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Posted: 11 years ago

OK...guys...here is my post for tonight...

When I watched the episode...some of the things that Paro did and said...didn't make sense to me...and I was like...WHAT THE $&@#! Then I told myself...OK ...Sush, put your logical brain aside and think emotionally...and see where do you get to...and it made more sense...

So here goes...inside Paros head...continuing from yesterday,...

He said...he wanted to tell me something that will shake me...and when he did...I couldn't think any more...it was like my whole world was shattering...I felt this immense pain inside...had a feeling that my heart was sinking...Did I force this wedding on him? He never wanted it...in the first place...! How could I be so naive...to think that he would love me...the fact of the matter is...he tried very hard to not do it...and it was only under the pressure of losing his job that he did...Remember the wachans he gave,...I am such a fool...! A little voice said inside her...but he does...but that voice was soon overpowered by other thoughts...and she couldn't think any more...

At night...she sees Laila telling her...how could be so oblivious to the reality...All the signs are there...he gets flustered when he is around Laila...he is angry without reason...why? Why does she affect him so much? why does she matter? Fears about Rudy being all confused...Her worst fears are Coming true...why is he not saying anything? I don't doubt him...he is my husband... I only ask about Laila to put this past us...and start anew...But everything seems wrong...wakes up from her nightmare...goes out to get her husband but is stopped in her tracks...Laila is there caressing his hand...Oh...,This is unbearable!

In the morning...he comes...wants to talk to her...but she does not want to talk...she is upset...very upset...

But why am I upset? It happened in the past...before I met him? Why should it matter to him...to me...that Laila is around? He did say its OVER ...right? Why then? Why should I ask Laila to leave? Why? Any way I will be too irresponsible on my part to let her be on her own...with Thakurs men behind her...But this is just an excuse...I think Paro is doing this to prove a point to herself...to test the major...

This beautiful collage by UltimateRudra!

Challenges him...about the same...he is at a loss of words...There is nothing he can say...that will reassure her about her place in this relationship...Is it as make shift as her Make shift Manglasutra...or is there anything more?

She needs time...her blind trust in the inevitable nature of this relationship has been shaken...and as much as she says...it does not matter...It does, everything does...It's her hurt and her insecurity that are play...she wants to know for sure...and she will only know...if she puts them both through the test...

Coming back to add the beautiful collage and banner by Shweta!

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Posted: 11 years ago

One for Rudy's POV

Ok here goes...

I told her the truth...I didn't hide anything...

Why did I tell her? I don't know...I just couldn't NOT tell her...

She is very upset...she won't even talk to me...

And then she saw Laila with me...Jesus Christ ...why can Laila just go away?

How can I convince her that it NEVER meant anything...it DOESN'T mean anything now...

Why can't she believe me?

Now Bapusa is going all senior on me...

He is preaching me...about the importance of not hurting her...

Dont I know that?

What does he want? For me to hide something like this?

Why is he talking about me losing her...

OK...I am DONE with this...I am walking away...

Rudy by UltimateRudra!

I know what I have to do...

I need to throw Laila out ...

That's the only way...

Goes out says the same to Laila...

But wait...W*F? Why is Paro saying why I want her out?

Didn't I just tell her the who,e story? That too in front of Laila?

I need to talk to her alone...

OK...now she is asking if I care about Laila...

Didn't I just say I DON'T. ...why is she asking again?

Of course I don't care about Laila...

I care about Paro not crying...I can't bear it...

Tells her so...she moves away from his hand...

Says ...what right does she have to decide about Laila or about anything...

This is FRIGGIN INSANE! She makes no sense...!

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-Sush-

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Posted: 11 years ago

And one for the rest...

OK about the rest...

If there is one consistent character...in the show who seems to always keep her head...it's Maithli!

Totally love her!!

The way she talks to Arnie...oopsie Rudy and to Paro...is just so nice...LOVE IT!!

The little scene with Dilsher supporting Samrat was also nice! Am glad about that parallel track...

All collages are Lovely creations of UltmateRudra!!

And not having Mohini...calls for a treat ...Besan ke laddoo anyone?😆

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Hope

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Posted: 11 years ago

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Beautifully written, Sush. I loved how you showcased Paro's POV. Eagerly waiting to read your other posts.

When I watched the episode...some of the things that Paro did and said...didn't make sense to me...and I was like...WHAT THE $&@#! Then I told myself...OK ...Sush, put your logical brain aside and think emotionally...and see where do you get to...and it made more sense...

