I, Raavi... : drabble #ShiVi Part 3 updated on page 5

I, Raavi...

Raavi Shiva Pandya.. That's what my whole identity has become.. But that's what I wanted right? Or not..

I wanted a family, a husband who loves me just like I love him and to some extent, I got this too.. But why I'm feeling so empty, why does it feel like even after giving my everything to this house, this is not mine yet..

Shiva's result has been announced & he topped.. I knew this, I knew he could do this that's why I wanted him to continue his studies at all cost.. That's why I nagged him too much because I didn't want him to sacrifice his dreams yet again for any zimmedaari. I'm here, I wanted him to believe, I'll handle everything & I did.

But here I'm standing today, everyone has gathered, all the family members congratulating him & telling him how proud they are & they always knew he could do it.. But did they? Did they really believe him? Then why didn't they do anything for this, all these years? I know I shouldn't judge their love for them & I'm not judging... But yes I'm feeling a disconnect, like in their eyes, I'm just a catalyst not the actual agent who can make anything happen & often my role is forgotten..

This happened during business competition too.. The time nobody believed him, when Shiva was having this feeling that he shouldn't even take part but my faith in him never wavered.. I knew he could do this, at competition I knew how nervous he must be feeling & I voiced that fear in front of Dhara di.. I was in no way doubting him but I understood him, it was difficult for him.. For every family member Shiva is a rock but I understand him as human, I know his fears, his nervousness, his insecurities.. It's okay for humans to fail on something, it doesn't mean they are not worthy, he would have still be champion for me bcz I know his worth. Failure & win in these competitions can't limit him just like leaving studies at young age, can't limit his growth..

But after winning the competition when Dhara di said in front of everyone that, " Dekha Raavi, maine bola tha na, Shiva kar lega.. Tu maan hi nhi rahi thi" & when Shiva said that "mujhe pata tha bhabhi koi maane ya na maane aap mujh par hamesha bharosa karoge"... I felt like ground swept beneath my feet..

Really?? Is that it? Was my role as a catalyst finished so I'm forgotten?

& today is again that day.. Suman kaki asked me to make tea for everyone & everyone is around Shiva, right besides him is dhara bhabhi.. After serving everyone tea I retreated to my room bcz I know my work is finished, I'm not needed now.. It's not like I'm not happy for Shiva.. I'm happiest but I know my role is finished.. The glory is never mine...

I started wondering what would it felt like if my parents were with me today? Should I have cried in front of them? Become unreasonable that I want to be more than just a catalyst? What would they say to me if they were here? Of course they would be more concerned about me, right? They would have told me what I'm doing for myself? They would have told me to live for myself, be happy for myself? If they wanted this from me, then why I'm not doing this? Can I not do this for my parents as well as my respect?

The flyer was sitting on the table, my friend sent this to me bcz she knew I have a knack in knitting & wanted to persue fashion designing but I dismissed her bcz this was a three months course in ahmedabad.. How can I go leaving everyone?

Then I saw in the aangan, nobody seems to miss me so much.. But I wanted to ask myself, if I want to do this because I'm feeling resentful? But answer was no.. Because I know myself, I'll forgive & forget.. I always do. But this is for myself.. Not even for Raavi Shiva Pandya but for Raavi, just Raavi.. The girl, who found happiness in everyone's happiness but somehow never gotten that for herself, who was nothing in anyone's eyes but she knew how much would change if she's not here but no, she doesn't want to do this because she wants them to know her worth. No she wants this for herself, before being catalyst for everyone, she wants to be the substance herself, find her substance in her... She decided that she'll go, she'll persue this.. She might not be brilliant like everyone else in that house but now was the time to do something for herself or the time would never come..

Shiva came in the room, "are chipkali Tu yaha hai? Dekh me wo payal laya hu... Ye kya tu kahi ja rahi hai? Ye bag?"

"Ha Shiva kal ahmedabad ja rahi hu.. Fashion designing course me admission lene.. Ye payal aur iske saath di hui Kasam ab teen mahine baad puri karna, jaha itna ruka thoda aur sahi.. Mujhe pata hai jaise maine teri padhai ke liye decision liya.. Mere liye koi aur nhi sochega itna.. Par I hope mera saath dega Tu Shiva.. Subah nikalna hai.. Baaki ghar me aur teri life me toh sab manage ho hi jayega, Dhara di hai na.. Wo sab sambhaal lengi.. Goodnight Shiva & congrats once again."

I slept with dreams for only myself at that night.. Maybe this journey & fight will be more fulfilling than being someone's wife...

