Part 5
The kiss started as soft full of love longing soon changed to the hard one full of pain, shravan bit her lower lip hardly and started sucking blood oozing from her lip, she gasped and he entered his tongue inside her mouth , suman winced inwardly and taken aback for a while but soon she understood that he was pounding his pain in his kiss telling her how much hurt he is!!
she knew very well that her chasmish was never good in expressing his feeling in words whether it is love or pain and she gave in,
she didn't back off even after feeling pain in her lips telling him that she will never leave, she felt out of breath and wiggled but he didn't budged, he parted their lips for a second only to gasp some air and again captured her lips for another passionate kiss
after a long aggressive kiss he broke it and rested his forehead on her while cupping her face with both his palms, their eyes were closed
"Thank you sumo for being there with me, for sharing my pain, and sorry for hurting you" he whispered against her lips, he gently traced her lower lip where he bitten with his thumb
she smiled "shravan you will always find me on your side, and you didn't hurt me at all" they stayed there like that for some time
"sume ek baat puchu?" he whispered, still their foreheads were joined each other, his voice was hoarse since it was full of emotions and pain
"hmm" she opened her eyes slightly
"mere sath chalogi jaha mein bolu?" he opened his eyes and directly looked into her eyes, searching for her answer
she didn't spoke anything and kept staring in his eyes, their gaze was locked with each other "tumhe mera jawab pata hai shravan" trust which she have for him was clearly dripping in her voice, she blinked in assurance
"i knew sumo...lekin puchogi nahi kaha?" he darted her eyes to get a small glimpse of atheism but he stunned finding reflection of pure love and trust
there was a complete dead silence for a moment only disruption was their heartbeats, and the next words came from her mouth stunned him "muze pata hai kaha le jana chahate ho tum muze" he found his solace in her adoring voice
Mile ho tum humko
Bade naseebon se
Churaya hai maine
Kismat ki lakeeron se
she sneaked her hands around his neck and hugged him tightly, he reciprocated with same intensity
"muze pata hai shravan tum yaha se chale jana chahate ho bahot dur, apane atit se , uncle, aunty se" she whispered near to his ear, her voice chocked because of emotions , she caressed his chick with one hand, gently ruffled his soft disheveled hair by her fingers of other hand, his eyes flooded with tears, an air of melancholy surrounded him
he tighten his grip around her waist as if she is the only reason and support of his life "sumo tum kaise mere unkahi baton ko samaz jati ho? baki sab ko kah ke bhi nahi samaz aata hai"
she felt his despairing words piercing through her body and she felt a pang in her heart
"how some one can be so much in pain, he bhagwan esake sare dard muze de do, mein apane shravan ko aise nahi dekh sakati kya karu mein ese kam karane ke liye?" she silently manifested to god while shedding silent tears
she gulped down her unshedded tears, and wiped out wet ones "shravan mein hu na, sab thik ho jayega, tum aise tut nahi sakate" he snuggled more into her hairs, a soft smile crept on her lips
she broke hug and cupped his face in her palms "shravan ek baat bolu, ghussa mat hona" she asked directly looking into his eyes and he blinked giving her silent acquiescence but he was already very well aware of what was on his way but he believe her,her love for him was the trust that nothing she will do which will hurt him
"shravan kitna aur kisase bhagoge?" she raised her both brows sadly , he stared her silently like a child who was hearing his teacher "aaj tum uncle aunty se bhag rahe ho, you cant deny their existence shravan..." his gaze hardened and he shut his eyes in anguish, but kept himself sane to hear out her "shravan tum yeh mat bhulo ki tum bhi unakahi ansh ho, manati hu unhone jo bhi kiya woh galat hai, bahot galat hai, lekin usake piche unaki apani wajah hai" she kept caressing his chicks with her palms
"denying their existence means somewhere you are denying yourself too shravan and this will gonna break you now or afterward" he was not in the position to listen her dedacting words but he need to do it, he cant hurt the only person with whom he share purest relation of love "aur mein apane shravan ko tutate nahi dekh sakati, mein tumhare sath tumhari takad banake khadi rahungi har mod pe, humara pyar hume help karega es sabse bahar aane ke liye aur apani zindagi naye sire se shuru karane ke liye, par usake liye tumhe apane past se overcome kana padega you can't keep grudges on them"
"par sumo aisi kya wajah hai jo ek baap ne apanehi beteki khushi nahi sochi apane ego ke samane" he clenched his jaw remembering betrayed of his parents "aur ek maa ne apane khud ke bete ko hi piche chod diya aur ek baar mudke dekhana bhi munasib nahi samaza woh zinda bhi hai ki mar gaya? kyu sumo kyu?" he shrieked in pain, his disdainful voice was clear to show his shattered soul, he let out a dry laugh
"pyar shravan, unaka pyar tha jisane unhe majboor kiya ye sab karne ke liye" she tried to ratiocinate his parents deeds, but it was clear he was not going to give in so soon and easily
"Love is selfless sumo" he clenched his fists and he drew his lower lip between his teeth to suppress his anger and agony
"Love is possessive shravan" her words succeeded to knock some senses into him but very little
he remembered when he slapped varma for his disrespectful behavior to sumo, yes that was possessiveness, he couldn't hear a single wrong word about her though he was claiming that he hates her!