LOL, Now that makes two of us. You remember, I mentioned in my last post that I stopped thinking logical as then nothing makes sense. I am happy knowing I have company.😃

I totally loved today's episode and you want to know why ... there was no overdose of Laila 😛. It was well balanced episode. Ahhh! at last I was able to watch the whole episode peaceful 😆.

The dream sequence, served its purposes. It made us RRians go crazy the whole weekend predicting, dissecting and analyzing the whole scene. It also displayed Paro's insecurities. Rudra did tell her that he didn't love Laila. But like you said in your post and like Laila asked Paro in her dream. Why does Laila being around Rudra effect him? Why does he feel uncomfortable around her? All these questions raised because she was confused of her own place in his life. Wanted to know if is she is a no body too? If her existence means anything for him? If she means anything to him?

Rudra never said she means something to him or that she is important to him or at least didn't even acknowledge her as his wife in the right sense. Ya, he did call her his wife but never like he literally meant it. Her waking up with a jolt before Rudra answered just shows that she is not ready to let go of Rudra (Thank god). She can't even in her dream imagine of him being somebody's. And she comes Running to him, her love, her life.

Her questions to Rudra were on the spot. She first asked what was bugging her... Why is he concerned for Laila if he doesn't really have any feelings for her? Why is he bothered by her staying in the haveli? Here Paro was not blaming Rudra for loving Laila like few RRians deduced. She was not suspecting him. It was more like she was making him realize that if everything was really over between Laila and him then there was no reason for him to feel anything for Laila, that her stay in haveli shouldn't bother him. Which means, there are still unresolved isues between Laila and him.

And Rudra jumps in with his answer, "She does bother him. Laila stay in haveli bothers him. It is not because he is concerned for Laila but for her." I got to say, Rudra was Bang On with his answer. I can see a tiny shock on Paro's face 😊. He directly says, "Her smile less face. Her anger, Her BIG FAT tears. They effect him. Make him sad." Now that was a sweet thing to say isn't it ☺️. If it had been any other man in that place then Paro or any girl would have been sure that she is indeed important to him. But we are talking about our Rudy boy here. He has the habit of showering you with care and then shout, "Who are you to question me? You don't own me" type of sentences 🤔. So Paro wanted to hear exactly what he meant by his words. What she really is to him? His wife.??? But he never gave her any right as his wife. Except for that red thread on her neck there is nothing that binds him to her or her to him because he never said or showed that he was committed to her, that he loved or cared or felt something or anything for her. Was it all just a obligation to him?

Paro didn't want to be the type to, feel insecure for her husbands past fling, feel jealous for something that happened before she entered his life, not trust her husband when he said it is over and kick Laila out knowing that her life is in danger... No way. She can't do that. She can't stoop so low. She wanted to raise above all those feelings and do the right thing by letting Laila stay. This girl has some guts I say...👏 No typical FL Bashan, Rona, ablanari card... She stood strong to what she believed in.👍🏼

Loved Dilsher today. He was a treat. He was truly acting like the head of the family in every sense. He played an awesome brother, Uncle, Father and Father in law today. 👏

I feel a bit sorry for our Rudy boy. Paro left him with no choice but to look into himself and recheck what she truly means to him. To realize how important she is to him 😳. I am sure he will come to terms with his true feelings pretty soon. What then? is the question.

This question makes me wonder what CV's are trying to do here... Are they planning on making Rudra confess and then for Paro to run away from his life in bliss 😕... What crap?😡 I understand Paro got carried away and wants to know if she truly means anything to Rudra. Any girl would be desperate enough to know her place in the life of the man she loves. Because for her, life is Rudra and if he doesn't want her in his life then what will she do? Where does she stand? I get it. But Paro is also a sensible girl. So CV's making her forget or not think about her promise to her Bolenath is a bit far fetched for her character . I hope CV's concentrate on this point a bit more real soon. I mean the prospect of Paro expecting Rudra to fall in love with her or reciprocate to her feeling is great. Her wanting to know if he will ever love her is not wrong. But when I think about her pact with god to live him for ever... It all gets confusing. I really want CV's to think more on this angle. This last para was my logical brain blabbering. So, excuse me 😛. Couldn't shut it down any further... It is heart breaking to imagine Rudra after Paro walks out on him. That too after he confesses his love... NO WAY.🤢

I hope and wish the future episodes are also like today... Mostly Laila free. Thank you CV's. And I request you to please kick Laila out of haveli soon.😆

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Posted: 11 years ago

Hi Sush- Great post👏

Shweta- Great Collage.👏

Today's episode was beautiful and I have divided it into moments.

