PART 12:
Khushi sat dazed, her mind going over the events that had occurred in this very room barely an hour ago. It just couldn't be, that after all this waiting...after all the hope she had carried in her heart, she would be subjected to hearing such ...words...from Dia no less! She had just finished chatting with Dadi and was on her way back from the bathroom when Dia walked into the house. She had been stunned to say the least. Her eyes darted from an apprehensive looking Dia to the other occupants in the living room. Dadi, Arnav, Anjali... quietly, she turned and headed up to her room...
Dia walked over to the far side of the room and stood, watching Khushi warily. She had expected Khushi to start railing at her as soon as she spotted her, but a calm Khushi, she didn't understand. And that scared her even more. Or was this the calm before the storm? Either way, her sister gingerly made her way to the bed and sat down, clasping her hands in her lap. Her full attention turned on Dia. It seemed the way to go was to try tears.
"Explain," was all Khushi said.
"I...woh...Didi," Dia stammered, looking like she was about to cry, "It's not what you think."
"Really Dia?" she asked softly, "And what do I think?"
"Didi please...just hear me out."
"I'm all ears," Khushi said, her expression unsettlingly unreadable.
Dia looked at her sister. This Khushi, she did not recognize. Her eyes were steady and her demeanor very still. She sighed heavily. This was not going to be any easier than she had anticipated. She gave up trying tears.
"Look Didi, I know you're hurt and I have let you down. But all of this happened so fast and even I barely had time to catch my breath."
Khushi raised an imperious brow, "So in the last week I have been trying to reach you...the last week I have been in Mumbai waiting for you to show up and explain yourself, you're telling me it was all too fast?"
Dia looked annoyed, "You know how you get when you're upset. Your righteous anger doesn't let you see in front of yourself and arguing with you is a drag."
"How stupid do you think I am Dia? How long have you been carrying on this charade?"
"It is not a charade Didi. There is no pretense between Arnav and myself. We both know what we're getting into..."
"Do you, Dia? Do you really know what you're getting into? A life time of tolerating each other in close quarters? From what I have seen so far you're not even proud to be with him. If you ask me, I think you're in over your head and you're just too arrogant to even admit it!" Khushi was up from the bed now, "What would your parents say? That I didn't teach you anything? Is this how you repay all the sacrifices I made for you? The trust I gave you? You go and attach yourself to the highest bidder?"
"Didi!" her face contorted in anger.
"Don't Didi me!" Khushi snapped, "I thought Payal would be the one to do something this stupid, but you? I trusted that you at least had a good head on your shoulders..."
"O wake up Didi!" Dia cut her off, shocking Khushi into silence, "What do you think? That everyone is content to live in a village, chase around goats and mow fields every other day? Well I made up my mind that that would never be me. Never! If you want to do that with Nahar bhai that's your decision. But you will not make that decision for me. I'm after what he can give me and he needs a woman to bear him children, and that's where you..." she paused mid-sentence, her eyes widening as though she realized she was going too far, "...well...," she said, her demeanor becoming a little guarded, "Look Didi, if not me, then some other woman will do it, so why not me? You're the one who's in over your head Didi. You think cutting it close with the mortgage on the haveli is my idea of fun?"
"What?" Khushi paled, as she watched her sister metamorphose into the stranger she perceived she had become.
"Oh yes," she said, "Payal and I have known about it for months now. We also know about the sick bank manager who tried to force you when you went to ask for an extension. Tell me, what would you have done if the Rathores hadn't showed up?" At Khushi's still stunned face, she continued, taking bold steps toward her sister, "Exactly. You would have had to start selling stuff or worse, move us out of that rambling pile of rubble!"
The cracking sound of skin on skin sliced the room. Dia found herself sprawled on the floor, momentarily stunned. Blood seeped from her mouth. Surprised from the stinging slap, she touched her cheek and came away with red stains on her palm. She looked at Khushi with shock.
"That pile of rubble...was your home for most of your life. The only sanctuary you had from the trials of life that threatened to swallow us up." Khushi said in a calm voice, looking at Dia as though she had really just seen her for the first time, "You move into this place and suddenly your h..." she paused, unable to say the words, "The place you grew up...is now a pile of rubble?"
