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Part 10
A/N- hi all so here is the next part. No words to be exchanged but just a request 3 replies minimum for my 6 hours. I will continue the Story.
Laksh POV-
9 am ..in the mrng.
I lye over ragini . Here soft body is all pressed under my masculine frame. We heard the call Bell.
I tried getting up but my body wasn't supporting the brain. I fall again on the bed n slept.
I don't know after what time I heard the call Bell again, idk it's 5 minutes 5 seconds n hours or what but this time I mange to get up. Wore my trousers n searched for my shirt .
Ahh It is crushed under ragini.
L- ragini listen pls give me my shirt.
R- nope I need it.
L- but y . Pls...
R- I need it. It is so lose n light to relax in.
The call Bell again rang.
L- ragini pls. How will I open the door.
She turned to me n slightly opened her eyes.
R- see Mr Bose u have ur trousers so go n open the door
L- but.
R- arey it must be Rupesh with milk n newspaper or laundry. Pls Na.
N saying this she hide my shirt more under her.
The call Bell rang again.
L- COMING .. I shouted n tried to get my shirt once again.
R- kya h laksh go hell I won't give u the shirt go n open the door.
L- pls ragini.
She turned to me n showed her tongue.
L- pls ragu I love u baby.
But she is her ownself ...
I moved to the Almera to take a new shirt.
"RAGINI" .. I couldn't help but shouted loud enough.
R- what.
L- my shirts...
R- I like u shirtless Mr. Hotty. (Winks)
L-
She wore my shirt n slept.
A left a deep sigh. Uff.. what else could I do. I walked n without thinking much I opned the door...
"Aaahhh... " Someone , probably my visitors shouted completely taking away my sleep.
I opened my eyes more properly, as soon as my vision cleared more I saw oooppsss...
Okay at an instant I shut my door n ran Inside.
Embarrassing was that , my sister n sanskaar saw me shirtless.
L- ragini.. seriously tell where r my shirts.
R- bed k neeche.
L- what.
She shrugged her shoulders.
Uff this girl. I took my shirts.
L- swara n sanskaar r here.
R-(wide eyes) oh shit I just forgot.
L- me too..get ready asap.
I closed the door behind me n unblocked the enterance to let them enter.
L- swara woh.. I am sorry baccha. Woh.
She smiled naughty at me. When I kept playing with my fingers.
Sw- its okay Bhai. Ab kya Karen Bhabhi bhi is with u .. toh phir how can Bhai control his emotions. Koi Na I don't mind it.
L- swara ki bacchi..
I ran behind her.
Sw- ah.. sanskaar...
She hid behind sanskaar.
Yeah he is on my side he caught her arm n then I held her ear.
Sw- Sanskaar u cheater.
Sa- Han first give me my chocolates back.
Sw- oho woh toh Mene raat ko hi kha li ..
Sa- enjoy...
Sw- Aah.. Bhai sorry na ..
L- oho no sorry worry Madam (holding her ear) what did u say I am a desperate man Han..
Sw- sort of. .. Aah.. Bhai it's paining.
I hardly could have got hold of my naughty sister when ragini came n I lost my hold on her ear.
R- Laksh. Kya kar rahe ho.
She held her shoulders.
Ragini looked angelic in her pink anarkali suit. Her hair were wet. Water dripping from them made her dress wet. I was lost in her face.
Sw- Bhabhi raat ko apki machaar ne kata kya.
R- (confused)- nahi kyun.
Sw- kuch nahi I thought ki neck p machar hoga .
She pointed to a love bite on ragini's neck. Uggh.. this girl will never leave a chance to embarrass us.
L- swara..
Sw- okay okay Bhai now if u both will get ready toh shall we talk.
L- coming soon siso.
I left for the washroom.
Sa- swara I shall go mom wants to visit temple oky I will come at lunch.
Sw- par Sanskaar... Hmm okay no worries u go I will wait.
I heard them talk. N then swara was busy with Ragini.
I could do nothing but smile. Finally swara was back.
Hmm..
I came back Ragini n swara were waiting for me with tea n snacks.
L- so swara.
Sw- Bhai mom n dad did they agree .
L- no .. do u think they will do that this soon.
Sw- n Bhabhi ur dad.
R- dad is fine now , he is okay ki laksh is settled u know a bit more.
Sw- then Bhai I seriously feel don't wait y don't u both get married.
L- but mom n dad , what about them.
