he pulled her more into him.. and she clutched his shirt...their lips were just inches apart...
and they both came out of their trance when the hall was echoed with the claps...
she opened her eyes immediately.. and looked at him.. and he loosened his grip...
Everybody came on the floor and clapped for them..
but they were not able to meet each other's gaze...
she was panting... and his hands were cold...
everyone praised their dance and RaNtara just tried to avoid each other..
after a while some ladies dragged antara.. as there was a game round of ladies only..
so almost all guys joined each other for refreshment..
all ladies gathered in a place.. and there were 10 questions for everyone.. any one could ask the question..which they had to answer and once they joined they can't back out...
though rantara was trying to avoid each other still their eyes were looking for the same..
when raghu saw antara going with ladies.. he was little bit tensed as he din't want anything to happen which might hurt her.. Ladies r always like that..
they won't think before asking. ...and if she played this stupid game and they said anything about me n her.. she might feel hurt.. oh! god! she was right we shouldn't hv come here..
he was lost in her thoughts he saw antara standing in centre of all ladies on a stage..(on a little hight)..
she was looking quite nervous..
because some ladies forced her to play too..
raghu excused himself and came near them.. but he was standing outside.. making sure she can't see him..
Q 1: whom with u come in this party..ur boyfriend or husband
my husband..
Q 2: ur marriage.. is it love or arranged...
arranged
"haan arrange hi to hai.." raghu thought..
then rahul's wife snatched mike from them.. "what stupid questions u're asking.. these question u can ask in general talks.. we have got a chance to drill her now.."
Q3: where di u go on ur honeymoon..
antara's heart was beating fast so was raghu's..
we din't go.. we both had some work.. n my colg was started..
haaaaawwww!!!! echoed... rantara was dying with embarrassment
Q4: what was his first gift to u and when..
is it one question or two?
one darling... and she giggled..
it was bangles he gave me when i cooked for first time..
Q5: how much do u love him..
Raghu was listening to their questions n he wanted to kill that lady for asking such questions.. why r they torturing her.. but still he looked at antara waiting for her answer..
A lot.. A lot more than anything.. .[pause for a moment..] A lot more than i can explain.. A lot more than he can ever know.. A lot more than you can believe...
and a cold breeze touched his face and a shiver ran through his spine..
Antara??... he whispered..antara couldn't hear him.. his trance was broken with the next question..n he could see her moist eyes...
Q6: though ur marriage was arranged but did u guys did something.. u know something.. before marriage..
no.. she replied..
Q7: do u want ur husband to hear this convo...
doesn't matter.. he knows everything..
Aww...well he must not be knowing this
Q8: according to ur feelings, is he harsh some times or always soft.. raghu was hell shocked with the bombardment of their questions...
first antara din't get the double meaning in her question.. so she replied.. why would he be harsh with me..
he is always very loving and caring..
and everybody laughed which made her uneasy... and raghu lowered his head...he just wanted to grab the hand of his wife and wanted to take her away from these crazy women..
okay good.. though we meant how's he in bed with u...
and this make antara feel hell embarrassed..
Q9: rate ur first night on scale of 1 to 10
what kind of questions u're asking..
u can't back out.
but u forced me to play.. i din't want to..
no worries.. u hv to play...
10 she replied with frustration..some girls did whistling.. n there was this huge hooting in the hall..
raghu was feeling so embarrassed and guilty..
u were in home or it was arranged some where else..
she took a deep breath.. home...
ok next question.. rate ur first kiss on scale of 1 to 10.. and giggled..
u hv already asked 10 questions..
but we din't..
she just did asked last one...
and she stepped down..
raghu saw her walking towards the dark.. she reached in the end.. none of them was feeling good.. and she..??.. definitely not..
after a while she came back.. all ladies joined for refreshment.. some of them were with their husbands.. and some of them were in the ladies group...
antara din't know that raghu was present there at the time of those questions.. I hadn't seen him after the dance.. I'll just meet him once.. so he won't feel that i am rude to him..
n it wasn't his mistake.. these guys..but it's neither their mistake..
oh! god! why did we came here.. she was in her thoughts when raghu came there and asked her if she is okay...
yeah!!.. yeah!! m fine.. u??
u had something..??
huh!! no.. i was waiting for u..
