FF Illicit love: end part 40 p136 note139 - Page 99

hi i am one of the new readers i just finished reading all your ff one this is for sure you are a dam good writer i just loved reading your ff. please contune soon and like before please don't let any misunderstanding come betweed JB we get those al lot in KS as it is.

hey ranjana!
wonderful part 😃
jai is so caring and sweet 😳 lucky bani 😉
and nikita 😡 ..well lets not talk about her 😆
jai is soooo smart..he has made very good arrangements and nikita is stuck 🤢 😡 😆
continue soon


nadia 😛
p.s. have more JB lovey dovey scenes.

Renu darling... its high u post a update... 😉 one week over 😆

Hi!!
Sorry!!!!! (this word seems like my new mantra these days😆)
Okay this was supposed to be the last part, but it got too long and I know Tam sure does not like looooooonnng updates so the next part will be the last one. I hope you will like it.

bye,
Ranjana
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Part 39

Jai arrived at Walia Mansion. Bani was still there and he had to talk to her.

"Jai where have you been? Kab se intezaar kar rahe hai." Aditya was standing near the door. The whole family was sitting at the dining table. They were just about to have a late lunch.
"aao beta, kuch kha lo." The smile on Mausi's face was an indication that they knew the truth about what happened last night. How would they react to the next bit of information he was going to give? He had called Bani before he talked to Nikita and the lawyer about the things that happened, but even she did not know he was going to change the reason for his divorce and he would give his name to Nikita's child. Jai seated himself on a chair next to Bani. She piled some items on his plate and saw him playing with his food lost in thoughts. "Kya huwa? Anything wrong?" Bani asked. The whole family was looking at them. Jai kept his spoon aside and took a deep breath. " Nikita abortion karwa rahi thi and I stopped her in time."
Mausi looked proudly at her son. "Yeh to acchi baat hai. To phir kyun itne udaas lag rahe ho?"

Jai wasn't sure how to break this news. He was dreading his family's reaction, but more than that he was dreading Bani's reaction. Maybe it was better to tell them immediately without beating around the bush. It would be like ripping a band-aid off.

"I have threatened Nikita. Agar usne bacche ko giraane ki koshish ki ko mai usko arrest karwa dunga. Maine wakil se baat bhi karli hai, Monday ko court me case file ho jaayega on the basis of Nikita's attempt to abort the child."

"But Jai, why will you let the police arrest Nikita? Aur complaint on the basis of the attempt? Mai kuch samjha nahin?" Aditya wondered.

"Aditya I am claiming custody over the child. I don't want the baby to be killed because it has a irresponsible and inhuman mother. Nikita is too scared, she doesn't have any other way. Agar usne DNA test karwaani chaahi to badnaami uski hogi. She is cornered. Divorce aur custody, dono mujhe mil jaayenge."

" you are accepting that Baby?" Aditya asked. He got his answer by a simple nod from Jai.

It was quiet at the dining table. Only the clattering of dropping spoons and forks were hear able. People stopped eating. "Aap sab kuch bolte kyu nahin?" Jai asked.

Hesitantly dadi answered. "Beta, jaisa tum theek samjho, tum behter jaante hoge."

Jai wasn't satisfied with the answer but he decided to drop the issue when he saw the rest continue their conversations and their meal although the environment wasn't as lively as it was before. Bani was quiet the whole time. She only spoke when asked to with an unfamiliar, almost fake smile on her lips. Even throughout the drive back home she didn't say anything to Jai. Jai thought it would be better if they discuss the matter amongst themselves without the family around them so Jai offered to drop her home. The silence in the car and later in her apartment was killing him.

"kuch kahogi nahin?" Jai asked after twenty minutes staring out of the window.

"Kya kahoon?"

"Kuch bhi." Jai's eyes were looking for some kind of a know expression on Bani's face. Even a know look would do, but alas. Bani did not speak nor did she look his way. She stared at the floor, huddled up on the sofa with a cup of tea in her hands.

Jai walked over to her and took the cup out of her hands, placing it on the coffee table. Squatting down in front of her he cupped her face and made her look at him. Even so, she averted her eyes.

"please say something, do something. Kuch bhi. Scream, yell, hit........anything."

"mere yeh sab karne se kuch badal jaayega?" when she finally looked at him her gaze had such an intensity that it made it difficult for Jai to look at her without feeling like a criminal although she never intended to accuse him. Jai did not answer her question.