Sw- Bhai u wait u talk to them today wese toh i Don't think they will but still if u want to then go ahead today let's give it a last try.
L-hmm
I called mom n dad we were on a vedio chat.
My mom she saw swara after long , probably first time after she threw her out of the house. I saw swara her eyes had moisture.
Sw- mom.
Mom- don't call me mom , what r u upto now Han I don't even want to see ur face because of u we r begin humilated by the society. How r u n ur lover btw. Roaming with some new guy I heard.
Sw- mom he is just friend.
Mom- I know what type of friends. bol laksh say what u want to say.
L- mom pls me n ragini think about it once pls.
Mom- shut up. Laksh enough is enough. This girl this witch. She filed ur n swara's mind with divorce crap.
L- mom .. (a bit louder) she have helped ur daughter escape that hell.
Mom- thoda adjustment karna padta h life mein swara could have adjusted. Rajat was guilty when he talked to us the last time.
L- yea we could see that.
Sw- (irritated) mom can u stop that topic pls. I can we concentrate on laksh Bhai n ragini's wedding.
Mom- y u want this witch to marry laksh she broke ur marriage.
Sw- MOM JUST STOP IT... plss... She had helped not like u who threw me out.
Mom- y should I stop n ragini have some shame u girl. U broke my daughter's marriage now u want to marry my son , y can't u go away.
I could see Ragini's eyes filled with tears.
swa-Lak- MOM...
L- mom not a word more for my sister or Ragini.
Mom- what is she to u. Han I stranger.
L- not a stranger my best friend my first love n I want to marry her . What else u want to know.
Sw- let it be Bhai mom won't understand what is love. For her it's mere 2 day attraction.
Mom- SHUT UP. U characterless girl. Dare u speak in b/w me.n my son.
Sw- (eyes welding up with tears)- mom tell me one thing yes or no for the marriage.
Mom- no I won't agree ... Do as ur wish.
Swara stood up.
Sw- fine thank u so much for this freedom. Love u loads. (Sarcastically)
She shut the laptop.
Sw- Bhai seriously tell u marry Bhabhi because these people r not even concern.
L- swara.. listen to me.
Sw- Bhai u be with Ragini . I am okay..
Me n ragini exchanged galnces. Tears were clearly visible in her eyes.
R- Laksh go to swara Na pls.
Idk what should I do , I called sanskaar , neither could i leave ragini nor swara..
He said he will see to it.
Ragini her eyes turned red holding her tears. I engulfed her in a hug. She broke down. Idk y she is till with me. My mother has not for even once respected her.
Swara POV-
Mom, I her after a long time. I couldn't help but moisture formed in my eyes. My ears had a soothing effect with her voice n eyes felt relived, same as the dry field which received rain after long. Afterall who can hate their mother. But the next moment all my feelings reversed. I regretted contacting her again. It was hurting, her each word pierced my heart. All those dark memories accumulated back in mind. Rajat , his torture, those haunting n8s, those dreadful days, God knows how I managed to survive them. N then Her harsh words, she throwing me out out, the way she widrew her support. Every past memory haunts me again. I want to forget them, madly n badly. I want to move on, I want people to talk about my present n future, not about my past.
Is it wrong to have a male best friend. Am I characterless if I talk to sanskaar after my divorce. What am I expected to do . Should I sit in a corner n cry over my past. My haunting past, which only have bruises, which caused pain.
Don't I have a r8 to move on N stay Happy. Should'nt I try to set things r8.
I am moving out. Idk where n y, but I really want some peace.
Sanskaar POV-
Ahh.. finally she is here I could see her In a park. Her face burried under her pams. Her body shaking terribly, may be she is too hurt n crying. I ran to her.
Sa- swara...
She lifted her face. It looked pale n drained.
Sw- Sanskaar..kuch kam tha.
Sa- nope u come with me.
Sw- where
Sa- do u trust me.
Sw- yes . More than I trust myself.
Sa-. Come now
I held her hand. We sat in my car n left. I am driving the car. The road is now empty. A highway. She is looking out of the window. Her eyes a bit swollen nose sightly red, yet she looked cute.
She is now calm, it's the correct time to ask her.
Sa- swara
Sw- bolo
Sa- now tell me what happened.
Her eyes filled with water again.
I parked the car on a side.
Sw- Sanskaar nothing like that.
Sa- great challo now I am sure I Am not a friend at all.
Sw- Sanskaar pls don't say like this.
Sa- then .
