Hi guys, I am coming back with an update, I know it's really short and it was supposed to be longer, but I decided to post it . I hope you will like it 😃
Chap 5
She went behind him, he was supposed to be here and to wait for her, but for a change, he was nowhere to be seen. Suddenly, she felt worried, what if Akram had hurted him again? She felt her blood boiling with anger and was ready to beat him black and blue if he dared touching him. After searching for a long time, she came back to the three where he was supposed to be, maybe he was just late and he was like her waiting for her. And as expected, she finally found him, but not alone and she froze. Leo was surrounded by some girls, anyone from far will misunderstood that he was flirting with them, she approached and she saw him giving to them some notebook. She facepalmed herself, he did their homework again, she felt fine for a second seeing him fine but aslo angry on him for many reasons, first, those girls were clearly abusing of his kindness and second, he forgot about her totally for some randoms girls, she felt to be not so important and he put her on the second place now. She was boiling with anger when she saw him grining like an idiot to them. Finally, they left and he waved at them totally mesmerized and smiling like a fool. She stood next to him her arms fold on her chest and staring at him then at them. They diseapered from the view but he kept waving in nothing.
-they were no more here, you can stop to gesticulate, she mocked him sarcastically and he just sighed dreamily.
-I am in love, he said
-really? She raised her eyebrows, to those bimbos?
-when I saw them my heart made "bim" and my mouth open in "bow", he giggled
-I was waiting for YOU for so long and worried about you, but you didn't care and you were in your world, just drooling over these brainless bimbos, I can't believe it, Leo. She said hurted.
-What? He said nonchalantly,O-K, he was not hearing at all at her complain.
-Leo, do you listen to me?
-No, I am in my dreaaam world, he tapped his heart with his eyes closed hapilly.
-FI-NE, you know WHAT, I will let you in your dreaaam world, she mimicked him, just forget about me and go to them, I don't want to talk to YOU anymore. You hear me? When she saw no reaction from him, she left, her hands closed in fist.
He was hurt and felt jealous, they spent together a private and intense moment, when he felt that she was finally looking at him like he wanted. He filled his promise to play for her and he could sense that she perceived his message but suddenly, all crushed because of this touch, who is he and how dare he touching the cheek that his hand touched? His blood boiled with anger each time, he saw this man conforting her, but it wasn't supposed to be this man but him and only him. What hurted him the most, was how she was responding to him, when she touched his wrist. Did she have feeling for him? Were they dating? Maybe he misunderstood the care for him as love, she was just nice with him and felt pity for his story. He hitted the bed in anger, maybe, this man was her boyfriend. What did he expect that she will wait for him all her life? She never confessed her love to him, if we pretended that she felt something, she didn't utter those words when they were teenagers, not even today. His mind was flashing unreal image of her in his arms and he roared in rage. He laid down on his side, growling under his beard.
-I am only her patient and nothing else, I meant nothing to her, he was hurt and a lone tear rolled along his cheek.
-May I know why you left like this? He asked her, but she didn't respond at him, she turned her back more to be out of his view, showing him clearly that she was angry. You don't want to talk to me? She kept numb. Ok. He shrugged his shoulders and went back to eat his chocolate bars. She waited for him to insist but he did nothing and he was just staying next to her, enjoying his chocolate like it was the only thing that mattere to him. She looked from the corner of her eyes but he was staring everywhere ignoring totally that she was mad, which didn't help her anger to decrease.
-Don't you see that I am angry?
-I can see
-then why don't you ask me why?
-because I know that you will not answer
-and may I know what make you SO sure?
-because you are mad at me
-then why don't you apologize?
-I'd like to apologize if I was really at fault but I am not and I don't think have done anything wrong or say something that might hurt you.
-maybe because you don't know the real reason of my anger, that why you don't feel guilty.
-or maybe I didn't do anything wrong
-then why don't you ask about the real reason?
-because you will not answer
-you will not know if you don't try
-actually, because I know you and I know how you like to be capricious when you are angry, so if I ask you the real reason, you will say: find by yourself, which going to put me in the same place where I am now. So, I am just here enjoying my chocolate, giving you the time to cool down and then to talk to me.
-I don't think you are interested to talk to me
-what make you sure about that?
-you forget me and it's clear that you don't care about me anymore
-then why you think I am here, because I lost my route and I am just confused next to you? This is ridiculous, Zed.
-YOU are ridiculous, you and your bimbos, we were supposed to meet and you were just flirting with them.
-what to do I am just the prey of my beauty
-you are just slave of your stupid hormones
-and you about your feeling and emotions,
-you really think that what I am feeling, was wrong and it was my fault, she faced him now, stunned by his replies.
