~|Royal Love-Numbed wid Pain|*VeEraFF*|~Note_49~

" Aap..Aap aa gaye.." voh buri tarah chonk gayi..

" Haan kyun..Galat waqt par ayya kya..Kahi abhi Vikram toh nahi aa raha yahan.."

" Yeh aap na jane kaisi baatein kar rahe hai..Rajkumar Vkram yahan kyun ayenge aur voh bhi iss waqt..Apne unhe bulaya tha kya.."

" Bana lo..jitna chahti ho bana lo..Vikram toh tumse milne ayega na..ussi ke liye toh iss samay itni nirlaaz tarah se khadi ho.." He eyed her body..which was only covered wiv her transparent bathing gown..She immediately sorted out her blouse n petticoat underneath covering her wiv the chunari nearby..

' Ussi ke liye haina.."

" Aap.. kuch bhi bol rahe hai?.hum sirf abhi haath-muh dhone jaa rahe the?isliye kapde.."

"Ohhh!! Haan taki uss Vikram ko jyada waqt na lage.."

" Khuda ke liye yeh sab matt kahiye..Aaj apne kuch jyada hi Pi li hai..Aap.aap aaram kijiye.." n she tried to back off..it was no use fighting wiv a drunken man.

" Toh abb tum mujhe bataogi huh.." N he started moving closer to her..

" Hum apko..yeh app.." she tried to back off..She knw he was too drunk buh why was he mentioning Vikram so many times..was he thinking she was sleeping wiv him..Did he tink she was soo..The core of her eyes got wet wiv the upcoming tears..her hurt being quiet visible..

" Kyun..Kya rajkumari ji ke shaan mein kuch galat keh diya maine..Aap toh badi sati-savitri hai na..tabhi toh voh Vikram.." he gritted his teeth " tumhare itne pass tha..Aaj saara shrungar bhi toh usi ke liye..aur aise kapde bhi.."

" BASS KIJIYE..Aap ko pata bhi nahi ki app kya keh rahe hai..Yeh kapde humein Nivriti maa ne diye the aur itna bada jasn tha isliye..Aap kyun baat ka batangar bana rahe hai.."

" Ahha toh abb maa ko beech mein le ayi.."

" Hum sach keh rahe hai.." she pleaded him thru expressions to not to say nytin mre further..coz she cud take nytin he said buh not these wrds..She Loved him the most..n didn't mind if he never reciprocated the love..buh she cudn't stand anyone accusing her, she was strong enuf to handle anyone..buh she didn't want to say nytin to him..

" Haan jhoot toh mein bol raha hoon..kyunki saari raat voh Vikram tumhe bass yun hi dekh raha tha..Itne pardarshi kapde toh tumne mere liye pehne the.." he came closer to her..

She didn't knw wht to say..Tears of humiliation were stinging her eyes..her husband thought so low of her.. she didn't even realize when he decreased the distance b/w them..he was dangerously close to her now..

" BOLO" He caught hold of her arms n jerked her many times..

" Ahhh!! Aap humein.."

" Dard ho raha hai na..Acha hai tumhe toh iss sey jyada dard jhelna hai..Vikram ke saath..humare pith peeche joh tum kar rahi thi..uss ki sazza toh tumhe milni hi chahiye.." " Waise aisi kya baat hai usmein joh tum aisi besharam harkat karo.." n his fingers dug in her skin..leaving blood red marks on her so fair skin.

" Ahh!! Chod dijiye humein..Huaaaaaaaahhhhh!! Veer" n tears of both mental n physical hurt made their way down her rosy cheeks..

" Aap..aap humare pati hai..Yeh app kya kar rahe hai.."

She cried as he gripped her jet black hair from the back..

" Ajj tak maine aisa kuch nahi kiya isliye itna udd rahi thi.." saying so he pulled her hair even harder making her bend low at an unsafe angle..

He left her arm n tore away the stole (chunari) covering her upper half..She had jus cum to change n thus had only the blouse n ghahra ( which were translucent) so she has drapped the chunari as soon as she saw him..