She tiredly dragged herself to the bed and lowered her drained form ever so slowly into it, backing Dia who now sat on the floor, focused on the blood in her hands.
"To hear all this I had to come to Mumbai? You could have just told me on the phone. It would have been much easier to bear. I wouldn't have had to look in your face as you looked down on your own family...your own heritage. Thank God your parents aren't here to see what you've become," she continued softly, "It would have killed them. I will have to face them some day, but I still don't think I can explain this given a thousand years," a soft but bitter laugh escaped her as a lone tear slid down her left cheek, "You want wealth and position Dia? You want power? Go ahead then. Be Mrs Arnav Singh Raizada. But when it all comes down around your ears, don't say I didn't warn you."
Dia got to her feet, "Didi..."
"Get out," Khushi said softly, turning further away from her, "I think we've both said all that needs saying."
Dia stood indecisive for a few seconds, then deciding against pursuing the subject, turned and left the room after casting a sad look in Khushi's direction. As the door shut behind her, Khushi eased sideways and curled up on the bed, the tears flowing more freely as she remembered the venomous words Dia had spouted at her. Was it her fault for giving them this much freedom? So many questions...so they had known about the mortgage all along. It all started to make sense now. That was why Payal never stayed in Mumbai to do holiday jobs, preferring to come home to help her, Dia refusing to take money from her, insisting she needed it more back home.
A splitting head ache washed over her mercilessly as she thought how blind she must have been to have shrugged off the things Masi kept saying to her about how blind she was in her love for Dia. How could she forget so easily? How? Huge sobs she muffled in the folds of her blanket shook her body as she cried her heart out, trying to make sense of the fiasco that had happened.
...
Arnav looked up as Dia exited the room, blood stain smeared on her lip. Giving a surprised glance at the audience she saw watching her, she bowed her head and hurried up the stairs. He got to his feet in an attempt to follow her, having heard the raised voices and the slap that followed, as had Dadi and Anjali who it seemed was in her own world.
"Let her be Arnav," Dadi said softly, "No good can come of going after her."
He sighed heavily. He hated being caught between two women. You just could never win in that situation. He looked at Khushi's door, a hundred percent sure she was crying in there. His mind went back to his chat with Dia when he picked her up. He was not surprised that Khushi did not and would not understand why, but all this had to be done. He realized he had nothing she wanted, and her family was the only way to force her hand. She would get over her hurt and pain soon enough, but for now, she had to go through all this...for now...
He turned to go to his room and his gaze fell on his sister who had her hand pressed up against her lips, staring at nothing in particular. He sighed again.
"Didi, are you alright?" he asked.
"Mmm?" she seemed startled at the sound of his voice, then clearing her throat self consciously, "I'm fine. I was just think of... something."
So saying, she got up and left them, going up to her room in quick steps, leaving the rest looking after her in curiosity.
"Dadi did something happen?" he turned to ask, "What's wrong with her?"
"Khushi happened," Dadi said with a sad smile, "It seems Khushi felt the need to tell her some home truths after Anjali and her kitty friends tried to show her up. Apparently she seems to have gotten through to her about the state of her home and her marriage."
"Really?" Arnav asked, glancing again at Khushi's door. "Khushi did that?"
"Yes, really," Dadi said, giving him a knowing look.
He didn't get it and just turned and walked away. He needed to get out. Three emotional women was not his cup of tea.
...
It was dinner time and all three women, Anjali, Khushi and Dia were missing from the table. It seemed no one had much of an appetite and finally Dadi had had to send their food to their rooms. She took Khushi's food to her room.
Knocking softly, she called out before turning the knob, "Khushi beti. I'm coming in." What she found was no surprise. Khushi stood over her bag, packing.
"Dadi," she said, stepping away from the light in a bid to try to hide her puffy eyes.
"I brought you dinner since you didn't come out," she said, signaling Hari to put the tray down on the dressing table.
"I'm sorry Dadi but...I'm not hungry," she said, knowing it was no use pretending in front of the wizened old woman.
