New FF... 'Shiddat' (Devotion)Part 5,p.19 - Page 7

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Posted: 18 years ago
#61
whoa.. i dont even remember a tanhayee.. i m gonna get my behind to check it out.. šŸ˜†

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Posted: 18 years ago
#62
note pe note,note pe note....
mujhe insaaf chahiye....
ek update.....
aur notes nahi......

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Posted: 18 years ago
#63
Wholly hannah! šŸ˜†šŸ˜†
Ok, I know... my break got an extension... But kya karoon... 😳 I did deserve it didn't I? hehe...
I'm sure you'd all love to know what I'm doing write now... Yep, typing... or banging on the keys like Billo would say 😃... Dammit, five sentences... *sighs*
It'll be up a little later... Maybe I should go find some food. That should help na?

Cheers,
dc
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Posted: 18 years ago
#64

Originally posted by: ash9

hey last time u said 1 wk n v didnt c your face for 2 months after tht..this time 1 or 2 days.... so this time hw many years???? šŸ˜‰

Ashu ki bachi!!šŸ˜†šŸ˜† This time only a few hours *ahem*😳

yeah..go n write Tanhayee......after a long time u r updating tht FF šŸ˜† Oye, I updated that yesterday... 😃
mayb... finally i'll get to c the ending abhi toh shuru hui hai baazi, aur tum khatam karna chahti ho... what nek vichar!šŸ˜†

Cheers,

dc

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Posted: 18 years ago
#65

Originally posted by: prab_rockinn

note pe note,note pe note....
mujhe insaaf chahiye....
ek update.....
aur notes nahi......

insaaf... *slaps hand on forehead* itna galat hua aapke saath mohtarma... where's ur lawyer?!😃 remember, the lady of justice has a blindfoldšŸ˜†

Cheers,

dc

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Posted: 18 years ago
#66
Now honey...are we getting an update??.... 😳 😳
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Posted: 18 years ago
#67

Originally posted by: Catwoman

Now honey...are we getting an update??.... 😳 😳

itni bhi kya jaldi di... give the girl a break! I'm trying to write some mirchi masala... waqt toh lagega na!šŸ˜† uff... this is gonna be so shitty!! Lemme get some food!

until then... listen to this... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gm740cp1Hfo *sighs* amazing... šŸ‘

Cheers,

dc

Edited by desi chic - 18 years ago
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Posted: 18 years ago
#68

Originally posted by: desi chic

itni bhi kya jaldi di... give the girl a break! I'm trying to write some mirchi masala... waqt toh lagega na!šŸ˜† uff... this is gonna be so shitty!! Lemme get some food!

until then... listen to this... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gm740cp1Hfo *sighs* amazing... šŸ‘

Cheers,

dc

Wow i heard that last week ago wicked song!!šŸ‘šŸ‘...

Ok here the deal!! Update this on Friday same day i update Honey...btw that Shiv is Yours...u have offical claim to him!!šŸ˜†šŸ˜†...

RD pinched the mask one.....Ash9 has fanna....Kuku has I hate u....sum has shades...as for pillowtalk thats prabhu.....šŸ˜†šŸ˜†...as for my shiv finger cross u will see him soonšŸ˜‰

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Posted: 18 years ago
#69

Originally posted by: Catwoman

Wow i heard that last week ago wicked song!!šŸ‘šŸ‘... I know, its rocking!

Ok here the deal!! Update this on Friday same day i update Honey...btw that Shiv is Yours...u have offical claim to him!!šŸ˜†šŸ˜†... Hai, mera sher punjabi!😃 He's always been mine!😳 As for my update, I'm posting today for sure... and Friday is too far off to wait for your update I'm almost done here, so will post.

RD pinched the mask one.....Ash9 has fanna....Kuku has I hate u....sum has shades...as for pillowtalk thats prabhu.....šŸ˜†šŸ˜†...as for my shiv finger cross u will see him soonšŸ˜‰

SubhanAllah... Mirchi ne dil vich tandh paa ditti!! Fingers, toes all crossed!😃

Cheers,

dc

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Posted: 18 years ago
#70

Part 2

A taxed moan escaped his slightly parted lips as consciousness gradually came back to him. Squinting his eyes, he lifted his head whilst bringing a hand through his hair for support. Slowly, as his eyes opened, the surroundings sunk in… yet provoked no reaction. It was as though unimportant… what happened… Slightly aware of it, his hand fumbled for the switch on the board… A soft tune rang through… his senses numbed… Sighing, his head rolled back on the headrest desperately trying to escape the overwhelming pain… of sorrow…

The soft lips twitched slightly upwards, allowing presence of the endearing dent to the side…. The lips… which had forever tempted him… dared to evoke that… which he had no knowing he contained… The eyes… a soft innocence beheld within them… yet they seemed to possess the capability no other had… They dug through his exterior… piercing his existence… He felt his own lips match her expression… His eyes grazed the heavenly sight beneath his lids…

