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Ever since I read the LU this evening, I had been itching to watch this episode so much so that I couldn't concentrate on work. And now finally when I have seen it, I'm in a turmoil, should I laugh, cry or just be amazed. I think I'll go with the last option.
Less important scenes of the episode first (so that I can dedicate the rest of the post to the most important moments 😳)
Simmi - Rinki
Rinki is goofing around. Maybe with her Australia returned ex-boyfriend? Any which way, there's something supremely fishy about her, and I can't shrug off the feeling of distrust. I'm sad Simmi has recently been reduced to a side character. What happened to her being independent? Would have loved to see her struggling, and standing on her own feet 😊
ACP - Ishita
I get it Ishita is trying to get Ashok behind the bars, for any wrong doing that he might have committed, in order to help reduce Raman's guilt. But will it really reduce his guilt? (As Raman tells her later, it won't.) Besides I don't get it, why hasn't she been able to understand the creep yet. Why does she need to provoke him at all? She knows what sort of a cheapster Ashok Khanna is, she also knows to what extent he can go to destroy their happiness - The recent example being the entire bus incident. Her entire family was at stake, she lost her unborn child, yet she's again poking fingers in Ashok's work. Knowing the kind of man he is, it'd be stupid to assume he won't come back for this. Why can't she keep her involvement hidden, I don't understand. During the license track, when Raman had smeared cake on Ashok's face, she was the one asking him not to such things, because Ashok / Suraj would come back and take revenge. She seems to have forgotten her own advice here.
However, I kind of do get why she wants to get him punished anyhow - because she does not want to see Raman in pain. But then, going by the past track record, she could have taken some other route to accomplish this. I'd rather see her punish Ashok with this much desperation as a mother who has just lost her child first, and then as a wife whose husband is hurting.
I don't know, maybe I still don't connect with her because she's shown no emotions whatsoever with respect to her miscarriage. More on this, in the later part.
Suraj - Ashok - Raman
As someone mentioned in the LU, Suraj is Ashok's mother 😆 Ashok is the creep who believes in creating spectacles (and falls flat sometimes because of them). Suraj, however villainous, believes in doing things from behind the back. Also, he's very much concerned about their image and their business, which Ashok seems to discard. He still has some sense, and tries to stop from creating a scene, but Ashok is so much in love with Raman that he just can't help himself 😆 😆
Anyway a lot of people seem to be pissed off at Raman. Why does he still get affected by Ashok? Why can't he let go and move on? And so on and so forth.
I kind of get where he's coming from. The kind of pain that Shagun and Ashok have given Raman is of an unprecedented level. The wounds heal, but the scars always remain, however faint they may be. And to be honest, Raman has always believed this man to be the source of change in Shagun. That doesn't discard the fact that Shagun was so shallow that she got lured by Ashok, but for Raman, Ashok's to be blamed first, and then her. For him, Ashok is the man who ruined his happiness, and broke his family apart, and he could not save it. Now he is back in a happy place again, but Ashok refuses to change. Right now, Raman is worried and hurt. Ashok's questioning Raman's manhood hits a raw nerve again, because (1) he himself is already feeling guilty, (2) he is a hot-headed man with an ego, (3) his capability as the protector of his family is being doubted upon, and (4) his wife has been named as an infertile, incomplete woman once again.
Years ago, when Ashok broke his marriage, Raman could not protect his family. Now again, Ashok has raised the same question, although with a different context. Add it to the fact that he was already lamenting over the loss of his unborn kid, feeling guilty for not being able to protect his wife, grieving over her becoming incomplete again, and taken aback by her non-reaction.
How does a person feeling so much, not get affected by his arch enemy's words on his personal life?
Raman - Ishita
RAMAN KUMAR BHALLA:
Here is a man, a father who has just lost his unborn child, and, a husband whose wife's biggest miracle of her life has been snatched away. Unable to understand what happened and why, he is just lost, drowning in his guilt, trying to cope up with this pain.
When another woman as his wife had huge dreams about her life, which he was unable to fulfil, she left him, leaving him broken and angry, and took his child with him, his first-born.