He started to ripe the blouse buh then suddenly lft her wiv a jerk n so she fell down on the bed wiv her body arched..

" Ahhhhh!!" She yelped in pain..as he had pushed her wiv such a force tht her back had got hurt badly..

" Ajj joh mein karne jaa raha hoo..voh bataega tumhe ki tumhara pati mein hoon.." saying so he pounced at her now shirtless?

She sumhow managed to get away b4 he cud get hold of her..She sprang up from the bed..buh he was too quick for her..He caught her by the sleeve of her blouse n tore it away..

" Jitna bhagogi..utna mujhe gussa ayega aur utna hi tumhe dard hoga.." n he half ripped her blouse..n forced himself onto her exposed upper chest violently makin them both fall?

" Tum meri ho..samjhi..tumhara sab kuch mera hai..kissi aur ki nahi ho sakti tum.."

" Veer..VEER app hosh mein nahi hai..Aap jante bhi hai app kya kar rahe hai.." she tried to push him away from her..buh drinking seemed to make him even mre strong..Even with all her might she cudn't push him off her..

" Sab kuch tumhari wajah se hua hai..ajj mein joh karunga voh bhi tumhari wajah se..meri biwi hokar uss Vikram ke saath..tumhe zara bhi sharam nahi aii.." he forced his mouth to her neck, biting her ..

"Ahhh!!!" She yelped in pain..howsoeva hrd she tried she cudn't push him off..he was too strong for her n she cried..wailed loudly..

" Jyada shor matt karo" n he forcefully pushed his lips onto hers..biting her at mouth..blood oozed out of her ruby red mouth.. he licked at it..he creased her lips..covering her legs wiv his in a vise like grip..She tried to push him off..hittin his arms..He just grabbed hold of her arms n put them above her head pinning them down wiv one of his arms..smudging her maang tikka in the process. He bore himself into her neck, kissing her wiv such lust n passion tht she was forced to close her eyes.. Her husband was sexually trying to make love to her..She shouted out again for help? buh in turn jus got his hands slammed tightly ova her mouth..she bit it..Yelping he jerked his hand away.. he brought his oder hand down n gripped her hair tightly making her arch..he luked at her wiv killer eyes.. "Kaha tha na maine..jitna jyada ladogi..Utna hi dard hoga.." n thus saying he ripped of the remaining cloth from her chest..b4 he cud take it off she turned..her body now twisted in such an unsafe angle tht it feared her tht she wud surely break sum bones.. He loosened his grip on her n set her free so tht he cud turn her back..Buh she turned herself fully now her back facing him..she held on to the sheets trying to take them off to cover her as he pulled away her tattered blouse from the back..He tore away the remaining blouse piece n pushed away her long hair which were hiding her fair curved back from him..He held her from the waist n left a trail of kisses on her bare bac..As his hands traveled up her navel, her breath becam shallower..She was finding it hard to breath..buh sumhow she managed to keep his hands from making there way upwards..He so wanted to turn her buh she was very reluctant..fighting wiv him n her burning tears both..

" Veer chod dijiye humein.." she clutched hard at the bed sheet, trying to pull it off..

" Abb kyun chodu..ajj toh tumhe apna banakar hi rahunga mein.." n he tried again forcefully..

" Par yeh humara marzi ke khilaaf hai"..as he came even closer to her..trailing kissed near her half turned arms..

" Jo bhi ho..Aaj mein tumhe bohot pyaar karne wala hoon.." n he bit her vry hard at the back..making her arch giving him the opportunity to turn her..

" AGAR APP ISEY PYAAR KEHTE HAI TOH APP GALAT HAI..APP SIRF HUMARE SHARIR KO PANA CHAHTE HAI..AUR KUCH NAHI.." she replied burning wiv rage..

" Mujhe iski parvah nahi.." He finally turned her..buh by now she had covered her self wiv the bedsheet..