oh! m sorry.. that game round took lot of time.. but u could hv something..
no.. actually now i am used to of u serving food for me.. he smiled.. so she did...
she can't resist smiling back whenever he smiles.. even though she is not in a good mood...
raghu felt relieved seeing her smiling back... though he knew it was fake.. he wanted to make her feel better..
okay.. u just wait here.. i'll bring u something..
i'll come with u..he din't want to leave her alone..
but she wanted to stay alone for a while..
she got some food and salad for him...
good choice...raghu always likes whatever she gets for him..
he already got a table so they sat there..
where is urs?
no, m not hungry...
r u on dieting?
huh!! i don't need that...
oh! is it so? since when?
i think even u don't want to hv urs...she gave an angry look to him.. and he started eating his food.. and she chuckled...
plz have some.. i know u must be hungry... he asked her..
umhmm... she nodded in no..
wait! i'll get u something.. he got up..but she held his hand... and made him sit..
no it's ok..
u're okay..??.yeah!! she nodded in yes...
he took a bite from his plate and offered her.. hv some...
she looked at him.. her eyes were moist.. and she was trying hard to hide her tears...
he could see that.. but he din't ask her.. he din't want to make her feel uncomfortable..
she held his hand.. and he made her eat that bite..
he took another one.. and fed her..
he took one more.. and she chuckled.. so did he...
its okay.. i'll take it myself..
allow me.. and he fed her again... she wanted to hug him and cry but she couldn't.. ..
she knew if she will talk to him.he will always be there for her.. but she din't want to show that she is upset...
"ab aap to kha lo.." she said.. so he had some..
this was the first time that they shared their food from same plate...which no one noticed...
suddenly some of raghu's friends and their wives joined them... obviously without asking.. "Awww.. so love birds are here..."
and they both cursed them in their minds...
RaNtara smiled weakly.. and they all grabbed their chairs and sat with them..
they all talked about party, office, home..raghu noticed that antara wasn't feeling comfortable with them...
so he excused himself and said.. "guys, we are leaving now.. "
why yaar??
it's very late now.. and tomorrow she has college..and she needs to leave in quite early..
but its not that late yaar...
but yaar she is not feeling well too.. we have to leave now...
not well..?? she wasn't comfortable in hall too.. she is not eating much food..is there any good news..?? one lady asked to tease them..
what?? raghu looked at her in shocked.. how the hell they get such crap ideas..or today they are in full mood to tease us..
but he had to behave normally..
suddenly one of his friend patted.. (hit actually) on his back..
"bataya nahi yaar tune..."
guys plz.. its nothing like that... he looked at antara.. she was sitting with her eyes fixed on the her knees...
its okay.. but what's ur plan for babies..
umm.. not now.. he replied.. he grabbed antara's hand under the table and pressed it softly...
exactly.. u're newly married.. u should enjoy it..
when some of his friends left from there to get some drinks.. they asked raghu to join.. but he denied.. he wanted to be with antara only...
and now ladies got more chance to drill them...
do u know what questions ur wife answered today.. we got to know some secrets of urs...
n let me give u a tip.. u can be harsh some times... she gave a high five to another lady...and rantara lowered their gaze...
btw raghu.. ur wife scaled ur first night as 10 on 10.. what did u do that she liked it that much...
antara looked at them in shock.. she din't want him to know this.. esp bcz she answered in frustration..
raghu was damn angry by now..he felt her trembling hands in his...
this time he could't control him self... well.. u're also married.. probably u must be knowing what happens on first night..??..
u must have experienced it.. or haven't u? he raised his one brow and asked her.. that lady looked at him in shock..she sensed some anger in his answer..
i din't mean that.. i only asked that..
well..i think that u should ask this to ur husband... or u want to know it so badly.. so that u can scale ur first night...
or probably ur husband was harsh on first night itself...m sure he could be..he said that he likes it that way only...
another lady chocked off her drink this time.. and the one who asked that question was in way to shock.. so did antara...
Antara looked at raghu... she wanted to hug him immediately...
raghu grabbed her hand.. and got up...
he took her with him and came out of the hall...
he asked her to wait for a minute and met with host...
we are leaving...
why sir..?
he looked at antara and said my wife is not feeling well.. so we gotta go..
oh! m sorry.. can i plz know ur couple number.. he returned both tokens and she gave him those cards they wrote their msg for each other..
he din't open and said thanks to her.. he came out.. grabbed antara's hand and left to get his car from parking...
