Originally posted by: spln
Dear A,
You need to get your super star stalker off my case. You know who she is, as does she, as does half the world on this thread by now, I reckon - bad bad bad for my rep! :|
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Aite - so I'm laughing now cause I didn't make it to the ICU, when my HD gave me minor attack day before - which is the real reason for my delay.
Hey Naseem, my apologies for not responding earlier. But I wanted to save this comment so that it motivated me to update soon. And it seems to have worked, since that's done with, here I am. Just a tad late...and the same with that email, I will get to it this weekend. Pinky promise! š
I suppose the trick lies in figuring out what works, and a superstar stalker was bound to :P I'm sure by now your HD is working fine...
Here I am now, with my selects - an you know, the not so brief nothings š
He had hoped his first big painting exhibition would be a happy event, not a dark moonless night like this one, forlorn and dejected, like stray autumn leaves discarded, discolored and slowly disfigured too.
So I don't just like the metaphorical sense of this thread - which of course is pretty neat by itself - but I also like the general mood around this part. He's into a double let down case at the point. Her, and his exhibit - two things that give him a sugar hit kind of high, are about the only ones that could make him so utterly, defeatedly gloomy. One, for being a let down. Two, for consequently falling flat in the face of al its preceding anticipation. The moment is so real - the absolute lack of control in one snap of a moment where one accepts a spade for a spade. Somewhere in the dialog above this he asks her if she admits they have issues - and I suppose partly rhetorical or not, her answer to it is the shift. Even if she attempts to bear the greater blame - cause he's not really concerned with the blame game at this point. So anyway - I like this section, especially those lines.
Finally someone mentions something about the metaphorical sense of the thread...i've read comments on the general mood but yours is the first that says anything about the former.
I've been struggling to write these last few parts of PM...yes last few parts, this is definitely heading to the finish line. The innumerable delays...given that now it's taken over two years didn't really help at all. I think there are many reasons why this part is the way it is...and you've kind of summed up everything...given the point in their lives, i think it was only appropriate that this part be toned down...although part of it...as i was writing, i kept thinking, this resembles pots more thatn PM...but either way that makes sense..
But his patience was wearing thin giving away to a frustration at being shunted, the feeling of not being trusted ' he was beginning to feel like this relationship thing wasn't his calling. May be he had been knocking on the wrong door, or just had too much faith in what he thought they shared? Simply put, he didn't know what else he could do, to make things differently.
And here comes the ultimate self confession. Put anywhere else, such a loud self claim of defeat might have been more than a little whimsical and over reacting - but this was just the place. For a while now, they've swayed to and fro - between high and low with much intent to hold firm and let the rough pass. But its evident how the 'hot and cold' as you used somewhere before, of her character isn't easily comprehensible. He's having a hard time dealing with the 'break thing', then the comm gap, then she keeps pulling off surprising obliging/cooperating moments - clearly, she doesn't leave room to let the man understand their situation in a monochrome - but then, it really isn't a monochrome =)
I think this was one of the few parts where I was more on Armaan's side. Not to disagree with Ridhima, or not get her point - but he's getting it harder, without wanting to. She on the other hand is at least partially responsible for self imposing the crisis. Running away is classic Ridz. Every now and then!
Absolutely, running away is classic Ridz...and I suppose everyone does it at some point or the other...something that we learn from...as she will, that running away just doesn't solve anything...Given her situation...you'd wonder how you get out of a mess like this...sometimes its just easier to shut everything out...but then sooner or later things eventually catch up. I always felt that they were going to make Ridz choose between Armaan and her Dad at some point in the show, and well. I don't really know if that ever happened since I didnt follow it for long...but a lot of things are driven by that idea...
Noticing the hesitancy in her eyes, the caution in her steps - he stepped forward to break that awkwardness; she had taken the first step, and he respected that immensely, he wasn't going to turn vile and make her feel bad at the least.
Oh I love this bit. Mostly because of how unorthodox it is. He's not playing the alpha male ere - cause he's to beat up for that just then - and he's not just retreating into a shell. Cause one second of the latter at such a point would have made alot more mess than where the situation stands. It's what I heard at a very young age - about how, in a fight between two, one must keep their head... I'm not taking away Ridhima's credit to make the effort. But she does it from the subconscious fear of losing him. Bluntly, that is it, what brings her there - she might have still kept the diner appointment if for a moment she was assured Armaan would come around, or she'd make him later - but I reckon Armaan's admittance of self defeat has been reflected enough for her to know salvaging needs to be promptly done. And yet, Armaan takes the scoop. Cause Ridhima was not the one making self confessions of doubting what they have in the way he is. His giving a chance, still, is different, to me.
They say, ignorance is a bliss may be thats true in this case, they are both looking at things from different sides...as much as it may be the fear of losing out...or that fear of time running out...her's is also a fear to go where she sees they are headed...where decisions ..may have to be made...like i said before, a lot is driven by this idea of having to choose one over the other. What do you do, when you need/want both...but increasingly realize that it can only be one or the other...not both
"Listen to me'Riddhima, please look at me. I would never want you to do something you don't want to do, please go home if that's where you need to be now. No one deserves pity"
And again - no alpha male to the rescue. I like like like this Armaan - who's not trying to save the day, wants to, but doesn't strive to be a super hero. He's in that phase where he needs her t do her bit too, with him, so they both figure this out - and yet, he needs her to do it, because she needs its as much. I think Armaan got as real as it gets in this chapter. More than any of the previous parts. He wasn't the namesake lead protagonist who inspires this character - he was just another person, who happens to be at the center of this story =)
I happen to think that the namesake would have done the same thing...too...well at least in my head.š..well at least before they turned him to an obsessive psycho! I think there were traces of that in the early days...but not for long...
I'm not going to go into quoting the bits where she arranges the painttings - and where he realizes the pattern - they were the high points of the chapter. For all the multiple meanings they implied. Their moods, their introspection, his mindset as an artist even... it's not hard to see the guy he is going by those sections - even if there was nothing else to go by. Just like anyone else - a blend of many facets, made by many experiences. Which reminds me, I sort of miss their first meeting - the plane crash and all that. Somewhere to me, this end of Pablo's and that, are not one - maybe they have come round in a full circle yet, or maybe, I haven't found a closure to just that chapter in their story. It's like another story you were telling another time, and left incomplete... which makes me wonder how you plan to tie the threads around here..
Aite - that's really long now. But the chapter was a great read. I was happy to find I didn't have to go back to refresh my facts and actually remembered things vividly enough ...
Wil you be posting anytime soon? Or is it IoL next, first?
That's an interesting perspective. May be when its over, I can finally read the whole thing in one piece and see for myself. But as far as the story goes, I have tried to keep it to the original ideas...just like to believe that there is more to everyone.. Yes, just posted a few days ago...a new thread...and as promised (well to myself anywaysš), I'm here first...Thanks a lot NJ for a long essay as someone may say ;)
tc
A
cheers,
NJ
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