He aggressively started kissing and nibbling onto her skin..while she cudn't do nytin mre..She had already tried her best.. " Sab kuch khatam ho gaya hai..sab kuch.." n silent tears rolled down her cheeks as he moved down towards her chest trying to pull off the sheet..she clutched at the sheet tightly not wanting it to let go..His hands reached thru the sheets, touching her innaproriately..

Buh she just lay underneath him, wiv no expression now, jus tears streaming down her face..he smiled as he tightened his grip round her tiny waist, pushing her towards him..trying to make her scream n moan..buh when she didn't do nytin oder than bite her lips hardly, closing her eyes tightly shut..

" Humare liye kaam asan kar rahi ho..huh" crashing his lips on her, forcing her to kiss him back, but notin came bac?

" Uppar nahi toh Niche hi sahi" He moved his hand towards her petticoats end, feeling her legs.. ' she tightened her eyes ' moving his hands inside towards her thighs touching her inappropriately. To his surprise Shera had not protested Now, didn't try to jerk his hand away.

He smirked and thought, " Yeh rok nahi rahi.."

He started pulling up the dress n said "Meri icha puri karna asan kar rahi ho, abb ek achi bachi ki tarah mujhe apna kaam karne do Kyunki phir jyada dard bhi nahi hoga.." She luked away, as he was unaffected by her tears..

So interested in wht he was doing..he didn't realize tht his grip around her wrist was so tight tht? BREAK?as her bangles broke, stabbing her in the skin, as blood oozed out, n she cried out loudly? "AAAAAHHHHHHH"Hearing her let out a such a scream, he got hold off himself?He luked at her motionless body lying beneath himself, eyes squeezed shut, tears continuously falling, her face twisted in pain?

Veer disgraced by what he was bout to do , bout to commit such a crime n he looked away disgusted by himself getting off her ' sitting down on the bed few inches away from her , holding his head .. his shaken eyes hatefully closed not wanting to face her ,

How could he ? he questioned himself.

Feeling him getting away from her, she sat bac, covering her front wiv the crumpled bed sheet. Silent pearls fallin down, her head bent low? moving away wiv as much dignity as left..towards the changing room ( which was separated from the room, by a heavy white curtain?)

As he saw her moving away, he noticed her sweaty back, which had blood coming out from the few places where his nails had dug?deep red marks very evident on her fair bac n small waist?walking towards the changing room like a lifeless body, made him realize the g8 sin he was abt to commit..n what damage he had already done, to her n their relationship.

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"SHERA!!!" He cried in the dark night?he felt tears stinging his eyes yet again..anoder fitfull night for him..He cudn't sleep properly from when she had left him, the guilt always took it's toll, n thus night times were worser..always bad, coz she wasn't there, n the scenes from that horrible night kept haunting his dreams?Howsoever hard he tried he cudn't 4get it, that he was about to rape his wife, her..The one who had loved him unconditionally, and never asked or complained for nytin abt him..He was going to punish her in such a big way..

From the start their relation had been like that..He never wanted to marry as he never liked to be bound, and he wanted to spend his youth with all kinds of gals, not just one..He had always been the Spoilt Rich Brat ( aiyash jaise) n thus drinking, smoking, being away late till nights was his daily routine?buh he knw or shud say thought a wife would mean boundation..

So he had been rude from the start..always trying to tell her that he was the rulling power the authority..buh she wasn't a jus Oh so shy, typical apka hukm sar ankhon par wife.. She had such a aura of power n authority around her that he found it hard to actually try to make her feel insulted or dominated, how so ever hard he tried neither could he stop blaming her for marrying him, nor cud he despair abt it.. He hadn't seen her b4 marriage, so the day he saw her, all her beauty in full bloom, he had instantly fallen in Love wiv her?buh still his heart cudn't accept it, his ego never let that emotion come to him..

