imprint the image in her mind and heart..forever.And Shravan felt it...Her Touch of Love.
Two broken , lonely souls met and both were home again.
Love is a touch of Friendship and a handful of dreams...
Past And Promises
Suman backed out of the crowd of women gathered around Preethi, singing and dancing each of them.
She needed to get away for a minute, before the fake smile on her face withered away for the depressing thoughts in her heart grew stronger.
While stalking over towards the balcony, she admired the beauty of the house but still dreading every moment in it.
Tonight, Malhotra mansion shone with bright lights. Fragrance of roses made the ambiance serene. It was Preethi's baby shower.
Her sister was pregnant, blissfully married and unequivocally loved. Suman was happy for Preethi, truly, but she also couldn't help but feel empty as well.
It wasn't like she hadn't tried to fill her own life with happiness. She did.
She'd tried reconciling her friendship with Shravan after he returned from London. Over and over again, she had tried fixing her errs. And in the end, with the thirst of love, had gotten married to him.
But what a fool she'd been!
She, out of all people, should have known the incessant nature of her ill fate.
To run from one emptiness, she stepped into another out at the balcony.
Noises of people blurred behind. Relentless calls of bugs and birds of darkness surrounded her. She leaned against the carved railing and shivered at the coldness of the concrete. As a gust of wind hit her skin, she let out a shuddering, cloud alike breath.
She regretted forgetting to bring her shawl.
The next moment though, she found a warm body enveloping her from behind. Gasping in surprise she arched forward to move away, but then the body persistently followed. Moreover, two large arms wounded around her entire form, making her feel covered, if not conquered. It didn't help that she knew who had so scandalously wrapped her up in his arms.
She could never forget his touch, even though they had never made love. She could never forget his scent, even though the scoundrel had turned into a drunkard when they lived under one roof.
"Shravan...,"
"You've come," he cut in.
She swallowed, trying hard to resist the temptation their closeness created. "It's Preethi's baby shower, of course, I would come for her."
"Not for me though." His chin rested on her shoulder and she gripped the railing tighter.
Feeling the undercurrent of sadness in his voice, her heart twisted and all the walls she had built around them threatened to fall, shattered to the ground.
No. That she could not let happen.
Therefore, she squirmed, trying to get out of his embrace. "Let me go," she pleaded.
His arms loosened enough for her to slide out of them. But seemed like he clearly wasn't in the mood to release her completely. Not this time around.
Last time, he'd literally begged before her at Tiwari house, but to no avail. She'd forgiven him but had refused to return.
She'd seen the tears in his eyes then, but her wounds were still very much fresh from his many strikes of hatred, and so, she'd ignored the demands of her heart and had decided the distance between them.
Eight months had passed since then, after she'd watched him defeatedly leave. But now, he seemed unwilling to accept defeat. Grabbing her upper arms, he looked similar to a child holding onto his one last playmate.
"Let me go," she said again. Trembling as his touch filled her with the warmth that nothing could take away, not even the misty breeze of a November night, not the dew drops that fell on her shoulder from the leaves of the tree snug next to the balcony.
"I can't." he stared at her so vulnerably. "I simply can't. Not anymore."
Her eyes filled with tears and his did too.
"I need to..." she stammered. "Go back inside."
"Stay." he said desperately.
She knew this 'stay' meant a lot more than just staying in the balcony for some time more and it was the one thing she was scared of giving him.
So she shook her head, and the look that crossed his face was as though he was shot in the chest, point blank.
"It's been long enough, Sumo." he finally took the name that never failed to melt her with the memories and emotions coated all over it. "I can't bear not seeing you anymore, not hearing you calling me names. Your laughter, your smiles, these eyes. And the food you cook and the banters that we used to have, I can't live without all these," he paused to take in a shaky breath. "I can't live without you, I don't wish to. So if you still want to stay away from me, you better stab a knife through my heart and get it done with once and for all...,"
"Shravan!" she protested loudly.
He leaned in to rest his forehead on hers, and as the lashes of his eyes brushed against hers, the wetness of their tears mingled. "Give me another chance, Sumo," he asked desperately. "One last chance."