1) Moment of Relief- The hug was a dream sequence and it was such a moment of relief. And I owe Shweta Sooji ka laddoos for predicting it to be a dream sequence.😛

2) Forthright moment- When Major tells Laila that he doesn't need her Sahara and Hamdardi.👏

3) Sneak-Peak moment- When Dillu watches everything and gets a clue as to what is going on.😛

4) Helping moment- When Dillu gives money to Samrat which makes Danveer happy and this can really help Samrat's confidence.😊 Finally, he can have a future.

5) Enlightening moment- When Dillu decides to give a piece of his mind to his son.😛 Major listened for the most part and then left.

6) Sisterly moment- When Maithili senses that something is wrong and looks at her.😛

7) Cute moment- When major comes looking for tea and Maithili telling Paro Bai sa that at least he knows what kind of tea she likes, Samrat wouldn't even know about her preference.😊

8) Dad-son moment- Dillu telling Major that "Are you nuts to tell about your yourself and Laila to Paro Bai Sa"? Major's reply was fantastic when he said that he couldn't have hidden it.👏

9) Dillu's sixer moment- Do you want to stay with Paro or not? Your harkat is going to snatch away your happiness.😊

10) Showing people the right place moment- Paro Bai Sa telling Laila that she is a guest and she cannot work.😛

11) Doubtful moment- When Paro Bai Sa thought how does Laila know about this disclosure?😕

12) Major Moment- Major telling Laila to go away from the Haweli.👏

13) Privacy moment- Major finally shutting the door during their private conversation so that somebody couldn't come in.👏 His Chal was Jhakas.😛

14) Dazzling moment- When Bai Sa asked about Laila's leaving the house had anything to do with his feelings, he replied that "You are the one who matters to me" He said "Mayne woh nahi tu Rakhti Hai"

15) Incredible moment- When Major tells Paro that she hasn't smiled today and has been crying since the morning and he can't see her like this. Loved it when he held her cheek.😉 He can't bardasht the takleef.

16) Stunning moment- When Paro Bai Sa tells Major that she is just tied to him by a thread. What right does she have on him? 😛

17) Second to none moment- When Paro Bai Sa tells Maithili that whatever happened between Major and Laila is a thing of the past and it was before marriage.😛 I was taken aback by this one. She doesn't want to prove chota on this issue by digging about their past.😛

18) Awe-inspiring moment- When Paro Bai Sa says ""What is in Major's heart for me?"👏

19) Breathtaking moment- Will he give his heart to her, today, tomorrow or forever?😛

Since today's episode was all about Paro Bai Sa finding a value or place in Major's life, I chose "Place" as the acrostic.

P- Paramount (Her and Major's rishta are just tied by a thread)😛
L- Leading-edge( When she talks about having any rights on him)😛
A- Assertive ( What value does she have in his life?)😛
C- Clear-cut (She wanted to know what is in his heart for her)👏
E- Earnest ( Will he give his heart to her today, tomorrow and forever?)👏

Also there was no war of words today between KCM and Laila. Their scenes were at a minimum and the focus was really on Parud. I am still perplexed by one thing- since when did Dillu know about Major and Laila?😕 He was point blank when she came to the Haveli.

Fab acting by the leads, amazing dialogue delivery and enjoyed every part of it.

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Leesan

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Posted: 11 years ago

Very insightful and honest post ! Good job Sush ,as usual. Going to think this through , gather all my thoughts ,a few home truths, and come back later. Later!! 😉

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Posted: 11 years ago

I don't have much to say today 😆

It was a pleasant episode, mainly because there was no Mohini and Laila's screen-space was put to a minimum...I also loved the Dilsher-Danveer-Samrat scenes. Enjoyed the Rudra-Dilsher scene and liked how Paro confided in Maithili.

I too am confused about Paro. She has always been confident that Bholenath has destined her to be with Rudra...so now that she is questioning her place in Rudra's life...has her faith in Bholenath shattered or is she wondering that maybe Bholenath didn't destine her to be with Rudra after all? I get that she is feeling very emotional right now but how has her core belief shaken so badly?

And why she is so adamant on gaining Rudra's love and rights as his wife when she is only going to leave him soon?

Yup I'm definitely confused. 😆

Will add more later if I have any thoughts...

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Posted: 11 years ago

Hi Sush, thanks for posting...very honest thoughts like someone else mentioned...I did not think you were going to post today. I was not planning on writing anything but I have a few questions.

My initial reaction to what Paro was saying was 😳 it made some sense by the end, sort of... I guess Paro despite saying all those things is jealous...come on Paro admit it, a tiny winy twinge of jealousy has to be there. She raised a very valid point by the end, leaving the Major Saab stunned as well as the audience agreeing, nevermind she confuses you in typical Paro fashion first up😆 Paro always ends up saying the right things... somehow.