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they reached home.. their drive was silent.. once they reached home..
they changed their clothes.. antara asked him if he needs anything..
she got some warm milk for both and came in room and forwarded the glass to him.. he drank it in one go..
he wanted to talk to her.. but he wasn't able to start...
but antara started..: you shouldn't have spoke to her like that.. it was very rude..
and what was she doing...
they don't know anything about us..
still there should be some decency while u're sitting in a group.. she has no right to ask u to rate our first night or first kiss..
it's none of her business...doesn't she know how to talk a guy in front of his wife...
she was so desperate to know what did i do.. why the hell i show my manners when she din't had any...
i know it was wrong.. but now it will affect ur relation with your friend too...
i don't care.. who is she to question about our personal life.. and why the hell u were answering to their questions...
i din't want to...
so u should hv just told me... i really wanna kill her.. seriously...
who the hell is she to ask whether we went for our honeymoon.. its our life.. our marriage.. our first night.. our kiss...
antara looked at him in shock... how do u...???
and then he realised that what he just said in his anger.. thing he had to hide from her.. he spit it out...
he closed his eyes.. tell me.. she asked...
he brushed his hairs with his hand.. "i was there..." she was about to say something.. when he held her hand..
m sorry... i din't want to.. i only wanted to keep an eye on u that if they tease u... so i can just...
u heard whatever they asked me... he nodded in yes..
that's why u were angry at her...hmmm...
u shouldn't have to... she got up and went into the kitchen...he ran after her...
antara i m sorry...listen to me...
u know what.. when u yelled at that women.. i literally wanted to hug u.. and wanted to tell u..
how much happy i was that u unknowingly taught her a lesson.. which i couldn't...
but... i never wanted u to know about whatever they asked me...
she left from there and walked into their room..
but they were right.. weren't they?? he said while standing near the kitchen..
she turned back and looked at him...
they were right... every girl needs all these things in her life..she always wants that..
u must be having some dreams for ur life...
what do u wanna say?? she asked.. he also came in room...
u din't want to get married.. because u never trusted any one.. but what if u could find some one u trusted.. then u could have married him..
so u must be having some dreams.. some desires..
u know what's imp for me.. and yes i trusted u.. n that's why we married.. u know that..
yes i know.. but some where i feel guilty..
we should't have go to that party...she said and nodded in no.. and tried to walk towards their bed...but he stopped her..
it's good that we went there...
so i know how much wrong i was.. how wrong i did with u... i have almost ruined ur life...
i wasn't able to trust a girl or anyone's love... so i just asked u to marry me..
she tried hard but this time she could't control and her eyes got teary..she was already controlling them for hours..
i din't think for once that u could have some expectations from this marriage.. u could need a husband's love...
n u agreed because i was ur friend.. i din't give u a chance to say ur points...
u were always a good wife.. a best friend.. but i could't do justice with u...
she wiped her tears..what kind of justice u're talking about... what don't we have in this marriage...
we are best friends.. we share each other problems.. we are comfortable with each other..
what else is required...
i know.. this marriage has given me a lot...a lot more than i asked for... i was no more alone..
but today i realised that there is void left in u..n i couldn't fill that.. even his eyes was wet now...
i couldn't do that what ever u did for me...
it's nothing like that.. m very happy with u... very happy... i don't need anything from my life...she held him from his shoulder and cried...
he sat on the bed and held his head in his hands... he was very upset...
its all about physical relation.. isn't it..?
what..?? he looked at her.. NO..!!
then???
for god sake.. WHAT ELSE IS NOT IN OUR RELATION...
i heard u antara... i did...
what???
u said there that u love me...u said that u love me more than i can ever know...
her face was blank for a while.. but she composed herself immediately.. she sat on carpet near him.. "yes!! that's true.. and we both love each other... "
its their wish if they want to see this love as friend's love or a couples'...
i know.. and antara we agree it or not.. but it's a fact and i am realising it now... whatever happened today would happen in future too..
u're a women.. no one will question me but u... we both don't know if we will ever be able to love each other..
she felt a sharp pain in her heart hearing him...