but is it really a possessiveness of his parents or their ego fight?
"aur sabse pahale to hume yeh nahi bhulna chahiye shravan ki tumhare parents hone ke pahale woh ek insan hai they have their like and dislikes, they have their own existence , if you want don't forgive them but don't deny their existence shravan, kyuki jab sachme koi apana apane paas nahi hota hai usaka dard muze pata hai, aur mein nahi chahati ki tum us dard, us takleef se jao woh bhi tumhare parents ke jite ji..." tears filled in her eyes but she somehow manages to hold them from falling
Teri mohabbat se
saansein mili hain
Sada rehna dil mein
kareeb hoke
"sumo what i did to deserve you?" he stared her face, her eyes which were full of hope for their future
"so well Mr lambu Malhotra i can say its other way around" she winked and chuckled which brought small smile on his face
"no sumo i am the lucky one to have you, and at the same time unlucky one to have parents like them or i can say they are unlucky to have child like..." but before he could complete sumo covered his mouth with palm and nodded to not say anything he stopped but his eyes peering into the gloom
"shravan pichali baar tum na muze chodake bhag gaye the lekin es baar mein tumhe kahi nahi jaane dungi samaze?" she crossed her hands and faked anger to change his mood
"tum pagal ho gayi ho kya?" he smiled sadly and she snapped her brows to understand "pichali baar kaise gaya tha woh muzehi pata hi hai, meine kaise ye 10 sal bitaye hai, har khushi me, har dukh me tum thi, har ehsas me tum thi, rota tha tumhare liye aur jab hasta tha toh tumhe apane karib mahsoos karta tha, jab bhi tumase baat karane ka man karta tha kuchh share karne ka man karta tha to mein FB pe tumhe stalk karta tha aur tumhare pictures se baate karta tha ghanto tak, bhalehi es dimakh ne" he poked right side of his head with index finger "man liya tha ki woh tumase nafrat karta hai lekin" he prodded his heart with index finger "yeh hai na ye kabhi haar nahi manta tha, har waqt tumhare paas chala jata tha"
her eyes welled up thinking about how much pain he have gone through staying away from everyone and specially from her and that too because of her silly mistake to push him, whenever he need her she was not there, she failed as a friend "sumo kitna dard diya hai tune use jisase tune sabse jyada pyar kayi hai, lekin i promise shravan tumhe woh sara pyar dungi jisake tum haqdar ho, jo tum deserve karate ho" she promised herself silently
Teri chahaton mein kitna
tadpe hain
Saawan bhi kitne tujh bin
barse hain
sumo scrutinized all the changes in his face expressions,they never need any words to comprehend each other, it was not good idea to keep him like that "shravan utho chalo fresh ho jao aur breakfast karte hai muze bahot bhook lagi hai" she tried to pull him but he didn't budged , it was difficult for her petite body to make him move, so finally accepting her defeat she pouted with cute puppy face and tried to push him , the corners of his mouth turned up for a smile while admiring her antics to divert his mind
"bhukkadi muze nahi pata tha ki tumhe bhi bhuk lagati hai" he pulled her chicks softly with smile
"oh hello, mein insan hu koi devta nahi muze bhi bhuk lagati hai" she squawked in vexation
"haan baba pata hai tum insan hi ho, my motu" he smiled widely and she blushed hearing his authoritative words "okay wait a min i will be back in 5" he pecked her forehead and went to washroom
She called pushkar quickly when heard washroom door locked, pushkar answered call by second ring
"hello pushkar" she whispered by covering her mouth with one hand so that there should be no possibility that shravan can hear her
"haan sumo, bhaiyya thik hai na? unhone kuch kiya to nahi na? sab thik hai na sumo?" he inquired impatiently
"shant pushkar sas to le le" she jested and he sighed in relief
After taking a deep brath "okay sab thik to hai na sumo?" he asked with concern
"haan pushkar sab thik hai, meine kaise taise shravan ko samazaya hai, but he is still mad at uncle and aunty and i dont think ke woh etane jaldi unse baat karega" she sighed in despair "aur uska ghussa jayaz bhi to hai na pushkar"
"haan sumo bhaiyya ekdam sahi hai agar woh bade papa ya badi maa ko kuchh bolate hai to unaki galati nahi hai" his apprehensive voice was clear to showcase his internal fret about his brother
