Dear Nalini,
Take care of your health, that is priority.
Dearest Nyna 🤗
Thank you so much ..im feeling a lot better for now . Gulped down all my pills and rested well for hours. So I'm back in my dream land somewhat hale and healthy.
Somehow I can't see the image you have attached here. But i guess its one of your signature emo wishing me a quick recovery . Thankyou so much dear.
And talking about signature emos, I love your new signature. And it reminded me of the tales I promised to read. And I still hope to stick to that.
Chapter 4 - The Will of Gods
Swara willingness to give their marriage, their love a chance - for someone like Sanskaar who does not gamble, especially with the stakes so high - but then it truly was not a gamble, not when Sanskaar still believed in his love for her, her love for him
and their love. As he tells her, even she took a chance on their love and gambled with her life. It is indeed the will of the Gods that their love would not only survive all odds but gain victory too.
But then he had not planned on letting her know how much he needed her, because he felt that could scare her, the very potency of the love he had for her could drive her to take refuge behind the shadowy mists that that single memory of him shooting
her had created. Perhaps he was right, or maybe not - he sort of did manage to
Yea, about will of gods , truely said. They both are not ones to gamble with the others but the situation was so that they had to give a chance to fates and risk a step to reach a resolution. But Sanskaar couldn't do it at all with all the lovely and trusty vows he had made to her. It was too much for him to play with her like that. And so he made sure to rip those into pieces, hoping that those will atleast convey his unsaid feelings.
I'm glad you saw the depth of his confusion. He is really scared to even utter his feels because the sincerity and poignance could be interpreted very wrongly from where she was standing. And one wrong step is doom for him. Yet by some miracle he did manage it. you did get a glimpse of the chaos and free will then. I'm glad. 😊
Lakshya - you have made me redeem himself quite well and here he is so much of Sanskaar's brother - he understood what his brother must have been going through, felt he would not be able to drive properly and actually waited for Sanskaar to confirm what had transpired in this meeting with Swara, despite his own confession that he was dying to know. Sanskaar had to relive his memories, gaze at the beauty without to finally gain the reassurance he needed to realise that his Swara is still there, somewhere within the Swara, who now is unable to "see" him.
As I have said in many posts before Nyna, I have developed a certain liking towards the sanlak bound. Previously I thought Lakshya to be an incorrigible brat. But in the whole ml track I saw him in a new light beside Sanskaar. It was such a relief, or I would never venture into tha character at all for all the imprudence he was previously.im glad you think it was brought up well here. And yes sometimes silence and silent gestures communicate a lot. He was genuinely worried that Sanskaar couldn't be in a good mind to drive. Given the state he came to swara and the hasty way he least her room were enough for his now vigilant brother to see what needs to be done.
Isn't it a wonder Nyna how the beauty without , may it be the stary skies , the rosy dawns or dusky sunsets, have a pissant effect on our thoughts. I think Sanskaar and swara as people ruled by the elements of raw nature. There is so much in them that could be related and expressed through these universal phenomenons. And often in times as these they communicate through them to eachother. Sanskaar sees swara in everything that's dark as the light. And swara even with all the sunshine she could be always shines her lambience only with his reassuring and staunch presence. For him everything the twinkling effervescent and exuberant reminds of her and for her everything that warm firm and earthly reminds of him. Like she said after her wedding "I can fight the whole world bravely but that strength only comes because of you"
The brotherly bond (which I know is spilling into the next chapter and might form a significant crux of the story) is so admirable - Sanskaar manages to convey volumes in that one word "Sorry" (there are times when a single heartfelt sorry says so much) and then Lakshya's slightly embarrassed brushing off (I agree with the sentence, "she is a friend" but "Scum" a little harsh). And what was more wonderful, was Lakshya's quite refusal to let Sanskaar say anything more. A silent communication that managed to convey that the past is gone and done with and they both were now friends as they once were.
Thankyou so much Nyna, for seeing to its many layered meanings. I'm pleased😊. Yes sanlak are developing a telepathy too. And I'm glad you liked it .
Hmm, you will see why I made him harsh. though I'm liking Lakshya I can never let him be Sanskaar. I'm partial towards Sanskaar. Nah, no one can be anywhere close to his ideal nature. But besides that the harshness was necessary, you see as a man to another man. Thats how they communicate . We women as all too expressive and soft in conveying feelings but men are often taking pride in brushing off things with a little harshness. Lakshya is Lakshya only God can help him there I was just bringing some character of him through the way he words things.
I think every person will have some deeply hidden emotions and doubts they often fear to utter and don't want to show for many reasons. And also that one should always acknowledge their imperfections and of others too. Nobody in this world is perfect. And Sanskaar is at his weekest in this scene. Lakshya's dialogue had a trigger in it and it brought them up. But Lakshya was by now mature and polite enough to see that they shouldn't be spoken and are only better if left unspoken. And so he stopped his brother from uttering them. Out side this fic people are so intolerant to basic human natures of every kind. May it be guilt or anger or slight disappointments. It's their take and idea. I agree. But on a larger scale if effects the society gravely. I'm glad you liked that bit of silent exchange.
Sahil Senguptha - why do I get the feeling that he is making ambitious plans without adequate background - his idea sounds good but does he actually have the business acumen to pull if off? I feel that his plans is more based on his obsession with Swara and a desperate mission to possess her rather than a true business plan. Well, guess you will let us know.
Hehe. Those weren't his ideas. I don't think deadwood is capable of them at all. But the real villains are yet to come Nyna. Deadwood is just a side kick. I plan to keep it a secret for now. But I'm just spilling a few beans for you. Hmm.. Sahil is not the villain in this story at all. I plan to keep him deadwood all along, but you can always guess right?
Swara is indeed stepping from twilight to light - in the golden haze of the early morning hours, she decides to take a chance - partly helped by the shredded divorce papers - she cannot remember the words he wrote and said that she had uttered them to him, but is aware that those words could be hers. And that simple act of his faith in her words does more than anything he said could have done. It even makes her interested enough in those Cds that he left behind for her. I loved the symbolism of the overwriting that both do - Prince and Princess and "I love you" in his case (the fact that there was somebody he could love after his personal tragedy was the most important thing for him), and in her case it was the words Forever (a allusion to the events in her life, that all the men had been there only for a fleeting amount of time) and her name - Swara Sanskaar Maheshwari - which defined her very existance. And reading it somehow reiterates her deepest emotions, her deep strong love for him and a faint recognition of his love for her - an ephemeral image of Sanskaar in the eternal proposal.
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