RANTARA-THIS IS NOT THE END (FF)EPILOGUE PAGE 47 - Page 4

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The night of restlessness has passed nd Morning Rays hit d Sky. It was a new day for both Raghu nd Antara but nothing seems to be gud in dis morning. Antara as usual picks up her cellphone to send a gud morning msg to Raghu. She typed d text nd was about to send wen d reality struck her mind. She closed her eyes in pain nd put d cell phone at d side table nd rests her head on d bed Post. Her head was still heavy. Though she cried a lot last day but that only makes her mind feel light, her heart is still heavy.

Antara (To herself): its only 1 day without u Raghu nd m finding it difficult. I wonder wat will I do without u for rest of my lyf

She said nd again closes her eyes nd rests herself on d bed. Her mom came to her Room to wake up but seeing her like dis she thought that she's not well so she decided not to disturb her nd let her sleep

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On d other hand Raghu too wakes up from his sleep. He slept late at nite although it was not unusual for him to sleep late at nite nd wake up late next day but d difference is dat initially he sleeps late because he use to talk to Antara till late at nite nd dis tym he was lost in d memories of dere relationship so far till late at nite. He took his cell phone as usual to see Antara's morning msg but there was none den he realize wat happen last day. He was disappointed wen he didn't see her msg but den he knows d reason behind dis. he thought of sending msg to her from his side but den he thought that may be Antara didn't like it. He sighed nd kept d cell at one side.

Raghu (To himself): its only 1 day Antara nd m already missing u wat will I do afterwards. But y m I missing u wen it was me only who dnt want dis relationship to go further?

He said nd closes his eyes trying to find d answers of his questions but failed. His trail of thoughts has been broken by d ringing of his cell phone. His heart says dat may be dis call is of Antara nd Without looking at d Screen once he quickly picked it up

Raghu (curiously): Hello Antara! I know dat u'll definitely Call me. I...

He stopped in d middle as he hear d sound of chucle from d other side initially he got confused as it was not Antara's chuckle den he realize dat it was not Antara but his Best Friend "Machmach"

Machmach: oh My my! Sumone has got so much lost in his Lady Love dat nw he didn't even Recognize his Friend's voice.

Raghu: No Machmach nothing like dat actually...

Machmach: dnt tell me stories Dude! I knw anyways tell me one thing dat is Antara's No. in ur cell has been saved by my name or u r still in d dream's of her dat u didn't even notice my name on d screen (nd by saying dat he chuckles again)

Raghu: no Dude! Nothing like dat anyways wen did u came back from Bangalore

Machmach: Today only. Early in d morning. Just finished up wid all my morning activities so decided to call u.

Raghu: hhmmm! Dude! I need to meet u.

Machmach: r u sure u wanna meet me or u wanna meet Antara

Raghu: Machmach Stop joking pls

Machmach: ok ok Fine. Wen?

Raghu: As soon as Possible

Machmach: ok. But wat happen is everything alright?

Raghu: that I'll tell u wen u cum I cant tell u at phone. Wanna talk to u sumthing important.

Machmach: ok Fine. Will see u in 1 hour at ur home?

Raghu: ya cool, will wait for u.

Machmach: ok see u den. Bye

Raghu: bye

He said nd cuts d call. Nd den once again looked at d screen hoping dat may be Antara Msgd her while he was on call but it was all plain. He sighed once again nd kept d cell aside nd went to Washroom

After struggling so much wid her Thoughts Antara finally decided to go out of d Room as she thought that longer she'll stay over dere the Memories of Raghu will haunt her. So she gets up from her bed nd moves towards d Dining Area where her mom is already sitting

Antara: good Morning Mom!

Mom: Good morning Beta!

She seated herself at one of d chair

Mom: hws ur Headache now?

Antara: much better. (den she looked around) By d way where is mish!

Mom: Mish has already gone to college

Antara: Really? So early?

