*From To Sathish* - Thread 3 - Page 114

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Man and leopard walked,side by side,both feeling a sense of some forgotten,ancient bonding,an unspoken friendship and then the leopard stopped and looked up at the human that walked besides it.

' who are you and why did some primeval instinct beckon me to you when all my instincts from the day i was born warned me to walk,run away and hide from your species?'

Rudran crouched down on his knees and looked into the amber eyes of the large cat ' i am new at this game my friend and all these feelings and emotions are new to me and only for the past few months have they stirred and raised themselves from the deep where they had lain all my life.'

Turning his head and staring into the darkness,Rudran's eyes turned green and the cat stirred and growled and rudran turning back to it ' I am sure about just one thing and that is that when my kind walk into trouble and into darkness,there is one from your kind and others that walk besides us.'

Buddha,the leopard ' i have never felt these emotions all my life and here i am with you and it is as if i have been waiting for this day to fulfill my purpose.'

Rudran looked at the leopard ' my friend,i think that beyond us and beneath all these hidden secrets is a rule,a law that is upheld by nature and when that balance is upset,we walk the earth to maintain the balance between good and bad and more importantly between light and dark.'

Suddenly,the leopard hear rudran smile to himself and asked him ' what's so funny warrior? do share it with me for it might just lighten the mood and probably help me understand this strange situation better.'

Rudran looked at the cat ' sorry,my friend,but i laughed at my own observation about me and for i just remembered a story of my kind of warriors and the mark that is supposed to be on their bodies.'

The large leopard looked at rudran in a funny way swatted his arm gently ' strange warrior,of course you wear the mark for i see it shining brightly through your chest.'

Rudran not comprehending these words ' what mark? where in my chest?' and Buddha gently raised his large paw and placed it on rudran's chest where his heart beat strongly ' on your mighty heart master.the mark lies wrapped on your heart.and i can see it shine,beat and beckon to all that is good in this world and all that stands for the safety and well being of this planet.'



Flashback chapter 201 page 134 posted on 28th july

Then he dialed a number from memory and from which he had been called just once and far away in madurai,dhana picked up on the second ring and answered " Rudran" and rudran " dhana,something major is unfolding and all the signals point to india and i am on my way to delhi to find out exactly what is going on and what the true nature of this new,emerging darkness is."

Dhana" rudran,tell me exactly what it is you saw and maybe i can give you my thoughts on it although you are better placed to know more for you have a military background and an eye for sorting out the answer among the maze that is before you."

Rudran quickly but clearly explained to dhana the photos that had been sent by Mossad,the Israeli intelligence for the photos showed a man,many men boarding flights in airports from all around the world."

" But dhana,i don't think it is one man but several who are flyin in to the country and i guess that you know by now who their targets are."

Dhana cursed softly " Rudran,please stay in touch and keep updating me about any new developments and i will do the same.You are getting married tomorrow and somehow this new threat is not just a coincidence and i am wondering if you should postpone your wedding for some other day."

" Dhana,i too was thinking the same thing and there is still time for that decision.I will keep you posted and i will call you the moment i know more.Bye for now."


" Rudy.listen to me for i need to tell you something very important and if i don't do it now,then we might not get a chance to talk about it in the future.I know this might come as a shock to you but i want you to trust dr.otto hauptman when the time comes for he is our ally and has been an important ally for a long time."

Rudran sat still,shocked that dhana would know dr.otto and dhana continued " Rudy,all of us who carry the mark are blessed with powers beyond normal human species but you do not carry the mark on your body and yet you know and i know that you are part of the light.So,where is the mark that bestows,brands and makes it known to the darkness that you are a chosen one,a warrior born to do battle,protect and defend all that is good and kind in this world."

Rudran slightly lost and confused " Dhana,i am not sure what or where you are leading to?But why are these markings so important."

