Thank you smrth, vaishali and arshi for the warm welcome... Name was taken on without thought, never much expected to make home here on the forum, but the current richness of the show is such, compounded by the excellent discussions here, have made this CB an integral part of my SC experience. Hence, any variation of such will suffice =)
@smrh Let me indeed concede that 'ego' perhaps is an oversimplification. However, tending to strip to the lowest common denominator helps me get a grasp of the larger picture. I find it more enriching to look forward from an ant's view. It dwarfs me, sure, but it also lights my fires =) At the same, I do not reduce ego to colloquialisms such as "ghamand"... At this juncture I must state, that coming to the show blind, without having the benefit of reading the novel or watching the movie, my foreknowledge of SC was provided by a very moving narration of the novel by an old Gujrati gentleman. Operative word here, affect. I thus came in blind but not cold, my heartstrings were already tugged... But my Kumud is Jennifer Winget, and her acting graph, IMHO, has not exactly been consistent. Verily in the past months, I found myself dissasociating with the character and looking at the actor, at her rumored limitations. Her romantic scenes (excepting one or two) did not convince me... The Grah Pravesh scene of the last, I felt, had more charge than the Kharkhana parting of the two. Again, affect rears its head. Thus for me, Kumud was always seeming to hold back, even the night she submitted, the morning-after, she regretted. For whatever reasons. And did not step forward, till she recieved validation. Morever, her resignation is always accompanied with resolve, and her dignity, cannot be dissassociated from her family's izzat. I have always felt that she is much too strong for her own good... A contrast to Saraswati, from whose payal, now Kumud gathers strength. Ego... Would be more a wilfulness to her, a sense of identity a la Freud, Jung, Lacan... By proposing thus, I do not dismiss, but I submit. To perhaps a greater exploration, that I hope now the show will pursue... It will be a folly to put Kumud in a box so soon. She has much growing to do and that phase has only just started. Or even, to start building her. However, it also wouldn't hurt to start gathering the probable building blocks... Those that will not be used, can always be thrown out later. That is the beauty of making a claim to subjectivity =)
Last I must add that with Jennifer uninhibitedly living Kumud now... That dissasociation has all but faded. Verily, they are one and the experience is all the more immersive. However, that affective gap of earlier, on a strictly analytical level, will also contribute to the eventual building of Kumud in my mind's eye... For those moments were the formative building blocks of the Saras-Kumud equation, and those dynamics, the way they were played against each other, have everything to do in regards to where the two stand now. At crossroads, and actually facing each other. Though they will be the last to know that.
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