I wasn't going to post anything but GanBarunFan coerced me into writing another sappy post and I am so happy she made me because now I am listening to some old blues music and loving it! Thanks Gan!
Walls and Windows
"Every healthy marriage is composed of walls and windows. The windows are the aspects of your relationship that are open to the world"that is, the necessary gaps through which you interact with family and friends; the walls are the barriers of trust behind which you guard the most intimate secrets of your marriage."
Elizabeth Gilbert
It is true that a little knowledge is a dangerous thing, just one look at Raman and this saying rings loud in our ears and minds. Raman knows half the truth' perceived by him clouded by his past. It was a pleasure to see him fighting a battle between his heart and his mind. Reminds me of the time when he proudly prophesied to Ishita, 'When people fall in love, only the heart works and the rest of the organs fail'. How true and Raman being the prime example of the very idea that he prophesied. His mind knows that Ishita won't and can't cheat him but his heart having been bruised thinks otherwise. Puttar is in love and only listening to his heart, and our hearts don't always play fair! Raman is a product of his past but he doesn't have to be a prisoner of his past and I hope after this track we will see Raman finally heal and truly move on from his horrendous past.
What a beautiful way of depicting Raman being in the dark going through turmoil by shooting his monologue in the darkness of the night talking to his sleeping wife. Both in darkness not knowing where the other stands, both wanting to talk to each other but the ever lasting deafening silence of the night takes over. That entire scene reminded of the song Sawali si Raat from the movie Barfi.
Saawli si raat ho
khamoshi ka saath ho,
bin kahe bin sune, baat ho teri meri
neend jab ho laapata, udasiyan zara hata
khwabon ki razai mein, raat ho teri meri..
there be a slightly dark complexioned night,
and there be closeness of silence,
without saying, without hearing, there be talk between us..
when the night is lost, remove the sadness,
may there be a night of yours n mine in the blanket of dreams..
A husband so desperately wanting to take his wife in the blanket of his dreams, his dreams where there is no doubt, there isn't an ex playing the devil, there isn't a best friend making him feel little. There is a wife who is only his, his sole possession.
Even in his reality he wants to wake up his wife to ask or rather demand her to clear all his doubts. He believes that she can't cheat him but he wants to hear it from her mouth. His faith so strong on his wife that he asks his wife to get up and shut everyone up. He says, Utho Ishita aur sabko jawab de do, tum meri Ishita ho'. A husband knowing that his ex is playing games with his mind because he is till a prisoner of his past.
I still see progress in Raman and Ishita, Raman now accepts and wants Ishita to profess that she is his, he wants to be the only man in her life, he wants them to progress in their relationship. Ishita on the other hand has already accepted him as hers, she already knows Raavan is hers, and she must protect him at all costs. But as the saying goes, you reap what you sow. Ishra are reaping jealously, doubt and hurt because they never sowed communication.
If we were in a musical I would imagine Raman's character singing Stand by Me by Ben E. King.
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
Ishita and Raman's marriage has it's walls and windows the problem is that rather than building the walls around their marriage they have build the walls around themselves exposing the intimacies of their marriage for the world to see. I hope they crumble those walls and start anew!
Anupamaa