Even the first night, just after the wedding, their wedding night (suhaag raat), he had come to the room, with a bottle of wine in his hands, the way he made his way to the bed was just surprising enuf for him too..he acted perfectly to be drunk, staggering at his feet..buh when she didn't flinch, he just tore of his wedding gown n chucked it on to the floor, and moved towards her..as if trying to scare her.. She was in her gunghaat all the while so he cudn't see her..buh the time he came n grabbed her hands?She just said.. " Hum jante hai ki yeh shaadi bohot jaldi mein hui hai, aur shayad apko bhi sochne aur bolne ka koi mauka nahi diya gaya..lekin phir bhi.. Agar apko abb bhi lagta hai ki hum apke sahi nahi hai, toh app apke aur humare mata-pita ko abhi jakar sab kuch bata dijiye.." Saying so she got off the bed n moved away?now when she was standing a bir far from the bed..she pulled up her veil..revealing her perfect face? he was awe struck..he just cudn't blink? her perfect ebony black eyes, small cute nose, lush red lips, rosy cheeks?Clad in red she luked as a fairy standing in front of him..

N then when she moved away, n picked up his wedding dress with such a grace..he went head ova heels for her?

N then instead of sleeping else where, she came onto the bed, n lay there as if it were her bed, instead of his? That was the aura of her cool authority..

Then he had seen how she had won the hearts of all the people.. he himself was left dazed by the way she made friends wiv all the family mems, and made a soft place for herself in evryone's heart?Buh he neva 4gt tht she was the one coz of whom he had to marry..if she had said no..he might never have to marry her..Wiv such thoughts he always kept her away, saying things he neva meant to..buh he just wanted to hurt her, make her feel unwanted so that she wud go away from him?.

Each night he came late from outside, wiv some Other gal, and spend nights with them..In front of the family too he wasn't very loving, and tried that somehow she was compelled to leave him?buh he always saw her in the good books of all the oder family members n sometimes even he thought of giving up on trying to get her out..buh it never happened?He knw she loved him, wether it was the way she always came back to him, took care of him, made him feel wanted, played pranks on him and then played on being innocent, or saved him from Nivriti Maa's scoldings when he came late at nights and she spotted him, the way she always inspired him the most...vibrating wiv energy n always cheerful.. or the way she first cried when came back from the war, wiv a bloody gash on his torso, n scolded him for not taking care of himself, made him eat food properly, the way she slowly made him stop smoking tobacco, it was just coz of her untiring efforts, which had cost her many harsh wrds in return, buh she neva budged n thus he gave up smoking, the way she always left him pondering wether he was right or wrong and gave him small lessons of life each time they spoke, made him becum mature enough, helped him with the court affairs..helping him to prove himself, the way she always praised his virtues with the pride evident in her voice.. Wheneva he came back in a bad mood, she always was at his side, helping him, soothing him, listening to his harsh words buh still never returning the sarcasm, hatred?Occasionaly she wud get unhappy or angry, buh the way she saw her coldness or rudeness was hurting him even though he didn't show it, and that he needed her support howsoeva much he denied it?.The way she understood him perfectly and changed back to her normal self. The way he behaved like a child when she was with him revealing his inner-most secrets to her, when even he didn't know he was doing it.. The way made him feel manly when she blushed at the slightest contact, or how her eyes reflected the deep, unconditional Love n Respect she held for him in her heart?

The way she made him feel happy, the way she showed him how much he too loved her, respected her, adored her, buh neva did she show the hurt she felt when even though he knew she wanted him to say sumtin to make her come out of low n he didn't..even when she was feeling low coz he wasn't paying enuf attention towards her or when he was still trying to get her out of his life for influencing him so much?

Never did she ask him to love her back, or say things to her, or make her feel that she was his wife?jus kept Loving him?..

Everytin was goin all f9..vry beautifully..buh then one day he came drunk n said real harsh tins to her after his fight to a club attendant upon her..She rilli felt very hurt n they didn't talk for days..It was the time for Fest n thus they all were very busy nad many people had cum from different kingdoms jus to attend it.. Many Prince n Princess also came.. Many of the Prince wanted to be wiv Shera ( afta all she's our perfect princess).. So off they went from showing off, to trying to come close to her..In them Vikram, a Prince wiv whom Veer had a tiff long back..was also behind Shera..They had a fight again and it triggered off Veer n tins tuk the Unwanted, nasty turn..