Mom: Early? Antara have u checked d Tym its 10 AM beta.

Antara (notices d watch): oh Shit! Mom y haven't u wake me up before?

Mom: I have gone to ur Room but u were sleeping moreover ur face Face too looks pale so I decided not to disturb u.

Antara: oh God mom! I m already late for my college. Keep my breakfast ready I'll just go nd freshen up

She said nd about to leave wen her mom stopped her

Mom: Sit Right here. U r not going to college today.

Antara: But mom... u know dat I dnt miss my college.

Mom: I know. But today u r not going to college. Had u checked ur eyes in d mirror? Dey r still red, nd I dnt want u to fall ill. So u take complete rest today at home nd dnt worry about d notes, I had already told Deepika nd she said dat she'll make a copy of notes for u too. So nw just go to d Room nd take rest.

Antara: But Mom...

Mom: Antara, no more arguments nw.

Antara (making a face): Fine

Mom (smiled): dats like my Antara. Acha u go nd freshen up nd ya ur breakfast is ready. Do have it!!!! Nd m going outside for some official work will cum by lunch so till den u take rest ok

Antara: ok mom.

She said nd moves towards her Room, her mom gave her a smile nd den moves towards d Kitchen

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Machmach: Wat? U r joking rite?

Raghu: no dude! Its true

Machmach: So u mean to say that u guys broke up?

Raghu (weakly): ya

Machmach: r u out of ur mind Raghu? Do u have any Idea wat r u talking about? U r talking About BREAK UP!!!! BR-E-AK UP!!!!

Raghu: I knw Machmach wat I m talking.

Machmach: but how, nd most importantly Why? Everything was going fine between u two den wat happen all of a sudden dat too in dese 2 months wen I m not here?

Raghu: because I realize nw dat d thing between me nd her is not love but just a mere Attraction.

Machmach: Wat Rubbish r u talking Raghu? U r really not in ur senses

Raghu: I m Machmach. Nd I knw dat its rite. We dnt have any right to ruin each other happiness by carrying dis false relationship further

Machmach: False Relationship? U think dat d thing between u two from almost 2 years is false. It was nothing but just an attraction

Raghu stood dere numb

Machmach: nd have u thought of Antara. Wat she must be going thru after all dis? Raghu u knew very well that she was a heart-broken girl wen she met u. hw can u do dis wid her

Raghu: Machmach, I already talked to her nd she too agree wid me nd said dat it was good for both of us.

Machmach: den I m sorry to say Raghu but still haven't understand her. U know y she had sid dis just for d sake of ur Happiness. Raghu still dere is tym. Just fix everything before its get too late

Raghu: no Machmach, dere is nothing to Fix

Machmach (irritated): Raghu, u r really out of ur mind. U mean to say dat dere was no pain, no sadness in her eyes, on her face, in her voice wen u asked her to break up.

Raghu closed his eyes remembering her eyes which were struggling hard for not to cry, her face which was frowned at dat tym but still she kept d smile to hide her frowness , her voice which was shaking wen she said him Good Bye but still she managed to say. He quickly opens her eyes only to see dat Machmach is standing in front of him.

Machmach: u did. U did noticed everything nd still u managed to break her heart, to break her trust. Hw could u Raghu? I knw dat u had broken Many girls heart but dey r not worth of ur Love dey had no comparison wid Antara as dey find dere boyfriends d very next day u left dem. But Antara, Antara is different nd once it was u only who make me believe dat. U make me believe dat u truly love her nd I was happy as u finally found ur true love. But again u did d same wid her. U r really Impossible Raghu!

Raghu: Machmach, listen to me...

Machmach: no u listen to me Raghu. I warned u before also dat dnt try to flirt her, I cant see her get hurted but u promised dat u'll not hurt her but u did Raghu u did. Nd for d first tym in my Life I m ashamed to call u my BEST FRIEND!!

Raghu (hurted): Machmach...