Dhana " Rudran,you haven't had the time to go through our history like i have done these past few years that i have been missing from the public and that time was spent in perumalvaram and in the belly of the mountain,going through and reading all about our world's history from the ancient times.In one of the books,a legend,a warrior came from the light and unlike other warriors his markings were not on his body but on his heart.This was found by a wise old man after the warrior died fighting single handedly, an army of thousand men and he left none alive.But the wounds he suffered were very tremendous and eventually he died or let his spirit slip away."

Rudran " Okay dhana,but how does this legend concern my situation and how does it matter if the markings are on my heart itself."

" Rudran,that is where the story gets lost and becomes confusing for it only says that the warrior was not one but two and that when they thought he had been killed,he rose from the darkness and eventually led his side to victory.I am sorry for i know it is all very confusing but i repeat trust dr.otto if it comes to that."

" Okay dhana,i will do as you tell me but this legend who died and came back and who was marked on his heart,where was he from,our country or from outside?"

" The story is from the land of egypt,nearly four thousand years ago and the warrior is the one who was supposed to have united upper and lower Egypt and his name was Narmer."

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The night was young and the presence of the large leopard was like a soothing balm to the soul of Rudran and he remembered the large tiger he had met in Thailand who was also called Buddha and then remembering the fact that all the companions of men like him had been called by that name,he looked at the leopard and the leopard with a smile in its twinkling eyes ' so,what were we,your companions called before the coming of buddha,the one who attained nirvana and experienced the truth.'

Rudran stuck for an answer,turned back to look at the large walls of the estate behind which lay the man he was after and whose life he was going to end that night and turning back to the leopard ' what's in a name my friend? whats in a life? for in the end actions and deeds speak louder than a name and a scream.'

Rudran gently patted the spotted head of the leopard ' i am going to go now and i want you to stay back here for i don't want you to follow me up that wall for it is electrified and there are men inside who carry weapons that could end your life in a moment.'

The leopard looked at him with a hint of anger and frustration ' so,then why was i called,of all these days,now.why am i here this night with you,besides you on a day when you have come to hunt,kill and end those lives that i sense are pretty evil and dangerous.'

Rudran ' i am sure there is a reason for everything and just as you have trusted that instinct for the past few months while you waited for me in this small forest,trust it again for i have learnt that there is a reason and a purpose to all that which happens and all of them lead to a destination.It might not reveal itself now but it will and then all things will be clear as light.'

Saying this to the leopard,Rudran closed his eyes and threw his senses all around the forest and saw everything that was in a few kms around him and he counted in his mind ten men inside the compound and then his senses screamed a warning that something was terribly wrong inside the compound and that somewhere inside the building were more people and yet he could not sense them as he sensed the others that were outside the building.'

The leopard growled ' i sense what it is you are seeing with your soul and i must warn you that there is something terrible with the picture that i am getting from you.'

Rudran totally on alert,' so i gather that we are also bonded through our senses and you can sense and feel what i feel and i guess that i can do the same,vice versa.'

The leopard looked into the trees and swivelled its massive head towards rudran and taking the cue Rudran looked into the tree and in the darkness,his green alien eyes saw the cameras placed there and assumed that they must be placed in regular intervals in the trees and all around the estate.

Rudran got up slowly and going as near as possibly he could,he stood observing the cameras and its movements and saw that they all looked inside and none rotated in a full 360 degree circle which would have alerted the person who was monitoring the screens of his and the leopard's presence.


Buddha,the leopard nudged his left leg and rudran slowly crouched on his toes ' well,those cameras are like the eyes we have my friend and they help the people inside to see what is happening outside.But,even they suffer from a common phenomenon called " camera blind spot" and there also many simple ways to stop them from seeing us.

Removing a small tube from the inner pocket of his jacket,he looked at Buddha the leopard ' now my friend,this is where you can help me get inside.I am going to sneak up the tree and spread this black paste from this tube on top of the lens and they will be blind.I am just going to do that for a one camera for any more than that will arouse their suspicions and put them on high alert which will make our task a bit more difficult.'

