Saffron Fields #4(Arshi FF)/// Index & link to next thread on pg 1 - Page 101

Lav was cheatng him...
nd she s blamng him 4 Aarav's death...!!
ow dare she..:-@
poor Arnav...he suffrd a lot
that last part was awesome
khushi confessd..:-)

now,.. looking up.. we could see lavanya is so rude

So lavanya and Arnav's relation ship was based on deceit...Amazing chapter...thanks for the PM...loved the teaser too...

To grasp a drop of sunlight.

Jenny,

Sorry for the delay in commenting. I wanted some peace of mind to write a honest feedback to the wonderful story you are writing. My life was busy and in chaos hence got little late...

What I love most in your stories is the small philosophical bits of life which you neatly wove in to the plot/thoughts..and the unexpected twists you thrown in...found few of those and are mentioning them specially..

"How often in life, one comes across a particular point in time, where everything you've once believed in, starts showing unexpected cracks, the very foundation you've proudly stood on, starts shaking, compelling you to look deep inside of you and doubt if you really know yourself..." ---- very true and it made me smile thinking on these same lines...

Closing her eyes for a moment, she lay still, vehemently rebuking herself for indulging in a dream, which could only be bulit on the foundation of a broken marriage, a severed relationship, a shattered dream...--- Here I felt Khushi was trying hard and her following monologue suggested the same..she should have taken upon Arnav's offer and try to understand atleast one part of the story...instead of speculating..I think the fear of what she might hear stopped her from doing so...

Towards the end of the night, one appallingly petty, outrageously selfish, shockingly inglorious thought slowly crept out through the clouds of confusion, shocking her and filling her heart with guilt and shame in equal measures. --- here upon reading Khushi's thoughts I felt her real person...she is real..and she has to be...I felt her real when she broke Aman's heart by being honest and now..

For just a weak minute, Khushi was willing to exchange 'forever' for a moment like this... --- its perfectly ok to feel like this Khushi...its beautiful moments of like which makes you yearn for few more moments like that!

"Sometimes, life made it necessary, a matter of survival...even...", she thought, "To keep up these little games of pretence, to sweep awkward, uncomfortable matters under the rug, your pains under a smile and keep moving on..". ----- loved this...its true...and I am glad to see Astha and Khushi trying to bring back their old companionship. Both Astha's and Khushi's thoughts during the movie was neatly done..while Ashta thought about her son's melancholy..Khushi was still stuck with Lavanya..

Its always cute, I feel so, to go through old albums and discover childhood of a person..Here Khushi going through the album was like discovering some wonderful memories of Arnav's life which no one could tell her..including Arnav..it had to be discovered by own...and I loved these line "Half disappointed and half relieved, she stood up to place the album back on the mantle"

"While a surge of emotions made her throat ache, her eyes refused to move sideways, to avoid fully looking at the person who sat next to her".

It was a picture of Arnav, carrying a little boy, no older than 2 or three, with both grinning happily at the camera. They wore matching 'Cleveland Browns' T-shirts, and his dimples and brown eyes left no doubt in Khushi's mind as to who he was. -----That was a quite a shock!!

I don't know whats the story behind Lavanya and Arnav..but reading about La bought an immense pain...she is alone, hurt and in dark...

Khushi's google search surprised me but yes, she has the right to do it..to find out..this statement is a testimony to your opening statement..the self doubt...

Chapter 12

Khushi's reply text was crisp and honest..Loved that honesty in her..she wasn't giving any hopes, instead simply stated her helpless state..and conveyed her sincere wishes...

Arnav's life too is plain...colorless and sad...What life it is! L

"The poignant tableau of Khushi standing at her apartment's doorway, a fierce conflict between her heart and her mind, her desires and her beliefs, ebbing and flowing in the suddenly murky depths of her eyes. It was last glimpse, he had had of her, before she had firmly shut her apartment's door on him, before he'd left Kashmir..."--- impactful image you have created Jenny for Arnav which makes him question himself...and loved the way that thought entered into his head...As the warm water sluiced over his well toned, chiseled body, he had a sudden moment of realization, which left a wave of bitter, self-recriminatory, anger in it's wake. "Damn, I'm being so unbelievably selfish. Why am I putting her through this? Even though I agree love can happen anytime...the way Arnav and Khushi fell for each other was fast and unexpected (though we expected since they are Arnav and Khushi) but in real life...Khushi could be a rebound girl for Arnav..and Khushi who holds strong to her principles is facing a strong test which put her beliefs and upbringing in line..Though I understand Arnav's need to have someone in his life..what happened with La? Why aren't they together..what separated them...what happened to/with the baby?

"For now..".---- I shouldn't feel relaxed and happy but I am just like Khushi...love is tough..you want to make it go away but you want to hold on to it too...ha ha..

The fact that the sender had sent these words out, as an afterthought, and at 3 in the morning, underlined their significance, and if one were to go by the sudden lighting up of the recipient's eyes, she was cognizant of it too, the sudden stab of guilt in her heart, notwithstanding.--- Loved this scripting.. its says everything about being in love...

