Only my bestie...??? #2 Chapter 31 updated on Pg 91 [11/4/15] - Page 34

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Chapter-29

Khushi staggered back a few sinking steps, an action that Arnav deliberately chose to ignore. Her eyes bulged apart before narrowing down to a point somewhere behind him, trying hard control the dam of tears that certainly broke free with his last sentence. Her hands covered her widely opened mouth as involuntarily, heavy sobs racked through her body. She aligned her body on the pillar behind to support her weak legs that seemed to have suddenly lost their ability to withstand her weight.

How does one feel when our every single action speaks of nothing but solecism? How does one feel when our every sacrifice seems contemptible? How does one feel when we come to know that in an attempt to light up someone's dark world, we had actually ended up obfuscating it more?

If death was the ultimate anonymity of pain, she felt she died that very moment. All these while, she had been putting him over herself, considering his happiness before hers. But now all he has to say is that, "your Arnav can never be happy without you khushi".

When she heard him speaking, "I mean that's so foolish on anyone's part to blindly trust an outsider speaking about on our best friend's behalf. I know, my khushi never do anything of such sort." She felt she had been slapped right on her face. Sameera had so very ingeniously placed herself as Arnav's want and she like a fool, believed her. If she was what Arnav wanted, why wasn't Arnav happy all these days?

Fury that withheld the power to melt the moutains coursed through her veins recalling the awful conversation she had with Sameera that day in the hospital premises as she, for the first time sensed the logic in it. If Sameera was failing to gain Arnav's attention then it was her lack of ability, she was nowhere to be blamed for their failure sort of a relationship. Yet, when Sameera blackmailed her with Arnav's future, she gave in. Sameera blamed her for being a nuisance in their happy world. This wasn't the truth, she knew it then and she knew it now. But the only reason she obliged to her command was for the sake of her Arnav's happiness. She thought, if Sameera is what he wanted, so be it. And now, he says he could never be happy without her. He wants her, NO!, needs her in his life. He says, she completes the world for him. An elucidated enlightenment to the fact she had known for years!!

Oh god! Yeh maine kya kar diya?

Why do I have to underrate myself? Why haven't I ever stopped to consider Arnav's actual wants? Agreed, Sameera makes him happy but I too am his bestie. He had never ever failed to show how much I matter to him then how can I vitiate myself so much from an self-imposed, self-imagined, completely baseless Arnav's point of view?

The utmost faith with which he declared that my Khushi would never do anything of her such sort killed her some more, if that was even possible. Every agonizing moment that she spent when she decided to leave him for his own good came rushing back to her memory. That decision wasn't hers. She was forced to take it but now her heart broke into countless shreds as she realized he, for whom she took all the pains, never wanted her to leave.

Sameera was wrong! She was a big failure because she let her insecurities get the better of her. She couldn't gain Arnav's attention all by herself and that was why she wanted me out of their world so that she could utitlize the time and try her luck. If she was all arnav needed, he would have never missed me.

Agar Sameera insecure thi, to kahi nahi kahi mujhe bhi insecurity ho gai hi. I besmirched my freinship, dishonoured his trust and shattered my soul in the process. Mujhse itni badi galti kaise ho gai? Maine ek baar bhi palat kar kyu nahi socha? Arnav ki khushiyo ki parwa karte karte yahi bhul gai ke uski asli Khushi kya hai.

She recalled the countless memories of their adolescent days. There were times when Arnav had weighed her even more than his family. He had never failed to express through both his actions and words what value she held in his life. Yet when Sameera was asking her to leave, all she could think of was, how justifiable her perception felt.

Shayad maine hamesha se hi usse pyaar kiya hai. Tabhi toh, when Sameera pin-pointed our closeness, I felt like a selfish chump who was spoiling her love's happiness with her own hands. The need to prove to Sameera that I can do anything for my Arnav has pushed me over to the edge. Par kahi na kahi, I still trusted my heart that Sameera can never achieve what she so desperately wanted. Wo meri jagah kabhi naa paa sakti. But now, when my instincts had actually proven out to be so true, mujhe samajh nahi aa raha whether I should laugh or cry.

Sameera aur mere is enmity ke beech, arnav to jaise ulajh kar hi reh gaya. Na maine aur na Sameera ne uski asli khushiyo ki parwa ki. We both have let him down but even then, he is taking so much of pains to welcome us back whole-heartedly.

