Hi, I am back😊. I found that I wanted to write too many things, so I fused a lot of scenes into this. I hope it makes some sense.
It is interesting to see how the dynamics between Dev and Sonakshi are rapidly changing post leap. When they met for the first time, they both were wearing 'I don't care anymore' masks; whereas in reality, they have also lost a part of themselves in that separation and kept the hurt and emptiness only to themselves all these years. Dev lost himself in his bitter reality with how he manifested himself externally, which his his way of coping up ('mai sardi mein marna nhi chahta. Aag jalti rhegi to...aur janwar bhi door rhenge'). Whereas Sonakshi has lost herself in raising the tiny part of Dev that was left with her (i.e. Soha and she has also become somewhat like Dev 1.0, drowned in responsibilities).
Now when they come face to face with each other as 'strangers', the pain becomes even more unbearable. The 'tashan' fights are only to keep up the facade and inflict pain with the same coin. Of course, it not acceptable to react/fight like that in public in real life, but I found them heavily coded. In fact, nearly every dialogue and every scene has heavy undertones of various scenes of pre-leap; Dev's accident scene is one good example (There are many more, and I am loving these layered episodes.😳😊)
When Suhana's truth came out, all the hurt, frustration, anger and disappointment came out in the open. Dev's facade started slipping much before, as he is more emotionally vulnerable, first notable one when he heard Dr. Sonakshi BIJOY Bose. We see Sonakshi's facade slipping much later, in the summer camp, when Dev talks to Preeti about meeting 'her' after 7 years and more prominently in the 'I love you' scene. (Well, we have already got Sonakshi saying 'Tumi ekdom impossible' and 'Obhodro' post leap. I wonder when we would see Dev saying 'Because you are the best!' and 'Miss Khargosh'.😳)
Anyways, so finally they have admitted that it still hurts, but they 'hate' each other (if hate has so much passion, what about love?😉😆). It is a good sign, because to cure an illness one needs to first diagnose and acknowledge its existence. They have started talking but they are yet to see beyond their own hurt. Well, at least they are talking now, but their mind is still clouded with the negative memories. When they are finally able to smile at each-other's happy memories, they would truly heal; whether they get together again or are not together anymore. Maybe that is why Sonakshi doesn't remember Dev making sandwiches for her, instead him arguing with her when she asked him to do some chores.
I feel before deciding to sell Bose house and return the money to Dixits, Sonakshi should have discussed with Dev about how she felt about the entire thing and if possible convince him that this is the best solution; money should never come between any relationship. Also, Dev should have never hidden about her infertility or investment, because it was very much about her. He should have won over his fear to lose her in an attempt to make their relationship stronger and transparent. That is before taking any drastic step, they should have worked as a team, as they had decided in the car and many more times.
Even Neha-Ranvir went kaput because of the money issue. Dev had said he did not think Ranvir loved Neha because he could live without Neha whereas Dev went running to Bose house; he hadn't seen that 'spark' in Ranvir. I wonder, after living apart from Sonakshi for 7 years, if Dev would think the same today (For him, Suhana is a recent addition). Also, regarding his blames to Sonakshi, I feel at deeper levels of his consciousness he knows why Sonakshi left, for he had only told his mom 'To apki shikayat kya h? Ki usne rishta nhi nibhaya ya Jaan nhi di?'(Dev has certainly honed his taunting skills quite a lot🤣). He is yet to realize it and maybe he needs a push for that (like when he realized he loved Sonakshi).
The dumb-charades scene was very significant. Dev gets a chit for 'Dil Chahta Hai' and his gaze immediately shifts to Sonakshi, not Suhana. He is afraid that his mask would fall and their connection revealed, hence silences her. I find this in stark contrast with the scene where Natasha and Dev are about to have lunch at his office and Dev is humming a Bengali song (Episode - 70). The song is a Ranbindra sangeet - Aamaro porano jaaha chay, tumi tai - meaning You are exactly what my heart desires (*refer below). Then he had expressed himself even without intending to and now he seems to know what his heart yearns for, but he would not accept or express.
When Sonakshi saw 'I love you' on the chit, her strong walls of defense came crashing down. The words that bring hope and happiness would remind her only of sorrow and betrayal, and the worst part is she still cannot stop loving. Their unintentional 'I love you' brought all their emotions pouring down like rain. Hopefully, rain would cleanse the heart and bring in the sun. After that she could not control her emotions of care and worry (which were earlier dormant) as we see later when Dev steps to catch the snake himself.
They are slowly opening up their cards to each other, the fire rekindles. What's next?😉
* Note - "Aamaro porano jaaha chay" I feel this by Tagore is a complete Devakshi song, expressing both their feelings (Yes, I am Bengali😉). I was searching the soulful recording by Arijit Singh containing both paragraphs. So, here is what I found; links are below for anybody interested:
Thanks for reading and I would certainly share more if anything happens to pass my mind, simply because I love this thread and all the wonderful ladies here. 😊
- Tia.