"achha sun meine es liye call kiya ki tuh jara dekhega ki kuch breakfast bana hai kya, mein shravan ko niche lekar aa rahi hu aur sabko bol de ki es baare me koi baat nahi karega jab tak shavan nahi kuchh bolega koi bhi ye topic nahi chedega and specially kamini chachi" she was uncertain about pushkar will be able to manage his parents all alone and the main question was will they take heed of his request? "tu kar payega na?" she blurred out her muddle
"tu tension mat le mein sabhal lunga yaha tu bas bhaiyya ka dhyan rakh he really needs you at this point" he replied earnestly
"hmm...ek baat bata abhi bhi uncle aur aunty" what a irony she was expecting the two person to stay calm who can never stand in front of each other
"Sumo tuze yakin nahi hoga lekin tune bade papa ko jo kaha tabse bade papa ne ek word bhi nahi bola aur badi maa woh to sirf roye jaa rahi hai" he was amused on his bade papa and badi maa's behavior he found that very strange
sumo astonish by pushakr's response but before she could utter anything she heard click of opening washroom door "pushkar bye shravan aa gaya, please sambhal liyo niche okay bye" she ended call in hurry
"kisase baat kar rahi thi sumo?" he asked nonchalantly and throw face towel to couch and headed to the walk in closet
"are kuchh nahi, woh preeta ka call tha, woh haan mein abhi tak gayi nahi na bas wahi..." she tried very hard to be confident so that he could not catch her lie but he didn't intrigued her further and continued setting his hairs
she sighed and walked slowly toward him and smiled from his back while admiring him through mirror, he raised his brow in question and she nodded negatively with small smile playing on her lips
"sumo muze pata hai tum zut bol rahi thi" he smiled and locked his gaze with her through mirror "lekin mein nahi janana chahata ki sach kya hai?" her eyes widen "kyuki mein janata hu tum jo bhi karogi mere liye karogi aur agar koi baat tum muzase chupa rahi ho that means woh aisi koi baat hai jo muze pareshan karegi, toh madam better hai ki tumhare bharose pe bharosa karu aur es bat ko yahi khatam karu correct?" he smiled lovingly and she bobbed her head up and down immediately like a child with huge grin
she hugged him from back and wrapped her arms around his torso "shervan you never fail to amaze me!!!"
he smiled and pulled her to his front and wrapped his hands around her waist "nahi sumo woh baat nahi hai, ab mere zindagi me sare rishte khokale ho chuke hai, reth ki tarah mere haath se fisal gaye hai..." his voice quavered with emotion "en sab me bas ek tumhi to ho, aur ek yahi rishta bacha hai mere pas jise mein haq se apana bol sakata hu, toh bas tumhe nahi khona chahata kisi bhi wajah se... kya karu selfish hu na" tears shone in his eyes
Zindagi mein meri saari
jo bhi kami thi
Tere aa jaane se
ab nahi rahi
"okay okay bahot ho gayi emotional baatein ab chale?" she raised her brow dramatically
"ek min baba kapade to change karne do?" he smiled on her impatient behavior
"are niche to jana hai, yeh tee aur track pants enough hai" she shrugged nonchalantly
"sumooo" he whimpered "hum bahar jaa rahe hai breakfast karane" he said sternly
she intertwined her fingers with him and squeezed to calm him "shravan hum ghar pe hi breakfast karenge and most imp is tumhe unhe aaj nahi to kal face karna hi hai toh aaj hi kyu nahi?" she felt his body stiffened
"shravann..." she whispered to called him out again when he didnt responded anything
finally he gave in "okay, but dont expect any kind of communication from my side and don't push me to do that, atleast etna manogi" his tired voice voice filled with despair was sounding more as plead rather than statement to her
she nodded "i wont push you to anything against your wish, chalo" she wriggled her hand to let out her hand from his grip but he tighten his grip and pulled her with him slowly
"shravan mera hath to chodo niche sab honge" she smiles coyly
"i dont care of anything anymore" he replied firmly, she shook her head "kuchh nahi ho sakta es stubborn insan ka" she mused , shook her head and went with the him
Sada hi rehna tum
Mere kareeb hoke
Churaya hai maine
Kismat ki laqeeron se
the click on his door grabbed all attentions toward door of his room, nirmala quickly wiped out her tears with hem of her pallu, all eyes were fixed on door and he came out with sumo, ramnath's gaze darted from his son's face to shraman's interlaced hands and back to shravan, it wont took much time to understand his lawyer brain that what is suman meant for his son and splitting any wrong word about her was sheer foolishness at this moment, and after all whatever suman said that was true till now he tried blindfold his son with myriad of lies