"aap ne faisla kar liya hai. to ab mai kya kahoon, kya karoon?"

Jai did not know what to say next. He hugged her waist and buried his head in her lap. After a while he spoke.

"i should have told you. It was just, mujhe itna gussa aaya. She was killing a child because of me and I was only thinking about that. Aur kuch mujhe soojh nahin raha tha. On top of that Nikita would not make it through an other abortion. I mean, mujhe wahan pata chala ki pehle bhi Nikita ne....I felt so guilty. Agar maine uspe nazar rakha hota to shayed ek jaan bach jaati."
Bani stroked his head lightly, pushing away the few strands of hair that were blocking her view of his face. " ek baat poonchoon?"

Jai closed his eyes. Bani could feel him tighten his grip on her. even though she asked him. "Mai aapki lagti kya hoon? meri jagaah kya hai aapki zindagi me?"

Startled Jai looked at her with moist eyes. "Aisa kyun keh rahi ho? Itni naraaz ho mujhse. Dekho don't say this. I promise tum jaisa kahogi mai waisa karunga. Mai bas us bacche ke baare me sooch raha tha aur Rahul ne bhi.......... Nikita was being so ruthless and.......That baby is innocent and......." Jai voice sounded agitated and nervous. A sharp contrast to the determination in Bani's soft voice. "Aaj nahin Jai. Na Nikita na Rahul, na bachcha na gharwaale na bahar ke log. Koi bhi nahin. Today it's just about me and you. Mai hoon kya aapki? What is my place in your life?"

"tum meri sab kuch ho. My strength, my life, my love. Without you I'll survive, but I wont live. I need you in my life warna mai bikhar jaaunga." Jai said, hoping that Bani would understand everything he tried to express and the things he could not express in mere words. Today Jai made everything go wrong in an attempt to make something right. "Lekin pata nahin aaj kyun yeh sab kam lag raha hai na Bani? I have made a lot of wrong decisions about you, about us. I have taken you for granted. For people who don't matter to me I have hurt you when you matter the most to me."

Each word pierced Bani's heart like a thorn but more than that every time she looked Jai in the eyes she felt guilty for her own selfish thoughts. She couldn't control her tears. Before Jai would see her cry Bani abruptly stood up and walked out of the room. Jai saw Bani leave still sitting on the floor. He looked at the closing bedroom door but being in a dazed, almost hypnotised state he had to compose himself for a moment before he followed Bani.

The tears that fell from her eyes left stains on her face. Bani was trying to breath but the realization of her selfishness was too much for her. Even passing by the mirror on her dressing table was too painful. How did she become this woman? How could she only think about her relationship? How could she not think about the innocent child that wasn't even in this world yet? How could she not see that every decision Jai made today not made impulsively? It was the father in him who made those decisions.

Bani felt his presence in the room. She could not turn around. She was lacking the courage to look him in the eye after her questions. She moved further away in an attempt to hide herself, distance herself more.

"Bani" Jai called out. Bani did not respond in any way. Jai walked up to her and tried to make her face him. His tender touch had more effect than any use of force could have on her. Bani turned around. Her eyes were looking at the floor.

"I promise tum jaisa kahogi mai waisa hi karunga. We will consider other things. Adoption or something else lekin please don't get angry. Bahut dard hota hai."

Bani turned around. "You don't mean that. you don't want to give the baby up for adoption. Mujhe pata hai." To Jai's relieve Bani hugged her with all the physical strength she could manage to muster in the state she was in. " I'm sorry. I was being mean and selfish. Mujhe aise nahin karna chaahiye tha. Mai bas apne bare me sooch rahi thi. Aap jaisa chaaheng waisa hi hoge. Aap us bacche ko apnaana chaahte hai then I'll be with you, like I promised. Mujhe bas….."

Jai looked at Bani. Why did she not finish what she wanted to say?

"Kya huwa Bani? Tell me." He held her face in between his palms when he saw she wasn't looking at him again as long as it was necessary to make her talk.

Finally she said in a cracking voice "I maybe need some time. I mean to adjust to all this."

Jai pulled her back in a hug. "mera saara waqt tumhare liye hai. this is not fair to you I know that."

Hugging Jai back Bani hushed him. Resting her cheek against his shoulder she felt Jai's breath rustling her hair.

"Bani will you marry me? I mean officially.."

