Mayur FF - Falling apart is just not easy Page 89 - Page 46

Nice part payal...:)whenever I read d past I wish d present becomes like dat 2...:)wen will mayank start acknowledging her...I liked Varun-CJ-Nups convo 2...n thank god woh riya gayi...by god use toh jana hi tha... 😆
Wish 4 an update 4m u sooner dis time...thanx 4 d pm 😃

nice update.

Nice part😊

@all here with another update..Thanks for the lovely comments...I hope you'll don't confuse you'll and you'll do like it😆

Part 23:

Nupur and CJ didn't quite get the chance to talk out about Mayank with Varun around. Nupur felt it was rather better. She didn't know what to say and why to talk about something she herself wasn't sure of. If the problem had been just Varun, then by now Mayank must have been back to normal, but it wasn't so or did he think still that Nupur may want to send him back as opposed to her promise to him several times already? Whatever it was, she wanted to talk to her best friend about it and that was Mayank to her and so she will!

Nupur was sitting in the passenger seat while Mayank was driving, Varun fast asleep in the back seat. Mayank was as usual lost in himself, looking straight ahead, thinking hard, not bothering to even throw her a glance. She did call him out many times, to start on a conversation but may be it was lost on him or he was plainly ignoring her. Whatever it was, she knew she couldn't take more of that attitude now!

Mayank knew time was flying away from his hand. The decision that he had taken meant that he will clearly declare to Nupur about Varun, that he won't let him go away this time by any chance, and will free her of any of his forced decisions on her or even their linked responsibility of Varun if she needed so. As much as he wanted her to deny all this and prove him wrong, he also knew over and above all he was just about to choose Varun since Nupur's denial may hardly come. He feared her decision at that. It pained him clearly to think of what will be left of him if she moved away, given that he was hardly able to feel fully himself even in the current situation. Everything was there and would be there, except her?

Instead of feeling all weak, he was angry, angry that he was choosing this himself. Why didn't he try to convince her about his thoughts, why didn't he try to make his sometimes-so-silly wife understand what she was overlooking, why he was skipping away from facing the obvious while taking so harsh a decision on his own? But the thing was, he knew however he tries he would never let her go. At the back of his mind, above all these depressing thoughts and ridiculous practical decisions, he knew that he could never let her go away. He readied himself to take on his decision ahead but he was sure that he cannot let her go, how could he?

But he had taken the decision, that the decision was supposed to be from her side and that is what his choices would offer her. He was all stuck as to how in the whole wide world was she going to understand all of this just the way he wanted to. He wanted Varun back at any cost and he wouldn't agree to a single word of hers if she didn't think so. Everything else, every will of his, every want was trivial now, all he wanted was Varun back in their lives and so his firmness over not wanting to let her go seemed shaky to say the least.

He realized they were back home and as he stopped the car in the front of their home, Nupur ignorantly went ahead to pick up Varun in her lap and was heading home.

He parked the car in the garage and headed back home thinking about Nupur's varied changes in behavior. He didn't understand it at all. She comes with them all over to Gujrat taking days off at office, she is sometimes sweet, sometimes rude, sometimes caring again. She hardly talks to him what he had expected that she would, never said anything after the return of Varun whether she wanted him to stay or not, goes off to show his colleagues at the party that all is extra well, takes extra care of Varun and then has that same mean expression on her face to him as she walks off from the car towards home. He was completely lost in comprehension of what was going in her mind too, as much as he was lost in his own.

The fact that they both had faced these turmoil of emotions for the first time together didn't strike their minds that they may not know how the other was supposed to react in such crisis, that they may not know how much the other one too needed them as much as they themselves did, that they were yet to know each other completely and would keep doing so for the rest of the time as much as they lived, that they were taking the other for granted and at the same time were insecure a bit about how much they could take each other for granted, that they were still not through with their understanding and needs of the other, what with life making it hard enough to understand it for oneself, let alone promising it for someone else.

Mayank saw Nupur come out of Varun's room, smiling inside at the sleeping Varun as she closed the door inside.

Mayank didn't know where did that come from but he saw himself blocking her way out and ask her in sheer rudeness,"Nupur, why are you pretending all this?"

Nupur was equally rude and sharp, "Pretending what?"

Mayank was using the offensive theory to get the truth out of her because he just couldn't take in any more of this silent unfathomable talks that they were having from a while, "Pretending everywhere...as if nothing has changed, all is as well as it is supposed to be, pretending to my staff going the extra mile the way you did all that today...going clicking photgraphs and all..."