Placing his right hand under the leopards chin,rudran raised it and looking into its eyes ' I am very certain,that they will send someone to check the problem with the camera and this is when you jump on them and scare the living daylights out of them and i will use this time to climb the wall and jump over into the estate.can you do that please.'

The leopard yawned showing its huge canines and lay down as if it was bored by the job given by rudran and nodding to it rudran quietly slipped into the trees on one of which was a camera and making sure to hug the darkness,he came to the trunk of the tree and soon went up like a monkey and the leopard looked at him with pride and respect and thought ' god,he climbs a tree as well as i do.I hope all the other humans are not like him for then i will soon be extinct or a rug on some rich man's floor' and from above,rudran whispered ' not to worry buddha,this comes with the other powers but you should have seen my late brother Bhairav,for he was better than a monkey at climbing trees.'

Below on the ground,the leopard sensed the tremendous pain that his human friend was feeling and the burden he was carrying in his soul and it hurt him too to see the mighty warrior suffer so much and silently.'

Up in the tree,rudran squeezed out a little black paste and in a flash rubbed it on the lens and quickly came down the tree and along with the leopard hid among the darkness of some thick shrubs.

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Buddha,the leopard although feeling a strong and instinctive bond with the human nearby,sensed something else about its new friend and its own primitive conscience informed it that the human was not totally human and it did not stop with that for it sensed something else about this entity.

Its thoughts about them both were suddenly pierced with his sharp,green eyes and the leopard thought to itself ' i have never seen such eyes in a man before and maybe that is why i feel so much with this man like creature for he is no man at all.'

Rudran staring deep into the leopards mind ' i know and it is a long story and maybe i will tell you what i know after this night is over.But now be ready for here come those people i was talking about and just create an enough of a scare and diversion and i will be up and over the wall.'

The leopard growled its readiness and watched rudran rise and slip away into the darkness carrying those rubber mats that he was going to place on the electric fence and then hoist himself over the wall and into the compound.

The leopards eyes were full of rudran and then it saw the disturbance in his spirit and in his aura that flowed from his body and the leopard wondered what was going on in the strangers soul.

It took about fifteen minutes for two men to come out of the estate's protection and venture out to see what was wrong with the faulty camera and both men were smoking and talking loudly as they slowly made their way to where buddha the leopard sat in a low crouch,completely hidden in the thick shrubs and bushes.

Just when the two security men were about fifteen feet away,Buddha sensed rudran in its heart and he told the leopard to launch itself and scare the living daylights out of the two men.

Rudran ready,and in perfect and complete stillness,covered in total black,watched with his jade green eyes as the two men from the estate of Som lal slowly made their way towards the tree where the camera was and just for a moment thought about how they were going to react as his leopard friend came out of its hiding and a smile made the nights work a bit easier and then he heard the growls and the screams and the two men instinctively ran towards the compound wall with the leopard close behind them and inside the estate,a lone man who was manning the monitors saw and heard his team members running with a huge leopard chasing them and pressing the intercom he screamed ' tendua,tendua' ( which in hindi means leopard).

Rudran timed his moves perfectly and just as buddha chased the two men,he waited for the man or men who were in front of the security monitors that were showing the live feed from the security cameras to shift and come alert as they caught sight of the leopard in their screens and he moved and in the dim light,he was just a blur and with a single leap he jumped and caught the edge of the wall and hoisted himself on top of it and placing the rubber mats on the electrified fence,quickly jumped the two feet of barbed wire and landed inside the estate of som lal,the aviation ministers son and went into a crouch and stayed there hugging the darkness.

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Rudran came alive totally and he threw his senses towards the house and all around it and suddenly he felt a surge of energy in his brain and Bhairav whispered ' rudy,get back and hide behind me for i will take care of them' and rudran cursing the timing ' bhairav,please for gods sake,just go back to the safety of my dreams and nightmares and let me handle the situation' and held his breath for a few seconds and realised that his dead brother had gone back to his memory and imagination and as always,it never failed to amaze him that his brothers voice was so clear and so alive.

