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LOVE, it is not a mere feeling to be only expressed in words, it is a blissful feeling that one feels, lives through and transforms himself withing the process. His actions, submission, protection , fear, his every emotion interconnects with this one deep emotion ( love) he felt and only for the one girl, whose smile thrives life into his helpless soul. Yes that is Rudra, his love is a bliss, that can be watched, explored, and felt for, the intensity and passion his love holds has no end and no competition.
Wont say much about Paro, but yes claiming once again that may be Rudra feels for laila and once again bluntly telling him that he probably does not want he rin his life, thats was what i expected from her. she did not shock me at all, very much in character, and just made my justification for Rudra more strong.
Stuck in a situation of being doubtful in his wife's eyes, being guilty in his own eyes, what he could still think about is how he needed to bring her smile back. The smile that automatically lightens up his eyes, softens his gestures, makes him feel blessed, the smile that gives him a hope that yes she is there with him, the smile that enlightens his moment with so much joy that he wants to gather that moment and hold it, never let it go.
Her constant caring for his medicines, his basic daily needs pierces his heart more with guilt, make shim wary about the fact that how he is yet to prove his honesty and fondness for her, but still he does not try to prove himself, he does not want to prove any point, he do not have the capacity to measure the price of her happiness, how to compare that with anything and express in words, how to mend words to explain something which has gone beyond boundaries, beyond any meaning, beyond rules and resides in his heart only with the desire of her gaining the faith in him, her gaining the happiness she felt while she stayed with him, while he cared for her.
How a mere drop of tear from her eyes, makes him yell out and stop all the arrangements he himself had made, how he urges to change the destiny of a fairytale in accord with her belief system, how he cannot bear that she cried may be because the fairytale gave her a vague and delusional knowledge about his relationship with her. How he could dare to claim that the king can still have the courage to break all his knots with the other woman, only because he wants the queen, how he did not care that there were living and moving people watching him justifying the dead end of a sad story which hinted a feud between him and his wife.
Thank You CVs, this is from a true RangRasiya fan. I do not know how to write in a sorted manner, but as i could connect to Rudra tonight and especially more towards hi feelings for Paro, it gave me this wonderful and simultaneously a sad feeling. Wonderful because, such kind of love and passion was unseen before i explored this man called Rudra Pratap Ranawat, it was a bliss to watch him twine his lips and give that subtle smile which seemed like he got his life back. Sad because, such kind of love can only be felt, lived through and hard to express, a mere " I love you " from him can ensure people that he is in love, but then thats a loss itself, because if his actions and submission for her is unseen, if the passion residing in him is not understood, how can they imagine that what is the definition of love for Rudra Pratap Ranawat . May be thats why, he himself does not know that he was capable of this, surrendering himself completely for his wife, may be thats why he still could not discover that what he feels is love and nothing less than that. Sad because, there is still a doubt that he might have feelings for someone else, and he must be unaware about it, sad because he is trying hard to explain the otherwise but everytime getting questions surrounding him making it more difficult for him.
Lastly, a secodn thanks to the writers for showing Amaan , and pointing out Tejawat's availibility near tejpur. That also brings back the BSD officer Rudra, who again stopped his witness come wife to encounter nay danger, and last but not the least a cute moment of hug between him and sunehri, and aww how naive is Rudra at showing his affection, the way he was awkward and caressed sunehri's head, lovely piece of work.
Wont say much about Paro, but yes claiming once again that may be Rudra feels for laila and once again bluntly telling him that he probably does not want he rin his life, thats was what i expected from her. she did not shock me at all, very much in character, and just made my justification for Rudra more strong.
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