Originally posted by: priya1808
Its been a week today. I havent posted on this website in years but today I need to.
Can I confess I would not call myself a fan of Sushant though I watched all his movies, enjoyed them and liked his peformances... I just never thought much of him and now I feel that was due to the media...they didn't mention him enough for him to pop up in my mind. Whereas someone like a Ranbir, Ranveer pops up in mind straight away.
Even though I wasn't quite a "fan" who kept tabs on him, his work, his life... I have been deeply affected by the tragic demise... I have not stopped thinking about him since I heard the news... I feel somewhat responsible for not appreciating him enough inspite of enjoying his movies and his acting. I'm really glad I've seen a number of his films in cinemas right from Kai Po Che. I even watched him in KDMHMD though I was a kid back then. That makes me feel little less guilty. Years ago when KwK was going on, I had noticed bollywood kept mocking him and I did not like that. I told my parents, why do they keep being mean to him. Little did I know, these things had such a grave impact on him.
The question of why just keeps popping up. And now, there are doubts about whether it was suicide or murder. I don't know whats better or worse. The fact is, he left.
No other celebrity death has had such an impact on me and I keep wondering why this is affecting me so much. The more I read, the more his loss feels personal. I really hope and pray the investigation is unbiased and justice prevails.
Within the last week, I have to admit I have become a fan of him in its true meaning...a little too late. What a kind, noble and genuinely relatable person he was. How charming he was. I wish I had admired him like this a little earlier.
As a result of this incident, I have personally decided to not watch KWK again as it promotes bitching, bullying and being mean is "cool". I have decided I will always be mindful of what I say and consider the impact it can have on someone else. I will be careful when I make jokes with friends as sometimes we end up being a little bit on the meaner side because we love our friends and feel like we have the right and its a joke so our friend wont feel bad. But the fact is, you dont know what impact your words have on somone. Further, I don't think I can put a ban on nepokids altogether because there are some who I think are talented and I like their acting. But what I will do now is separate actors from stars. And the movies I watch will be of actors I like, not stars I know of.
Oh and to not get influenced by the media, its best to stay away from these entertainment news portals that are paid to publish articles which end up influencing me subconsciously.
Wherever you are Sushant, I pray you find peace.
Such was your talent, that you are earning fans after your departure.
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