Then like a lightning bolt of a million volts ,a fact hit him and it came as a scene from a tamil hero's film titled " Anniyan " and rudran realised that he might just be suffering from a split personality disorder and it all began to finally make sense what he was experiencing and that there was a bit of truth in what dr.otto hauptman had been telling him about and he knew that maybe it was time to get his head and its wires really checked out.

But pushing all that aside and for the near future,rudran began to make his way from the shadows of one tree to another and then hearing the screams of terror from beyond the wall,stood still wondering,watching and trying to make sense of what the hell was his friend,the leopard was doing and saw that many armed men kept screaming " leopard,leopard" and were racing towards the rear entrance,to go outside to their team members rescue.

Rudran concentrated his mind on buddha and spoke to it ' my friend,there are many men with deadly weapons coming towards you.so you better run and make good your escape and wait for me to return after i have finished my work here.Thank you for the help.'

Rudran counted two men outside and five more men who ran to the rescue of the two that were running from the leopard and that meant three guarding the minister's son and who else was there inside the large villa.

Rudran chuckled to himself and thought three was just too easy and his right hand slowly reached across to his left hip to draw the KA-bar knife and then his eyes picked up a large axe that lay embedded in the trunk of a coconut tree and thanking his good luck for it made his job of covering the killings a lot more easier than recovering the bullets from his handgun,rudran with a tug pulled the nasty and sharp looking axe out of the tree and from behind the tree spotted the first of the remaining three who stood guard near the entrance of the villa.

Laying himself prostrate on the grassy ground,he began to crawl towards the low wall that surrounded the villa and then with one jump he was up and over,with his right arm holding the axe already sweeping in a curve and the axe met the man's neck before his feet touched the ground and not even bothering the check the man,rudran landed lightly on his feet and immediately rolled as a ball and out of sight for another man came out hearing a noise and it was the noise of a head hitting the floor and the man came just as he saw a headles corpse topple to the ground and that was the last thing he saw for rudran's axe came straight down on his skull and split it into two.

Quickly bending down,he took the Ak47 machine gun and entered the villa sparing just a moment to wonder what the heck was happening outside the compound wall,worrying about buddha and the seven men who were after him.

But sending a prayer in the direction of the leopard,rudran turned back and concentrated his entire being on the job thaat lay ahead and threw his senses forward and advanced up the stairs to the large and single room that lay above and which was obviously the minister's son's lair and the den where he most probably committed all his evil acts and also hatched his evil plans.

With the rifle held before him,now an extension of his body,rudran came up the steps a perfect predator on two legs just as the most perfect predator on four suddenly went totally haywire and mad outside the compound.

For in the darkness of the forest,buddha the leopard belonging to the panthera species and armed with nearly 3 million years of fine tuned evolution behind its family now walked,stalked and talked with twenty sharp 3 inch dagger like claws and with a heart filled with vengeance as much as rudran's for it had sensed and realised these men were protecting and what all evils they also had indulged in these past years in this very place.

Buddha was a male leopard and that too an exceptionally large one and weighing nearly 200 pounds of muscle and bones and with twenty sharp knives for claws and four large killer fangs in its powerful jaws and with spots covering its shimmering furry coat,the leopard moved,danced,vanished and came out again and again to kill and it killed and tore open all seven for it only had rudran and his life in its own soul.

Protect him and die for him.These were the codes of The Ancients that had been instilled in their hearts and just as he bit down on another mans neck,killing him instantly,the leopard realised that he had been sent for a purpose and that they always came in pairs and together and that when they come together to kill and destroy,the result was the same and that light extinguished dark.

The boy who went into the dark and came back with light.