-I didn't mean that, I was saying that when you are angry, you don't want to talk and you are just acting like a child, waiting for the other to come and to apologize, this is not a mature behavior to have.
-oh really? Because you think you are more mature than me
-of course, I am and I will never let my emotion over my brain, and I will not be angry for small thing, I can distinguish when it's important and when it's not. So when I will be really angry on you, I will come to speak with you and I will not sit like a child, with my hands cross on my chest and showing you clearly that I am waiting for you to apologize. I am not a kid.
Zoya opened the door but he was nowhere to be seen, she didn't know why she felt guitlty and anxious when Adam touched her cheek. The anger and pain in his eyes stabbed her heart and she wanted to remove it. He was just her patient but she didn't know why she ran quickly behind him wanting to explain urgently the situation, she was confused with herself and her need to talk to him now. She knocked the door, but he didn't reply, she was holding the heart in her hand, in case, she needed excuse for coming to his room. She felt stupid because she was his doctor and she didn't need excuse, but she felt confident holding this heart in her hands. She pushed the door and the light was still on, she sighed half-relieved half-anxious to face him. He was curving on his side without moving, she didn't know if he slept already.
-Mister Khan? She called him softly, but he didn't move or reply. Mister Khan? She was closer now, she still couldn't see if he was sleeping or not. Asad? She touched his shoulder.
-what? He said sharply without turning back
-You are awake? He hummed grumpy, then why you didn't reply when I call you?
-I am tired,
-tired to reply, seriously? She rolled her eyes, he was clearly annoyed but she didn't do anything wrong, he left without waiting for her and she was supposed to be annoyed and not him. She couldn't put the name on his behavior for the moment. Come on, I bring the heart with me, do you want to see now?
-I tell you I am tired and I don't want anymore
-why you don't want anymore?
-because I don't want
-it's not an answer, Mister Khan
-this is all I have
-are you angry?
-no
-then why don't you want to talk to me?
-I am just tired and want to sleep in peace, go to your rest room, with your friend and leave me here, all alone.
Was he jealous , she thought? She smiled soflty but was now upset with his excess rudeness.
-Can you at least look at me, when you are talking? She ordered, she can't tolerate disrespect, but he didn't move. Mister Asad Ahmed Khan, I am talking to you? She raised her voice but she was like talking to a wall, Mister Khan? Asad? But he didn't reply. Oh PER-FECT, she litfted her hands in the air, exasperated, now you will stay mute.
-yes, and in this case, I will not have to face you, he said stubbornly
-I can't believe it, you are acting like a stupid and idiot spoil child, she raised more her voice this time
-Did you have just said that I am a kid? She pointed to herself
-Yes, YOU are acting like a kid and you can't say NO, and you know that I am right
-Oh no, you are not right AT ALL, Mister-I-am-mature, we were supposed to meet and YOU, yes you, forgot about ME.
-I didn't forget, I was just late, Zed
-no, you forget about me
-I was just late
-NO, YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME
-I don't know why you are angry for a small thing
-It's not a small thing, I was worried I thought Akram hurted you and I was looking at you everywhere
-You don't need to worry about me, Ill manage Akram and his band, I did it before you entered into my life and I can manage during you absence. So, now are you ok? You are not angry on me anymore?
-Of course I am still mad at you, because you placed those persons before me and you didn't even apologize for your delay.
-for a god's sake WHY should I apologize I did nothing.
-You will never understand
-understand what, tell me?
He didn't reply to her, for sure he was acting like a child and she was right, but he was not in the mood to talk to her nicely, he wanted her just for him but it seemed that destiny put a new character in between. He was for sure acting like a spoil child, but the separation and the eagerness to be with her transformed him into a possessive person. He was not mad at her, he was just hurt, she is a beautiful woman and she should have met many men who wanted her, but still, he can't see her with another men than him. He can't look into her eyes, he didn't need to make it clear and to put himself in awkward situation.
-Look at me, she asked but he was lost in his thought, I said LOOK-AT-ME, she emphazed each of the words and he just shuddered his shoulder capriciously. OH-NO, you are not going to do this with me. She grabbed his shoulder and tried to pull him toward her, but he resisted. She climbed the bed to use her body to put pressure on his shoulders, she finally successed after much difficulties to put him on his back, he was really strong but his eyes were closed. Don't play with me like this Asad, you don't know me, I can be more stubborn than you, OPEN YOUR EYES.
He shook his head in no vigorously, and she sighed angrily. She took it personally now and she wanted to win over him. He was overeacting and she can't understand why he was acting like someone has took his candy.
