Aaaaaaaaaaaah so u talking abt double faces huh...seriously...heights of HYPOCRACY...do u even know wat being a double face is like...i knoow its NOG BIG DEAL for you coz thats wat u have been wid me wid everyone...if i start revealing the many facets of your personality na then i swear rf's pages wld end but still i wld have something to say about your lowness..being down right honest about wat u think and feel no matter wat people think or say is being double faced right...?...well i agree in your books EXACTLY this thing is undiegestable coz U can pretend and fake to any extent to get your things done..by god...atleast i don't use sacred words like "i love you" to someone and then go to someone else and call her names like B"""Ch...and then again next day come to this same person u have so adorably called a b"itch and give her an i love u huggy...Haaaaaa....,u used such a pure relationship as friendship for such cheap things...i mean shit i like a fool was busy loving you thinking dis to be a damm special bond becoz it was nurtured by conquering hatered...but blllllllllah....all that time wen u "pretended" to be my loveable "friend" u were busy hating me coniving against me...shit man shit..and then u have the guts to talk abt me doing things "behind ur back".Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...i dnt need to do anything BEHIND ANYONE'S BACK i have the guts to say watever i want to OPENLY....i dnt need secrate pms or fake ids blahs to be ME...I have seen all those pms i wish i could quote them here but i can't coz those were your pm exchanges wid someone who means more than life to meee..but she showed me every single one of your fakeness eveyr single lie of yours...and she did that only and only to make me believe thats I didn't fail u or i didn't fail a friendship..THERE WAS NOTHING CALLED FRIENDSHIP to begiiiiiiiiiin wid..u just used me in the most brutal possible way...u knewww that i can be blinded wen i love someone and thats were u decided to hit...all d time after that VM issue i was busy being depressed that shit i failed her i failed her...my fot i failed youuuuuuuuuu...u bloody dnt deserve to be called a FRIEND...
and wat did u say in the pm..that u used to talk to others abt me wen u were angry at me...it was same ways like i talked to u abt some of my friends...HAAAAA..u forgot one thing honey that at that time wen i talked to u abt this very special friend of mine...at that point i time my and her relationship was OVER....i would have never neverrrrrrrrrr betrayed her had i still been friends wid her...there was nothin btw us then apart from huge amt of dislike and regret..and i told u abt dose secrates coz i thought that atleast U deserve the truth coz i felt as if i was cheating wid you by not being fully honest wid u..
and my oh my didn't u enjoy all that...u actuallly never stopped from adding fuel to my dislike over this person...i mean woooow seriously hats off to your plotting schemeing brain..it all had it planned na...thats y d only person u bashed infront of me was dis perrson i disliked..u always said oh i dnt hate Nitzie or Halshu....i just hate THIS ONE PERSON..coz dammmmmm u knew na i wld never be able to trust u blindly if u even felt something close to even dislike for Nappy?...thats y u never talked crass abt her to me...and d day wen i saw proofs of all the names u had used for Nappy and all d unbelievable amount of hatered u honed for her in your oh soo secrate pms I WAS ZAPPED out of my minnnnnnnnnd....daat day i finally realized your fool proof plans...and still even today u have d guts to say "i dnt hate the topic starter"....Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....seriously man who d hell r u trying to fool here....believe me by now I know every single face that u possibly can wearrrrrrrrr..thank god i just have one shade to live wid..it wld be such a task na to keep shifitng faces..iske samne i have to wear dis pink face...uske samne i have to wear dis blue one....u think your unreal ideantity did all this..no sweetheart NO..get out of your beauty sleep...its YOUR UNREAL PERSONALITY.which did it ...i mean till date we r shocked on the extent to which u lied....