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There are only five notes in the musical scale, but their variations are so many that they cannot all be heard. There are only five basic colors, but their variations are so many that they cannot all be seen. There are only five basic flavors, but their variations are so many that they cannot all be tasted. There are only two kinds of charge in battle, the unorthodox surprise attack and the orthodox direct attack, but variations of the unorthodox and the orthodox are endless. The unorthodox and the orthodox give rise to each other, like a beginning less circle-who could exhaust them? Sun Tzu


Training simply put means,the action of teaching a person or animal a particular skill or type of behaviour. Rudran had trained with the best of special forces teams and the skills he had learnt day in and day out were honed and embedded in his brain and his hand eye co-ordination was not only exceptional it was in a different league all together for in his blood and in his flesh ran strange cells and DNA that normal humans don't possess and to all that were added his will and his soul that was totally focused on the goal tonight and that was to put an end to the people and their activities that had hurt and forever damaged the nation's prime minister and his family.

Just as Rudran walked with the speed and quiet of a cat,he came up the stairs and saw the last of the security men standing with his back turned to him and with his head poking inside and rudran flattening himself against the wall,heard the man say the words ' a huge leopard and it looks like it has gone mad.But all the men are hunting it and it will be back to normal again.'

Rudran did not have any doubts that he would find the minister's son Som lal inside the room along with a few of his usual cronies and it was death to all of them and all of that was confirmed,when he heard the slightly drunken voice of the man he had come for,ordering the security guy to keep them updated.


Shutting the door quietly the remaining security man turned and rudran's ka-bar knife entered his left eye and penetrated into his brain and he just collapsed to the ground.Rudran moved him out of the way in case he had to make a quick getaway and did not need a dead man to hinder him in anyway while he was escaping any surprises that lay inside the room,if that happened to be so.

Placing the ka-bar knife back in its velcro holster,rudran took a deep breath and turning the machine gun on its right side,pulled the fire selector to semi auto mode for he needed only short bursts to get the job done and with that single thought and purpose Rudran opened the door and entered

But then,in war and combat situations,things don't always go as you planned and Rudran learnt what the word
" adapt and improvise " meant to its fullest and also learnt fully what the word collateral damage meant as he opened the door and entering it shut it behind him and the lion now stood alone the lair of hyenas and scavenging jackals.

In a split second,rudran's eyes had captured and memorised every detail of the large room and the three men who were lounging on the riduculously expensive looking leather sofa set and yet his stance let him also cover the only two doors that were in the room and he knew one was for the bathroom and the other led to the balcony.

Just as he raised the Ak 47 and began to spray the three men who were in front of him of which som lal was the one sitting in the center as would be expected a man of his power and arrogance to be in,Both the doors opened and two men stepped out and rudran had already pulled the trigger and with the machine gun barking its death spray as it sent bullets after bullets at the three,Rudran's eyes flicked left to right and for a brief,millionth of a second,his brain took in the signals that had been captured with the right and left flick of his eyes and they were processed and realised and his body stiffened with surprise and rage as from the bathroom stepped out Murky aka Markandeyan and from the door leading to the balcony, a man entered the room who rudran recognised as one of the ten men who all liked alike and had all boarded from various parts of the world and had entered India over the last week or so.

Rudran reacted perfectly letting his brain do the controlling as he raised the machine gun and shot the stranger he and his team Chakravyuh were searching and immediately turned the gun and sighted Murky who true to his character had slipped into the bathroom and rudran sprayed the door and opening it found it empty for murky had slipped through the french style windows and was running into the forest and then it happened.

It happened for rudran made the only mistake of that night and that was assuming that he had killed the only stranger who resembled the other nine for out of the balcony came four more and before rudran could begin to turn,the first knife entered his back and embedded itself and rudran using that same movement dropped the ak47 and with a flick of his hand removed his Ka bar knife of nine inches and swept across the mid riff of his attacker and disemboweled him and it was the turn of the other three to use his action to launch their strikes and it came fast,quickly and faster than any human he had encountered and rudran knew instantly that he was overpowered by superior numbers for three were too many and the three who launched themselves moved strangely like him and his kind and yet they moved like dead zombies for there was no light in their eyes and only rage.