Years later, he found his soul-mate in this wonderful woman, the perfect wife and the most amazing mother. She was about to experience the miracle of her life, but his past intervened, claiming the life of his unborn. Once again, his wife's dreams shattered, and destiny took his child with itself, this time, never to return it back. With his track record, he has never had pure happiness without a bigger demon overlooking his shoulder.
He feels like a broken man today, a defeated husband, and a failed father, taking the blame upon himself. Had he reached 2 minutes ago, his wife wouldn't have had to risk her life, his kid wouldn't have had to die, and the circle of these vicious thoughts refuses to leave his being.
He's an angry man, angry at GOD, for punishing him all his life, and more so for punishing HER for his faults. Earlier when people taunted her, he used to get mad, but it was an accepted truth, hence couldn't do much about it, despite it paining both of them. But now, after increased hopes, after having experienced the presence of their baby inside her womb, born out of their very own love, how could he go back to the same truth again, when it stands void. She COULD become a mother, she was ABOUT TO become a mother, until she was not. Her non-reaction to this loss, her strength, her acceptance of the situation, her moving on so non-chalantly - he's unable to grasp the immensity of it all.
So he questions GOD. Questions HIM about his wife's happiness, about his child's happiness. He challenges HIM to fulfil all her dreams, which HE chooses to shatter. He begs HIM to give him the same strength that she has, or answer his questions.
He is a man, so irrevocably in love with his wife, that her acceptance of the adversity pierces through his heart, as if asking what is the pain threshold of this woman? How much has she endured in her life to remain this unaffected, even now? And this stings him so much so as to make him lose control over his surroundings.
ISHITA RAMAN BHALLA:
A woman who was termed as 'infertile' all her life experienced the first pangs of motherhood, only to give it all up to save her other children. She shows nerves of steel, reigns herself in and moves on.
Here she is, in acceptance with the loss of her unborn, witnessing her husband's plight, unable to comprehend his guilt. She was at the brink of losing her family, and her children with it, and there in hit the realization that she already has everything she ever wanted. She's absolutely content now.
But seeing him break apart like he did, question their relationship, finding himself unworthy of her love, is agony beyond imagination. Watching him question GOD for her, for their child, for them, is so painfully unbelievable, that she has to bring him back to his senses.
It hurts her to see him get hurt for her. Today she's seeing the flashes of the man she got married to, an exterior of iron, but vulnerable inside, and so much in pain that he submerges himself in alcohol, and loses his surroundings. He falls weak and snaps into pieces. Back then, she did not know him enough to either understand his anguish, or help him come out of it.
But today, she knows, and understands. Her husband needs her and her love the most. He needs to know the fact that he's her strength, he's her life. They have each other and that's never going to change. So she pulls her grit and holds him from breaking apart.
She reminds him of the husband he is, the man who loves her, the man who completes her, the man who makes her life whole even without their miracle baby. She makes him realize that they belong to each other and no one else. That good or bad, happy or sad, they're meant to be, and no matter what the situation is, they have to have each other's backs.
In those few moments, she's his mother, his friend, his lover, and his wife. She slaps him, hugs him, talks to him, kisses him, brings him back on his feet, and takes him back home, arm-in-arm.
IshRa
The intensity of their love is so strong that anyone who comes near them will get burnt. This is not the kind of love you would find in fairy-tales, or in romantic novels. This is the kind of love that is born out of pain, that hurts and heals at the same time. There are no words that could describe the vehemence with which these two love each other. Just being a spectator to this ferocity makes you go delirious.
DT & KP
I have said it enough times already that they set the screens on fire. The raw emotions of Raman and Ishita - pain, hurt, anger, helplessness - it jumped out of the screen, poked my heart, pinched my eyes and made me cry. If that is not the mark of a stupendous performance, I don't know what is.
And the chemistry, the less I say, the better it is.
P.S. I'm STILL unable to relate with Ishita's unconcerned, calm, cool and collected behaviour about the miscarriage. One lonely moment of grief is all I'm asking for, something which proves she was attached to the baby for her own self too, that proves she's fallible too. This makes it seem so unnatural, that when I watched this scene for the first time, I could not connect with her. But then, such is the magic of DT's acting, that it grew on me.
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