Only if Paro would answer, why does she ask that question now? And not earlier...come on admit it, it's got everything to do with emotions triggered due to Laila's truth. You might say a hundred things, but this one truth has forced you to question, whether this marriage is real, will it ever be...was it ever!? She has doubts,...that faith of earlier shaken greatly... her doubts and insecurity are now magnified by that farce of wedding they had. He was drunk, and said all those things he did... was I living in a bubble all these days? Paro has been forced to question... Forget the damn tea major, you r not getting any if that's all I'm too you, a tea making machine - she seems to saying😆 Rattled! Is what comes to mind. Shaken and stirred, so aptly titled. When that happens, you react emotionally.

But then I want to ask her, what is the use of figuring these things out, making him realize or accept what she means to him...what this marriage means and whether is has any significance in his life...when she intends to leave him once he gets better?

Let me edit and add here more as an after thought, Paro is in all possibility trying to stay away from thinking about this because, she simply does not want to go through with it, she will deal with it only when the time comes... It won't be an easy one. I suspect, we may begin to understand her better, when we keep this question aside. She has not been shown to be thinking about this at all since her return from the hospital, either she is running away from it, till she can run away no more or the makers are 🤔

That aside, it appears that Paro will finally get a new mangalsutra finally.

KCM went on a break. Possibly to pacify Sumer. Hopefully it was to Jaipur so she will stay a week at the least.

BapuSa got a hair cut between his talk to the jungleee son and before Paro brought him that half-cup cold tea. May be. But looked like it, I only saw the episode once.

Rudra has no idea he is investing in Samrat's new business.

Because Paro thinks, Major brought her home to rescue from the Thakur back then, she is under the impression that that's how he rescues all women facing Thakur's threat.🤪No BaisSa , there is a proper way BSD do this, just send Laila there, she will be much safer. And so will you.

Major saab has no clue, the price of bringing back that elusive smile and the twinkle back in those eyes will cost him those 8 vows.

ps. Shweta. Greatwork with the collages, I hope the tutorials were of some use. We will find out now

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-Sush-

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Posted: 11 years ago

Originally posted by: Zeeliciousxo
I don't have much to say today 😆

It was a pleasant episode, mainly because there was no Mohini and Laila's screen-space was put to a minimum...I also loved the Dilsher-Danveer-Samrat scenes. Enjoyed the Rudra-Dilsher scene and liked how Paro confided in Maithili.

I too am confused about Paro. She has always been confident that Bholenath has destined her to be with Rudra...so now that she is questioning her place in Rudra's life...has her faith in Bholenath shattered or is she wondering that maybe Bholenath didn't destine her to be with Rudra after all? I get that she is feeling very emotional right now but how has her core belief shaken so badly?

And why she is so adamant on gaining Rudra's love and rights as his wife when she is only going to leave him soon?

Yup I'm definitely confused. 😆

Will add more later if I have any thoughts...

Simple answer...She is just reacting emotionally Z! Not planning this in light of everything else...and her eventual promise...Everything she has done so far...including the promise to leave him ...is because he is Shiv and she is Parvati...The new reality...has shaken the fundamental assumptions on all that...what if SHE IS NOT THE ONE?

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Posted: 11 years ago

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Sush ,

I have read your post several times to understand Paro 😆 You have done an extraordinary job it's me ,I have a disconnect with the character ...Please forgive me don't want to say something which I may have to swallow tomorrow 😆 Taking a rain check ...will definitely put my thoughts down once this drama unfolds .

The quote I am posting is very dear to me ...have used this in several of my write up's when I worked with abused kids ...Sorry a little emotional maafi ...

"Usually adult males who are unable to make emotional connections with the women they choose to be intimate with are frozen in time, unable to allow themselves to love for fear that the loved one will abandon them. If the first woman they passionately loved, the mother, was not true to her bond of love, then how can they trust that their partner will be true to love. Often in their adult relationships these men act out again and again to test their partner's love. While the rejected adolescent boy imagines that he can no longer receive his mother's love because he is not worthy, as a grown man he may act out in ways that are unworthy and yet demand of the woman in his life that she offer him unconditional love. This testing does not heal the wound of the past, it merely reenacts it, for ultimately the woman will become weary of being tested and end the relationship, thus reenacting the abandonment. This drama confirms for many men that they cannot put their trust in love. They decide that it is better to put their faith in being powerful, in being dominant."

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