its important, peep in

all I can do is, be sad, cry and be sad and cry
the cycle is not ending
I am not able to think or concentrate on anything,
and trust me its not helping,

I listen to songs realted to my mood 24*7, which basically depended on the show till yesterday.
now its just sad breakup stuff, that keeps me going.
I listen and I cry. nothing else,

it is so freaking sad, I can not imagine anyting right now, it hurts the most and the songs srent helping me,

I heard tu ni na jaane, from azhar,
it reminds of twinj and their happy momnets, the gf bf thing, the funny fights, the cute momennts, theis almost kisses, their secret romance, their everything

heard tum bin jiya kaye kaise
it reminds me of the post sepeartion track after monu's coma and their slight hope pf getting back together

hearing anysong makes me go back and remember them.
I talk to by best friends, and they remind me of sidmin, the way I used to gush about them and fangirl all the time, I walk into my room, only to remember my sleepless nights I spent writing about them, yes I write at night, that's my time, for those who didn't know that.
I pick up my phone only to keep it back, it reminds me of the numourous folders I have of sidmin and twinj pics, collections, quotes made for them
I walk to my dining table, only to remember the sibling times, when my small borther would make fun of my for falling in love with a tv character and an actor who dosent even knowme
I walk to my mum's room and the blank tv screen stares back at me, my defeated reflection looking back at my face, remembering all the happy evenings I rushed to watch another episode of tei
I cant glance a clock or watch, cuz that's reminds of of my impatientce of watching tei, trying to kill time to get to 8 o clock, to meet by beloveds
I think that its time to go for the coaching class abd I remember, how once my chem techer, said a sentence that jad the word sidhant and I was blushing and smiling, trying to control my happiness, and not get caught.
I listen to songs, and remember how every song has a memory of them, as I imagine them in ech and every happy scenario possible,
I log in to see my username, queen, derived from siyappa queen, my hands show the little crown I made as a temporary tattoo, that reminds me of queen
I am a hopeless romantic, and it doesn't help eother., a hopeless romantic is in love with the idea od love, and I am just the same, 24*7 my mind ran into circles of twinj and sidmin, and trust me, it dosnt help with having nothing to think about
my mind is not working, I am not working, my laptop screen shows back my tears, my wet sticky cheeks showcase my crying sessions, my desktop wallpaper doesn't help, my folders don't work, thinking doesn't work, hoping dosnt work, nothing works,

what should I do now ?

Same here sakshi everything reminds me of twinj. Twinj defines love and perfection which is only due to sidmin. No sidmin, no twinj.

Originally posted by: tikit

Same here sakshi everything reminds me of twinj. Twinj defines love and perfection which is only due to sidmin. No sidmin, no twinj.

what should I do ?
it hurts yaar, hurts so much

Idk sakshi. I think i am obsessed with sidmin and twinj.

I'm so sorry dear, I can totally understand how you're feeling. I started having sleepless nights. I just hate myself for being so attached to this show. I keep telling myself that it's not real, but I just can't help it.

Guys take some time.

A big virtual hug to you Sakshi. I get where you are coming from if this had happened a few months ago I would have been devastated. Twinj had become such a significant part of my life. I used to get up and have breakfast while watching the show. Afterwards I used to check the forum. I have written so many os, ss and ff on them then recently I began to loose interest in the show. I simply moved on and some time later you will too. At the end of the day its just a show so don't make your life miserable because