Part9He crases her handwriting with longing..trying to get her feel from it! He smiled as all their beautiful memories came back to him. Her smiling face flashed in front of his eyes, making his heartbeat to quicken. Her mesmerising laughter whenever they would play prank on their classmates..her pouting cutely if he taunted her..her calling him by his nicknames just to irritate him & get the upper hand..whenever he used to annoye her! He remember each & every moment clearly!
Her friendship is the most precious thing to him and he would do anything..anything to keep it intact forever. And he did..he did what he could to save it..but may be, his way of doing so wasnt right. With this thought..her hurt & pained eyes flashed in front of his eyes..making him to feel regrate and guilt.
He always had this fear that his new found feelings for her can break their friendship..thats why he decided to hide them!
He could never think of hurting her even his dreams..but in his attempt to hide his emotions..he ended up doing the very same thing again & again. He was so much lost in his own miesry that he never realised..that the friendship which he wanted to save..for which he was adment to deny his own feelings, could get destroyed by all this. That his unpredictable and rude behaviour can cause a damage to their beautiful relationship. And he himself will be to blame for ruining it as well as loosing the most important person of his life!
The way he had behaved with her..snapping at her without reason..treating her so rudely.. if it would have been someone else, they would have called him MAD and would have broke their friendship with him long back.
But he was lucky that it was HER..! She never ever questioned him. She just took everything silently..his unreasonable anger, his rude behaviour, his harsh words..everything. Never did she complained him..and thats why he never realised that how wrong he was actually doing! He just took her silence for granted. He failed to realise the extent of all the pain & hurt which he have caused her..unintentionally!
He still wouldnt have realised it... If it wasnt for that day..the day when she finally lost her control and confronted him for the first time.
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Past:
He was once again avoiding her. Though he knew his ignorance must be hurting her..but he was still to realise the seriousness of the situation.
He had wanted some important notes. Usually, he used to take notes from her only and thats why her name came to his mind first. But as he was not talking to her..so he asked one of his friend to get those notes from her on his behaf. She gave it and he took it...but soon he regrated.. having brought the third person in between them!
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He was busy with his books..thats why he didnt realised her presence near him. He was startled hearing her voice, so close to him..
"tujhe notes chahiye the, toh tu khud bhi toh maang sakta tha na? Kissi aur ko kehne ki kya zarurat thi?"Her sudden questioning had took him offguard. He wasnt prepared for this..nor he knew, how to handle the situation. And in his nervousness, he again choose the wrong way..and wore the mask of rudeness..
"agar tujhe problem hai..toh kyun diye? Mana karna tha na.." he wasnt thinking what he was saying that time. He just didnt wanted to confront her yet..he wasnt ready for it!
He could see it in her eyes that she wasnt happy with his reply..but he couldnt do anything. And when she again asked that why he himself didnt came for notes..he just wanted to end the topic there... as he didnt had any answers for her questions. He thought that he wont be able to explain her anything...so he just returned her notes..
"take it..mujhe nahi chahiye tere notes.."he thought that it will end there. But he was wrong! His that action..broke the thread of her petience and for the first time..she shouted at him.
"Whats ur problem maan? Main tujhse thik se baat kar rahi hoon..aur tu mujhe attitude dikha raha hai..?" Hurt was visible in her eyes & voice..which for the first time made him realise that to what extent he has been hurting her continuesly. She was taking everything silently coz she considered him as her best friend..and in return he has been giving her pain only.
He sat there silently, unable to say anything feeling guilty. How can he not realise that in his own confusion..he was hurting the one who was most important to him! He was lost in his thoughts..when her hurt & angery voice brought him back..
Fine..nahi baat karna chahta na tu mujhse..? Thik hai..even i dont want to talk to u anymore..!"and she left saying that.
He looked up at her retreating back with longing & guilty eyes..he had lost his most treasured friendship today.. The thing which he had been fearing..was coming true!
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