Rudran stood up and knew immediately that the knife that had been planted deep in his back was a handicap and had limited his left side movement and launched his own surprise movement as he suddenly ducked and using his left arm pulled out the handgun that was holstered on his left thigh and emptied it all around him and yet the one stranger on his right used the moment to launch himself and his knife and it was too late for rudran to evade his lightning strike and with a loud growl the man stabbed at rudran's head and sank the knife deep into his head and rudran knew that it was over and he felt the steel and the power behind the knife as it broke through his strong skull and entered his right brain.

The last thing Rudran remembered was the intense pain as he collapsed on to his knees with his eyes still on the three and he fell to his left side and lay still.



All three of the strange and similar looking men were fatally wounded and as their lives began to slip away,they watched a strange miracle unfolding before them as the man they had stabbed in the back and more importantly in the head which should have been instantly fatal,groaned and looked up and they saw the man come alive and yet he looked lost and angry,very angry and he slowly stood up and looked at his hands and then reaching out felt his back where the knife lay embedded between his shoulders and then turned his gaze back at them.

Stumbling and groaning in pain,he reached for a bottle of expensive looking scotch and emptied it all around him and taking a lighter sparked it and threw it on the whiskey drenched carpet and slowly stumbled out of the room.

Fire is a consumer and in its eyes and arms,all are equal and all are one and all are burnt the same.The fire quickly spread through the room and soon it was an inferno and the police team that were guarding the front entrance of the estate yelled into the phones calling for the fire service dept and getting into their vehicles raced towards the large villa to save their careers and probably their pensions.

But the fire was way beyond any control and ate its way through the expensive wood and soon the villa was a raging inferno.

Rudran stumbled slowly but surely into the darkness of the forest and after many minutes came face to face with buddha the leopard who ran towards him for it sensed its master was in grave danger.

But just a few feet away from him,it came to a sudden halt and looking at rudran in doubt for it could not recognise the man who stood before it ' who are you stranger?'

The man looked lost,confused and in great pain as if he was unsure of who he was and then shutting his eyes tightly,he opened them and they glowed orange as he looked at Buddha the leopard ' I am Bhairav and i am here to look after my baby brother rudy.'

The energy,the power,the rage that flowed from this new friend was too strong to bear for buddha and then the words came to the leopard and it whispered to the strange friend in whose heart the mark of The Ancients glowed and called to all that is good and all that flows

Two lights,hidden and out of sight
one light,bright and white of the soul
one light,bright and from the stars
will cross paths and travel as one
together they fill the void
and as one they will be
mother and son
they are two brothers,two souls
residing in one vessel
and when one dies,the other will rise
but who dies and who rises
for one is heaven and one is hell


Deep inside in the darkness of their mothers womb,he kicked and found the other next to him.In the coming months there was many a time when he reached out and the other reached for him too.Thus the bond began with their beginnings of life.Their heartbeats sounded as one and when he panicked the other touched him and held his fingers as if to say " I am here,always will be here and will never let you go." Even when he went towards light as the first one his hand held the other one's hand as if to say dont worry i am waiting for you,come quickly.When they were born they did not cry as much as normal children and cried only when they were separated and that was because their mother had to feed them.Soon she learnt to feed them both at the same time and that put an end to their screams and protests when they were separated.Lying in the crib he bore it even when the younger kicked and tormented him and always remained quiet.Bhairav never left rudran for he remained in him buried deep in his psyche.What transpired between them when they were in the womb and what transferred between them only time would tell.But one day the other would rise as not one but two for he was never alone and the other had stayed behind having sworn to protect and defend the younger even as his heart started its beat.and even the beat whispered and matched the younger ones beat.