Kya ho tum arnav? Kyu itna pyaar karte ho mujhse? Tell me how should I face you now? And that question, hey devi maiyya, tumhaara wo queston! Ab mai tum se kya kahu? Kaise bataau ke jo kuch bhi tum mere bare me nahi soch rahe ho, maine EXACTLY wahi kiya hai.

She couldn't even bring herself think about his reaction if he ever found out what she did behind his back. Her entire thought process jaggled back and forth and led her again and again to his last spoken lines. Those made her feel unworthy of his friendship and his greatness beleaguered her heart.

She was well aware that he was letting her process all the information but she also knew he was also waiting for an answer. An Answer to a question that wasn't even meant for her. Such hypothetical situations are given to those who have never faced it but the irony was that she was already a step ahead to his thought processes. She had not only faced the condition he was so very putatively imposing upon her, but also had thouroughly let him down by failing in it.

"Arnav, I..." she attempted to answer when she felt him turning back to face her, looking on expectantly.

"Yes Khushi?" His eyes never missed anything, "bataao mujhe"

Without a word more, she made a sprint towards him and jumped straight into his wide open arms. She clutched him close for her dear life, breathed in his musky cologne and sobbed uncontrollably. I have no other way out than to disclose the truth. He deserves to know what his bestie actually is. He deserved to know how I had broken his trust and played with his feelings. I had already tormented him enough with my irrational behaviour. Not Anymore.

She opened her mouth to speak, framing proper sentences to begin with, when he softly pulled apart, gazing lovingly in her awe-struck eyes. Wiping her tears and caressing her damp cheeks, he gently cupped her face in his hands.

"Hey hey shush bestie, please don't cry yaar. I know tumhe ham dono ke liye bohot bura lag raha. But trust me, sab thik ho jaega, infact maine sab kuch almost thik kar bhi diya hai. I wont deny that I am stll upset with her but at the end of the day, we love each other so I guess its alright." he chuckled sadly wrenching khushi's heart even more.

However one thought halted her self-blasphemism and that was the mention of the L word. She couldn't help but wonder about the weird equation that Arnav and Sameera seemed to have in between them.

What kind of love is this? Sameera loves him, but her ego is more precious to her than his happiness. Arnav too loves her but all this while when I wasn't there and he got all the chances in the world to spend some amazing quality time with her, he wasn't fully happy and the reason is - because he missed ME. Instead of being over the moon, he remained distant and frustrated. So damn annoyed that he directed all his anger of my absence on her. And even of all these isn't enough bewildering, that Sameera so easily left him. If winning over me was so damn important to her, why the hell did she have to leave? Is this how she fights for her possessions?

Unkown to her embryonic emotions, he continued "And I think, more or less, the mistake's mine too. My love wasn't enough for her to open up to me. I have no rights to put the entire blame on her and stay angry like a grumpy old man when I was the one who pushed her away from me. I have realized, I should be the one making amends so here I am, planning a romantic evening to win her back. Maybe after this, she will learn to trust me with her sorrows." Arnav finished the last line with crisp distinctiveness, something that chilled khushi's heart at once.

Though his hands were still stroking her hairs and back, though her face was still remained tucked under his chin, though his head still rested on hers, Khushi felt the change in him instantly. It was as though, the last lines were meant for her. But how is this possible?

Considering the fact that she had more pressing matters at hand, she ignored her off-the-wall implications and tried to think on what to do next. Mai arnav ko abhi sach batakar uska mood spoil kaise kar sakti hu? He wishes to spend time with Sameera aur abhi agar Maine sach kaha toh he would be doing anything but that. But If I stay quiet now, aint I betraying him yet another time? Nahi, ab chahe jo ho, mai Arnav se kuch nahi chupaungi.

"Arnav, Lets just suppose whatever you asked me a few minutes before, agar woh sach hota toh? (Upon his cut-up gaze, she hurried continued) I..I mean if someone really asked me to leave you for the sake of your happiness and if I..I believed in it and leave you, H..how would you r..react Arnav?" It took lot of courage on her to raise this question but she knew, she was now proceeding in the right direction. A path that full of thorns but deteriorating isn't an option here. She promised to keep by her resolve by any means.

