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chapter 4 [coffee]

Sam's pov

Kehte hain:
Khuda ne iss jahaan mein
Sabhi ke liye kisi na kisi ko hai banaaya
har kisi ke liye...

I don't know why all of a sudden this song came in my mind. But its so true. He always make someone for each and every person. Who are we to challenge his judgement? He makes the best thing only. We just need to recognise it and I failed so terribly to do it. I am sorry that I didn't release that you are the one.

I Am sorry... please make him stop.

Please let me meet him

God please

Help me..

Do anything

Just stop him from going away.

Send your angels

Just stop him from going away.

...because...

If he is gone
For even a day I wouldn't know which way to turn
Cause I'm lost without him.

I love him.

And I wanna say it to him.

Mr Santanu Bose was both sad and worried. He came to XXX bus stop to see his lovely wife off. His wife, Aindrila is going to her parent's home for her first delivery. He wanted to leave her safely to her parent's home but his research institute can't afford to give him single day leave.

"You can go alone na." Santanu asked with genuine worried face.

Aindrila smiled to her husband's worried face " yes, baba i can go. Its not the first time i am travelling alone you idiot. Don't forget you are the one who used to get chicken around when we came in this city. And you are with poor sense of direction. If i was not with you then you would have reached Kolkata back only by getting lost."

"yeah whatever." Santanu pout. Aindrila can't help but to pull her husband's cheek "stop being a baby, now you are going to be father." Santanu smiled "yes, madam... oh it's late. You stay here with bags. I will book your ticket, ok. Be carefull." He put the bags in front of his wife's foot. His wife just shuddered. He smiled and walk toward the ticket counter.

He smiled while musing about their relationship. They were class mate. He was really introvert and shy while Aindrila was a fun loving lady. Aindrila never actually made any sensible conversation with his during their college time. It's not her fault. He just bore out every one. Stupid he, didn't know the actual reason of her such behaviour. She was madly in love with him and could not talk to him freely...while thinking about his past he didn't realise that he already came in the front of the queue of ticket. He came out of his musing when the man behind the counter shouted at him.

"You need ticket or not." The man said in an annoyed voice.

"Yeah, a ticket to ***** stop."

The man gave him ticket in bored face and Santanu smiled stupidly.

He moved from the line giving space for assess to the person behind him in line.

"yes, stop name please" again the man behind the counter said.

"..." no answer from the passenger.

"What happen to all today, if you don't wanna go anywhere then why are you wasting your time standing here..."

Santanu felt really bad the poor apparent. He looked kinda lost.

"hey buddy, are you fine." Santanu ask.

The person looked him is confused eyes and then looked away.

"buddy... ok I guess you are deaf..." Santanu said and did some sign language to make him understand

The person looked at him as if he is crazy " um...forget about me, with that sign language of yours even sign language expert deaf people can't understand"

Santanu smiled " ah.. finally speaking buddy huh... I see you are not sensory motor deficient in anyway." The person rolled his eyes.

"so where are you going?" Santanu asked.

"Honestly I don't know. I thought of traveling but I don't have any particular destination in mind. By the way where are you heading?" the person asked.

"not me.. its my wife... um.. to ****** " santanu said .

"ooo... Then I will start from ******* as well I guess"

The man behind counter hurriedly made ticket of that stop and threw it to him and sigh in relief.

The person took it and moved from line

"you are really not any perverted stalker are you? Following my wife" Santanu asked.

"what?? Idon't know your wife.. ok" the person assured.

"um... ok ... your bus will leave any time soon. You should settle yourself then and yeah... look after my wife in the road ok. She is expecting and her name is Aindrila." Santanu said

"ok... then see you again sometime. " the person said and started to walk toward the bus.

"hey... um.. forgot to ask... what's your name."

"its Neil" said Neil.

