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I'm still so mad at Abhi.
Cold
a Pragya drabble by -mina-
She had never expected him to love her. So how had she somehow lost her head long enough to think he would give her any memories to dream on?
He had good in him, but it was never going to be for her, and she shouldn't have forgotten.
She wanted to be angry but instead she was just cold.
Everything was a joke to him. Playing with her emotions, mocking her attraction...he was no better than a schoolboy really. His sense of boundaries was as limited and his ego as unchecked as that of someone one third his age.
It felt safest to be angry at herself, really. Because she couldn't control who he was or how he acted. But she should have been able to control what she expected from him and what she showed to him.
Why hadn't she learned her lesson with Suresh? Mature affection had failed her then. And unchecked adoration had failed her now.
She was not meant for love, simple as that. Love and romance were for other girls, and she would not torment herself tonight trying to figure out why she was different.
She just was. It was something to simply accept.
The way she just had to accept that there was no way she could hurt him the way he had hurt her.
The way she had to accept that the coldness in her heart was her true state of being.
The strange warmth he'd brought to her life had been a brief dream.
And now she was awake again, with nothing but cold to look forward to.
This.
This was why her mother had always warned her not to trust men.
This was what she had learned watching Bulbul's many heartbreaks second hand.
This was where she had promised herself she would never let herself end up.
This moment of feeling utterly shattered because she'd dared to hope, and she'd judged wrong. This was why her mother had always warned her not to trust men.
This was what she had learned watching Bulbul's many heartbreaks second hand.
This was where she had promised herself she would never let herself end up.
Why hadn't she learned her lesson with Suresh? Mature affection had failed her then. And unchecked adoration had failed her now.
She just was. It was something to simply accept.
The way she just had to accept that there was no way she could hurt him the way he had hurt her.
And now she was awake again, with nothing but cold to look forward to.
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