and so you bringing old ghosts in again huh by mentioning the things i said abt Shweta in dmg forum....aaah...but u missed giving all d detials didn't u honey...or has your memory too got loaded wid filth?...how cld u forget to wrie that i DELTED that whole thing even though i MEANT and still MEAN each and every word i wrote...but still i delted d whole dammed thing..coz just one thought came to my mind..YOU...and i delted that thing thinking that me voicing my opinion abt shweta is not imp but me not hurting u IS..but wat did u do huh ?..quoted soemone else who had quoted me before deleting i cld delte it...and then bashing meeeeeee and our friendship openly...?...i mean seriously wid u it was u wld anyday choose to be wid shweta than be my friend......if ever i end up writing a book on hypcracy na then believe me so so believe me i would give u the undeserved honour of including u as the biggest illucidating example... but then i think i wld rather save u for someone who might want to write a book on "infinite ways how to cheat in friendship".....i mean shit man there
happens to be a bloody bomb blast in d same town d same metro station your so called friend travels to daily...and u dnt even have feelings antoh door ki baat hai u toh didnt even have the curtsey to pm her once and ask if shes fine...?...and after two three months of dincedent u cme and apologize to her saying U WEREN''T AWARE. THAT THERE OCCURED A BOMB BLAST IN THE DAMMED COUNTRY..that u hadn't been reading papers or watching tv..AND HAHAHA...u didn't miss mentioning..EXCEPT ZARA NACH KE DIKHA AND BALIKA VADHU..and then u adde but aah u r always in my prayersssss...blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah....honestly did u REALLY ACTUALLY expected me to buy that lie of yours...u reallly have to be a nerddddd if u did...that pm of urs finallly finallly made me relize how chepa u actually were...the dya wen d blast happend u were online happyly posting rubbish in ur dammed kashti and obviously reading each and every word of concern and worry that was posted in ayls regarding all the Delhi people's safety..but u couldn't just couldn't bring yourself to pm me once...do u know wat it did to me...it finally made me realize that i was waiting in vain till daat day i waited for u to somehow cme back. ki shayad we might work a way out...
but den i knew it was over and that BROKE ME shattereddddddd me am very proude of my relationships am very very proudeeeee of friendship and i just cant stand failed relationships it leaves a scar on me my very soullll no failure for me can ever be bigger than a failed relationship...
d prob was dis that all d while u were busy faking and i was busy making u a part and parcel of my lifeeeeee and mind u not jus my online life my real life too..for u there might be diff betwene your friends here and your friends in d real world..but honey for em deres no dif..wen i love i just loveeeee..
i knew u wld be using my past deeds as a weapon to defend wat u did here...but sweetheart I have grown from it..moved on from it...wid lessons well learnt...dere is no point in resurrecting the past..coz belive me i dnt need a U to tell me wat and where i was wrong..Present is wat i believe in..and that is y i sended u that pm...becoooooooooooooz u know what honey?...controry to your inflated belief that i was busy hating u I was actually busy being broken and hurt........coz of this dammed experiance wid u i had started doubting the words LOVE and FRIENDSHIP i couldn' t truuuuuuust even my closessssssssssst of friendssss...couldn't believe anyone who said she loved me i couldn't belive that anyone cld love me widout any dammed reason coz helllllllllllllllllllll u made me doubt even this fact ki u dnt need any f""kg reason to LOVE..i disrepsetced my friends coz of u by not trusting their love for me....it was killing me..i was unable to move on from your betrayal...and i just wanted to forget u as a bad bad experiance...but then feleing bad abt it all somewhere made me fele bad abt the word LOVE..and that is wat was killing me...thats y i sended u that pm...takii i can finally finallly get over all d hurt all the heart break u caused...but i guess BHAGGU doesn't want me to EVER EVER FORGET U...he wants me to remembr u always and NEVER forget the lessons i learnt via u...AND THAT IS TO NEVER NEVER no matter wat doubt yourself or to be blinded wid love....i almost lost a very special friend coz of u i lost my self faith coz of u...and i had one of my worst phases of life wen u were busy being happy giving me your silent treatment...i could have till date gone on thinking that I was wrong i hurted u over that vm thing and i wld have gone on blaming our failed friendship on me...i wld have gone on hatingggggg me...wld have gone on doubting my own love and friendship fundas...had i not come face to face wid ur reality...and am so dammed thankfull to god that somehow he found a way to show me your REAL FACE...Funny na the blend of irony...?...u r busy crying over wat names i called your dahling tia...and i was busy trying to forget the fact that u bloody faked all your so called love for me....I know am capable of overcoming hatered for anyone ANYONE..d fact that i loved you MADLY is proof enough.my hatered for tia had faded away coz i though in u i had found another new friendship and that time i genuinely felt proude abt it..i still am..coz i know atleaste i loved wid all my heart and wid all the purity....but do sit back and ask yourslef one single quesiton r u capable of being a friend?...i certainly don't think so.....u had the audacity to blame me for wat crossed btw u and your so called "closest freind"...but tell me did u ever had the sheer guts to sit for a moment and look into your own self and ponder over the fact that why or how could your APPARENTLY "closest friend" who had been your friend for 1-2 yrs..how could she widin mere TWO chats wid me FLUSH litrallly FLUSH u out of her lifeeee...??...I mean u stopped existing for her widin a span of an EYE BLINK...and since then all she had been trying to do is anyhow any dammed how convince me that U r not worth our love..infact u don't even deserve our hatered...all u deserve from our side is sheer INDIFFFERANCE...u know wat?....try talking to any of MY friends abt ME...which by d way u already did try once and its thanx to that dismal attempt of yours that all this HAPPEND in d first place....but seriously just try talking to any of my friends abt me...and then i dunno if u wld have your mouth free to come and utter another crass word...coz a single word abt me to them wld make them stuck a full blown up bag of your dahling tia's precious make up..THIS IS WAT FRIENDSHIP IS...so before blaming me for your failures have the guts to first accept the fact that yeah u actually did Fail...atleast that wld be a start...