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Sitting there, under neath the velvety night sky, and the lush green grassy carpet..He cudn't help but cry..For his mistakes, his follies, the way he always wanted her to go away, from him and his life?wanted to hurt her, to make her feel dejected and to stop her from coming back to him.. He cried silent tears remembering her..

"Joh tumse pyaar kare agar ussi ko rulaoge, har pal dukh dekar ussey tadpaoge..

Toh yaad rakhna..uski har dill se nikli hui ahh se, tum barbad hote jaoge?"

He understood tis today, maybe this was why he was sitting here, crying for her, the one who had cried for him day and night, maybe it was becoz he had always made her crave for him and his love, that today he was craving for her, maybe it was why he was sitting here, wanting her to come and console him, waiting for her as he too had made her wait a lot..so long that now she had gone away from him..now or 4ever?..

Prt 3:

The time he pushed open the curtains and saw her lying crumpled on the cold marble floor, he felt his heart being squeezed..seeing her in such a condition was the first time he realized tht he neva wanted to see her in such a state even if she wud rilli hav been sleepin around wiv random guys he cud hav neva thought of hurtin her like tht..buh he had..He had commited a sin..

Sittin on the bed outside waitin for her to cum back…he thought of the events that triggered him off, and lead to such actions..He tried to explain himself tht he was right. Tht was wht he wanted right..to get her away from him, to make her leave..to hurt her..buh howsoeva hard he tried his conscience wudn't let him be in peace, he was already hanging his head in shame and despair as he was jus abt to ruin her life wiv wht he was abt to do..He was goin to punish her for the crime she hadn't even committed…goin to punish her coz she had loved him from the core…

It had been time now, since she had gone behind the heavy curtains..he saw her silhouette dragged to the corner, she forced her back on to the wall, keeping her hands on it for support..as her tiny frame slid down to the ground he found his heart getting heavier n heavier..it seemed tht the guilt had started takin ova him..he cud hear her sobs n hiccups..He knw he was responsible for them…All the while he wanted to stop the tiny voices now flarin in his mind..his thoughts were confused , his heart felt bad for what he did .. or could hav done but his brain said he should be happy , she deserves it for running his life .. due to this she might leave him , she will go away from his life , far away ' never returning but then again the thought bout her leaving him killed him inside .. he really wondered why…And when he cudn't bear it any longer he staggered to reach the curtains..n once he did reach their..he stopped for precise moments to decide whether he shud go inside or not..Afterall she had had enuf for the night..her lifetime wud be betta..as he had already tried to intrude her personal space and dignity in a vry justified way..

Buh he cudn't take it..the way she had moved away like a lyfless body..away from him..he felt a part of himself weakening..Such feelings arose which he never knw even existed…He was feeling bad for her, almost bad.. this was the first time he was repenting on wht he did to her..even though his mind tried to deny it..his heart cudn't..

He slowly pulled ova the curtains..buh the time he saw her tiny frame layin crumpled on the ground, his heart squeezed painfully..he picked her up, and layed her on the bed..as he picked her up and lay her down she moaned..he just didn't understand why..?? n when it did he turned her upside down wiv her bare back facing him..He dried away all the blood tht had oozed out from the various parts where his nails had dug out the skin..she moaned wiv each touch..He knw it must be rilli hurting her..he cleaned it all..she still was too drowsy buh cud feel the pain..he sat there by the bedside..wanting her to get up and say she had 4given him..buh he knw tis time it wudn't be easy..not at all easy..