but after some time when people will ask.. even when your or my family will ask about our future.. our kids.. what will we say...
n i can't tolerate anyone pointing a finger on u...
she held his leg for support and cried.. it will not happen.. n i don't blame u at all.. we are happy.. we are very happy.. and u know that..
why are we discussing this??...
he held her from her shoulder and lifted her.. and made her sit beside him on the bed... he made her look in his eyes...
today i saw u... i saw u feeling embarrassed while answering to their question.. i know u din't even understand when they asked about me being harsh or not...
her tears rolled down from her eyes...i felt so helpless at that time... that why can't i just punch on her face...
he wiped those tears rolling on her soft cheeks... which again flow down once he wiped...
even if i did that.. but i can't be with u every time.. n u might face such situations many times... i can't see u suffer like that... it hurts me too...
he took her in his embrace... so what do u wanna do?? she said softly with breaking voice...he held her head and pressed her in him...
she clutched his shirt from behind.. he felt her tears on his chest..
Antara i feel guilt in me.. whatever u say but i am not a guy u could have been looking for u..
i know some where i have hurt u a lot.. i can't give u anything..
what are u talking about.. u know we don't need anything...
her cries has turned into sobs... he pulled her out softly and cupped her face...
she looked in his eyes...he was upset.. a lot more than she was...
antara... he fixed his gaze on her face... and wiped her tears with his thumbs...
if u want to make a new start of ur life.. u're free... she looked at him with confusion.. but soon her brows frown as she understood him...
i don't want to keep u here with some fake relation...
and where am is supposed to go...she asked him in a low voice..
anywhere.. anywhere u want to go...
u can get some one who is a lot better than me.. who will care about you.. your happiness.. not just his unlike me...
a partner.. who can love u as his wife... with whom u won't feel hurt when people will discuss your relation...
she removed his hands and asked him holding his hands in here's...
n u will be happy seeing me with some one else...
if u'll.. so will i...
she got up from the bed and left his hand... you are right.. you never understood me.. u never understood my feelings...
and now i know one thing.. that at least for u.. this marriage is fake...
i din't mean that...i just...
i know what you just... you just shouldn't have said all this... yes you have hurt me a lot... man bhar gaya aapka mujhse...
she got up and walked towards her side of bed...
she took out those cards from her bag..and gave one to him...read this.. she said softly..
he opened and it was written...
"I'll always be there for you.. no matter what..." - Antara.
and is it really what you asked me.. she showed him the card he wrote.. "Please Always Be With Me...I need You."- Raghu
good night..she walked back to her side and slipped in her duvet..
he cursed himself.. he couldn't dare to sleep beside her... he got up and walked towards balcony...
he stood there for a while..
neither antara was able to sleep.. she though raghu has slept.. she got up and without checking him.. she ran in bathroom..
she leaned on the door and cried her heart out...
he wants me to leave..?? she sat on the floor and covered her mouth with hand so that her voice won't go out of the bathroom...
its been a while.. raghu thought if antara has slept.. he came back in room and saw empty bed..
he got worried.. he checked if she went out.. and then he heard her sobs...
he leaned on the door of bathroom and knocked the door slowly...
"Antara.. ?" she din't hear him...
he felt that she was leaning on the door too...he knocked again..
antara.. plz open the door... Antara...
h.. haan??? she got scared..she din't want him to know that she was inside...
his heart bled hearing her voice... and a lone tear escaped from his eyes...
he composed himself...he still couldn't understand his feelings for her...
Antara open the door...
hmm.. 1 min...
she washed her face and looked her eyes in mirror..they were all red...she washed her face again.. but it din't help.. and tears rolled on her cheek again...
she wiped them again.. and they again flew from her eyes...
she again washed her face as she heard his voice again... she immediately wiped with towel..
and opened the door..and came out...
raghu looked at her.. she must have cried a lot...
"aap soye nahi..."
no.. i was just standing in balcony...
hmm.. good night...
and she slept on her side... he din't ask her anything.. he knew if he will.. he will hurt her.. again...
he came on his side of bed.. and looked at her face.. she was trying hard to show as if she is sleeping peacefully...
he kept staring at her face.. and soon he too dozed off...
Precap: Jaan Le Meri Jaan... Meri Jaan Hai Tu...
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