Sam's pov

Memories we mad always bring bright smile in face... Remember in the chilling night of Hrishikesh... how we were fooling around. We drank up to our thought. You couldn't even walk properly. With every nonsense you were speaking, you were giggling like mad. ...haha... talking about packing Chasni in hand luggage and bring her to Mumbai. Silly you.

I was upset. And you came to Hrishikesh only for me. I said that I don't wanna go back to Mumbai. And like always you replied "jaha samunder singh woha uske idiot."

"jaha samunder singh woha uske idiot."

Idiot

Where are you

Your samunder singh craves you.

But

Whom am I kidding?

If you take step forward once then your idiot will go away forever.'

he has to go, Neil. For us he has to go. Our friendship became over prime enemy. If I have to take this step then i have to break our friendship.'

Stupid, of course he won't wait for his samunder singh after that

but please Neil! You stay for your Sammy.

Normal pov

Neil got on his bus. All the other passengers were putting their belongings in the bunk of the bus. He did the same and sat on a sit beside the window. Lost in thought.

Neil's pov

Never thought that I would take this step. I don't know if it will right or wrong. Just know I can't stay here. If I stay here I will die from heartache and I don't want to die so soon. Because I want to see you grow old. From afar but still want to see you to be old with experiences. Want to see you play with your 10 children. And grandchildren but from distance afar.

For now I have to go.

I can't breathe here. There is a lump in my thought which is too stubborn. It just don't have any intention to go away. I am feel like I will die from thrust. My thought is burning. It's not going from drinking water. I feel like someone put a belt on my chest, too tight and put shackle on my feet. The only cure to this is to leave for now.

Wish I could somehow pack mom in my language and bring her with me. But I can't. My destination is too uncertain. No actually I have no destination. Can't give her pain with me in this uncertain journey. Left her home alone. Hope you will look after her.
I feel so alone
Samunder Singh

Wish you were here by my side but its ok, I will get used to it.

I will figure some way to leave without you in my life

I know

I will never make anything in my life by without you

I will never be the same without you

I will be lost

You know

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you

"coffee"

What coffee? I looked out to see a boys is trying to sell coffee to me

"coffee" he asked again

Ahh coffee. I love it. You knew it so well. I never said it loud but you always used to bring coffee for me when I needed it.

I nodded in negative to the boy and he left.

Today I am not feeling to have one.

May be some other time I will have coffee again.

Maybe somewhere under the open sky

I'll watch the night turn light blue and a sky full of star for there as well and will remember our nights together on roof, chilling with hot coffee
But it will not the same without you there.
shit I cant take it anymore.

I need coffee right now

I turn around to see the retreating back of the hawker.

Originally posted by: tina59

Wow nice climax, Sam reached

Sweet chill [last chapter]

Warnig- 18+ please ... Kiddos go way , spelling and grammatical mistake is bound to happen as it's me who is writing.

Sam ran like mad girl in between the buses in the bus stand while looking through the windows for her idiot.

"Neil... Neil... idiot" she cried.

From afar Neil saw her search. He had a feeling that he turned sadist all of a sudden. He was watching her suffering, crying yet he was not moving from his place. At a time he thought to leave this sadistic side and yell at his samunder that her idiot is still here but another side of him said to not do this. Just to relief her pain he can't live being in pain.

He saw Sam coming toward him. In the moment panic Neil pulled the liver under the seat. The moment Sam reached just in front of his window the seat slide backward hiding Neil from the view of window in the process.

Thump...thump...thump... Neil could hear his own heartbeat. He knew the dhak-dhak will go away then Sam will move from the window. But for some unknown reason she shoot looking right though that window for longer time. After it felt like hours she moved from there to keep searching frantically when the bus conductor shouted the bus will be leaving. And Neil left a sigh of relief and again erect his seat

. Sam move from there with a heavy heart to search in another bus. Neil heard the sound of engine getting started and the bus finally started to move. Neil looked out of the window to see sam still searching him. He kept looking at her till he could.

