Part 16
Ontario Days & Nights
22nd January,2012
The initial days in Ontario were okay, but something was missing.Rather everything was missing.To forget everything Arnav went everywhere..be it Montreal or Toronto ...or Vancouver...project work was just an excuse.But things do not change with the change of place.Some big things like war, menace , terrorism affect the life ..but life goes on with its own speed...and life is all the same in everywhere...people take birth, grow up, fall in love, get married.. procure children..bring them up...get old...and die...so be in Canada or in India, your loneliness doesn't leave you.It haunts you till the end.
When he saw someone getting married and his mother is standing there with a huge smile,Arnav realised that he didn't see his mother to grow old, his mother was not there to bless him when he got married.She was not there when he needed her the most. Arnav remembered her in such a way which gave no happiness to anyone.
When he saw husband-wife roaming in the city happily, then he realised that he almost didn't give his wife that happiness, when he saw a wife to hold her husband's hand with full trust, he realised that his wife never got the reason to trust him.She could not trust him enough that he will give her any happiness. When he was planning to give her every happiness, she was planning for her ultimate revenge...
But she is not to be blamed.
Now he was out of his country, far from his closed ones..that was why he was feeling alone, horribly alone.But she became alone within the family, when everyone was there but none was for her. Arnav realised what is loneliness in actual sense.He can get back to India in any time, but she had nowhere to go to get rid of her sufferings.
One day he saw a husband covering his wife's head with a scarf, she was getting cold. He remembered those days when she had to spend her nights at the poolside.Delhi was not cold like Canada..but it was cold . So many days he saw her red eyes, so many days he saw her pale face, god knows how many times she got fever..many nights he heard her coughing, she tried her best to conceal the sound.Neither she asked for entering in the room nor she asked him to call the Doctor.When she came back from hospital after that fateful day, she locked herself behind the ice walls..her voice was choked...one day he saw her cleaning the bathroom basin..he came to know that her throat was bleeding a bit.Later the Doctor said she was choked in that way that it was very much possible for few vein and arteries to get seriously damaged which could lead her to a painful death.The immense pain in throat was clearly visible on her face, besides there was disgust, disbelief, anger, hatred...to him, to everyone and to herself.That he actually did that, everyone witnessed that..and she didn't react...
He heard the ringtone, unknown number, from India...
"Hello..Arnav Singh Randhawa here.."
"Main hoon..."
For the moment his heart jumped to his mouth, this cannot be possible...the person who deserted him..his wife...Arnav was dumbstruck...
"Yes..who gave you the number?"
"Di.."
"How are you?"
"Fine...Arnavjee...come back to India..."..Arnav was surprised..but in the next moment he was shocked.."Arnavjee..I am the one to be blamed, because of me Adhiraj died..why are you punishing yourself?"
"Khushwant, I think we have discussed this..."
"Arnavjee..please come back.."
"Why? Why should I come back?"
"Your family needs you...for me why are you depriving them..?I am no one to anybody..besides I have done such thing which neither can be forgiven nor can be forgotten...for me why you would suffer?"
Arnav wanted to shout at her, everytime she does this...she knows very well where he gets hurt the most.He cleared his voice and said , "As far I remember, you are my wife, you are my family, so you must be there if you want me there... we made several promises ..that we will be together always...you conveniently forgot that...and left me..what was I supposed to do...?I told you I am sorry...I was doing everything in my power to make you happy..."
"I am not denying that ...you tried in every possible way..it's my fault...listen to me...come back to India...we will get divorced..then you marry a suitable girl.. who will make you happy...I am not up to your standard...don't think that I am saying this because of my anger..no, I have nothing against you..."
"If you have nothing against me..then why are you deserting me like this? Come back to Randhawa Mansion, next day I will be there...what say?"
"We will always be friends..so what we could not be spouses...you are the brother-in-law of my sister...we will always be connected.."
"Is it?"..Arnav was fuming..friends? Yeah right...
"Arnavjee..when you will see me..you will remember your guilt, I do not want to see you like this..and somewhere somehow you also think like that...else you would have stopped me when I told about my leaving..."
Now Arnav got the point..."I got it, just because I didn't stop you...you left.. alright..? So you are ready to do whatever I want..fine...then come to me...let us be alone ..here..far from India..at least for a year..Akash will arrange everything..you just come to me...is that okay with you?"
"No.."
"Why?Why can't you come here..?"
"I cannot..."
"Khushwant...I really don't understand you..."
"Arnavjee...I am pregnant...Doctor said me not to travel so far...it's my fourth month..."
"Whaaat?"
"Hmm..."
"And you are alone...tell me..you knew it when you left Randhawa House.. answer honestly.."
She was silent..