shravan's body stiffened when he gazed at his parents devastated state which was not different than him, he felt urge to go to them and ask them what was his mistake? what wrong he did so that paid such a huge price by sacrificing his happiness, his peace for 10 long years? never ending longing he gone through for this years killed him everyday, they are really mortified on their deeds? or it was one of the facade in which they mastered? he was in deep sh*t because of this muddle
"shravannn" her soft voice brought him back to his senses he looked toward her "chalo sab wait kar rahe hai" he nodded and started descending stairs but deliberately avoided any heed to his parents and others
when they reached last step , pushkar sprinted and embraced him in a tight hug "bhaiyya aap thik hai na mein bahot dar gaya tha" he felt pushkars tears on his shoulder
he wrapped his hands around his brother and started caressing pushkar's back to sooth him "chote mein thik hu, kuchh nahi hua hai aur tu ro kyu taha hai teri koi galti nahi hai.." by the time pushkar started sobbing bitterly, shravan glanced to his parents "jinaki galati hai unhe koi farak to nahi pad raha hai na, kya pata shayad khush ho rahe honge" he taunted to his parents
ramnath and nirmala felt qualms about their own sons accusation, ramnath opened his mouth to say something but he didn't found any words because whatever shravan said not wrong they did this with their own son whom they claimed they loved madly and till now always hided their deeds beneath the reason of his benefit but they both miserably failed to witness his emptiness, his griefs...
both brothers parted, pushkar wiped out his tears with back of his hands, shravan smiled sadly on his brothers affection toward him
nirmala trudged toward shravan with her wobbling limbs. shravan raised his hand as a gesture of to stop at place and his other hand entwined restlessly with sumo on its own accord
Baahon mein teri ab yaara
jannat hai
Maangi Khuda se tu woh
mannat hai
Nirmala stopped in her way, wept silently putting hem of her saree on her mouth to suppress her sobs, ramnath reached her and gestured not to cry, she nodded and all headed to dining table
"sumo yahi pe breakfast karegi aur agar kisiko koi problem hai to abhi bata de" he scowled curtly glancing his parents who were settled on far seat from him , no one have courage to utter a single word but kamini opened her mouth which was snapped closed when lalaji glared her
he pulled one chair for sumo and took his seat beside her only when she settled on her chair sumo mouthed him thank you
All had their breakfast silently, temperature of the room was very high, shravan held sumo's hand below table she wriggled her hand to freed herself but he tighten his grip, she gazed him confusingly because she was very sure this was not one of the romantics thing at this point so why he is doing this? the moment she peered into his eyes she got her answer, he tried to get strength to stay calm in the presence of this parents in same room, she gave him reassuring smile and kept her hand as it is
"suman beta, bada changa kiya ji jo tu aa gayi, esi bahane hum logo ko tumhare sath breakfast karne ka mauka mila, pata hai yaha tumhare ghar jitna testy khana nahi banata" he jested but last words he just whispered so that kamini and vandy cant hear him but his attempt vent to vain
kamini glared him and he maid a puppy face "are sorry ji, mera woh matlab nahi tha, lekin tum mano ya na mano suman ke hath ke khane ki baat hi kuch alag hai" he quipped smiling beatifically
kamini rolled her eyes "kuchh bhi aivehi"
Shravan regained his composure "muze aap sabse kuchh bath karani hai" he started to put his decisions which he took for his betterment
All nodded "haan beta bolo n..." ramnath tried to start communication but cut down buy his son
"Excuse me, my name is shravan, aur mein kisi ka beta nahi hu, samaze aap" ramnath and nirmala felt his abrasive words stabbing their hearts with sharp knife, fresh tears gathered in nirmala's eyes, ramnath also felt abashed but deep down both was very well aware that was the only payback they can get for their deeds, they both knew that their son went to pieces after mornings showdown between them, ramnath glanced at his son's expressionless cold face, the guilt sat not on his chest but inside his brain. What he had done he could not un-do. he couldn't make amends in subtle ways, he stooped his head and made himself ready for next set of acerbic words from his son