Machmach: enough Raghu, I heard enough of u nd nw its my tym to go to Antara because dis tym my sister needed me most. I don't know hw will I Face her after wat u did to her but I'll be there for her nd make sure dat next tym nobody try to Fool her.

He said nd left from dere. Raghu tried to stop him but he had already gone leaving Raghu watching his retreating Body. Raghu sat on d Bed holding his head wid his Hands. In 2 days his lyf changes completely.Last day He lost nd his Love nd today his Best Friend.

"But wait! Did he just considered Antara as his Love" he thought

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Antara was sitting at d Living Room. Her Mom has already gone 1 hr Before nd adviced her to take rest but she dnt want to because she knews dat if she goes to take rest den again d memories of Raghu will overcum her so she decided to keep her mind busy nd in dis Past 1 hour she's doing every possible thing in which she cannot think of Raghu but she failed everytym. Finally she came to living Room nd started searching TV channels wen she heard d Door Bell. She looked at watch nd wondered who could it be as its not d tym for Misha to cum nd neither Mom den who could it be? She thought nd moved to open d Door.

As soon as she opens d Door she saw Machmach standing over dere. She was both Happy nd worried. Happy nd worried. Happy because he was meeting him after 2 months nd worried because he dnt knw anything which happened between Her nd Raghu but den she calms herself so dat Machmach wont realize dat dere was sumthing wrong but least she knows is dat Machmach already know everything.

Antara: Machmach!!! Hi! wat a pleasant surprise?

Machmach: wont u ask me to come in?

Antara: oh ya ofcourse come in.

Machmach entered inside nd watches Antara's expression. The pain was clearly visible in her eyes yet she was trying to hide it wid her smile. He felt so angry at Raghu at dat tym dat if he would be present over dere then he would definitely slapped him. But rite nw he decided to be calm nd quiet.

Antara: Arey Machmach, kaha kho gaye? Baitho na.

Machmach: ya ofcourse.

He said nd get seated.

Antara: so wen did u came back? Nd hw was ur training? Nd did u told Ruksana yet dat u r back to Mumbai?

Machmach: OMG! Antara so many question. Ok let me answer dem one by one. First of all, I came back today morning only. Secondly, my training was good nd now d third one I was not able to told Ruksana yet about my Arrival as I tried to call her but her cell is out of reach. Actually she told me dat d place where she resides at Delhi for training has lots of network problem I guess datsy call couldn't be connected

Antara: ok. Dnt worry she'll be back soon to Mumbai. I guess within a week.

Machmach: hhmmm. Hws Raghu?

Antara (frowned but still managed to smile): He's good. Nd y r u asking me dis? dnt tell me dat u haven't met him yet or informed abt ur Arrival. U knw na he already envy me because u r very much caring towards me rather than towards him. U knw wat few minutes back me nd Raghu were talking about u only on call nd was fighting on dis Matter.

Machmach: really?

Antara: ya.

Machmach: ok. By d way Antara y ur eyes r so Red? Were u crying?

Antara (touches her eyes): ofcourse not. Wo actually I was having Headache last day due to which I couldn't able to sleep whole nite datsy my eyes r still red.

Machmach: Stop it Antara! Dnt try to Lie wen u dnt knw how to.

Antara: no Machmach. M not lyieng. Really I was having headache nd ...

Machmach (intervenes): Antara I knw everything

Antara (couldn't believe): u knw?

Machmach: ya, before cuming to u I had gone to meet Raghu as he has called me to talk sumthing important nd den he told me everything that happened yesterday.

Antara said nothing but lowered her gaze

Machmach: Antara, from 1 nd a half months u were tolerating his behaviour nd u didn't bother to tell me even once. M I ur brother for only name sake?

Antara: no Machmach nothing like dat. I just dnt want to bother u

Machmach: Antara u think u'll bother me by teling me ur Problem? Only dis much u know me

Antara: no Machmach u r taking me wrong. Nd moreover its of no use nw. everything is over between me nd him. Nd its good for both of us. We both will be happy after dis.

