My heartbeat - epilogue pg68 - 01/03 - Page 5

chapter 2

Watching her son and daughter in law interact as they have breakfast, Neetu sips her tea and states, "It has been four years. I want a grandchild."

Pakhi freezes, then looks helplessly towards her husband. Ragav takes a sip of his coffee, stalling for time as he mentally prepares himself before answering. With a smile, he says, "mum, not again. We just had this discussion three nights ago. I don't want the responsibility of parenthood right now. I am busy expanding dad's business and will not be able to give Pakhi the time nor the support."

"I don't care. I want to be a grandmother. A very flimsy excuse Ragav," Neetu says. She glares at Pakhi and says, "Don't you want to be a mother?" Pakhi bursts out crying as her husband places his arm around her shoulder in support and glares at his mother angrily. Looking at his wife, he says softly, "hunny please don't cry."

Neetu watches on silently, confused by Pakhi's reaction. Concern takes over when she sees the pain reflecting in Pakhi's eyes. "mum," Pakhi says softly, tears flowing, "the truth is I can't get pregnant. I... We..." she looks towards her husband for further support. Ragav smiles weakly, wipes her tears, turns to him mum and says, "We are sorry we hid this from you. We found out nearly two years ago, when..." He stops for a moment to catch his breathe as he choke on the pain that pieces his heart, then continues, "... when she suffered a miscarriage." He goes on to explain to his mother what the doctors had said and the test that both had undergone... patiently answering all her questions... while his wife clinged to him for support.

Neetu silently listens, tears falling as she tries to imagine the pain they must have felt then and must have every time she raised the issue. Seeing his mother in pain over the news, Ragav hugs her and says, "I am okay mum. I am happy... content," and walks away to the study.

Neetu watches her son walk away, turns towards Pakhi, raises her open arms. Pakhi runs into her mother in laws arms and whispers her desires... desires she no longer is able to share with her husband, "I will never get to experience mother hood. I want a baby, mum," hugging her tight as she cries away.

so many questions

continue its becoming a puzzle t solve

He love Pakhi... Just that he now realises that it is not passionate love. He did not realise the depth for his feelings for Kalpi until a year ago.

Whatever passion they will for each other... Will never be voiced to the other... It will always be hidden...

Oh gosh I am heading towards surrogacy with a twist...Yikes!