-you will open your eyes by HOOK or by CROOK
-I won't and please can't you see that I am sleeping, his eyes still closed
-I am your doctor and I need to check your eyes. She made an excuse that she didn't believe herself, but he was acting like a child and she was at his level now. But as expected he laughed at her.
-what a stupid excuse, Doctor Farooqui, you can do be better than this, he teased her and he continued mocking her.
-Ok, I will show you how I can obtain everything that I want, she put both of her thumbs on his eyebrows forcing his eyelids to open, and he screamed.
-STOP IT, STOP IT, you are hurting MEEE, he pushed her both hands from his eyes, but she persisted and he moved first his face away from her and then his body, but with his brusque movement, she rolled with him and she was now under his upper body, while her legs curving on his waist. She continued her torture, totally unware about her position, she wanted to win. He managed to hold on her wrist to block her from moving. STOP-IT or I will hurt you, he warned her.
-AH AH, you? Hurting me? Boys don't hit the girls. She spat her tongue to him, he let out a mock chuckle and reply smartly.
-we are in the 22nd century and men and women are equal, so boys can hit girls
-What? Her eyes widened with his audacity
-let me show you, he mixed her hair in all the direction, rubbing them carelessly, he didn't care if she was looking sloppy and he continued while she was yelling at him asking him to stop. But for sure, she never gave up.
-YOU WILL SEE, she warned him controlling her smile and she gripped some locks pulling them ferocily and he screamed in pain.
He was enjoying playing with her and his laugh echoed in the room. First, she was shocked and screamed at him, but the more he played the more she fell to sound strict or angry, and she fell miserably to stop herself from laughing. Both were now laughing and yelling at each other like a kids.
-Did you anger cool down now? His hand crossed on his chest, looking stoically while his hair was in all mess because of her. She was breathing heavenly with her reaction, but seeing him so quiet, didn't help her to calm down.
-Not yet, she said and she continued to mix his long hair making some knots but he remained imperturbable, she continued and strangly, his quiet and calm behavior calmed her and she stopped. She sighed deeply and let her sadness evaded her.
-I am sorry, I didn't want you to be worried, he finally said what she wanted to hear
-you only say this to calm me but you are not meaning what you say, she said with a pout
-Actually, I am meaning my words Zed, and I am sorry that I didn't say them earlier.
-I was really worried Leo, she whispered
-Now, I know and I promise I didn't forget about you, I was just, he sighed, I was just lying to myself, I enjoyed having their attention, even if I know that it was fake. I take what I want during the time that they were with me.
-But Leo, they are just using you, and you know now that you don't need to do their homework, you are not given them a favor, she came closer touching his hand.
-I know, he squeezed her hand, but I want you to know that no matter how far or how late I can be, I will always find you and be next to you.
-Or I can also looked after you, you know to remind you , she pointed to his hair
-No, I prefer to find you before if I want to keep my hair safe, he slidded his hand in his hair, did you see what you did to my beautiful hair?
-I am sorry, he said when he looked at the mess that he did to her hair, both stopped their game and they were not breathing with their chest knocking against each other.
-I am sorry too, did I hurt you? She moved the hair from her face and grimaced aware that she can not be delicate when she was upset.
-It's ok, he smiled softly, please let me arrange this.
-me too
He pushed her hair from her forehead and slidded his fingers into them to unfold, and she did the same. First both were careful not to hurt the other, but then slowly, he let his hand enjoying the touch of this softness, he let his fingers travelling along her hair until their end, he continued caressing her hair and the long strands were back to normal but he didn't stop once. His eyes were also caressing her hair following the brightness of her locks.
She slidded her fingers into his hair and she found them really smooth and soft. It was something that she wished to do for a long time, touching all his hair, she always brushed the top but not all. It was really relaxing, she thought, especially, his non-stop moved along her hair, his touches sent many warm and please feeling along her body. Her eyes didn't leave his and she can see that he was appreciating too touching her...hair like she was doing to him.
-First time, I saw you, I always wanted to touch your hair, he said with a husky voice, and to smell them, he was now in the crook of her neck avoiding any contact with her skin, because if he tasted her, he might doing something worst than hiding the truth of his real personality.
She closed her eyes when he was on her neck and his hot breath against her skin played havoc in her. She didn't let any men coming so close to her but she trusted him, and this feeling scared her. Last time, she trusted someone, he broke her heart, accusing her to unfaithfull and deceitful. She wanted to push him but her hand tightened around his hair, wiping all her resolution.
-Zoya, he whispered and she moaned in response, who was this man who touched you earlier? His voice was mixed with authority and anger.
-He.., she gulped, he was playing with her sense and she felt drunk and hypnotized by his voice, he is just a friend, just a friend, she managed to say. Her brain was in alerted but her body was totally deaf to the signal that it kept sending.