"Hmmmmmm"

Nikita did not dare to make a move after Jai's words. She stayed put in the house for four weeks and after that she was permanently guarded by Jai's men. Rahul Manchanda never inquired about his unborn child during Nikita's pregnancy. Jai accompanied her to all the doctor's appointments and all the check ups. Nikita was still not happy with the pregnancy. She only did what she had to do for the baby because of Jai's threats. In spite of the normal advise to pregnant women about staying happy and all Nikita could not relax. The prospective divorce kept her alarmed all the time. Jai was serious this time and he had taken all the signatures on the necessary papers for the divorce procedures. One thing Nikita was happy about. Jai wanted to have this baby. He had asked for full custody and Nikita gladly signed the paper. No matter how many times he tried she could not feel a connection with the child growing inside her. Even when she saw the first images of the ultrasound or heard the heart beat of the child for the first time, not even the first kick could make her forget that she did not want to have this baby. Unwanted she blamed the child for ruining her last chance with Jai. The baby inside her reminded her of her own mistakes. The mistakes she did not want to admit nor accept. This baby was a mistake and her punishment. But not for two other people. Jai and Bani wanted to do anything for this child. They wanted this child to feel welcomed in this world. The twinkle they saw in each others eyes when they heard that the baby had kicked for the first time or when they saw the CD of the ultrasound together (Jai was there when the ultrasound was done but watching it with Bani was different for him), painting the nursery together in Walia Mansion or arguing over names made everything more than special. There are no words to describe Jai's happiness. It was evident on his face. Seeing Jai so happy and cheerful none of the family members expressed their hesitations and in the next five months their hesitations disappeared. Bani did need some time to adjust to the situation but soon she was too taken by the prospect of being a mother. Her wish of her own family was coming true. Although it wasn't the way she had thought it will be it was coming true and she was starting a family with Jai. But still there was nagging voice in her head. What if…..

Finally the day arrived what Jai was waiting for. Nikita was in labour and Jai rushed to the hospital while calling Bani. She wasn't picking up so he called Mausi and left a message with her. Nikita had requested for a caesarean and she wanted one no matter what. According to the doctor is was possible as it would not harm the baby. Jai's heart skipped a beat when he heard the first cry of the baby coming out of the operation theatre after five hours. He steadied himself against the wall of the waiting hall with a deep sigh. His child was here. His family would be complete. But were was the other part of his family?


Comments please.....

Ranjana,

It was really dard for Bani to accept it at first Jai's decition but it's good to see that are together and going to have the baby of Nikita😊

thanks for the update, take care😊

Nicely written part but I am sorry i didn't like the content & don't agree with Jai's decision.

Hi,
I just read all the post for the previous part and I am thankful to all of you for commenting and I am really sorry that I dont reply to eac and evry one of you. I read this post and I just had to reply to this one.

Originally posted by: suwas

I am sorry if I am offending you Ranjana but I didn't like the way JAi is dealing with Nikita's child. HE is not being fair to bani 7 his realtionship with her. With accepting nikita's child as his own makess him two timing with bani at least in front of the world. I would have prefered if he had forced her to get DNA report proving that she had an affair 7 then threaten her or tepmt her to keep the kid by giving big settlement only if she doesn't abort the baby.

I realy didn't like the fact thathe is accepting having marritl reltionship with Nikita while being with bani. No nmatter how Bani feels bout it. It makes bani other woman breaking marriage 7 Nikita goes scot free without menion of her affairs.

Hey Suwas. dont worry you are not offending me😃. I really am thankful for this post and your POV. I had thougth of forcing Nikita to do a DNA test and let her prove that the baby is not Jai's but then I did not go with that. Well in the society these characters are living in this is totally not acceptable. No matter how modern people get, the outcome would effect the child's future. The baby would always be reminded of the fact that his or her mother cheated and the baby was the result of a affair and the father is unknow (rahul does not want to be associated wih this child).
I know Bani is being harmed in this but this is the time that the real effect of the realtionship she had with Jai is making an impact on her. this is the hard reality of an Illicit affair. Bani is the second woman in the society.

I hope I could make my POV clear to you and I hope I am not offending you. Thank you sooooooooo much for this post. 🤗
Bye
Ranjana

Its lovely... i hope bani hasnt left jai

ow what happend to Bani where is she 😕
i hope everything will work out in the end 😉
plz cont

Taj

amazing part
aww u gonna end it....but i liked it alot
plzzzzzz cont soon