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As the rays of sun hit his face..he lay there sore backed..he was feeling rilli awful, just like the mrning afta tht fateful night..he didn't knw when he slept..buh when he woke up..he jus found her sittin at a far corner cryin..tis was the first time he saw her crying..the guilt came up again..As he neared her..she backed away..fearfull of wht might happen nxt…

He jus caught hold of her hand to make her face him..buh when she looked bac in his eyes..he saw the fear, her eyes glistening as she again tried to break free..last night had shwn her the prt of her husband..she neva thought even existed..last night he had sexually tried to force her into a bedtime relationship..just to fulfill his sex virility and debasement..

When she saw no awail of her pleading eyes..she begged him to leave her hand..The women who had not once bowed her head in front of nyone oder than her god..who had neva asked for nytin even from her lord was today begging to her husband..the one she had loved n 4eva will..coz how so vry big mistake he makes..she has to 4give him..buh all tis plight of her's just coz she had committed one crime..the crime of loving him, like no oder..for wanting to be his..just his…

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"Veer chalo..kuch kha lo.."

" Nahi Dharam…mujhe kuch bhook nahi hai…"

" VEER!! Hum tumse puch nahi rahe hai..hum tumse keh rahe hai ki tumhe khana khana hai..voh bhi abhi..tumne pichle do dino se kuch bhi nahi khaya hai..kya har roz tumhe yaad dilana padta hai ki khana kha lo.." as Dharam rattled off his concern in form of wrds..outpouring all the pain he felt when he saw his youger bro in sucha pitiful condition..Veer paid no Heed..He was lost in his own wrld lost within the depths..where she was present..where the sorrows, tests, tears which he had given her prevailed…

" Veer tum sun rahe ho..Hum keh rahe hai khana kha lo.."

" Bhook nahi hai Dharam.."

" Kahan gayi bhook.."

" Marr gayi.."

" Dekho Veer..aisi baatein humara samajh nahi atti..hum bass yeh jante hai ki tumhe yeh khana khana hai…Bass" saying so he tried to make Veer eat the food

" Usne bhi nahi khaya hoga Dharam.."

N he walked back towards his room..where he too had requested her to eat sumfin buh she hadn't…she didn't even take a single bite..for the whole three days she stayed back (as it was the fair n goin away then wud hav raised too mny questions and afterall it was the question of the reputation of the family too) she didn't even touch the food..

The way she walked was as if she was a lifeless body.. she didn't pay heed to wht was happening she jus choose to sit at the corner, the distant luk in her eyes as she stared out from the windows in the evening or jus excahged a couple of wrds wiv the elderly ladies in the morning.. wheneva she was in b/w people she was always havin the painful smile on her face,even bac in the quarters she was the same..she neva said nytin to him..she jus seemed to be in her own world..lost sumwhere..

She had started sleeping on the ground even though he slept on the crouch..

Each time he tried to speak to her, or touch her..he saw the distant luk or the fearful luk in her eyes and all his strength to ask her for 4giveness left him..

One day he took advance towards her, when they were in a banquet hall..he asked her to eat sumfin..he knw she cudn't jus leave him like tht in front of all the people..

He made her sit n brought her a plate filled wiv her favorite dishes and placed it in front of her..When even the last of them had finished the food she just kept staring at it…

" Beta kya hua..khana nahi khana.."

" Nahi maa humein bhook nahi lagi hai.."

" Ajj toh sab tumhari pasand ka bana hai na..phir kya hua.."

" Pata nahi bhook nahi lag rahi..jab lagegi tab kha lenge maa.." saying so she went back rushing to her quarters…wanting to hide the tears from each one..

"Beta kya hua.."

" Uhh maa app..voh kuch nahi.." she turned bac to wipe away her tears..n put on a fake smile..

" Kuch toh hua hai beta..mein dekh rahi hoon..teri tabiyat toh thik hai na.." she placed her hand on her forehead.. " Arey itna tej bukhar..aur abhi tak vaid ji ko nahi bulaya..hum abhi bulate hai.."

" Maa…" she held niv's hand.. " Hum bilkul thik hai..kuch nahi hua humein.."

" Par beta itna tezz bukhar hai na.."

