Mohini ff:Life: It's Not a Journey - Page 6

Hi Everyone I don't know who is this person a guy or a girl but this is she/he thinks just right now.

Poems of an insane thinker

1

To whom I love the most, I get a betrayal from them,

To whom I trust the most, I get a stabbing in my back from them,

For whom I always care, they neglect me always,

My too much fondness turns into my weakness anyways.

Don't know what should I do?

I want relief craving desperately for something that could bring the peace to me……

Though I want to go………..

But still something forbid me,

Ask me to stay.

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I want you with me always but you left me,

I love you the most but you hate me.

I trust you blindly but you gift me betrayal,

You don't bother to be loyal.

Negligence, disrespect and sharp words never may hurt me ,

If you didn't ignore my care, fondness and affection.

But now I understand !!

Though it is too late……

This is the best time to forget.

I forgive you for all you deeds.

But from now my true self hides,

Behind of a steel and rude shield and armour.

Which will protect her from this world forever.

i read all parts earlier but was very disturbed for my health issue and other pressures..so couldn't rpl and again read story
ok so i loved sagarika more now..feeling bad to know what grievances mitin has from childhood ..all of her beloved left her or dumped her
so ashi-nanhi knew sid and now they knew he is their dad..waiting for the confrontation..
hope to see flashback of mitin-sid's complications..so keep updating

sometimes i may not be in mood of commenting or reading..but don't get upset or keep hard feelings..its my nature to give feedback with 100% concentration..so even if it would be late i will give my feedback with 100% honesty

and about your poem..what to say it is more than appropriate for this situation

kahane k liye kuch bachha hi nehi...good-better-best...sab chariye gali...ta insane thinker ta k?? tui???😉...really beyond words...kobe kabitar boi publish korbi??😊...M SERIOUS.

Chapter Two: Love within the Hatered

Mitin is in the shower physically though her mind is wandering around the past 20days memories. She is thinking about the day when she had a confrontration.

Mitin:Matlab? Kya keh rahi hai aap?

Sagarika: Jo tere chehre se jhalakta hai…….aankhon se saf saf dikhayi deta hai…..(she again started laughing silently)

Mitin:Please Pisi……..pehli bujhana bandh kijiye…..mujhe aap se Siddharth ke bare mein puchna tha…..

Sagarika: (bursted into laughter) Kya?? Yeh mujhe tujhse puchna chahiye ki mera Sidhu kaisa hai….kyunki tu to uski…………(She couldn't complete her sentence as Mitin stared her so angrily . So she changed the topic and became serious.) Bol kya janna hai?( She asked her sweetly).

Mitin: Aap ko pata than a Sid….Siddharth Ashi aur Nanhi se regular milta hai?? Woh bhi pichle 4-5 saalon se?? Aapko pata tha na woh undonose ghulmil raha hai ….aur

Sagarika: Piu is mein galat kya hai??(she asked her cautiously )

Mitin: Please Piu mat bulayaiye…….I hate that name and the relations I have from it…...(she started crying)

Sagarika came to her and gave her a tight hug. After some moment she said slowly

Sagarika: Jo hota hai achche ke liye hota hai, Jo hoga achcha hoga aur jo ho raha hai achcha he ho raha hai. Tere Mamma aur Grandma ki death ke baad tu mujhe aur Arnav ko mili ……humara parivaar pura huya. Arnav ke death ke baad Arnav ki kami tune puri kari….aur teri betiyon ko unke Pita se pyar-dular mil raha hai yeh to sab se achchi baat hai Piu. Haan…….main janti hoon tujhe abhi usse aur iss naam se nafrat hai…….par teri nafrat ke andar jo beinteha pyar hai woh mujhe dikhta hai….aur Sid ko bhi. Aur agar maine pyar ko samjha hai thodi si bhi to dekhna bohot jald tu aur woh ek ho jayegi……humesha ke liye. Koi bhi tumlogonko alag nahi kar payega.

Mitin: Pisi……

Sagarika: Meri baat puri nahi huyee……tumlogon ko apne rishtey ko phir se samajh na hoga…

Mitin: Aur kya samjhu main? 8saal mein……

Sagarika: 8saal mein log badal jate hai……cheezein jagah sab badal jate hai…….aur tu aur Sid phir insaan hai. Mujhe yakken hai tum logon ki nadaniyaan ab samajhdari mein badal chuka hai. Kuch galti tune ki thi aur kuch usne…..ab waqt hai usse sudharne ka. Samjhi.(She lovingly shooked her head and caressed her hair.)