Have I told you how good it feels to be me… when I'm in you…

I can only stay clean… when you are around, don't let me fall…

Suddenly the lips lost their curve… fading into a lost dream… They quivered gently… vehemently… The eyes that were twinkling in content but a minute ago… now hallowed… stoic, yet alive… with questions… He squinted his eyes fervently, while a shot of pain swept through his veins… At some point, his hands found his face… As his agonizing voice pierced the silence… his soul… "Gauree…" The sound vibrated back at him as he desperately rubbed his face… still squinting his eyes… searching for solace in her lost smile…

If I close my eyes forever… would it ease the pain…

Could I breathe again…

As his fists obliviously pounded against the steering, the acute wailing of the honk attempted futilely to overtake the still echoing name he had breathed… "Gauree…"

****

The cool breeze stung his face with ferocity as his hand enveloped the clutch… bringing a shaky hand through his hair… The eyes void of expression… the lips stale of a smile… flashed relentlessly before his face… Blurring his vision… his life… or whatever remained of it so… His foot pressed hard against the gas…

Maybe I'm addicted… I'm out of control…

But you're the drug that keeps me from dying…

He placed his hand on the clutch once more… gripping it with unknown ferocity… His knuckles paled… As did the colour drain from his face as he recollected the abhorred moment…

Flashback…

The shriek of glass hitting the hard ground pierced the moment… echoing in the excruciating silence… His eyes looked to the cemented earth, each shard pointing accusingly at him… piercing his soul… Looking up, he perceived the dent in her face disappear… without a trace. Her eyes emptied of all emotion… as though in disbelief… He watched helplessly as her feet retraced their steps backwards… the jovial anklets made music as always… but they did not soothe his essence like always… They danced to some unknown tunes… reeking of unbearable sorrow…

End Flashback…

I'm wasted away… I made a million mistakes… Am I too late…

Parking the battered vehicle into some unmarked space, he slammed the door shut after stepping into the cool night's air. Looking at the beer can in hand, a sudden rage gripped him… The sound of the feeble metal hitting the ground afar lingered momentarily in the atmosphere… as he walked unstably towards his apartment…

As he approached the glass doors to the building entrance… the reflection off it became clearer… A worn out man stared back at him with hallow eyes… His heart ached as hers flashed before him again… Curses… He pushed his hand against the cool surface…

There's a storm in my head… it rains on my bed…when you're not here…

I am not afraid of dying… but I am afraid of losing you…

He stared flatly at the blank ceiling… his body lay motionless on the soft surface, providing him no comfort… In sudden instinct, his arm outstretched, his fist leaving an indent in the foamy surface…

His gaze shifts to the opening door… and immediately he sits upright… Seeing her divine figure float towards him in the pristine white outfit… He felt his muscles relax as the white fabric fell over his face… Squinting his eyelids, he lingered on the luxurious moment… Before opening it to her laying across from him… An endearing smile playing upon her luscious lips… Gathering some unknown strength, he found his arm extend towards her… nothing…

When you're lying next to me… love is going through me…

Oh it's beautiful…

Everything is clear to me…'till I hit reality… and lose it all…

Taken aback by the broken reverie, his eyes dart around the room… finally closing in helplessness… As his knees go weak… rendering him a heap on the floor.

***

Desperate drops of water cling at his skin… all in vain… as another gush from the shower misplaces them… He stands beneath the open cascade of clear liquid, oblivious to it's feel… As the eyes stare passionately into nothingness… Raking a hand through the silky layers, his gaze shifts to the ceiling… closing the eyes… Allowing the waters soak his open skin…