Machmach: Really? Its Good for both of u or just for him? Nd wat did u said about both of ur Happiness. R u sure u'll be happy after dis

Antara: dat doesn't Matter anymore nw Machmach.

Machmach: ofcourse it matters Antara. Nd y were u quiet at dat moment wen he said u all dis? y haven't u questioned him once?

Antara: Because I dnt want him to be in any kind of guilt nd Machmach if he's happy without me den I m no one to ruin his Happiness. I always wanted to see him Happy with me or without me.

Machmach: u r really impossible Antara. I haven't met such a girl like u. hw can u be so strong after suffering from all dis

Antara: Tym teaches everything Machmach nd forget about all dis now. I really wanted to forget all dis nd move on in my lyf.

Machmach: R u sure u'll be able to?

Antara: I don't know but I'll try.

Machmach: Antara m Proud dat u r my Friend nd m really ashamed dat Raghu is my Friend.

Antara: Machmach Pls. dnt say like dat.

Machmach: but y Antara?

Antara: Becoz whatever has happened was between me nd Him nd I dnt want ur friendship affected due to dis. Machmach I knw Raghu very well. He really considers u very close to him infact u r only person with whom he shares everything nd no one understands him better den u. nd if u'll leave him like dis he won't be able to tolerate. He will be shattered nd I dnt want dis. pls don't spoil ur relationship because of all dis.

Machmach: But Antara...

Antara: pls Machmach. U consider me as ur sister na den wont u do dis thing for ur sister. Pls never bring this thing between ur friendship

Machmach: ok Antara, I'll do as u say.

Antara: Thanx Machmach.

Machmach: Antara wat kind of girl u r? He has done so wrong wid u, hurted u so much but still u r thinking about his Happiness only? Y?

Antara: Because I Love Him. Dat doesn't matter if he thinks dat d thing between us was just attraction but for me it was our Love. nd in love its important to see other's happiness den ours nd I just want to see Raghu Happy.

Machmach: But Antara hw still can u care for him?

Antara: Acha Tell me one thing, if dere will be u nd Ruksana in our place nd d if Ruksana does d same thing wid u which Raghu had done to me den would u stop caring about her?

Machmach: no, never

Antara: den hw can u expect me to not care for him

Machmach: Antara I really cant win from u in Arguments. Ruksana is rite u should be a Lawyer rather dan an Architect.

Antara said nothing but just smiles.

Machmach: But seriously Antara Raghu has no Idea wat he's losing. I wish he realised it before its too late.

Antara: doesn't Matter any more nw Machmach. Nd pls nw forget about all dis

Machmach: ok Antara but promise me one thing dat wenever u need me emotionally u'll tell me.

Antara: ofcourse. I Promise.

Machmach: Chalo Antara, I think I should go now. I had some work. Give my regards to Aunty nd Lover to my sweet Misha.

Antara: ya Ofcourse (den reminded of sumthing) Machmach, one more thing

Machmach: nw wat?

Antara: Dnt tell about all dis to Ruksana

Machmach: but y? she should know about dis

Antara: No Machmach. U know her Temper rite. She wont be able to tolerate dis nd will burst all her anger at Raghu nd forgret about Raghu first of all she'll get Mad at u as Raghu was ur Friend nd u make her Believe that he Loves me. Already she had a fight wid u almost every day nd d reason is her Anger nd I don't want relationship of ur guys to get affected due to dis.

Machmach: Fine Antara. But I seriously think dat she should know about dis. if she cum to know about all dis from sumwhere else den she'll be hurted

Antara: Machmach I'll tell her wen d right tym will cum. But not anything nw pls.