Sw- okay.
She narrated me Every thing.
Sw- Sanskaar I was so happy but u only tell is our friendship wrong. Am I spoiling ur life. Am I tained. Am I characterless if u n me r best friends.
Sa- swara it's nothing like that. Just forget this all. Let them say what they want n u just keep doing what u want. Its ur life decisions should be all urs. Just stay calm.
Sw- what calm yrr. I hate it. I hate it when she calls Bhabhi a witch. I hate it when my brother suffers because of me. I hate Myself. I just don't know I am here increasing everyone's problems. I hate myself.
She held her hair.
Sa- shut up swara what r u saying.
I said. N could not help cupping her face.
Sa-swara nothing is ur falt. Don't hate urself pls u r born to be loved.
I could see tears twinkle in her eyes. I removed my hands. N held the steering.
Sw- Sanskaar.
She spoke after a silence of few seconds.
Sa-bolo
Sw- do you still love me.
I didn't know what to answer. Losing her again would be unbearable. I won't be able to handle another separation. I took a deep breath soothing my mind. N thinking I once before I babbled my real feelings out. Before this oozing love from my broken heart mix like sugar in the crystal clear water of my feelings. Before I spill the sweet poison for my own self. I halted n then spoke up again.
Sa- yes I do. I love you swara...
I turned to her diving deep into the ocean of her eyes.
Sa- BUT as a friend. U r my best friend. N I love u okay.
Her eyes showed mixed feelings. I couldn't read them. They were confused, n were confusing me. What shall I understand.
But then she smiled at me. Still mysterious yet quite soothing. I am sure I didn't fail to chose the r8 words this time. Alas they aren't the exact reflection of my heart n feelings. Before my eyes spill the beans I broke the eye lock n again started driving. We exchanged no words. She was constantly looking out. All I could sense from her reflection was some disappointment, sadness, they showed she was hurt.
Was she hurt because of me. No i think must because her convo with her mother.
I dropped her home. She flashed a smile. I did the same she turned n moved away. Like always she didn't turn to see me again. But today she walked straight inside. Neither she turned nor looked at me.
I really didn't like it. Y she didn't turn n smiled again, y we didn't continue to exchange words after my fake confession. Was she hurt. Did I hurt her. Does she love me. Or am I overthinking.
Overthinking is the best option to go for. N so shrugging all my thoughts I moved back to my place.
Swara POV-.
Chocked, blocked, filled up. I feel like this only. I didn't know y n how am I so stupid to ask sanskaar such a question. What he might be thinking. May be now he will also think I am characterless or have lust over him.
No it's not lust, but still I am hurt. I had no guts to look back at him, idk y but I can't just face him idk y it required some more courage. I simply closed the door behind me n sat on the floor. I rubbed my fingers with the tumbs. I held his hand when he had cupped my face. I moved my hands close to my nose. As if his hands were rose petals whose fragrance I have extracted by rubbing them n inhaled his fragrance.
Idk y tears made their way out of my eyes. My cheeks felt burning sensation due to continuous wetness but it was less than burning and Pain in my heart.
His words stabbed my heart. Was it because I was quite too over confident that he loves me.or is it my ego. or is it something else. May be a heart break . No i .. I .. I can't fall in love. No.. it isn't possible. What is happening to me is strange. Last few years not even a single day have passed when I didn't thought about him. Be it my marriage. Be it all the time I was with Rajat. When he Beated me , I wanted sanskaar to come out of nowhere n save me. When I cried in pain I felt I needed him by my side. When I was afraid I wanted him close to me, he gave me strength. He is 24*7 in my mind. I can never stop thinking about him. He is subconsciously there, stuck in my mind from day one. I was nervous in my interview but then I imagined his face it took away all the other thoughts. Just his face, his smile n my mind was calm.
No.. now I actually feel he is r8. I don't deserve his love and care. I hurted him. I broke his heart. I insulted him n now what was I expecting. He has to move on in his life, he deserves happiness,he deserves to love the one who is actually worthy of his love,who will respect his feelings.
Idk y I cannot imagine him with someone else. No it hurts. Idk y .. this unknown feeling kills me. I hate it.
I hate myself. I am sooo confused. I hate myself I am always messed up. Now in a mess of feelings once again.
Swara POV-ends
She slept on the floor next to the door. The chill from the floor captivated her body. Slowly she shivered in fever. Her lips turned blue, tears left marks on her face. She after an hour or so lost her conscious.
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