After that she doesn't talk with Sagarika on this regard. Ashi and Nanhi reluctantly agree to not to talk with Sid any more. Though they are very much unhappy about this but don't tell a single word about it. She too is busy in her works then and has no time to pay her attention on this matter. Actually she wants to cut off this whole Sid matter from her mind and life as well.

She poured a larg amount of shower gel on her lufa and got shocked to see that. She disgustingly started rubbing the lufa on her wet body and soon covered herself with surfs and bubbles. Then suddenly her cell started ringing. As her bathroom is just beside of her bedroom she never felt the need to take her cell into her bath. But right now in between her bath she became very angry. She again on the shower and washed off the surfs and bubbles and put a robe on her and came out from the bathroom.

Water drops are falling from her hair, her whole body as she had no time to wipe them off. She picks the call…..it is Sagarika.

Sagarika: Shun mujhe 2din aur lagega wapas aane mein…….

Mitin: Par aap to 2din kehke gayi thi……..aur mere sona pariyonko bhi aap sath le gayi hai. Mujhe yahan akele achcha nahi lag raha.

Sagarika: aww…baby gussa nahi karte, rote bhi nahi.main bohot jald laut ayungi…….teri dono pari Ashi aur Nanhi ke sath…par tu bas ek kam kar humare ghar ke Ishtdev Mahadev-Parvati ki puja aj ke liye kar de na……

Mitin: Hmm.aise bol rahi ho jaise peechle do dinon se maine to unki puja bhi nahi ki aur unhe bhog bhi arpit nahi kiya……..apke Bholenath to bhukhe baithe hai…aur Ma bhi mere he sare huye fruits ki intezar mein ajkal khana banana chhod diya hai.( she told sarcastically)

Sagarika: hahahha tu bhi na………ha bhai hona he chahiye……..tujhse bada pagal bhakt unka aur hai kaun. Tu ne toh Ganpatiji aur Subramaniya Swamiko apna bhai bana liya hai. Issi nate woh to tere Papa huye…..aur Parvati Ma teri Ma. Ab ajkal beti khana bana rahi hai……fruits he sahi …..to Ma kyun taqleef karengi??Chal main rakti hoon….dhyan se puja karna..bye.

She disconnects the phone from the other side and Mitin too smilingly puts her cell down on her bed. Her Pisi Sagarika went to her friend's place 2 days ago and she took her 2 little deer cubs aka daughters Ashi and Nanhi along with her. So the routine worship of their Ishtdev 's responsibility is come upon Mitin's shoulder. And she happily carries out this responsibility as she herself is a blind devotee of Lord Ganesha whom she made her brother. So the worship of Mahadev-Parvati is her one of pleasure of mind.

kya likhti hai yaar tu, main teri fan ho gayi yaar, bas jaldi jaldi update karti rehna. atleast tere story ke thru Mohit mouni ko saath imagine kar sakti hoon.😳

well good update..so sagaika wants her to patch up but she doesn't..dil k jakhm itne asanise mitte kahan hai?? feeling bad for ashi-nanhi..they have a bond with sid..children are the most sufferer of broken relationship..Mitin herself went through it and now her daughters
well m not guy so will not comment on bathing scene😉
and the most lovely part is mahadv-Parvati❤️

Thanks Ria for comment.
@Divyadidi aap bhi na...Ab se kuch toh writing kaisa hai iss bare mein bhi bolna padega...
@Queen of Chandrapir ami atyanta anandito ebom utfulla ebombadhito je apni comment korechen.
1.Mitin doesn't have any broken relationship in her childhood.
2Ashi-Nanhi and Sagarika desire ki kore satyi hoi tar jonye podte thakun songe thakun.😉

Chapter Three: Confrontation

"Beautiful''.charming, mesmerizing"'Mitin gets shocked when she turns around and sees Sid. He is in half lying and half sitting position on her bed and staring at her with a fixed glance. She can't understand how does Sid enter her room and how long he is here? Does he''???????

