❤️Loved everything about this dream! ❤️
Todays episode was quite a contrast from yesterdays scenario between Akshara and Abhimanyu.
They are having a hard time reconciling their own thoughts and actions. They are Hurt physically, emotionally and mentally they have tortured each other more than enough. Now they are gearing up to torture themselves.
Akshara is an expert at torturing herself. She has been doing it to herself since her step mom’s death, by always letting go of her own needs, desires, wishes she has a Phd in self inflicting. The pattern of Akshara that comes through is - more bubbly appears the more pain she has endured. probably crushed another of her own dreams for the sake of her sister or family. And the more you see her with her guitar you know that she just lost another of her hope to someones else’s wishes.
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But for Abhimanyu this feeling is new. He is the go getter and failure is not something he truly understood. His focus and his stubborn nature makes sure that he gets what he wants. Once he decided on a goal he knows how to work hard to achieve it. He is a control freak who also he knows when to control himself and his emotions so that he can achieve what he wants.
His determination and focus is so strong that he never falters once a decision is made. He does not drink or smoke, or any other bad habits. He loves his family but does not believe in marriages and has no interest in casual relationships.
In all these 30+ years of age, Akshara is the first girl he liked and is attracted to her in an instant and his feelings for her are so intense that he finds himself out of control for the first time. Once he decided he does not know how to step back from his fiery emotions.
But Akshar’s love for her sister is foremost. Her step mothers promise is the principle she lives by. And her sister wants to marry the person she loves thus she sacrifices her desires for her sister.
Dear Akshara, is Abhimanyu a silk scarf that you can give to your sister and when she will not want it anymore you will pick it?
Abhimanyu finally got the picture of how self deprecating Akshara is but he is still not asking the real questions he needs to ask.
He tells Neil that Akshara haar maan chuki hai!
doesn't he wonder why? Whys didn’t she speak up in front of the family at tilak?
Why does she constantly refuse his love?
When did they have a normal conversation.
hospital- Birthday party - ruby molestation- fire camp - music therapy.
they never had a proper conversation then he proposed Aarohi.
That is the end of any converation for Akshara.
She may love this man with every breath of her life but she will never tell him that. [If i was in her place just letting you know I would do the same]
She will be as normal as can be since he is going to marry her sister but he will not be given any part of her pain or emotional baggage]
But she cannot control her longing and her nature that wants him to be happy and safe.
BUT
Shouldn't she give a good explanation of refusing the most eligible Marwari, surgeon owner of their own hospital. And the man who loves with all of his complete being and she knows it. Even after rejections, he could not stop caring for her.
Suddenly in complete madness goes and asks for her sister.
Forced her to dance at their engagement. He almost broke her resolve but she is a tough bean, and she remembers that you just got engaged to her younger sister.
She even after all of this was the one to take care of his injury.
And gave him a good dose of sarcasm along with first aid.
Yet, all Abhi has understood is that she loves him but she has given up on their love. Is he in his right mind? Cant you see the sibling issue dear Surgeon?
You went to her house and proposed to her sister. What do you expect from her?
Keep dreaming Hot to hottest dreams my boi but if you don’t trace back your steps and look within your self you will never understand Akshara.
You maybe destined to be together but you need to learn your lessons before she enters your life.
Why did you propose to Aarohi- if it had been any other girl she would have been yours by now.
Why did she reject you in front of your family.
Why did she organize your birthday party
Why did she save you from ruby case.
The fire camp- who saved you?
Who prayed for your mom?
Who send the hibiscus oil?
All the hints and cues are in front of you.
Just like Mimi said… everything is in front of your eyes but you refuse to look for them and so they are buried under lies.
Akshara has no one to share her deepest feelings She does not trust anyone.
Kairav has suddenly woken uo from his slumber but to what affect. He is like a little brother who will again keep quiet coz Ak told him so.
On the other side Neil is full on in a combative mode. He wants the best for his brother and he know thats not Aarohi.
Abhimanyu, blaming akshara is incorrect.
She is a girl who does not share her emotions with anyone. And if you have the courage to fall in love with such a girl then give some efforts to know her. knock her, shake her, wait for her to trust your and respond.
Blowing hot and blowing cold then proposed his sister and blames her for not wanting to fight- makes no sense.
you want her to fight whom... her sister? And you think you will respect the girl who will ditch her sister for you?
She is a fighter and that is why she is still able to stand in front of everyone in spite of being alone. She told you she does not have a mother. But you have conveniently forgotten.
You have still not become the man who deserves Akshara and so you are struck with Aarohi.
At this point keeping fingers crossed that Neil will find something thats buried right infront of your eyes.
But boi, you need to talk to Ak alone, in a private place. Because she is not used to showing her scars to anyone. She is not used to express her feeling, her fears, her weaknesses. but remember the more hurt she is the more she smiles.
You don’t know but she invented a game of bursting balloons party for the family to make everyone relieve their sadness and made everyone smile.
So moving-
Abhimanyu behaviour with Ak and how Akshara response to his actions.
He again pulled an immature stunt. Durr rehna hai na?!? So ignore ignore khelte hai.
Log doctor -doctor khelte hai. Normal-Normal boring hai... so well, invisible n ignore.....
So now he will treat her worse than how he behaves with Aarohi.
Because I don’t remember him acting as if he can’t see her.
Is this message to the society that a mature surgeon when he is rejected in love by the lady multiple times she ceases to exist. That is his coping techniques. He is a doctor he better check himself with the in-house psychiatrist.
This is the reason people need to date a couple of times so they know how to behave in front of the opposite gender. A surgeon can be so immature I will never believe. Let this be only in this fiction.
She is a colleague who works in the same hospital. So if she is working with a patient and he enters he is suppose to greet her. thats etiquette to greet them.
Has everyone who agrees with a 30+ yrs old cardiac surgeon and clapping at his behavior with Ak think this is called normal behavior?
To acknowledge her and move on is normal- like he behaves with Aarohi?
His private confessions are always cute-
Tum nahi hoti ho, phir thi har jagah dikhayi deti ho.
And today she was in front of him yet he pretended that she wasn’t present. [not manly at all]
It hurt both of them.
And to feel closer they imitated each other.
She ate kaju katli [very unhealthy] while he drank methi dana [very very healthy].
And finally the methi dana did its work and he understood Akshara little better. 😆
Aaj se mera dard sirf mera hai. I will die but I will never let you see my tears.
Abhimanyu that is Akshara’s life that you just summarized in two lines.
I know today my review is an unpopular one. Most ppl are happy with how Abhimanyu treated Ak. But As you have read I like people to be in control. Unleashed is not for all situations.
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