Dadi shook her head with a sad smile, "You youngsters just don't know how to fight anymore. You may fight with each other, but never with food. Now come sit down," Dadi picked up the tray and set it on her lap, motioning Khushi to come and sit beside her. Taking a spoonful, she held it up to Khushi who hesitated, before taking it, chewing very, very slowly on the rice and chicken curry.
The feeding ritual continued in silence for a bit longer before she finally stopped Dadi, shaking her head in refusal to eat more. Dadi nodded and set the tray away.
"You will leave us tomorrow?" she asked.
Khushi nodded slowly, "My work here is done. I have no reason to be here anymore."
"Don't be so sad Khushi. A choice has been made. Now the maker must live with the consequences."
"She shouldn't have to. You know they shouldn't be getting married Dadi...even you know it."
"Be that as it may, they are consenting adults. You just need to go back home, put this whole thing behind you and live happily with your Nahar. Theek?"
She shook her head, "I don't get it. She's more sensible than this...why?"
"It's a combination of things my dear, but you can't blame yourself for it."
Khushi shook her head as another persistent tear slid down her cheek and she swiped it away angrily.
"Come," Dadi scooted over and pulled her in to lay her head in her lap.
Khushi sighed at the familiar move she always employed to calm her younger cousins, "I miss my parents so much right now."
"Yes, it is only natural. Try to relax yourself will you? You have a long journey tomorrow and no way are you going to cry yourself to sleep. Okay?"
Khushi smiled, a tired smile against Dadi's lap, relaxing at the soothing sensation of her head being gently massaged by Dadi. Being so drained of energy, it was not long before her eyes began to droop.
...
Anjali stood pacing her bedroom. Her mind kept playing back the words Khushi had boldly uttered during their confrontation. Did she know something that she didn't quite say plainly? Sometimes she felt her husband's late hours were for that very reason but she could not afford to accuse him because she really had no proof. He used to fight with her a lot about her parties and friends and things but over the last few months, he had just stopped all together. She thought it was because she had finally gotten him to stop objectifying her and asking her to be the traditional bahu, but on hindsight? He had stopped caring...that was what happened and she had just been too blind to recognize it.
Had she already lost her husband to another woman? She remembered his defensiveness when she had asked why he would be staying late. She had always just believed he wouldn't dare because he and her very powerful brother worked in the same building and any hanky panky would be immediately reported. But even Arnav seemed to have distanced himself from their fights and quarrels.
What have I done? What have I done, she asked herself repeatedly as she plopped down on her bed, staring unseeingly at the door through which her husband could walk in at any time. What was she to do? Confront him? Act like she didn't know? What?
Almost immediately, the door opened and the very object of her musings strolled in, but stopped short, seeing her sitting there looking dazed and confused. Shyam paused in the middle of tugging at his tie.
"Anjali?" he questioned with a deep frown as she continued to stare at him with wide eyes, "Anjali? What's the matter?"
"I..." the words just wouldn't form. Her mouth opened and closed with no sound exiting.
He came to stand over her, "What's the matter? Where is everyone?"
As he sat next to her, trying to get her to talk as she looked ready to lose it, she suddenly shook her head, taking his hand in hers as tears escaped her eyes.
"Anjali will you please just tell me what's going on?!" Shyam was now agitated, "Where's my mother?"
Anjali shook her head, "I did it...it was me wasn't it? I did this."
Confusion washed over him, "What? What are you talking about?"
Her hand came up to caress his face, confusing him even more, "I did this didn't I? It was all me."
"What...what did you do?" Shyam asked, looking at the door and wondering who he should call. His wife looked to be having a break down.
She shook her head turning away from him, "I should have listened. I should have," she said, wiping at her tears unceremoniously, "I really should have listened."
Shyam seemed to have given up, unsure what to make of his wife's strange behavior. "I'm calling your brother."
She however pulled him back down to the bed, shaking her head, "I'm fine...really. I'm...fine." So saying, she got up and headed into the bathroom without so much as a backward glance.
Shyam looked after her, bewildered. What in the world was going on with his wife?
ALL DONE!!!!
TBC...
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