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My first work on this forum.. Nothing much, was having some thoughts & became a drabble😆

Loved it 😍❤❤

Please continue it 🤍

Always wanted to see this raavi

Bt humari ye kismat kaha

This show is all abt dhara and shiva..

Gombi and raavi are their love interest nothing else

The concept of Raavi trying to find herself beyond what her relationship with Shiva offers her was pretty awesome! Even I feel like Raavi's progression as an individual has come to a pause because she's so busy nurturing Shiva's needs. Of course, I love that she's so supportive, but I don't want her to forget about the college degree she started during the divorce track... (I'm literally still waiting to hear updates about her college) Thanks for giving us a strong Raavi who is able to look out for herself!

I was so frustrated when Dhara took credit for Shiva's success and the pagal ladka actually agreed with her... Show mein bhi aisa kuch hua toh I'm gonna lose it 🤡

I'm glad that you decided to write something! 🤗

Originally posted by: mandira2

The concept of Raavi trying to find herself beyond what her relationship with Shiva offers her was pretty awesome! Even I feel like Raavi's individuality has come to a pause because she's so busy nurturing Shiva's needs. Of course, I love that she's so supportive, but I don't want her to forget about the college degree she started during the divorce track... (I'm literally still waiting to hear updates about her college) Thanks for giving us a strong Raavi who is able to look out for herself!

I was so frustrated when Dhara took credit for Shiva's success and the pagal ladka actually agreed with her... Show mein bhi aisa kuch hua toh I'm gonna lose it 🤡

I'm glad that you decided to write something! 🤗

After wedding track & when this education track started, I was quite hopeful but as usual we were served bhabhi crap.. I don't even have energy to be disappointed now.. I didn't even watch the episode since three days, despite it being a Shiva track.. That much disconnect I'm feeling with the show.. I know we will never get this in the show so wrote it myself.. Ab kya kar sakte hai

Can you continue this please? It's so well written. I need more of this Raavi.

And if possible make Raavi leave Shiva behind?

Originally posted by: Yahvi

After wedding track & when this education track started, I was quite hopeful but as usual we were served bhabhi crap.. I don't even have energy to be disappointed now.. I didn't even watch the episode since three days, despite it being a Shiva track.. That much disconnect I'm feeling with the show.. I know we will never get this in the show so wrote it myself.. Ab kya kar sakte hai

Same! I haven't been watching the episodes regularly for a while now. I was trying really hard to like the show again after the wedding fiasco, but then this stupid drama between Rishita and Dhara started 🤡 And I was finally starting to enjoy Shivi, but that too came to a stop when Shiva looked down on Raavi's opinion regarding Rishita going to her mayka... PS writers literally butcher all of their character development in one go 😕

Ugh most of the fanfic writers begin writing for the same reason you did! Even I started writing because I got very frustrated with the show and the way they were handling the characters😆

Originally posted by: rishton_khiston

Can you continue this please? It's so well written. I need more of this Raavi.

And if possible make Raavi leave Shiva behind?

I don't think Raavi is some one who'll leave her any relationship, let alone Shiva..

I think that's wrong on many levels to think that when a woman starts to think about herself, that means she wants to leave her existing relationship.. When a woman starts to think for herself, becomes her own priority, her other relationship too becomes better.. That maybe a lesson for both Raavi & Shiva like any other man & woman.. For Raavi to think more about herself, accepting it's not wrong & Shiva to understand & respect Raavi for this.. That's how relationships grow

Originally posted by: Yahvi

I don't think Raavi is some one who'll leave her any relationship, let alone Shiva..

I think that's wrong on many levels to think that when a woman starts to think about herself, that means she wants to leave her existing relationship.. When a woman starts to think for herself, becomes her own priority, her other relationship too becomes better.. That maybe a lesson for both Raavi & Shiva like any other man & woman.. For Raavi to think more about herself, accepting it's not wrong & Shiva to understand & respect Raavi for this.. That's how relationships grow

But Shiva never accepts her. Instead he shuts her up from stating her opinions. Dosen't Raavi deserve better? Someone who respects her?

Maybe she wasn’t actively looking for someone but she fell in love with someone better in her new environment when she saw the stark difference between Shiva and the new man?

Originally posted by: rishton_khiston

But Shiva never accepts her. Instead he shuts her up from stating her opinions. Dosen't Raavi deserve better? Someone who respects her?

Maybe she wasn’t actively looking for someone but she fell in love with someone better in her new environment when she saw the stark difference between Shiva and the new man?

I think Shiva has started to respect her & her opinion so right now I don't want her to leave him