"Sorry Darling. I know this is bad manners to see a young lady changing . But I can't resist myself. When you put your cell down and took this saree(he indicates to her white silk saree) and took away your bath robe and started draping around it. I tried hard to close my eyes . But ''"Sid replies as he could read her mind with a naughty face and doesn't mention that she doesn't wear any inner wears under that saree. Sid again says but little differently''.

Beauty lies
In the beholder's eyes.
If this is true,
Then what is beautiful?
Your smile, your eyes or You??
You are beautiful...
No doubt.
But your attitude and proud
Is more more beautiful .
Your grace, your innocence ,
Your cute sweetness...
Your anger, your arrogance
Are more more beautiful than you!!
Your talent, your intelligence,
Your inquisitiveness make you
More beautiful.
But the MOST BEAUTIFUL is your heart,
Which may cry if anyone hurt,
Which is too big to give shelter anyone.
The most beautiful Lady is You.

Listening this, Mitin stares at his eyes and finds only love and care for her. She becomes shy and heart beats 1000time faster than previous and she breaths long and deep. She doesn't know how long she was standing like this but finally she gains all his energy to speak something to Sid. Because she knows that very well her silence signs that she still loves Sid.

"You idiot!! How dare you?" Though Mitin trys hard to became angry her cheeks automatically become red. She can't hide her blush at all and can't look at Sid eyes. Sid comes to her and stares at her with his deep dark eyes. Something is in his stare which makes Mitin shy and numb but doesn't give her any awkwardness. Sid touches her face with his long fingers and looks at her eyes. She again lifts her eyes down. He caresses her face towards him and removes the wet locks of hair from her face.Water drops are still falling from her hair, her face. He rises his hands to wipes them from her face. She steps backward to go far from him but bumps with her study table and falls but Sid holds her and picks her up in his arms and advances to her bed.

Again I am in your arms.

Just like as before I was.

Your embrace is the most secure place'..

The moment your lips touch'..

My eyes get new eyesight.

When you kiss my ears '.

I can hear new music 'music of love.

When my lips play with yours'

They become more red'

Red is colour of love.

Your passionate kisses and caresses

Make me red.

I get coloured in yours '.

Your tight hugs give the completeness.

I started melting in your arms.

By your warmth .

This is my most desired place'.

With you, in your strong arms.

Mitin was lost into her overwhelming feelings but suddenly she heard a name "Piu''.my Piu'.". She opens her eyes and discovers herself leaning on Sid's shoulder and near her ear he whishpers the name "Piu". She becomes conscious about herself and pushes Sid back and stands up. Sid becomes shocked to see Mitin's sudden reaction. He notices that Mitin's face is very sad but her eyes are burning with anger and she silently starts adjusting her saree.

" You are a bloody slave of your lust .Listen''you are a bloody creep'.slave of your lust and sexual urge" she shouts on her top voice looking at him.

"What the hell?? Why you are talking non sense Piu??"Sid now asks her angrily.

Mitin: You are an animal. You have no feelings and emotions. You have only your desire and lust. ( her voice becomes choaked with tears and anger.)

Sid: What do you mean? Kehna kya chahti ho? Aur yeh kya bakwas kar rahi ho?

Mitin: Tum''tum'..

Sid:Main kya??(his disgust reflects from her voice )

Mitin: Tum iss tarha mere room mein ake mere sath aisa kaise kar sakte ho??(she became angry and centimental at a time).

Sid: Achcha?? Maine tumhare sath aisa kya kiya hai Piu? Batao mujhe??

Mitin: Tum abhi kuch der pehle mere sath '..arr'..you bloody so'

Sid: Piu!!( Now Sid shouts at Mitin.) Don't drag my parents in our fight as well as yours. Yeh hum Pati ' Patni ke beech ki baat hai. Humein aapas mein yeh suljhana chahiye''

Mitin: Patni?? Aj achanak apni Patni ki yaad aa gayi? (her voice becomes little sarcastic)

Sid: Jab se tum se dur huya hoon aisa ek bhi din nahi gaya jab maine tumhe yaad na kiya ho. Aur tumhe yaad nahi karta tha main kyun ki tum mere dil mein rehti ho. Tum se dur jane ki saza kaat raha tha main in 8 saalon mein.(his eyes becomes wet)

Mitin: Tabhi tum meri betiyon se peechle 4-5 saalon se chhup chhup ke mil rahe the. And Bravo tumne to Pisi ko bhi pata liya hai'''So who dares to stop you. Tum to mere sath badla lene ke''