and yes plz feel free to talk anything u want to or voice any opinion of yours in any which ways...But...refrain from coming to OUR topics coz WE certainly don't want u here...i never bashed your dahling tia in your topics..ATLEAST not in the PRESENT..dnt bother mentiong my past deeds....i pretty well know where their marks lay... i NEVER asked u not to voice your real opinion..infact just the fact that u cant be HONEST abt it makes me want to run a hundred miles away form u and your lies....so yah bash ashi/priya in whichever way u want to...coz honey u really need to get out of the dellussion that your views on Ashi/Priya wld any which way irk me or make me feel bad abt them..my love for ashi and priya isn't testymony to wat ANYONE ANY DAMMED ONE MIGHT FEEL FOR THEM..AND CERTAINLY its not testymony to wat U feel for them...so plz plz do that if not for anything or anyone else then only to get yourslef a much needed realioity check..plus it wld save u some energy from carving little less of lies....
and oh so U DO have a life outside IF do u...?...guess its not keeping u interested enough..eklse u won't be finding new ways of brewing fights in here...but yeah u do very BADLY need to GET A LFIE..if u can live in this inflated belief that YOUR opinion would in any which way matter to me or anyone of us..But your PRESANCE in our topics do MATTER thanx to your superbly negetive aura which just kills the joviale mood..and no don't give me your crap that this is an OPEN forum...the forum might be open but the topic isn't the topic exists coz someone took d pains to create it...and its the topic starter's prerorgative whether to want someone there or NOT... and believe me from now on for people like U we would start using signs as dey do to keep strays at bay..that so and so..NOT ALLOWED...!
And oh by d way d PS idea was DAMM GOOD huh...seriously u r a geniusss in playing mind games...throwing me a challenge of attmpting to ignore your loveable comment so that u can escape widout being stained...BRILLIANT yaar absolutely BRILLIANT.....u know my friends always sused to tell me never give her the pleasure of knowing that she broke u dis badly...but aah i guess u were destined to have dis pleasure...else u wld be busy being captured in your beautyful picture perfect image...Yeah u did badly shatter me..but am proude of myself and all allllllll my friends who helped me rebuild my own self...and let me do a big big "TOUCH WOOD"😉 to that....
Anways i guess this is it...this DEFINATLY is a closure for me...Goodbye honey...and even after all dis i still wish u nothing but a happy peaceful life..and i do wish that someday u might learn not to use pure feelings words like love and friendship widout actually dil se meaning them....hoping that i never never end up talking to u or anyone even remotely linked wid u EVER AGAIN..and to that i wld definatly say a wishful "AMEN"😉
PS...dung DO NOT delte this post of mine it wld certainly help few people get a reality check now and then...but if u want u can lock d topic..am sorry guys...naps..ashi...halsh...i know dis topic was beautyful..i know u guys wouldn't have wanted me to reply but i just this one time badly wanted to follow my heart coz someone was escpaing by throwing her filth on me...but promise me guys next time u wnt wnt even let me look at their blasted way...
Edited by FollowYourHeart - 16 years ago
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