Arnav's smile on seeing the text..the painful memory with his kid...and his urge to hear Khushi and that silent conversation...wow..Jenny it was so touching..."Hello...Arnav...?

"Hello?

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As he hung up without a word, Khushi understood. Understood his silence better than a million words uttered by anyone else, even as she helplessly stared at the phone, trying to come to terms to a sudden deluge of feelings that wreaked havoc in her heart.

When she called him after long minutes of fierce internal debate, he didn't answer the call but sent a text later in the night.

"Had accidentally called you. I'm fine".

Her eyes getting hazy from the intense yearning that unexpectedly jolted her heart, she realized with a watery smile that she understood his lies just as well too.--- Jenny, I simply loved this part...I cant explain in words but it was simply beautiful and touching...

Oh my Jenny, that was an unexpected visit by Arnav and the saffron bloom at night, the way you explained made me wish to visit Kashmir...Khushi touching him to confirm his presence was sweet...but that question aha! Sigh! "Time and reason stood still and with a silent sob, she swiftly bridged the gap between them, and throwing her arms around him, drew him into an embrace "--- excellent writing Jen...but then what happened La? she is also suffering the loss of the baby like Arnav...why isn't he with her...

Good that La is getting professional help. Recently I have come to understand it helps greatly to talk your burdens and has someone help and tell you where you are going wrong...

Lavanya tried to unravel the painful tangle of thoughts, that raged unabated inside her mind. Complex web of myriad conflicting, yet inextricable linked emotions, unfathomable motives and unpredictable reactions, hounding a fast unrecognizable self. ---- loved the way you painted La's picture..she is struggling with guilt too I guess..for what?

"Hated me even though I loved him so much. That ...bas***d never had the slightest regard for my love". --- I think this is a problem with everyone.one feel their love isn't enough to hold people to them..or they feel that they are not loved or that their love is discarded or not considered..its painful to deal such conflicts..where doubts plaque your mind drastically...

somethings in life are like personal crosses, you have to carry on your own, that no matter how hard you try or another person tries, are incapable of being fully shared with or fully understood by another.--- very true! Its your personal hell...

Loved how Khushi stepped back and questioned Arnav...she is right, has a valid point..but wonder why Arnav didn't bother to explain..He has really put Khushi in a mess...

"You called and told him but didn't think it was necessary to inform your own mother about your travel plans..".--- Ashta is right here to explain her hurt..and I felt Arnav was bit too harsh on her by replying rudely...

"Arnav, I'm sorry if I've ever given you the impression that I don't care about your happiness...it's just that ...after...Aar...after..what happened...my heart goes out to Lavanya too and I...don't want to be that typical, insensitive, selfish mother who always sides with her son...no matter what..."."here I am partly with Aastha and partly with Arnav...Currently I understand Arnav has only Astha to support and understand him but when your own mom is siding with someone else not understanding you, Arnav is right to keep his distance...and Astha is right in her stance where she finds two people who were bound together and suffering the same loss, she is being generous to both..but my question is does she know the complete picture? What was the relationship between La and Arnav like? Because in her thoughts earlier you have mentioned there was something that made Arnav melancholic while he was living with La..

Khushi-Arnav conversation in car was smooth and neatly done...and you bought out Khushi's tension excellently "There was so much more she wanted to ask but fear of invading someone's privacy, that of scratching healing wounds and making them bleed again, made her hold her tongue and sit in miserable silence, her clenched hands resting on her lap, in unbearable tension. Just how much pain is a human heart designed to hold, she wondered, before it gave up on life. She marveled at, what seemed to her, inconceivable invincibility of human spirit, which in-spite of such unexpected and seeminly fatal blows meted out to it, still found it within itself, the will to rise from the depths of despair and hopelessness, the will to survive, the will to rise above it's ashes, phoenix like and attempt to live life once again".

Now that field was an amazing picture you painted Jenny..

Ok now that's the story..so La is also a doctor...but why did La do that? Why did she lie and trap Arnav? Now I am very curious to hear La's side of story...Aarav not the biological son...what all twists are you bringing in Jen? J

Somewhere I fear deeply for Khushi.."because never in her life had destination seemed more important than the way, wrong so perilously close to right, and prospect of getting burnt so irresistibly enchanting..---what superb lines!

finally the past came out...and it was heart wrenching...dnt know what to say...how express how sad and sorry i feel for Arnav and his baby Arav...yes i'll say his baby,coz unlike Lavanya who used Arav as trick to convince Arnav for marriage, Arnav always loved even now love Arav like his own son,selflessly like a father would do.
and im really grateful to Khushi that she brought out the tears he was holding within himself...

Waiting impatiently for the update

New chapter will be posted on a new thread. :) link to the new thread can be found in the index on the first page.

Beautiful work,I just love this couple.
ak