Nur - that title is not lame, I assure you. In fact, compare it with what I titled my 'vid clip' and we know what is lame đ I thought and I thought, and and I could only thunk of this đ
Anyway... moving on with my section for today (Reemz, if you're wella I wouldn't care about you jumping right in and doing the humesha se sundar bit in your reserve đ nahi to kal bhi teriye jimme hona wo đ )
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** Kesar's Character Paradox **
The individual introspection segments for both leads at this point, are in paradox as ever. Kesar's starts with a line on such cue - mujhse badkar ye baat kaun jaan sakta hai, ke kabhi kisi ko badalne mein ek hi pal kaafi hai - interestingly, the 'badalaav' in Kesar is self contradictory, just like his entire person. The change is the lack of trust in Gulaal. And the constant which hasn't changed, is not trusting this lack of trust in his Gulaal. A decade ago when Gulaal asked him at the altar of DV, if he trusted her, he had given her a nod, and done her bidding. And even if circumstances have forced this dilemma upon him, his trust has not been shaken, but shifted focus. The fact that he had to hide away from her for a decade - something he believes was a punishment he inflicted upon her - is proof of the vulnerability he subconsciously suspected in himself, of which we saw a glimpse in yesterday's scene, when he realized Gulaal had not eaten! Even as he bids to build his distrust of her stronger each day - he knows how weak the foundation is, how easily, simple signs peaking through her person, reminding him of what his Gulaal is can bring down the entire hate-structure. He keeps distance from her to be able to keep up his hate and distrust. And at the same time he keeps distance from her, to avoid the 'impending' confrontation lest he comes face to face with something that will dispel his trust in her - which lingers in his person, despite himself. When he talks about Dushyant, he acknowledges his love as an elder brother, then questions its sanctity in the face of a fact he overheard. When he talks about Gulaal - he doubts her of betraying Vasant his justice in the same breath as admitting that her letters always seemed to hint undying fidelity towards Vasant. Every dialog comes in pairs - a pair of self contradicting arguments.
His eternal question? Aakhir kyu kiya usne aisa! It's interesting, how even his seeking the mystery of this question is a paradox - not having this answer torments him, and then the fear of what the answer might be agonizes him just as much too!
A hapless soul with such deep rooted long unresolved dilemma, he turns to his only solace - however momentary - seeks out her letters - as if, this 246375678686132948748 time of reading it will reveal to him a truth, that will settle his dilemma once and for all. Alas - what hasn't happened in a decade will not happen now, not by re-reading a letter he probably knows by heart anyway! Its interesting how this letter from Gulaal makes mention of expectations of Kesar to fill in his Vasant Bha's mojdi.
I find this sentence in Gulaal's letter interesting - again, in it's innate paradox - jis din tu bada hojayega na Kesar, aur is layak ho jayega ki parivaar ki jimedaari nibha sake, us din tuje Vasant ki mojdi pehnakar uski jagah de jayegi... So many underlying meanings to this sentence, especially in coming from Gulaal ...
and that takes me to ...
** Gulaal's Character Paradox **
The scene begins with Gulaal telling Vasant that Kesar has not yet become deserving of the mojdi. She augments her statement, saying how she has waited for Kesar all these years, so he can come back and step in to them, so she can be freed from the responsibility. Compare and add this to the sentence she writes to him in the letter from the scene above - and it just makes you wonder, what the relevance of Kesar stepping into those mojdi's really is for Gulaal. Technically, taking Vasant's place, and stepping into his shoes, involves, first and foremost, becoming her man, bearing her responsibility. That is how the DV was conducted, and that is how the custom goes. When MB offers Kesar the mojdi in the final phase - it is not to take over the responsibilities alone, but with the first and foremost condition/requirement to bring Gulaal back. In her letters, in her head, Gulaal lives a decade waiting for Kesar to return - to step into these mojdis - why? Just to take the reigns of the house in his hand? Isn't Dushyant doing that just fine? Yes, the house has lost a huge part of its soul in Vasant's death - and sending Kesar away has added to the emptiness. But really, as far as the responsibility is concerned - Kesar could stay in city all his life. Things would still be a smooth show. And Gulaal knows better than anyone else, that Dushyant shall never again fail any role - his failures have been done for and past him for a lifetime. If it was solely about Vasant's dream - really, it could still suffice if Kesar continued with his city life. He would be educated, responsible, and successful. Kesar's greates role in stepping into those shoes, one that cannot be completed from a distance, is stepping into her life. On the one hand this house and its 'responsibilities', its happiness, and its problems are all that Gulaal calls her life and world; on the other hand, she claims she waited for kesar to come back, so he could take over and relieve her from the 'jimedaari'?! She doesn't realize - of course - but what she's really talking about is waiting for Kesar to come and stand by her side, be an equal in living up this role of 'two people' which she has been bearing for a decade now! And how that is what she doesn't think he is capable of yet - which she's right, he isn't ready for yet!
The little Daiba dialog that I retained in the scene was significant to me for the same reason - how wise is the old lady, telling Gulaal that the void needs to be filled, the needs taken care of - not just for Gulaal's sake, but for the family's sake too! Daiba says - jitni jaldi tu ye samjh jaaye, utna acha hai - and I'm think, oh wait for another couple lifetimes DB, this woman is slower than one tends to realize đ
Finally, the silent tears of Gulaal, as she looks to her wrist - and remembers the scene with Vasant - excellent choice of FB, as always. It ends with Gulaal being in debt of Vasant, for the chudiyaan - and tunes back to her now bare wrist, and her almost accusing look at his picture. Yes, repaying that long ago debt has really taken the toll on Gulaal - even is she stands tall and strong like Mt.Everest for the world to see - and she has waited for Kesar all this time, because in the un-poked recesses of her heart is the knowledge, that he alone can be the support she needs to rise from this dormancy and live her life again! Kesar's comeback has rudely jolted her out of such secret, unassuming wishes of her heart - and so, she goes back to Vasant to complain.
She's one tired lonely woman here, and Kesar, one lonely torn soul. Two paradox characters, because they've made it so mandatory for themselves to keep that mutual distance between, and are then agonized by the other maintaining the rift! Kya ho sakta hai inn dono ka bhi ... *shakes head*
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And that's for today. Skipping away to check out the caps and Nur's post..
ps: Reemz - you can chori the siggie even now đ Me is so flattered. If you'll wait, then egg on Nur to make something new, so I'll just have no choice but to change my dabba đ
Edited by JZephyr - 13 years ago
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