I wanted to add in my earlier post that to me Mother Teresa seemed more spiritual then religious and this article came out today..!!!
Mother Teresa's 'crisis of faith' spelled out in book
CATHOLICISM | Felt no presence of God for half century, her letters reveal
August 24, 2007
BY SHAMUS TOOMEY AND SUSAN HOGAN/ALBACH Staff Reporters
Spiritual people say there are times when God seems far away. St. John of the Cross called it the dark night of the soul. Other Christians call it "desert" time, drawing from the 40 days the Bible says Jesus spent soul-searching in the desert. Mother Teresa of Calcutta's spiritual drought extended for decades and led her to doubt the existence of heaven and God, according to a Time magazine report on a new book of her letters,
Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light. The book is described as "a startling portrait in self-contradiction," a woman world-famous for her faith revealing that for the last half century of her life,
she felt no presence of God whatsoever. She writes of the "dryness," "darkness," "loneliness" and "torture" she is undergoing. Cecilia Paz (right) met Mother Teresa at Chicago's St. Procopius Church; A statue of Mother Teresa "Caring for a Child" at Missionaries of Charity in Chicago.
(John H. White/Sun-Times)
Mother Teresa indicates she's aware of the discrepancy between her thoughts and her cheery public demeanor, writing that her smile is "a mask" or "a cloak that covers everything."
The book was compiled and edited by the Rev. Brian Kolodiejchuk, who is leading her petition for sainthood. Mother Teresa, who died in 1997, has been beatified by the Roman Catholic Church, a step toward canonization. The book, published by Doubleday, is due out early next month, coinciding with the 10th anniversary of her death. It features more than 40 communications between Mother Teresa and her superiors and confessors. Many of them have never been published. They were collected as Kolodiejchuk prepared her petition for sainthood. Teresa did not want the letters published but was overruled by her church, according to Time. In one letter, she asks the Rev. Lawrence Picachy, later a cardinal, to "please destroy any letters or anything I have written." Her reasoning for wanting the letters destroyed was about overcoming pride. "I want the work to remain only His." If the letters became public, she explained to Picachy, "people will think more of me -- less of Jesus." The book's release is eagerly awaited by members of Teresa's order living in Chicago. She made several visits to Chicago and established a local chapter of her Missionaries of Charity here. One nun who knew Teresa and traveled with her during several trips in the United States and abroad said the letters are surprising. "She never would tell [fellow nuns] of her personal difficulties," the sister said. "She was always joyful, accepting the will of God." Some of Teresa's writings made it to the Chicago nuns in recent years, and those were eye-opening, as well. "We did not know that mother went through all of those difficulties in her life," the nun said. "It was a surprise for us; nothing was showing in her face." Although atheists and doubters say
the writings show a woman trying to come to grips with the absence of God, Kolodiejchuk assumes Teresa's inability to perceive Christ in her life did not mean He wasn't there. He sees it as part of the divine gift that enabled her to do great work, according to Time. Cecilia Paz, a Pilsen Catholic, met Mother Teresa during a 1985 visit to St. Procopius, where Paz has been a parishioner for more than 50 years. She is eager to read Teresa's writings but isn't surprised to learn of what Time calls Teresa's "crisis of faith." "A person of that stature, that holiness, they always have that constant struggle to be the best person they can, a perfect role model," said Paz. "They struggle with themselves that they're not worthy," she said. "There's that constant struggle to fulfill their mission, their vision."
'The emptiness is so great that I look and do not see' August 24, 2007 EXCERPTS FROM MOTHER TERESA: COME BE MY LIGHT "Jesus has a very special love for you. As for me, the silence and the emptiness is so great that I look and do not see -- Listen and do not hear -- the tongue moves [in prayer] but does not speak ... I want you to pray for me -- that I let Him have [a] free hand." -- Mother Teresa to the Rev. Michael Van Der Peet, a spiritual confidant, September 1979 "Lord, my God, who am I that You should forsake me? The Child of your Love -- and now become as the most hated one -- the one -- You have thrown away as unwanted -- unloved. I call, I cling, I want -- and there is no One to answer -- no One on Whom I can cling -- no, No One. -- Alone. ... Where is my Faith -- even deep down right in there is nothing, but emptiness & darkness -- My God -- how painful is this unknown pain -- I have no Faith -- I dare not utter the words & thoughts that crowd in my heart -- & make me suffer untold agony. "So many unanswered questions live within me afraid to uncover them -- because of the blasphemy -- If there be God -- please forgive me -- When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven -- there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives & hurt my very soul. -- I am told God loves me -- and yet the reality of darkness & coldness & emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. Did I make a mistake in surrendering blindly to the Call of the Sacred Heart?" -- addressed to Jesus, at the suggestion of a confessor, undated "What tortures of loneliness. I wonder how long will my heart suffer this?" -- just months after starting to minister to Calcutta's poor in 1948 "Please pray specially for me that I may not spoil His work and that Our Lord may show Himself -- for there is such terrible darkness within me, as if everything was dead. It has been like this more or less from the time I started 'the work.' " -- to Archbishop Ferdinand Perier in 1953 "The more I want him -- the less I am wanted." -- to Perier in 1955 "Such deep longing for God -- and ... repulsed -- empty -- no faith -- no love -- no zeal. -- [The saving of] Souls holds no attraction -- Heaven means nothing -- pray for me please that I keep smiling at Him in spite of everything." -- 1956 "Tell me, Father, why is there so much pain and darkness in my soul? -- to the Rev. Lawrence Picachy, August 1959 https://www.suntimes.com/news/metro/524784,CST-NWS-mside24.ar ticle https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?xml=/news/2007/08 /24/wteresa124.xml https://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1655415,00.htm l
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