And she wanted to, in her heart she wished to give all that he wanted from her, of her.
But what would be the consequences of that leap? Was she going to find her feet landing on hard ground or another path of thrones?
"But what if the bitterness owns you once again? What then?" she chose to voice her fear and it was the same as before. "I've seen you despise me, Shravan, I've seen you blindly trusting the opinions of others and ruining what we could have been."
Their issues were always the same, complicated was how they reacted on them.
"Haven't I told you that it would never happen again?" he asked miserably. "Haven't I promised you that? So set on self-preservation, my Sumo, that you refuse to see all the light I'm so resolute in giving you after an era of darkness. See for once, Sumo, look into my eyes!"
She choked on a sob, flashes of sour memories attacking full-force. "That is the thing, Shravan. How can I look into your eyes and not remember the hatred I've seen in them, so much hatred... for me!"
He sucked in a breath harshly.
And she felt his heart pounding as he suddenly grabbed her by the waist and hurled her into his chest, into the most fierce hug she'd ever heard of.
It was her body's instinct that every inch of it rejoiced being so close to him.
"But have you seen the love in my eyes, for you?Oh, you haven't. And it's my fault, after all," his voice was an octave lowered. He whispered in her ear--more than words--promises, "Not anymore though, you will not look into my eyes ever again and not see how much I love you. Let me replace those dark memories that so torments you with new, beautiful ones. I'll make you come back to me one day, Sumo, and you'll never be allowed to leave me again."
Not knowing how to reply to that, she remained in silence, soaking in the warmth of his embrace. She stood shivering, dreading his promise, but yet awaiting the fulfillment of it, ardently.
A Winter Not Too Cold
Weren't they the intended to be' pair? She was certain, not too long ago. But, what had happened? She'll never know. Only thing she knew was they weren't happy, absolutely not. They looked at each other in the eye as they recalled the long-gone and then the not-no-beautiful present.
For him, it was the first time they had met, along corridors a chirpy girl who walked right into him. One reason he couldn't talk around her was that he never was able to tear his eyes off her face let alone utter a coherent sentence. Then, the time they met again as adults; he wanted to say that she had grown up to be admirable women but his ego kept him mum. The last was when Mr. Ramnath Malhotra as he called him now told him the truth. About her yet again choosing another and not him. Despite the bitterness he harbored, never did his love waver.
For her, the first was nothing but a fleet of memories of her talking and him quietly listening. The reason why she talked so much around him was that she had none but him. Not family, none of the bogusfriends' she had. Then, the time when they rekindled their dosti', she wanted to tell him that it wasn't only his friendship she craved for, but her fear of rejection kept her shut. The last was when he came to PCT and off was the tag of best friends. But none of his words made her love falter. Conclusively, they were his way of conveying his pain.
There were two things, undeniable; the two loved each other...still and also that they couldn't restore what they were.
They stood at a distance of mere steps ...yet so distant with expression of two defeated people. She wrapped her arms around herself as cold winds blew with might. She looked over to the setting sun, downing after completing its round around the Earth. Maybe that's where their relation had come to, a point where there was only frost and doomed darkness. But, no winter lasts forever.
Mohabbat Aisi Thi Ke Unko Batayi Na Gayi,
Chot Dil Par Thi Iss Liye Dikhayi Na Gayi,
"Suman!" A voice called from behind.
"Kaho."
"Suman, chalo. It's getting late and cold too. You don't handle cold well either." He said looking at her back as she stared onward.
"I'll come. Tum jao." She said in a monotone voice still looking ahead.
"Can you listen to me for once? You know that this is last place where I'd leave you alone at this hour. You insisted hum party ke baad yahaan aaye, I complied, ab meri baat maano aur chalo." If being around her and not letting the mask of indifference slip was difficult, coming to the park too familiar with memories of them together was excruciating.
She looked at him for a long second and then back at the lake."Chalo." She complied as she walked towards him but went ahead towards the car not even looking up at him.
Shravan breathed a sigh thinking, from a phase where the two craved each other's company they had now ceased to even exchanging looks.