His eyes were red and so were hers, teary instead, that were threatened not to let them fall.

She laughed sarcastically for the fact that this is how he was percieving her now, why was she suddenly so alien to him. Tears fell off her eyes as she shouted in distress, "Mayank if you have completely forgotten to see what I mean when I say something or do something then don't bother youself with anymore of that but I am not taking in your insults on me just like that, no more"

Mayank was shocked when he saw her say so but before he could speak she spoke up herself, "I am not a push-over, Mayank. You cannot insist that you know me and decide all for yourself everytime..."She completed sadly.

Mayank cut her in between her sentences, "I decided?"

Nupur looked stright in his eyes and said, "Yes, it was you who decided not to listen to me, it was you who decided to leave me all alone, it was you who decided that it was best to keep throwing hurting remarks at me, it was you who decided to not reply to me today when I was trying so hard to talk to you in the car and it is you who is deciding that I am suddenly happy 'pretending' about my family!!!" her eyes glistened with tears and accuses at him and he was left baffled for a second before he realized that she was gone from there and that he was standing now looking at the wall while he heard the door to their room click and shut with a loud bang.

He didn't know what to do for a second. She hadn't addressed what he wanted to hear but she hadn't addressed anything wrong either. Where did he speak out this 'pretending ' thing from anyways? He was shocked with the fact that he hadn't noticed that while deciding and re-deciding, that he had left her all alone, and that, he hardly listened to her or gave her the necessary attention to any of her words while he couldn't see through how those were going to make any difference to the situation and also that he hadn't even realized that she was trying to talk to him in the car and he hadn't even a clue. What else did he not realize?

He sat there thinking about his behaviour to Nupur and with a sudden urge he got up and opened the door that took him to her.

She seemed asleep, her face had the traces of tears that he was responsible for, and so was the stressed trace that the dark circles around her eyes showed. What had he done to his always happy Nupur? He felt that he was looking at her properly after a long while, she just wasn't the same.

He sat on the bed beside her and his heart clenched when he saw how the charm and innocence on her face were badly suffocated by the stress that took her face by storm. She looked weak, almost fragile with the all the colour on her face nearly gone. Just in the evening, she had looked like the one looking forward to something and beautiful with the determination on her face. He wanted to suddenly chastise himself for the transformation that she had gone through. She wasn't the same Nupur that he remembered that he had first met, that he had promised to take care of, that he had taken vows with.

For the first time in a while, he was looking at Nupur, his beloved wife, that he didn't think would look so miserable in a state as he saw her in, now...

He traced his fingers over her dried up tears making her wake up to look at her vulnerable looking husband that she had almost forgotten was a part of him and as she looked in those worried and bloodshot eyes boring into her, she heard him whisper very slowly, "Can I...can I hug you?"

Nupur was too stunned to react, not expecting this at all from him. Seeing no protest from her, he ended up hugging Nupur tight.

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I have already written up my life for you

No matter we argue

No matter some days aer blue

No matter discontent also grew

I have already written up my life for you

The days of golden sunrise

The days of perfect bliss

Call out in such a manner

That my heart still gives a miss

No matter some moments were gone

No matter that the mist of present makes all the paths seem forgone

No matter the life has its own sarcasm, out of proportion blown

I have already written up my life for you

All that matters is life may not show up as it was, if not for you

Because, I have already written up my life for you, all along

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beautiful update Payal...😃

Sigh!!!!!!!
dat was an Awesome update SIS...
i jst loved it to d coree...
m sooo happy dat Finally Nupur opens her heart out infront of Mayank...
n Finally Mayank can saw wht he had done to His Nupur...
wen Mayank went to der room n saw her asleep...
i was ohh-noo dis time again dey wont clear anything...
bt den wen he went to her n Nupur woke up i was YES!!!!
Lekinnn...OMG!!!😍
wen he asked can he Hug her i was like...AWWW😳😍😳
n srsly it bring tears in my Eyes... :'(
i loved dis sooo very much...
dis Hug was Actually Needed d mosttt...😳
plzzz Continue soon...or else i will be dying for d next part...
loved it lodsss...
love u SIS...🤗🤗🤗

Aaah finally some progress...nd finally nupur spoke up that shook mayank frm inside nd made him realize his mistake...
How badly i wanted this simple hug...
Loved it...

😊was really lost reading the part that dint realize that u ended it

omg...it was wow...i just wanted nupur 2 vent out her feelings sumhw...mayanks ignorance was hurting me as well...n wow dat hug in d end which came out of d blue was so much needed at dat moment...

wow ... wonderful part.