This passage is from chapter 17,page 52,posted on November 16,2015 and if you look closely then it shows 200 chapters in nearly 2 years and redemption has just crossed into the second half of its voyage as Bhairav rises with the fall of Rudran.

"I know what I'm capable of; I am a soldier now, a warrior. I am someone to fear, not hunt."

Exit Light Enter Darkness

The boy who went into light and came back with dark.

This Navami,let's pray that no Durga is aborted,no Saraswati is stopped from going to school,no Lakshmi has to beg for money from her husband,no Parvati is sacrificed for dowry, and no kali is given a tube for fairness cream.

"The biggest challenge after success is shutting up about it.

During the audio release of the blockbuster Endhiran,Aishwarya rai forgot to mention Rajinikanth's name and it was vivek who reminded her of her mistake and aishwarya immediately apologised and that was that.

Rajinikanth,the superstar he his told aishwarya that he himself regularly forgot many names and asked her not to feel too bad about it.That is grace and that is why he is still the numero uno after 42 years.

Now,the same situation with sai dhansika who played rajini's daughter in Kabali and she forgot to mention T.rajendars name and he came on and repeatedly insulted her and finally broke her down.

Now,T.rajendar is mr.sembu aka silambarasan's dad and so obviously there is nothing to be shocked or surprised about. The apple does not fall from the tree.

Common sense

Now,don't you think t.rajendar would have been remembered and applauded if he had been as gracious as rajini was and yet he did not and that shows that it all boils down to Ego.The man has always liked to hear his own voice for no others can tolerate it or put up with it.

EGO,in the end is the downfall and the principle reason for misery in our lives.Once,you cross it and once,it loses its magic and sheen,then you are free to rise and rise above all the bullshit.
"Most misunderstandings in the world could be avoided if people would simply take the time to ask, "What else could this mean?

"Opinion is really the lowest form of human knowledge. It requires no accountability, no understanding. The highest form of knowledge... is empathy, for it requires us to suspend our egos and live in another's world. It requires profound purpose larger than the self kind of understanding.

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Bhairav never left rudran for he remained in him buried deep in his psyche.What transpired between them when they were in the womb and what transferred between them only time would tell.But one day the other would rise as not one but two for he was never alone and the other had stayed behind having sworn to protect and defend the younger even as his heart started its beat and even the beat whispered and matched the younger ones beat.

IN UTERO from chapter 19

His heart took its first beat and a few hours later the younger one's heart joined him and together they made music of harmony and love.In the darkness of the womb while the mother slept the older twin gave life,sustained life by touch and something more when the younger one nearly died.The younger ones heart sometimes skipped,struggled to beat and only the older one knew and he was there and he willed his energy to the other.The older gave something of himself for he smiled as it flowed into the younger one via billions of neural pathways and the younger one kicked and lived on.It is instinct,it is life at the most primitive and creative level and the one stage that is closest we will ever come to the miracle of life by the miracles of god.


So,here we are with the apparent death of Rudran and the rise of Bhairav.It has taken me nearly two years to come to this point of medicine that i have been alluding,vaguely referring to all this time.

Bhairav as the other twin,the elder of the twins and the first to come before rudran did die at the hands of murky when he was five but Bhairav never died for he had given a piece of himself to Rudran when they were both in the darkness of the womb of their mother.

The moment you realise that this is a tale of The Ancients,Many billions of years in the making and then you will begin to understand that all and anything is possible and is easy for the descendants of the warriors who wear the mark and who have come from light to protect and serve this small,tiny speck of rock we call Mother Earth.

But apart from all that,rising above all that aliens and their powers,what we have here is the love and unbreakable bond of Bhairav and rudran.


Deep in the womb,bhairav sensed rudran's heartbeat and knew that his younger one was not going to make it for long and thus started his will,his power,his dna and most importantly his love for the other that would override everything,even his will for his own life and soul.