She can't complete her sentence as Sid stops her by placing her palms on her mouth and says

Sid: Main tumhara pati hoon''.shaadi ki hai tumse''and for your kind information nahi humara divorce huya hai aur na separation. Aur sirf tumhari beti nahi hai who donon . Meri bhi beti hai'.mera bhi ansh hai unmein tumhari tarha. Tumhari tarha mera bhi nature aur qualitities hai unmein. Aur agar main tumse badla lena chahta toh peechle 8 saalon mein kannon ki madad se tumko mere sath rehne pe majboor kar sakta tha.. Aur tumhe tumhari Pariyon se alag bhi kar sakta tha. Nahi kiya kyun ki mujhe tum se pyar hai''.bohot pyar hai. Kitna bata nahi payunga. Maine kabhi tumhara buda nahi chaha aur tumhe kuch huya yeh bhi mujhse kabhi bhi bardast nahi hoga. Aur main apni wise Angel aur sweet Angel ke sath sath Apni Princess ko bhi humesha ke liye chahta hoon apne pass.

He moves his hand from her mouth.

Mitin: Yeh kabhi nahi hoga. Main tumhe bhul chuki hoon.( her voice and face remain emotionless)

Sid: Koshish kar ke tum har chuki ho Piu. Ab kyun??Main manta hoon maine galti kiya tha'''

Mitin: Galti?? (She stares at him angrily). Woh Galti nahi thi Mr. Siddharth Shastri. Apne kahan tha apni Patni yaani mujhse aj se 8 saal pehle ki gira do . Abort it. Yehi kahan tha apen?? Kahan tha aap abhi ready nahi nahi hai'''apko aapni Patni se pyar nahi tha'..

Sid: Piu(Sid again shouts at her) Maine aisa nahi kahan tha'.tumne galat shuna tha'.

Mitin: Maine sahi shuna tha''tum uss din yehi keh reh the Doctor se'..

Sid: Tum kuch shunna tab bhi nahi chahti thi aura b bhi nahi chahti ho. Par iss baar aisa nahi hoga'.(Sid says diteminedly) Samjhi. Nahi main tumhe aur nahi in donon ko(Pointing at Ashi-Nanhi's photograph) ab aur akele rehne dunga aur nahi tumlogon ko aur taqleef uthane dunga.

He again goes to Mitin and grabs her arms hardly and looks at her eyes for a moment. Then he slowly moves his head towards hers'He sees that Mitin closes her eyes and breaths again deep and long and her heart again beats faster. He smiles and kisses on her cheeks and leaves her. This sudden action is totally unexpected for her. She opens her eyes and finds that Sid is standing near the window and smiles at her. And before his leave he says ''

Sid: You know what you are still mine''.by your mind, by your body and of course by your soul. And don't worry'..soon you will be back to me Piu. Till then keep enjoying Mitin's rule.

And he leaves from the window. Mitin get confused about his last words and totally lost in him. Unmindfully she goes to the dressing table and sees from the mirror that she is still blushing and the most important thing that she is smiling thinking about Sid? She tries to be angry on herself but fails and suddenly discovers Sid's finger imprints on her both arms. She sighs and takes another silk saree and goes to the bathroom. She needs to do the worship of Mahadev-Parvati nad before that she needs to take her bath again.

Omg rimi tune to din bana diya yar. Me tujhe bolne hi wali thi ki wahan sid hona chahiye tha jab piu bathroom se bahar aai and dekh tune use le aai. Superlike dis update. Nw i gues kuch mis understamding hui hai piu ko. Sid is innocent. I likd the poems for piu by sid and the way sid behavd wow i likd the way he kisd her and the best part was he shoutd on her. Pyar karte hai dono ek dusre se, dantne ka haq to banta hai. Cn imagine my mohini. how if dis hapens in real. ☺️

😳Wow rimi expect nahi kiya tha yaar ke sid piu ke room main hoga, padhte waqt dil dhak dhak bhi kar raha tha aur scene ko imagine bhi kar rahi thi. lovely yaar. Tu romantic scene bhi kay explain karti hai yaar. mujhe lag raha tha mano mere aage ye scene tv par chal raha hai, bilkul nahi laga ki i am reading it, bravo rimi bravo👏. since both MR's are expression masters mujhe imagine karne main aur maja aaya. 😃