Machmach: ok as u say. Chalo I m going nw. Bye take care nd remember ur promise

Antara: Ofcourse Machmach bye nd u too Take Care of urself nd of Raghu also

Machmach: ya sure. Bye

Antara: bye

After Machmach Leaves Antara just sat down at d couch thinking about wat she has just said to Machmach. Nd again started crying.

Antara (To herself): I knw Machmach it wont be easy to forget someone whom u love so much nd wat I said to u was very easy to say but I would follow dat wid dat ease only I doubt on dat. Y love make us so weak dat we just cant stand on our own decisions. Nd most importantly y it happens dat d Person whom we love d most is always d reason for our tears?

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On d other hand Raghu was sitting on his Rest chair thinking about d conversation he had with Machmach. He felt like he's all alone. Last day Antara walks out from his Lyf because of him nd today Machmach has left him. Did really wat he done was so wrong dat he left all alone nw. he thought.

His trail of thoughts has been broken wen he felt someone's hand on his shoulders. He instantly looked up nd saw Machmach standing over dere. He instantly gets up nd hugs him tight.

Raghu: I m sorry Dude! I didn't mean to hurt her but trust me wat I had done was good for both of us. Pls dnt get angry from me.

Machmach: Relax Raghu, take it easy m sorry too for yelling at u so much.

Dey broke d hug nd Machmach notices d tears in Raghu's eyes. For one thing he was sure that Raghu too loves her. He must got distracted for sumtym due to which he's thinking all dis nonsense but very soon he'll realize his mistake.

Machmach: I met Antara.

Raghu: Hws she? Is she ok? I hope she didn't did anything stupid? Did she told u about wat happen between us?

Machmach: relax Raghu! Let me answer first. Antara is fine. Still struggling to hide her Pain from d world wid her smile nd she didn't did anything stupid nd trying to forget everything nd she didn't told me anything infact was saying dat everything was fine between u 2 den I only told her dat I knw everything.

Raghu: Was she still crying?

Machmach: May be. Because her eyes were red.

Raghu closes his eyes in pain wen he imagined Antara in tears

Machmach: u knw wat Raghu, wen she came came to know dat I had a fight wid u nd decided dat I'll never talk to u den wat she has said? She said dat whatever has happen was between her nd u nd she doesn't want our (Machmach nd Raghu's) relation to suffer due to dis. she said dat she know dat u r close to nobody else as u r close to me nd if I too will leave u den u wont be able to tolerate it nd will be shattered therefore she requested me to forgive u nd take care of u.

Raghu: Antara said all dis.

Machmach: yes Dude. She really loves u a lot. Inspite of knowing dat u did so wrong wid her still she was thinking about ur happiness only. I dnt knw hw u managed to break her Heart in which she had Immense Love for u

Raghu: is she angry on me?

Machmach: I cant say about dat Raghu. As d whole tym she just talked about ur Happiness only, forgetting about d Pain which she has inside.

Raghu: hhmmm

Machmach: Nd u knw wat she has said wen I asked her dat y she didn't questioned u? she said dat she don't want u to be in any kind of guilt. She said dat if u r happy widout her den she dnt want to ruin ur Happiness. She always wanted to see u Happy with her or without her.

Raghu was speechless wen he heard Machmach's statement.

Machmach: Raghu, its because of her only today I came back to u as she wants me to be wid u, to forgive u. Raghu u really had no Idea wat u had Lost. U lost d girl who loves u nd Trusts u more den herself. Nd I m afraid dat by d tym u realize it, it'll be too late. Just think about it once.

He said nd goes from dere leaving Raghu behind speechless. D words of Machmach's were still echoing in his mind. He ahs done so wrong wid Antara but still she could think about his Happiness only. Hw can anyone Loves someone so much

Raghu (to himself): Y do u luv me so much Antara dat u r still caring for me, still thinking of my happiness nd it was leading me to d Guilt dat wat I had done wid u was wrong. Hw will I cum out from dis guilt? But is dis only guilt or dere is some other emotin also which I m not able to realize yet?