.
.
"Let's walk then." The party tonight went finer than expected. They were civil...had to be. Pretending like a newlywed couple wasn't the most difficult task. After all, you need only so much practice to learn. Testing part was, keeping one's emotion on the bay, every time their wedding became a topic, beautiful lies they spoke.
Exactly how they wished life for them was.
But as they headed out of the park, their car broke down which left them with no option but to walk under the stars. On the coldest night of the season, Suman's flowy sarree did nothing to keep her warm and hence, his oversized coat had found its way onto her shoulders. They walked in silence.
"Maaf kar paoge mujhe?" She asked not looking at him. As they paused in the walk, her fingers began fidgeting.
"What makes you ask so?" Not out of curiosity, it was his guilt that made him ask. She wasn't yet aware, not of his sins.
"Because I'm too tired of lying." Tears pooled in her eyes. "Thak gai hu pretend karte hue that we are a happy couple so in love with each other when we are not and you clearly don't want me in your vicinity. So tell me at once, will you forgive me ya phir should I quit lying, because I no longer can." His eyes widened at her response. "I know, maine galat kiya. Lekin tum to mujhe samajhne ka daava karte the na? Samajhna kya tumne to meri explanation tak nahi suni. Ek baar puccha mujhse ki maine Aditya ko kyun chuna? Kyun maine Preeti ko tumse aage rakha? Socha ki Aditya se jo kuch bhi tumne kaha mujhe kaise affect karega. Nahi. Apni assumptions banaakar beth gaye, aur mera point of view kabhi sunna hi nahi chaaha." She brushed away her angry tears by the back of her palm.
Her accusations were powerful and sorely true, but there was a certain line which caught his attention,the one mentioning Aditya. "Tumhe pata hai?" Indirect the question was, but she knew him way too well to not guess.
She smiled humorlessly. "That's all what matters to you?" registering the shocked expression on his face she continued. "Yes, I do. Tumne nahi bataya, that's all what hurts." Her tears had no bondage now.
"Kyun kiya?" he shouted back. "Kyun intezaar kiya mere tutne ka? Tinka-tinka karke pura khatam kar diya." With bloodshot eyes and an inflamed look, he was epitome of vulnerability. "Why did you make me stoop a level so low that I'd have to taint our friendship to prove that there was a relation amidst us? Kisi dusre ke saamne you abridged me to just an acquaintance. And I? I couldn't watch you, the love of my life being snatched away. Nahi, seh paaya main." She had damaged him, she knew. How big of damage? His reply countered.
"Kyunki main tumhe apni family se aage nahi rakh pai. Unke ehsaano tale, bojh ban kar jee rahi thi main. Unke aage tumhe nahi chun pai main." Her voice no longer accusing it was calm as death, short and snappy. "Tum rakhte mujhe apni family ke aage? Apne dad ke? Nahi, you had been perspicuous enough the last time I tried to tell you the truth. Aur phirse, I couldn't watch you hate me. But the sardonicism is that you do. Main kuch bhi karoon, na bhi karoon, I'll be hated. either by you or someone else." Her weeping no longer remained silent.
"I can never hate you." He emphasized on each word. Had he tried to understand her then, none of them would've gone through agony they did. "Even after running all I could, life brings me back to you." He spoke with earnestness in his eyes but Suman was too wounded herself to decipher.
"Lie as you may." Shutting her eyes, she inhaled deeply. "But this one, I desperately want to believe, I really do." She began to lower as the sobs weighed her down but before she could collapse, he held her in his arms and pulled her to chest as tears soaked his shirt.
"This one's true Sumo. It is." He mumbled as he kissed on top of her head.
Too many things were to be dealt with. The loopholes were many. Only thing firm was, that the broken two were back to make a whole. Given that they had each other, there was nothing they couldn't make up to. They didn't need to go back to what they were; maybe they could start over and build something better.
Maybe the winters this time weren't that icy.
Pyaar agar sacha ho to kabhi nahi badalta,
Na waqt ke saath, Na haalaat ke saath...