Meharbaani jaate-jaate mujhpe kar gaya
Guzarta saa lamha ek daaman bhar gaya
Tera nazaara mila, roshan sitaara mila
Taqdeer ki kashtiyon ko kinara mila

Neil's pov

Still now I was living for you, breathing for you

Now

You're the only one in this world I would die without

You are the best thing, that's ever been mine
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you

Sam's pov

Why are you doing this? I know you are here, so why are you not coming in front of me?

I know

You are giving me punishment

You're tired from all those long hard week.

I know

You're sitting in your chair by the window looking at me

Watching my distress

I know I deserve this but I can't take it anymore.

Don't you understand?

If you were gone
For even a day I wouldn't know which way to turn
Cause I'm lost without you.

And now

I am broken.

Fix me.

Normal pov

Sam didn't stop searching for Neil. She was rubbing her tears of frustration angrily. She was fed up of these tear that she had no control.

"are you crying?" a voice asked.

Sam turn towards him sharply but her face fell when she saw it is not whom she was expecting.

"What is to you?" Sam was irritated.

"umm.. nothing just showing some concern" the man said.

"You don't need to" Sam smacked.

"ou... do you always behave like that to someone who shows you concern "he asked.

"Damn it don't irritate me. Mind your own business. I don't want concern from you." Sam was really irritated then.

"he is gone right?" he asked her on a serious note out of blue.

"what?" she was out of words.

"the person whom you want to show you his concern." The man smiled.

Sam looked away and again the dam of tears broke.

"that idiot he ...he didn't wait.." tear broke her voice. She couldn't voice anything out.

"idoit huh... nice name" the man smirked.

"Neil. His name is Neil. Very very rarely he used to complain to call him by his name instead of idiot." She smiled.

"Neil huh... that a nice name t... ou...neil, I just met someone named by neil. He was stalking my wife." The man said with realisation.

"what?" sam asked.

"No... I mean he went in the same bus as my wife. Wanna catch him. The bus just left"

"Yes... I... thank you... thank you so much." Sam was again out of words.

Kuch toh hai tujh se raabta
Kuch toh hai tujh se raabta
Kaise hum jaane, hume kya pata
Kuch toh hai tujh se raabta
Tu humsafar hai
Phir kya fikar hai
Jeene ki wajah hi yehi hai
Marna issi ke liye

"You know what if you drive like this we can never catch that bus" sam complained.

"Madam this is not just a small scooty not your boyfriend's r15." The man said sarcastically.

"wait, how do you know idiot has r15?" sam asked.

"and you have no brain...!" the man exclaim.

"you are brainless and... and speed less!!!!!" sam shouted "move let me drive."

"no.. its my bike I am driving." The man said.

"move and let me drive or I am going to say your wife you were flirting with me."

"that's a lie!"

"who said I am a goddess of truth?"

sam won and the man loosed the battle. They exchanged their seat.

"What's your name again?" sam asked.

"Santanu Bose" the man said.

"ok Santanu babu learn how to drive" with a pickup and gear change sam drove the small bike as a mad horse.

Neil was trying to think about something else but he was feeling like his own mind is also playing with him. Every other thing he was trying to think was ending on sam. All of a sudden the bus apply break and the tire skied to make an uncomfortable sound. The passenger who were standing misbalanced. He head a pained grasped from the seat behind him. He turned around to find a heavily pregnant lady holding her stomach. He concluded her as Aindrila, that cheeky man Santanu's wife.

"are you alright" Neil asked her out of concern.

"yes I am fine, just my baby thought it was fun to kick me." She smiled.

Neil smiled back. "your husba..." his words dried outin his mouth when he heard a familiar voice shouting

"Neil... NEIL...IDIOT, dam it get ass down her. This stupid conductor is not letting me in. and don't dare to hide now. I know you are hear. Santanu said me you boarded this very bus."

Neil's sweat dropped animatedly

"Santanu?" Aindrila raised an eyebrow.

"yeah your husband..."

