Beyond Life
[Panba,Sudha,JK,Rewa in the kitchen]
Panba:Gulaal kahan gayi, subah se nahin dekhi use..
Sudha:haan mein bhi tho wahi soch rahin dhi
[Talli came in search of Kesar]
Talli: Sudhama aapne Kesar ko kahin dekha?
JK(laughingly):aap chinta mat kijiye, dono saath saath gayab hua hein...
Rewa(pointing out ward):lo bhabhi aagayi
[Talli was about to ask her, but Sudha stoped her]
Rewa:Ab tu yeh kya banane jaa rahi hein, sab kuch tho ban gayi.
Gulaal(shyly):Woh undiyu..Kesar ko paasand hein na.
Jk(teasingly):waise Kesar ko pehle se pasand dhi, lekin aaj kal humein kuch aur bhi maalum pad raha hein, hein na Paanba?
Paanba(smilingly shakes her head):Thu bhi na Jamuna..
[Gulaal blushed and hung her head down]
...
[Kesar was in his room busy in preparing the estimate for the next orders, he heard a knock at the door, turned back and saw it was Dushyanth]
Kesar(said coldly):ayiye Dushyanth ba..
[Dushyant entered hesitantly]
Kesar(still not looking at him): woh mein estimate thayar kar raha dha, jaise khadam ho jaayega, mein pahucha doonga.
Dushyanth:Kaam ki baath tho kaarkhane mein bhi ho saktha hein, muje patha hein... apne aap ko tera bhai kehne ka haq bhi mein kho chuka hein, lekin... jo kuch hua uske baad tho...
Kesar(interrupted):Jo kuch bhi beetha hein, wo aakhir koi bure sapne se kam nahin dha aur mein ab uske baare mein koi baath nahin karna chahtha(he stood up and was about to leave)
Dushyanth:Kesar, mein yeh kehne aaya dha ki, kaarkhaana, aur yeh sab ki dekhbaal ab thu hi kare, motaba bhi yehin chahta hein.(he hold Kesars shoulders)
[Kesar was moved a bit]
Kesar:lekin aap...aur yeh sab mein akele kaise?...
Dushyant:A re tu akele kahan..hum sab hein na tere saath, aur tere Dushyanthba tho humesha tere saath hein,muje apne Kesar ki kaabiliyath par poora barosa hein(he said proudly)
[Kesar hung his head down,emotionaly]
Kesar:Dushyanthba aap..(a voice interrupted)
Talli:Khaana Tayyar hein, aajana aap log
[Both of them walked down]
...
[At the dining hall every thing was set and Kesar was surpised seeing Gulaal for a moment and later became a bit confused, Sudha noticed him]
Sudha:Ab tuje kya hua Kesar, (laughing) tu chinta mat kar yeh undiyu hi hein, aur woh Gulaal bhi..
[Gulaal was not getting an idea]
Gulaal: Kya hua bhabhi?
Sudha(teasingly): nahin Gulaal, woh kuch din pehle yahan kisi ko har khaane mein kisi ke haath ki bani huyi undiyu nazar aa raha dha.(Rewa and Thalli gigled)
[Kesar and Gulaal smilingly exchanged a side glance]
...
[Kesar in his room was searching for the estimate he prepared just a while ago]
Kesar:Gulaal...Gulaal... (to himself) abhi tho yahan rakha dha, kahan gayi?...Gulaal..
[Suddenly his eyes got stuck at those green bangles kept on her table and he unknowingly stood there adoring it, meanwhile Gulaal peeped through behind]
Gulaal:Yeh tu ne laaya dha na, phir kahan kyu nahin??
Kesar(mumbled to himself):Mein kehte aur thu dene chale jaate apni pyaari Talli ko.
Gulaal:Kya kuch kaha thu ne?
Kesar:Kuch nahin Kuch nahin,woh jo kaagas mein yahan rakha dha, jisme estimate thayar ki dhi, use doond raha dha;
[Gulaal went on searching, mean while Kesar accidently opened the racks of her dressing table and left surprised.]
Gulaal(holding a file ):Kahin ye tho nahin?
