Part8He wanted to be the only person who will be close to her. And these emotions were so intense that he couldnt stop himself and without even thinking once..he went to her and told her that from next time she must tell him if she planned to go anywhere..that they would go together.
Sheeshe me mere..
Hai saaya tera..
That time, he wasnt thinking about his action.. But later, when he realised that what he actually did and how he had reacted.. He was surprised/shocked with his own reaction. He couldnt belive that he actually said that to her!
It was good that she didnt questioned him that how did he knew where were she yesterday and simply agreed to his demand of telling him her plans. But what if she would have reacted otherwise? What would he have possibly done then? How could he have justify his acts to her when he himself wasnt able to understand that what was happening to him!
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He continued avoiding her..as he needed to find some answers which can clear this fog of confusion. He didnt wanted to face any questions yet..not from her..not from anyone else..as he wasnt prepared for it..so he tried really hard to keep his emotions in check. He couldnt take the risk of letting anybody to get even a slightest of hint about his feeling for her.
His struggle, his fight with his heart & mind was still on..and so was his brother's constant teasing. And somewhere his heart was winning the bettle! Somewhere..subconcially, in a corner of his heart..he knew..he knew.. that his fight was useless..that he cant avoid these feelings for long. A little part of him was coming in terms with the fact that he do feel something for her but he was scared..scared to accept this even to his ownself!
Though she never questioned him about his behaviour.. He could clearly read the confusion in her eyes. And thats why he used to avert his gaze whenever his eyes met her's. He was afraid that he wont be able to hide his emotions and she may realise his feelings for her.
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Present:He smiled remembering how foolishly he used to behave then.
Something came to his mind and he put the reciver back on its place which he has been holding from so long.
He got up searching for his school bag and pulled out one of his notebooks. He opened a particular page which he had booked marked specially & crases it lightly. An instant smile light up on his face and he felt a sudden rush of emotions so intense. He brought the book close to his face and kissed it lovingly.
He admired the beautiful handwriting..crasing it once again. It was her handwriting!
You can call it crazy or stupid..but thats what had kept him going all the while. Whenever he would miss her too much..he would try to feel her in the things which are somewhere related to her. One of them is her writing..which is a part of her persona. It gave him her feel as it belongs to her. Feeling & seeing her writing gave him some satisfaction...as if she herself was with him in real!
Itna naa sataaa..
O sanamm mmm..
Edited by Shonameet - 11 years ago
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