Again Sam started shouting. "What the hell SantanU ... Leave the bike alone it will not die. Help me out here to move this stupid conductor... move I need to see neil."

Neil's sweat dropped animatedly again.

"Santanu is here?" Aindrila stood up more her seat, desperately looked out the window and then limped through the rows of the seats to reach the door.

"ma'am where are you going, its not safe for you." Neil followed her. And both of then got down the bus. Neil faced her unwillingly.

"idiot..." Sam whispered and naturally her eyes filled up with tears.

"Sam ... I ..." He looked in different direction.

"what I ...huh? Idiot... that's a great stunt you pull. You want to leave this town huh? I will break your legs and will give it in your hand."

All winced hearing her word " idiot brother, you manage your lady or else this lady will book a ticket of heaven for you like she already did to my bike." Santanu said meekly. "well my little scooty is of no use now so you give me your ticket so that I can leave my wife safely." He smile "and yeah, I gave your lady my address, please sent my poor little bike to my house after repairing it."

The bus left leaving the two soul on road along with fallen bike.

Neil went to pick up the bike "you really damaged this bike?" he asked by rising his eyebrow.

"no... no ... its alright... Um yes a little damage but not anything big." said sam.

Neil sighed "you never do anything right, right?" he asked slowly and looked down.

"yes" said sam. "still now I just messed everything up. But now... now I will do.." sam trailed off.

"do?" Neil whispered

"right. Every thing right." She took steps forward. And neil backed a little. Fearing another heart break.

Neil's pov

Feeling the dj-vu

The silence is so nostalgic

and this nostalgia chilled me to the bone
until I look at my hands

you held my fingers

and the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

normal pov

sam held neil's hand and snaked her finger between his digits. And pulled slightly towards her. She tip toed and peaked on his lips. Neil's was taken with shock and he stiffen.

Sam's pov

What?

Why stiffen?

Love me like you do,

Touch me like you do,

What are you waiting for?

Cause I need you need now
All I need is you and I

Normal pov

Sam wrapped her hand around his shoulder. Neil is exactly not very tall from her but still she think it will give her better access mostly because Neil was basically standing like a pillar.

She again touched his lips softly and then lightly sucked on the lower lips. She could feel Neil was more loosen up then and also responding the kiss back lightly. He also kissed back. Sam bite his lower lip lightly which neil conclude as a silent permission and he gave it. He opened his mouth slightly to give her access. She entered his mouth and ravaged all nook and cranny of his mouth. Neil could already see who the wild one in their little relationship is.

Moans of pleasure filled their ears along with thumps of heart beat. They didn't realise when their soft simple kiss became more sensuous and passionate. Neil thought that all of a sudden his blood running wildly through his veins. They didn't know they could hold their breath for so long. It was going so good that they wanted to continue it through entity but they were out of breath and unwillingly hat to stop and break free. When they apart a string of saliva lingered.

"um... do I need to say anything else or are you that kind of sadist bas***d who will enjoys hearing the embarrassing thing spoken by me" Sam pouted and neil's sweat drop.

"so saying I love you is embarrassing yet kiss in middle of road is not". Neil asked raising his hand n air and sam blushed.

"well... ok ... when you will think it's not something embarrassing then you can say it to me. By the way I love you." Neil said and picked the long forgotten bike up and heard a small almost inaudible voice love you too' and he smile.

"and you know what I think Santanu left the bike so that we can go home not by walking... And I am driving. Sit back" neil said.

-end-

Note- ou so long... I almost lost the track and I am so lazy. I finally finish it. Yeahhh... and HAPPY NEW YEAR. And well I tried a kiss scene. Well sorry if its unnatural as I am not at all experienced and read it in other fanfiction of different fandoms only.

Originally posted by: hanishank

awesome conclusion sravanfan 👏

happy new year

Originally posted by: tina59

beautiful Tanu, what an ending..I loved every bit

Thank you so much for completing this story