Shiddat - Part 2
This may be a controversial one 😉 Because this is about V and his shiddat wala pyaar.
With all the flaws, V genuinely loved/s Sai. But how is it different from the Shiddat we discussed yesterday? A small twist in the philosophy followed with an addition from Richard Bach
"If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were"
V followed this philosophy. Even when he first fell in love, once he doubted Sai may not reciprocate his love, he decided to retract and set her free. He never wanted to force his love on her. But while his mind followed this, his heart always yearned for her. For the emotional guy he is, the war between the mind and heart was so strong that he often contradicted in his words and actions.
This aspect is evident throughout. Right from anniversary track. He became indifferent towards her. When he believed that he should set her free and not force his love on her, why was he rude towards her? Should he not be respecting her feelings then? But no. He contradicted his thoughts in actions. Even now when he says he cannot be with Sai, he expects her to acknowledge and express her love for him. He declares that he cannot leave P and she is his wife blah blah. But wants to be with Sai. Should he not be setting her free. Then why get possessive and question her if someone else shares a similar moment with Sai that he believes was personal to only them. Sathya is sharing some of his memories and recreating with Sai. Why is he impacted. Should he not set her free to lead a life of her own?
Pre leap, once Sai reciprocated, his approach changed. He wanted her to choose him always. Never to leave him. Trust him for all the decisions he made.
He wanted to test her again during P's bail out. But Sai had enough of trusting him. She had been tried repeatedly. And she could not afford to risk her son with this test.
V's love for Sai is most evident in the years he believed her to be dead. It is easier for people to forget people and move on when someone is not alive. But V held on to her memories, and nothing dampened the depth of his love for her through all those years.
With all that conspired between Sai-V, Sai eventually fell in love with V. His desire to be Sai's love was approved by the universe. Because "Shiddat se maanga tha". And the same shiddat even in her assumed death kept her alive and brought her back to him. Even with no hope his desire manifested. Such was the "Shiddat"
So where does V's Shiddat falter.
A boon is a blessing. Hence needs to be treasured. It is something that is granted upon us as a reward for our efforts, for our intense desire and focus. Treating it as an entitlement, and taking it for granted is not just an insult to the boon but is also showing disrespect for the one granting it.
This is where V failed. He took the love, the boon for granted. He did not respect it the way it should. have been. It became an entitlement, that he could choose to treat the way he found fit. He had this sense of partial ownership where he could take decision on Sai's behalf. For V she became someone whose feeling and emotions could be forfeited and mortgaged and sacrificed for meeting his own principles and needs.
Just because she is his love makes her lose the priority. Something I had mentioned a few times before. For V, the definition of farz is being selfless. Just because Sai is his wife/love, he cannot choose her. Because that makes him selfish and fall flat on his farz. And for V his Farz comes first. Clearly a very injudicious way of defining and classifying Farz. Because, he does have responsibility towards Sai and his kids. He is disregarding this Farz, only because that is where his heart is. And hence he will be called selfish. Is that not someone who is more concerned about his image?
So in all this what V has done is disrespect the boon, the desire to have his love and kids, his family with the one he loves. His shiddat made the universe, return the boon that was revoked. But he chose to be ungracious again and demean the mercy and consideration that was bestowed upon him.
Every manifestation is a gift..a boon. For which one needs to be grateful and respect and treasure. But V fails at it..yet again! He is bound to pay the price!!
PS - Something that may be missed in direct narrative. But indirect narrative has its answers. This one is for you Sadhika 😉
V has been very direct wrt his feelings for Sai. Non verbally. And his intent in ending up with her. The Holi confession should be the most trusted version of his feelings since he couldn't fake or deny things in that state. Someone who has confessed his love to Sai twice, and is well aware that she knows about it, refuses to share the very same thing in front of Kaku? Says he cannot confess to her. What kind of double play is V playing here?
Edited by Sherry24 - 2 years ago