Maybe I'm addicted… I'm out of control…

But you're the drug that keeps me from dying…

***

"Gauri!!" She turned to see a sleek figure wrapped in a mauve sari take brisk strides towards her. The figure's long tresses swayed gently with the wind as her feet moved quicker in excitement. As the feet stopped before her, she turned an expressionless face towards her best friend, Ipshitta… Ipshitta Das Gupta. She had always been there… even on that day… except… "Gauri… !!" She looked at the beady eyes questioning her and she shook her head… "Kya hua?" (What happened?), she wondered aloud. Ipshitta shook her head, whilst dramatically smacking a hand on her forehead. Turning her big brown eyes back at her, she settled her hands onto her hips demandingly. "Hey bhagwaan, main iss ladki ka kya karoon?… Maine bola tah na, aaj Saanwari ki mehendi ki rasam hai, aur hume wahan jaana hai," (Oh God, what am I to do with this girl?… I told you na, today is Saanwari's mehendi ritual and we are going there.) she stated with emphasis on the latter half. Immediately, her soft features curled in apprehension and she gently shook her head. "Ipshitta… tum jaanti ho…" (Ipshitta… you know…) "Main jaanti hoon ke tumhe ye sab acha nahin lagta… Ye ronak… Ye shor sharaba… Ye naachna…" (I know you don't like all this… These celebrations… This rowdiness… This dancing…) She looked up, narrowing her eyes at her honest friend who stared back at her challengingly. A gently film began to blur her vision and she looked away furiously… determined to disallow the past to plague the moment… "Gauri… tum kab taq kal mein jeeti rahogi?… Bhool ja usse…" (Gauri… for how long shall you live in the past?… Forget it…) She stared blankly into Ipshitta's eyes as the latter knelt before her with loving concern. Her eyes closed as a single tear escaped, rolling down her cheek… feeling her friend's hand softly wipe away the gem, she opened them slowly… "Bas Gauri… In anmol heeron ko aise kyun zaya karti ho…" (Enough Gauri… Why are you wasting these precious gems like this…), Ipshitta whispered softly… For a moment, even the latter gave into the sorrowing shadow seeing her friend in such a pathetic state… Days had turned to months… Yet Gauri had remained unaffected… A cursed devotion it was… To something perhaps never meant to be… Quickly wiping away the forgotten tears, Ipshitta got up in a hurry and pulled her friend up. "Mujhe koi bahana nahin sun na, chalo abhi chalke tayar ho…" (I don't want to hear any excuses, come and get ready right now…) She parted her lips in silent protest… But as she had been accustomed to now, her protests went in vain…

***

The muscial notes flew through the night's air... finding their way to her... Sighing apprehensively, her hand fumbled for the switch to her side. Soon enough, the glass came rolling down, allowing the cool breeze soothe her chaotic state. Leaning back in her seat, she closed her eyes... Her mind wandering to moments she had so long been haunted by...

Flashback...

Curses... Gently she smacked the side of her head for being so forgetful, leaving parts of her art portfolio in the gym. As always, her feet and the captivating music had taken her away… and all else had been forgotten… until she reached half-way home and realized the rough draft was due tomorrow! Carefully, she tiptoed into the corridor, breathing a sigh of relief that campus had been open late nights for renovations. Her feet calculatedly approached the far end of the building… when suddenly ceasing mid-step. The soft notes of a melodious tune hummed through the halls, beckoning her… Obediently, her feet retraced their course to the auditorium… The melody suddenly seemed to have gained momentum, and she found it tingling her soles… Curtains draped loosely from the high ceiling… Their transparency allowed her eyes to graze upon a silhouetted figure hunched over a large object… the piano… The room was dimly lit, illuminated only by certain moonbeams extending large shadows of various dimensions across the wooden floor. As she tiptoed closer to the translucent veil, her heart rang thunderously against her chest… The bewitching harmony stirred through her, invigorating her previously exhausted body. It was so soothing yet fervent… like a cry from a devoted soul… immersed in the rhythm…. Gently pulling a little corner of the drape aside, she rested her eyes upon a sturdy figure sitting on the black stool. Even in the dimmed lighting, she couldn't miss the firm features from the side of his face. Her eyes outlined the strong jaw line down… The rhythm abruptly touched a higher pitch and she found the veil fall over as she took a few steps back… Unable to stop the pervasive music from appeasing the chords of her spirit, her feet began to join the melody in their passionate endeavour. Her each step defiantly matched each note, engrossing into the soothing chaos… So caught up she became in the moment, her senses numbed to the present silence… The invigorating beat still echoed profoundly in her ears… As she twirled confidently into the mysterious shades of the room, her petite figure met with another lost in her charisma… Momentarily, her eyes met with the strangers… The endearing manly musk emoted generously from the sturdy figure, as the eyes… They searched her soul… Faintly aware of the stranger's arms holding her firmly by the waist, she continued to match the intensive gaze, unable to perceive anything but… Blinking, reality suddenly appeared to seep through once more and she found herself quickly avert her gaze… A pause in time allowed her to gather her shame and she found her eyes search the dark floors… when the world began to go around… As her body moved to the same intensive beat… Her muscles seemed to loosen with each step as the stranger led her body to the same rhythm… As her petite frame singled against his bulk she found her eyes still closed… still living the dance… Her chest heaved slightly as it all sunk in… Gradually opening her eyes, she quickly stepped forward. Picking up her precariously draped dupatta, she ran… without a look at her devoted companion…

End Flashback

"Gauri… Gauri utho…" Startled, she opened her eyes to see Ipshitta give her a concerned look. "Haa… Haan…" she stuttered. "Gauri, tum teekh ho na?" (Gauri, are you alright?)… Taking a longing look up at the broad skies she sighed deeply… as though gathering the remnants of a lost energy… and turned to look at Ipshitta with a smile and a nod…

Cheers,

dc

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