What transpired between bhairav and rudran can be summarised briefly and that is bhairav willed with his body and soul to keep his dying twin alive and thus passed healing dna,powerful dna,healthy dna and they entered rudran and repaired him and made him whole,complete and healthy.

But then,something strange,something unintentional happened and that was a bit of bhairavs brain matter got stuck with rudran brain matter and they evolved and soon rudrans brain folded,enveloped,bhairavs brain and kept it deep in its folds.

But,you have to ask yourself if life has a plan or do things really happen unintentionally and i prefer to think that bhairav who loved rudran so much and who probably thought it was his life's purpose to protect and serve his younger brother,remained in rudran's brain and now has finally come out.

Who am i? Am i Bhairav or am i Rudran.The answer is Redemption.

Jannal oram 85


Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. Dr. Suess

Nearly two hours had passed since their arrival at the hospital,accompanying the late mrs.Nirmala venktadri and Raman noticing the tension and stress beginning to slowly gather force in Govind's face,leaned slightly towards him and spoke to him in soft and assuring tones ' govind,it is going to be okay da.I think they will be coming out any moment now and we can be on our way and safely reach the the cremation ground in time.so,cheer up man.'

Govind smiled wryly and leaning his head back,closed his eyes and made a painful expression and then getting up and stretching his limbs and body,looked at raman ' ram,if i sit here in this metal chair for another few minutes,then it will be my body that will be going out.God,who the heck designs such uncomfortable seats and that which puts so much strain and pain in our lower backs and necks.'

Looking at all the chairs and then at raman ' you think they design these chairs thus deliberately and that somewhere some idiot is actually thinking as to how to make chairs more uncomfortable.'

Raman felt happy and relieved to hear the sparkle and zing back in his favourite friends face and voice ' Okay,you have a point mr.advocate.But,have you thought out the other side of the same point for then it becomes a bit of a mess.'

Govind ' what point and what mess?' and Raman shaking his head in frustration ' god,how did you manage to pass the bar exams you zero watt bulb' and govind ' the few inches on my neck did help me to peek over the shoulders of all those who sat around me and copy better from their papers.But that is done and dusted and your honor,will you please come to the case and state your point,rather than contest my credentials.'

Raman ' ada paavi.Intha lines,these lines are the ones that are still keeping you going i guess.But,back to these chairs.Just imagine,if these chairs are designed for great comfort and for luxurious posture,then they will be filled and overflowing and not necessarily by those who have come for the dead but those who have come drunk and seeking a place to nap in peace.'


The doors of the mortuary section opened both ways and a stretcher laden with the late Nirmala was wheeled out by two govt staff dressed in khaki uniforms and govind signed the form and the body was handed over to him.

Raman made a call and the driver of the private van who was going to transport the body to the cremation ground said he was parked outside and that he would be there in a minute.

Raman and govind stood besides the body trying hard not to look at the dead woman and then the van came and quickly the driver got down to help his other partner to lift the body and place it inside the vehicle.

Govind reminded the two of them that they needed to go to mylapore cremation ground and the driver said he was aware of the destination and govind turning to raman ' ram,i will come in the van for the lady has just a little time left and i don't want her to be alone in that time for she has suffered enough already.'

Raman gently patting govind's cheek ' you are an incredible soul my friend' and then stood watching as govind got in the rear and sat next to the bandage wrapped body of mrs.nirmala and with a burst of toxic,black disel fumes,the van took off and raman turned to walk towards his car and suddenly stopped and watched in mute fascination as the doors once again closed themselves as the stretcher once again returned into the inner bowels of the hospital and he whispered ' from darkness we come and into darkness we return.So many stretchers enter in the front bringing in life,lives fighting,struggling and so many stretchers come out from the rear of the very same hospital bringing out only the dead.One way in and one way out.Birth and death.'


"Remember me and smile, for it's better to forget than to remember me and cry. Dr. Seuss