-how close is he? He wanted to know, he kept playing with his hot breath on her neck and enjoying the up and down of her troath.
-are you...jealous? She finally asked and he froze, was it too obvious to her? They stared at each other deciphering the emotions of the other.
-Jealous, my foot,
-I can't believe it, you made all this scene because you were jealous? In fact, you were not worried but just jealous. And I apologize for this? You manipulated me, Zed.
-I was really worried, Leo
-yes, worried to be forgotten and that my attention was not only around you, right?
-absolutely NOT
-yes, you are, you treated them as brainless bimbos and you said that I forgot about you how you reacted strangely and looking at your impulsiveness, all of this were enough for me to come to one conclusion, you-are-jealous, J-E-A-L-O-U-S, jealous.
-First, they are just brainless bimbos, and you can't say it's not the truth, calling them by their real name doesn't constituted any proof of jealousy and secondly, you forget about our meeting, and finally, I am all the time, impulsive.
-you were jealous, why don't you recognize it? He said amused
-because it's not the truth, Leo
-I knew it
-what?
-that one day, you will be under my charm, did you see all of this? He waved to all his body, I can't blame you at all.
-I am just blaming myself for listening to such stupid explanation, she lifted her hands frustrated. You are the most frustrated guys, I have ever seen in all my life.
-and you, the biggest liar, he whined at her
-think what you want to think, I will not try to convince you
-then, it will not matter to you to see me with another girl
-at all,
-flirting with them and putting you in the second place
-I told you not at all
-then, I am going to find them, he stepped back and she turned her back to him, she felt a pinch in her heart, she didn't want him to go to them, they were only going to hurt him and be careless about he needs. They will never care about him like she cared.
-ok, then bye, he waved at her.
She wanted to stop him but she had a pride to conserve, he choose to be away from her, so she will not force him to stay. However, she couldn't hold on the sadness that evaded her heart, like all the guys, he ran after his needs and not after his loved ones, she thought he was different and that she was important for him, important for someone finally. Yes, she was jealous, possessive about this friendship, but he was special like she thought that she was for him. She didn't know why she felt jealous, it may sound weird to be jealous in friendship but this relation was based on love and it involved emotions, and jealousy wasn't enough proof of deep love for a friend too? She was taking away from her tought when he wrapped his hand around her and whispered:
-you are my best friend Zed, and I will not leave you for another girl, she smiled softly at him, now will you recognize that you were jealous? She shook her head in no, O-K, he put his chin on her shoulders, and said, no matter what your words can say, your eyes will never lie to me. She posed her temple against his and posed her hands on his, muttering: idiot.
His questions were enough explicit to express his jealousy and possessiveness toward her, he was taking back by her clear question, he thought she was under his control but he underestimated her. She was staring at him with a slight smirk and he felt exposed under her gaze and his silent was only a confirmation of her question.
-I.., he wanted to say something tangible but nothing came to his mind, he wanted to tell her how much he hated seeing this man touching her cheek and he hated from the core seeing her responding to his touch. He wanted to ask: is your boyfriend? Did he touch or explore other part of her? He closed his eyes to stop the train if his hurtfull thought.
She could see his torment in his eyes, feeling that he was fighting his own emotion. When he closed his eyes, her trance was stopped and she was finally aware of her intimate position, what if someone entered now? Before she could react, he opened his eyes and he pressed her body. She needed to go out of his grip and this was more urgent than her questions. She pressed his nose between her fingers, he jerked and rolled on his back freeing her. She finally stood up while he was rubbing his nose and he sniffed many times to remove this unpleasant sensation.
-I have to go, she rushed quickly outside his room and closed the door. Asad sighed deeply, she was against him, along his body, he can still feel her warm body and touch on him. He had never been so close to the woman that he spent all his life dreaming of, a wide smile spread on his face. Few seconds, the door opened again and it was her again.
-I forget my heart, he frowned and obvious of the double meaning of her sentence, she corrected, the plastic heart, she held on it and averted her eyes to look at him, she left as quick as she came. Asad followed her and he grinned like an idiot once she left, he loved how her cheeks reddened because of him, she never looked so beautiful and so desirable. He was proud and his insecure left him when he was sure of the effect that he had on her. He can watch her sight for his entire life without getting bored once. She was his reason of life.
Zoya stood against the door, catching her breath, what wrong with her and her heart? Why did he move in her so strong emotion that shook her to the core? He put her mind and heart upside down without warning, and the worst part was that she wanted and was asking for more and more and more of this drug. She was so addicted to him.
-stupid heart, she hushed to the plastic heart that she was holding.
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