Arnav glanced at her for a few long moments before sighing and looking away. He too had come to a resolve. It was the time to drop the act and spill the beans.

"Undoubtedly, I would be hell angry on the person who provoked you to leave me but usse kahi zyada taklif tum mujhe doge Khushi. I would even doubt ke tumne kabhi meri sach me parwa ki bhi hai ya nahi? It would dither away my trust and break me completely from withing. I honestly feel, trusting a lie and seeking happiness are altogether two different things aur agar tum is baat me fark nahi jaan sakogi toh I would be hell disappointed bestie. But apne bharose ke tootne se zyada dukh is baat ka hoga ke you haven't even considered me worthy enough to share your pains. Kya mai itna bura hu Khushi, is kadar selfish ke tumse itni ghatiya kism ki sacrifice demand karu especially tab jab isme mere hi nuksaan hai. I would have never forgiven you, not for what you did to me rather for what you did to yourself. Aur tumse kahi zyada, mai khud se disappointed ho jaunga"

With the strength matching the intensities of an emerging storm, he dashed towards her and spoke with his stance unmitigated, "And that's exactly what has happened, isn't it Khushi? The day Shweta told me about the incident that triggered your hurried escape from the city itself, I knew I have failed you. I felt so ashamed to even call myself as your bestie. Meri khaatir tumne itna bada decision liya, the one thing you valued the most is your family and you gave upon it just for me, just for my silly love. Well, woh toh love tha bhi nahi. The day I was told the truth of your departure, I also realized that I have never loved Sameera because the hate I felt for her at that time surpassed every affection with an enormity you cant even come close to estimate bestie."

"Arnav?"

"Aur aaj jo bhi maine tumse kaha, sab bakwaas hai. It was only a trick to make you think about the ridiculousness of your stupid decision, about the destruction it caused to both of us, about the torment you had to undergo without even commiting any mistake to deserve it. Tumne mujhse meri nazro se hi gira diya. How could you K..hushi?"

"Arnav yeh tum kya.."

"Sach keh raha hu."

And "sach" was all he said, telling her everything right from the start, he dint left any tiny detail except some crucial ones ofcourse. One being his realization of love and other, err, his accident.

Now you tell me Khushi, kyu kiya tumne aisa? You were not like this, back-snapping was never an issue with MY bestie. She would always fight like a feisty lioness if someone as such even raised a finger on her character or our friendship. But..."

"But what Arnav? Aur kar sakti thi mai? You think I should I have retorted. Thappad lagana chahiye tha na use? And she would have become so happy on getting slapped by that one person, she hated the most, right? Why don't you think from my point of view dammit! I dint knew, ke tum us se pyaar nahi sirf pasand karte ho. I dint knew ke Sameera ke hote hue bhi you will miss me. From day one, you have consented of her to be your life partner, har baar mujhse bataya hai ke tum kitne Khushi ho is rishte se. And at that moment, I only thought that you may lose her because of my little mistake. How can I let that happen Arnav?

"So you thought you will step aside and everything would become perfect in my world ha?" His own stupidities of naming his infatuation as love were coming back to bite him and he was getting angrier second by second.

"YES, that's exactly what I thought. Use rokne ke liye mujhse jo karna pada, maine kiya" Khushi replied back.

Arnav: par tum mujhse dur jaa rahi thi God damn it, uska kya?

Khushi: That's not important Arnav.

Arnav: ofcourse it is!

Khushi: and why is that so?

Arnav: Because I LOVE YOU dammit. Pyaar karta hu tumse, behad zyada. Hamesha kiya hai aur hamesha karta rahunga.

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the hell with his nautanki
he finally confesses
at least someone does
cause she might not have
and it took him time to say those words
glad she pushed him so that he confessed
she didnt mean to of course
but about time he did
this way she can think about it too
as in confessing
really all that rubbish about getting sam back
but they all are right from their pov right
but sure became a huge mess for sure
guess that was needed
to get all three of them outta their thinking
and get the love birds the real one together
but what now
even though he confessed will she
and what will happen with them

its simply awesome..
finally arnav confessed..

At last he said it ...let's see khushi's reaction now in next update

Interesting!

Finally he confessed ...superb one

Hey sim-sim...! finally u r bck! awsm update!