Saffron Fields #4(Arshi FF)/// Index & link to next thread on pg 1 - Page 102

Hi Jenny,

Sorry again for late comment. I wrote a long comment over the weekend and well, IF ate it. Made me so mad!!

Here I am again and I do not mind one bit typing it all over again because I love SF and the emotions it makes me go through.

I do not hate or dislike Lavanya. To me she is one of those persons who have deep rooted insecurity issues. Forgetting how she betrayed Arnav and how difficult she is making things for Arnav, I still sympathize with her. Irrespective of all her mistakes she is still a mother, who lost her child. She is in as much turmoil and pain as Arnav and above all deep down she is feeling guilty too. Everybody has their own way of handling the guilt. Arnav handled his guilt by pushing himself into solitude and Lavanya is handling it by blaming Arnav for everything. She needs healing and it's a process and I am glad she is going through therapy, it's a start. The day she accepts the reality, her mistakes she will be free to make a fresh start.

I understand that Arnav never loved Lavanya and their marriage was based on lies and deceit and they were bound by Aarav. Just like Khushi I too want to know why Arnav couldn't stay with Lavanya, as a friend. I am hoping that he tried to support her and be there for her.

Arnav narrating Aarav's story was heart wrenching and he was reliving those treacherous moments. I was overwhelmed reading it and it was hard, trust me.

Khushi loves this man with her being. She has no choice in this matter; loving him is becoming her existence now.

Jenny, the following were one of the most beautiful lines I read and I have these memorized. This truly defines Khushi's love for Arnav.

" if she could buy just a little of his happiness with a piece of her soul, she would gladly do that."

This story is emotional roller coaster ride. After ALS, this is only story that's evoking emotions from deep down my heart. You are doing awesome dear.