[Kesar still on the trance some how managed to take the file and took a sigh, then lovingly looked at her and left, Gulaal couldnt figure out what happened exactly]
[As she looked down, she found the half opened rack and the unwraped pack of imlis, she went caressing it as a reflex action, and looked up and saw her on the mirror and she was startled for a moment to see her reflection, there she could only find a lady 'in love'...yes the same woman whom she tried to suppress, murder within her, for the past 10 years.She stretched her hands and tried to reach out at her, tears brimmed in her eyes as she touched it.]
...
[At late evening all were having fun, Gulaal,Rewa,Talli were at the courtyard and had leisure, Kesar at the terrace, stood looking at his Gulaal, Suddenly Daiba came there]
Daiba(laughingly):apne patni par nazar laga raha hein??
Kesar(turned back,hung his head down and asked in a serious tone):Dekh rahi hein aap Daiba, Gulaal kithni khush hein..pata nahin ithni saari khushiyaan woh kahan dabaakar rakhi dhi..
Daiba(smiled):Kesar uske har ek hasi pe tera hi naam likha hein.
[Kesar looked up at Daiba, in slight disbelief]
Daiba:haan beta. tuje pata hein, tere waapas aane par iss ghar mein koi bhi aisa nahin hoga, jo ek pal ke liye bhi yeh socha nahin hoga ki, kaash tu aur Gulaal...phir bhi tho sab tum dono ke haath par dhe..kabhi kabhi yeh sochkar dar bhi lagtha tha ki kya hotha agar thuje kisi aur se pyaar hhua hotha tho...(the very words of Diaba felt like a shocker to him, he never thought of such a thing even in his nightmares] hum tho phir bhi tere khushi keliye maan letha..shaayad..aur Gulaal ko thu jaantha hein, woh bhi apne thareekhe se, khudki duniyaa mein, apni gham ko bhi khushi samaj kar us e galath phaymi mein, ise ghar ki kise kone pe gut gut kar kaat letha,..tu ne Gulaal ko waapas zinda kar liya, muje pata hein, ki tu Gulaal se bahut pyaar karta hein, uska bahut khyaal rakhta hein, lekin mein sirf thujse yehin kahunga ki, uski chehre se hasi phir se gaayab mat hone dena, kyunki agar ek baar phir aisa kuch hogaya tho humein humari Gulaal humesha humasha keliye kho jaayegi
[ Daiba left,Kesar stood their gazing at Gulaal,words of Daiba pierced him like anything]
...
[At night Gulaal was in their room combing her hair, prior to bed,suddenly Kesars arm surrounded her from behind, he rested his chin on her shoulder, and lovingly gazed through the mirror]
Gulaal(shyly):Ab aise kya degh rahe hein, jaise pehli baar...(Kesar interrupted)
Kesar:Pehli baar tho dekh raha hun,...meine apni Gulaal ko kahin baar dekha hein, kabhi nasteek se tho kabhi door se, kabhi darvaase ki peeche se tho kabhi...(smilingly, he left it incomplete)..lekin, aaj pehli baar in aankhon mein wahi chamak dekh rahi hoon jise mein humesha dekhna chahtha tha, wahi pyaar dekh rahi hun, jo mere liye hein, jee bhar ke dekh ne do na Gulaal, mein bahut khush hoon Gulaal, aise dekhte dekhte maut bhi aajaye...
Gulaal:mauth(shouted back)
[ 'Mauth' through which even your dearest turns to a mere lifeless framed portrait, forever and you could simply watch it helplessly, and her Kesar too...the very thought was enough to pull the eccentricity in her]
Gulaal[frantic]:tu ab ...yeh kya keh raha hein...tu muje chodkar...(she clutched the table for support)
Kesar(holding her): Gulaal, tu ne aisa kaise soch liya ki mein thuje chodkar jaunga...kaise...tere bina kaise Gulaal..kya humare rista ithni kamzor hein ki jeene ya marne se koi farak aajayega??
jahan bhi jaau jise bhi duniya pe rahun, kya tu mere saath nahin nibaoge??
[Gulaal was too tired to respond, she lost the grip of her foot and fall in to his arms, Kesar holded her close to him as if preventing her from falling down]
...
[Kesar's voice]
Sansar ki uss paar,ya kshithij ke bheethar-
chaahe koi jaaga ho yaa koi duniya, jaha bhi ho-
yeh Kesar apni Gulaal se kabhi judaa nahin hoga,
kise bhi thaakad se bhi nahin,
- na hi maut se ya na hi moksh se...
Edited by alanta - 13 years ago