" Kuch nahi hai maa..thodi derr mein thik ho jaega.."

she made nivi sit on the bed and sat down on the ground putting her head in her lap..

" Aap suladogi na..toh saara bukhar cahal jaega.." sayin so she put her head on her lap..

" Ajjaa" and she caressed her hair…seeing the love nivi was offering her she jus cudn't control her tears..so she hid her face in her lap..

" Kya hua hai meri bachi..kya Veer ne phir se kuch kaha.."

she nodded negatively…

" Mujhse jhoot bol rahi hai..maa se.."

she just hugged her tightly and tears made their way freely down her cheeks..she jus cudn't help it..

" Arey kya hua..aise kaise ro rahi hai…" she pushed bac her hair to reveal her puffy red eyes..and red nose..

" Voh..Voh.."

" tum bata do..iss baar toh Veer ki khair nahi.." when she didn't say nytin..

" Beta mein janti hoon ki Veer tumhe bohot pareshan karta hai aur bohot bura vyawahar karta hai..par voh sab kuch apni zidd aur akad mein karta hai..voh sachi tumse kitna pyaar karta hai mein janti hoon.."

" Hum bhi jaan gaye hai maa.." she mumbled.. " voh humein chahte hi nahi hai..aur voh humein bilkul bhi pyaar nahi karte..hum abb tak unke dill mein apne liye koi jagah nahi bana paye..voh abb bhi yahi chahte hai ki hum chale jaye..aur isliye hum chale jaenge..unse door..aur ajj ke baad kabhi bhi apna muh nahi dikhaenge.." she made the firm decision and wiped off her tears..and finally she smiled..afta so many days she did..

" Haan Maa..hum toh unhe shuru se hi bohot chahte hai..aur iss baar..unhone kuch nahi kiya..bass voh maa ki yaad aa rahi thi na..isliye.." she crossed her fingers b4 lying.. " Maa kya hum maa se milne jaa sakte hai.."

" Haan kyun nahi..bilkul jaa sakti ho..hum parso hi.."

" Maa kya hum kaal nahi nikal sakte..nahi ajj hi kyun nahi…"

" Ajj beta bohot raat ho gayi hai.."

" Par hum maa ko hairat mein dalna chahte hai..isliye.."

" Thik hai..par abhi nahi..subah hone se pehle..matlab bhor ke samay nikal jana.."

" Thik hai.."…n she hugged nivi again…tears formed in her eyes..she wud hav to leave tis place, the place she had loved..she wud hav to leave each n everyone..she wud miss em all..buh she had to..coz her husband was happy in her leavin..and she cud atleast give him tht happiness…she hid her face by her hands as she still did love him..buh yes anoder bitter truth was tht she cud and wud neva be able to 4gt tht night..neva..

she may neva be able to 4get the night, she knw she cudn't 4give him for wht he had tried to do..buh still..whteva happened she cudn't cease loving him… I KNOW I STILL LOVE YOU , IT ISN'T GOING TO BE EASY TO FORGOT WHAT YOU DID BUT IT WILL BE EVEN HARDER TO FORGET THAT I LOVE YOU These were her thoughts…Tears streamed down her face..and she made no awail to stop them..coz she had mny reasons today..

coz she was goin to leave tis place..she was goin to leave all the people whom she had loved the mst eva..and she had to leave him…

" Veer tumne kya kiya hai meri bachi ko..itne dino se dekh rahi hoon…na kuch kha rahi hai na kuch bol rahi hai.."

"Voh maa…"

" Dekho Veer hum pehle hi keh chuke hai..ki voh humara bahu nahi beti hai..aur tumhe koi haq nahi hai us sey rulane ka..samjhe..6 mahine hogaye shaadi ko..ajj tak tumne na us sey kuch khushi di hai na kuch..ajj pehli baar maine us sey rote hue dekha..aur mein sirf yeh janti hoon ki mujhe uski ankhon mein ansoon nahi dikhnae chaiye..kabhi nahi..." sayin so she stormed off..seathin wiv anger..