shravan was very well aware of that he was hurting his parents but he couldn't give a hoot to them after what they did to him, he took a deep breath and gazed at suman before continuing further, she gave him reassuring and intertwined her fingers with his perfectly covering gaps between his long fingers and squeezed gently
Teri wafaa ka sahara mila hai
Teri hi wajah se ab main
zinda hoon
"Meine yeh faisala kiya hai ki i wont be a part of Malhotra and associates any more, i wont work there.." he cut down in between by pushkar
"but bhaiyya aap aise kaise kar sakate hai, i mean woh aapki company hai" pushkar startled by shravan's proclamation of leaving firm
"chote, yaha bahot log hai jo yahi chahate hai, aur yahi sahi hai, muzase jyada es sababpe tera haq hai, aur ab to mein es ghar ka beta bhi nahi hu to officially also i am not the right person who can have authority of this firm" he glanced at kamini with wry smile and first time she felt mortified for all her deeds, the person who gone through so many things was just wanted to walk away and that too without removing her facade, his one look was enough to understand that he knows all her intentions
"so no more arguements on this please chote" he vexed "aur haan etani kabiliyat toh hai muzame ki mein apana alag firm khol saku haan mushakil hogi but jab tak mere sath sumo hai muze koi pareshani nahi hai" he eyed her, a pleasent smile plastered on her face "bhalehi logone apane games khelane ke chakkar me muze yaha se dur bheja jo bhi kiya lekin en sabme ek baat achhi hui aaj mein utna capable hu ki kisi ki help ke bina, ya kisike naam ke bina kuchh kar sakata hu" he glazed his parents once more "aur bas us ek chiz ke liye mein unka shukraguzar hu" he clenched his jaws and his body stiffened
"puttarji aap aise kaise, matlab ye sab chodake kaise koi dusara kam kar sakate ho? Malhotra and associates pe sirf tumhara haq hai, pushkar tumhari jagah kaise le sakta hai, menu pata hai tu abhi ghusse me hai lekin yeh koi jaldbazi me lene wala faisala nahi hai" lalaji got into stew on shravan's decision and tried to bring him around
"nahi lalaji muze pata hai aap mere liye pareshan ho rahe ho lekin, please aap chinta mat kijiye jab zindagi ke etane bade sach ko mein accept karke has sakata hu toh mein kuchh bhi handle sar sakata hu" he faked smile "besides all aap hi kahate hai na apani tarakki ki sidhe apane aap chadhani chahiye bas wahi kar raha hu, aur aapka ashirwad raha to usame bhi successful ho jaunga" he sighed sardonically which made everyone to have loss of words to continue further
"jaisa aap thik samazo puttarji" lalaji put down all efforts to convince him as he very well known his nephew how stubborn he is just like his brother, he silently prayed his almighty to give him all success
"aur ek baat waise to meine decide kar liya tha ki mein london chala jaunga hamesha ke liye" all goggled at him
spoon in ramnath's hand fell down, once again he will lose his son and he very well know that if shravan will leave this time then he will loose his son for forever and that was the last thing he want at this moment, it will be his mere loss as a father, he felt a pang in his chest and he hold his breath
"lekin sumo ki wajah se mein yahi rahunga woh nahi chahati hai ki mein aise sabko chod ke yaha se jau aur atleast es malhotra naam ka karz utarne ke liye muze utana to karnahi padega, though i am ashamed of this but i have to do this only for her" with this ramnath let out his breath whatever was the reason but his son was not leaving atleast he can see him everyday
Teri mohabbat se zara
ameer hoke
Churaya hai maine kismat
ki lakeeron se
Everyone kept silent for remaining time, shravan finished his breakfast and got up from his chair "Muze aap donose akele me baat karni hai" he whimpered without giving hang to his parents since he don't want to wears his heart on his sleeves!
Nirmala and Ramnath understood that sharvan addressed them, both nodded frantically but as soon as they raised their heads to glance at their son both had lump in their throat and silently followed him toward study room.
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