" I got my answer...who gave you the right to do that? In your hatred you are spoiling one innocent life...and you are telling me to divorce you,.and marry someone else..what do you really think..? That our life is like your script...which you can manipulate as you wish?..Please tell me..where are you?"
"I am in Delhi.."
"Then why Akash told me that you left...the city?"
"For some days...I needed a change..then I didn't inform anyone that I am back.."
"Not even your mother...?"
"No...but that is not the point...and you don't worry..my child will not claim anything from you...so you are not required to feel guilty about my pregnancy ...I will not blame you..."
"You are too kind...you are not blaming me..you are having my child..still you cannot be with me..."
"I will give my child the best..it doesn't matter whether '."
"Finish it..what you want to say..?"
"It could be anyone's child..but it doesn't matter that who is the father...I just want my child...rest is irrelevant...I really don't need a father for my child..."
Arnav had enough..." I got it..you really made my day..."
*******
"Arnav Singh Randhawa..you are a jerk, asshole , idiot..and moron of highest order...why did you let her go..why didn't you stop her...you yourself know that the way she reacted was very much natural...how did you behave when you got know to about the past? That was okay...but what she had to go through..she was supposed to be reasonable with her reaction..how very convenient of you.."
Arnav's alter ego was thrashing him like hell...meanwhile he has called Akash, "She is in Delhi, do the needful..get her back in Randhawa Mansion, if not at least in Grewal House..she needs care..I have lost one because of myself, I am not going to lose this one..Akash,do it...I am coming back at the earliest.."
"You planned for child..for that you slept with her..without any protection ..how is it possible that you never thought about that? You should have been careful about her...she wanted to leave you..you let her...instead of chasing her..you left your country...look at your own actions you moron...you are feeling guilty about whom? That Rampal? Who is he? In one moment you forgot everything...about your wife?He came that evening to instigate you.. bloody looser..Arnav Singh Randhawa...why are you like this? Just because she takes everything silently, you can do anything with her? She told rightly, you two are mismatch..with slight change..you are not upto her standard... you are simply third class as a spouse. Actually you do not have any class as a spouse.
He called in the same number from where he got the call...she picked up..
"Yes ..what is it?"
"You better come back...within two days ...by the time I get back to India...be there..."
" I am not coming back..."
"Khushwant...it's enough...please..khatam karte hai sab.."
"Exactly, I am saying the same.."
"You think you are very smart...?"
"No, then I would have married with a better person..."
"Yeah..very true..but please..Khushwant..come back..every time I have failed to take care of you..please..let me do this now.,please.."
"I do not want your care.."
"Alright, choice is yours..you come back by yourself..or I will make you come back...till then take care..."
************
"Your sister wants to talk to you..."..Shyam gave the phone to Anjali...
"How are you?"
" I am fine Di..."
"I am sorry about Khushwant.."
"Nothing to be sorry...she will be fine, once I am there..."
"Only if she knew that I am pregnant..she would never leave..."
Arnav was surprised...what does that mean?
"She doesn't know...?"
"Not yet...she left without informing anyone..I should have disclosed this to her, I should have told her that I needed her to be with me..."
"She doesn't know anything about your pregnancy?"
Suddenly Anjali felt something...Arnav knew about her pregnancy, the way he was talking about Khushi's awareness..that clearly showed that he knew about this for quite sometime...
"Arnav..answer honestly...you came to know about my pregnancy from whom and when?"
Arnav kept silence...then said.."That evening..Adhiraj told me..."
"Arnav..when are you coming back?"
"Tomorrow...can I talk to Jijajee?"
"Yeah..sure..."
"Hello..Arnav..how are you?"
"In India ,it is 10 in the night, month of January..when my sister will go home..?"
"She is in her home..."
"You are in Randhawa House?"
"No...in my apartment..I made her shift with me..she is my wife...her place is nowhere but with me.."
"You ..manage it? "
" I have hired a nurse..don't worry.."
"Still..Nani..Dadi..Payal..Mami...they would have..."
"She is my responsibility Arnav..apart from that..Payal is taking care of her ill father, Nani has taken enough care of you people..let her be in peace.. Mamiii..not in the list...and Dadi..I don't want Anjali to be with that old hag..."
"Excuse me..?"
"Yaar..you don't know...she called that Adhiraj...Adhiraj got every details about our family..our whereabouts...from your Dadi...come back Arnav...your sister could not tell you..because of the dignity of the brother-sister relationship...there are many things,generally a sister cannot tell her brother..."
"You people made me insane..."
"Arnav..just come back...I myself got to know everything few days ago..Anjali was not telling me easily...you must know certain things...I believe you do not know many things..."
"I am meeting you on the day after tomorrow..."
Edited by yakkudimag - 12 years ago
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