This was the first time nivi was angry on him..he too felt the anger growin..

" Ussey kya zarurat thi Maa ke samne ansoon bahana ki..Koi itna bura kaam bhi nahi kiya hai maine jo iss tarah pagalon ki tarah pure samay roti rahe..ajj toh uss sey baat kar kar hi rahunga.."

As he entered the room..he saw her taking out evry small piece of jewellery..she moved away inside the changing room and came out wearing a simple plain pink dress.. (jaisi mugdha di ne pehni thi na..when she went to maya maa again..)

He stood there awestruck..she luked so beautiful even when she was wearin such simple clothes..He saw her avoidin eye contact wiv him..he caught her wrist as she walked past him..he wanted her to luk at him..buh she jus stayed there wiv a smile on her lips even when a lone tear escaped her eyes..he saw he was holding her injured hand..where the bangle had stabbed her..he left it..n she moved away..and stood near the window lukin at the moon..

" Hum kaal pakka chale jaenge..Pakka.." she mumbled closing her eyes letting the cool night breeze blow past her..and to dry the tears tht made way down her cheeks on the thought of leavin him..

He moved towards her and then when he was jus abt to say sumfin..her hair blew on his face..he inhaled the aroma of her hair..he stood their enjoyin the softness of her hair..tis was not like the first time when he had been so near to her..buh it felt different..there was sumfin in her which had always attracted him and it was attractin him now too..

As she turned she was shocked to see him right behind..she nearly jumped in fear..

Seein her getting fearful yet again..he just stood there..wanting to say so much, buh he was tongue tied…

She walked away, trying to hide her tears…buh she cudn't

He went bac to sleepin on the couch..buh today sleep was miles away from him..all he cud do was tink abt her, evrytin abt her..she had her bac facing him..so her cud jus see her curvy frame..he kept lukin at her recalling each and evry incidence b/w them..

He walked towards her..and sat nxt to her…He cudn't help getting and for the first time he noticed her grace...he touched her shoulder to turn her round when the moon light seeped through the curtains through the gap hitting on her face to leave Veer amazed by her beauty yet again. The light reflected her perfect features.

He stared at her loving. Adoring her cute nose he gently kissed, while she smiled in sleep. Her close long lashed eyes.. he blows on ' her smiling lips ' he leans down to kiss but stops as the wind blows her hair across her face. Tucking it back, he enjoyed the smoothness.

Veer is like how come I never noticed her beauty before…she luked so beautiful even wiv her small nose all red and puffy eyes he mentally kicked himself for not letting in her beauty in his thick head b4..

For once Veer felt bad for all he did to her after their marriage. He smiled as he touched her maag, which shone brightly with sindoor of his name. He kissed her forehead den resting his head on her stomach he fell asleep hugging her waist.

After sum time when he got up..his lips formed a cute smile as he hugged her waist tighter, he opened his eyes to find her cuttuu face..He moved close to her face, creasing her cheek..

As she turned in her sleep she moaned..and it brought him bac to reality..

The bitter truth tht he had actually tried to force himself on her..tried to make her sexually his...tried to fulfill his lust..he was abt to ruin her life jus so tht he cud get peace..He luked at her face..and then realized the position in which they were…he smiled..sumhow it didn't feel like he thought..His married lyf was neva like he had thought..He knw he cud say it was the best…buh jus tht he had realized it late..too late..

" Kaal pakka maafi mang lunga..aur mana bhi lunga.." saying so he softly placed a kiss on her stomach..and got up to get bac on his couch..lil did he knw tht his tomorrow wud neva cum..tht the tomorrow he had wished for wud be sumfin he must hav neva expected..sumfin he wud neva hav wanted..tht it was too late now..coz she had decided..n wht she decided was neva changed..

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The nxt prt wud be Shera's intro…

Will be waitin….

Love ya all loads…t.cccccccc

-Ur's Ever Madhu😳