the confession, DYM FF..**[updated and complete]. - Page 2

i am very tired so couldn't check pardon any mistake in the following chapter

It was early morning. The climate was not too hot surprisingly for the month of July in the city of Mumbai. Sam couldn't believe that she actually ran to a guy's house in the dawn. She was so on boarded that she didn't care to take her car. On the flick of adrenaline rush she ran out of door to her destination. After running like an idiot for like five minutes she got her sense back. She realised that she was creating a fool of an example out of herself. She cursed herself but luckily got a taxi. She asked the taxi to take her to Arjun's house. Now after 1 hour of confrontation, secretes, tears, curse, blames, confessions Sam came out of his house. She should be feeling pain of the betrayal then. The pain which was caused by her dear father. She should be hurt by the adultery of her father which she came to know just recently but she was not. She was hurt but she was not feeling the pain. she was not feeling pain even after knowing her father cheated on them, she was not feeling pain even after knowing that she had been a pawn to slay for petty revenge. She was not feeling pain even after knowing that her ex fianc was just using her. She was not feeling pain even after knowing that the story which she mistaken as fairytale was actually just a mirage. She was not actually numb to feel pain. No she was not numb today. She never felt more alive. She was just eager for something. She has to reach to her paradise like she promised.

Sam was running. No she felt like she was flying. Yes flying like a free soul. She hasn't felt like that for a long while. She was free more the cold desire of lust. The lust which was created from stubborn demand. The lust which was created from envy. Which was eating her heart away. Turning her world into a dark abyss. Void from any form of light. Still a light of wisdom somehow manage to pass through the cracks in her heart. The light, her sunshine. She didn't appreciate the light before. Because that light was too bright. It used burn her eyes and forced her to look at her mirror image which she couldn't recognise. She couldn't imagine that her image could be so ugly. So she avoided the light for too long. She tried her best to change the warmth of the light into bitter cold like December but she failed. Her darkness loosed to that light.

Today she left all her darkness behind. Now she is ready to reach for the hand that kept lend towards her from the light. She is just one-step behind to take the step.

She ran from Arjun's house to the taxi stand. She was frustrated that there was no ride. One of the politician party announced strike that day while the leading party opposed it and made all clear that if any worker join the strike with the opposing party then their salary won't be count for the day. So there was hand pick number of rides on the road. Maximum rides were nowhere to be seen in the fear of outrage of Politian party. They cannot bear any damage to their cars but the passengers were rushing around frantically in the search of ride as they have to give attendance before they are marked as absents in the register.

Sam got fed up and started walking. But again she was lucky. She somehow managed to get a taxi again. She gave the driver the address of a very familiar apartment. After she sat in the backseat of taxi she let out a sigh. She relaxed her aching back and closed her eyes. All the event of passed few hours replayed in her head. She slide down the glass window of the taxi and felt the gentle breeze. She smile dreamily

Flashback

"Sam loved a poisonous man, who wanted to poison your very existence." Arjun said. His voice was not as confidant as always. His voice is strained and tired.

Sam looked blankly at him. "No you are wrong. It is not possible. I never fell for the poisonous man." She smiled dreamily. A face as bright as sunshine appeared in her mind. "I fell in love with the man who can engulf all the poison but would never spit out any venom."

Arjun looked up in her eyes and smiled. "yes you are right."

End of flashback.

She didn't realise that the taxi is already in front of his apartment. She gave the driver some bills and ran up the stairs. She was so excited yet nervous that she could hear her heartbeat.

She rang the bell and instantly it was openly with great force

"i knew you would change your mind. You just can't lea...Sam ...where is Neil." A female voice asked.

Sam was confused and didn't know what to say..."Prerna aunty...i don't know..i mean i came here looking for him. Where is he?" Sam asked.

Prerna looked at her eyes and the looked away "left."

Sam was shocked "left...? what do you mean by left? Where is he?"

"Don't you understand? He left. He is going to leave this town and i don't know where he is going. He said he will call and tell me about his whereabouts once he find a place where he can breathe freely again." Prerna shouted back.

Tears roll down sam's face... "no...no he can't go. He just can't leave like this. At least not now."

Prerna looked at her with pity "so bring him back. Just go and bring my son back."

Sam rubbed her tears with determination "how?" she asked.

"i don't know. You know that." Prerna said "try to find in xxx bas stop. I hope you can still catch him."

She didn't require repetition, she ran down the stair in search of and rides to catch Neil in time.

This time she was not that lucky. She started running to the bus stop as she couldn't find any ride.

Sam's pov

Why? Why could not you wait? You waited for so long so why could not you wait few more minutes. Then also i am in no position to demand. I am at fault and i am repaying right now. Please Neil. Please don't leave me alone.

I need you.

I really need you near me to
Keep my mind off the edge

i know i let the precious thing of mine to slip through my fingers.

It's you.

You are the best thing, that's ever been mine

I never knew that you could mean so much, so much.

But now

i wanna know you better.

How stupid i was.

I should have known that you are the one for me. I was only for you. But deep down I know
I could never leave you.

I tried many time But I could never
Leave your side

I tried but failed. Remember when i proposed to Arjun i held your hand like life line. No it was not the one time think. I could never leave you. So how could you think that i will leave you now.

Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now.

Listen to me Mr Neil Malhotra. You have no escape. You are stick with me for the life time.

I kept running. My feet is getting sore. I am feeling a burning sensation in my thought but i can't stop. I can't lose you. Just see you idiot what have you done. Trust me you are going to pay back. Just let me catch you once then i will make you do massage of my feet. A flash of the foot massage in their dinner date flash in my mind. I could feel that i am blushing. I only know how i controlled embarrassing moan of pleasure that time.

One after another images of moment spend by us flashed in my mind.

Remember Idiot how we used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof
to talk about meaningless stuff. It was so much fun.

A smile crept on my lips.

And that day...

remember that fight i had with my mother, it was two-thirty a.m.. everything was slipping right out Of my hands. I felt like i could not breathe. No more I ran out, crying, and you called and i didn't answered. You got tensed and ran to my house only to find I was not there. You followed me out into the street. Found me at last in a lonely park. You sat in the swing beside me. The swings were little smaller for us but we didn't care. I was not giving you any importance. Trying to pretend as if you were not there. But how could I ignore you. You were none stop babbling nonsense. You were talking crazy. I smiled thinking your words.

we could get married
Have ten kids and teach them how to dream

and then those dream.

The man come to my dream every day. Make me a cup of tea. Cares my cheek with love. Brush my hair from my face with fingers. Whisper good morning softly in my ears.

I know it was you
In my dreams you're touching my face.

You are the only one who can make me feel like this.

So special.

Only you can set my heart on fire.

But i thought you would wait for me.

You always said you know me better than i know myself. You can feel my unspoken words. So why you mistaken my words today.

I thought

you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself

but you left me.

No no sorry. What am i thinking. Your leaving is justified. I was wrong. Your decision is normal. Please don't go.

Wait for me

Cause

You're my light

You're my cure

You are my everything.

If you were gone
For even a day I wouldn't know which way to turn
Cause I'm lost without you.

Originally posted by: -rosel-

Loved it...sam's pov was really superb...